At last ...count me in.

 Yorkshire Day, a date for celebrating everything that the largest county in England possesses. The Yorkshire Society’s mission is to make Yorkshire Day a time for the whole of the region - East, West, North and South Yorkshire - to show the rest of the world how proud it is of the county.

Weather been cloudy overcast.

Presently We been having Typhoon type conditions.

Not easy to drive. After few days being alone. What l needed,

A bit of a break.

Record shop searching. 

Cup of tea samplings.

No cooking.

Few conversations.

Reading.

Observing.

Nothingness in other word's.

Odd period very infrequent.

Summer and the Vide is 'be Lazy'. .

 Art is a divine and mysterious force that runs through all of us. It is a thing of supreme spiritual potential."

Nick Cave

Feels like everything mostly important stuff, has gone away for the month.

Rain here,nights getting darker,money stretched, no one responding to emails social.media or phone calls.

Away Day in August 23.

 

Away for little while. Walks and pace. 

All be different, will feel better.

Thoughts moved into..."What is a Kingdom person?"

Are not people of faith supposed to behave in a certain manner.

What do you do when feelings impact actions.?

Like giving support. Caring for another, supporting, visiting , being family.

Never lend nor borrow money so that not in these measurements.

Talking here about 2 things. Feelings. plus Actions.

This week l made a decision that my actions would over rule my feelings.

Elderly wanted me to visit them on caravan park, they have health plus `mindlessness issues`, and tell few porkies...(Smallish Lies).

Decided on those priority to stay out of the zone. Became inactive.

Then made decision , my choice to be inactive with this individual, Really l was making decision to not expose myself to the issues they hold.

Why?

Are not people of faith supposed to behave in a certain manner.

Are we supposed to sacrifice, Its 'a spiritual gift. These sacrifices get frustrating as we spend less time on ourselves, then impact our emotional, physical further leisurely well being. 

Time is a factor all of us only have limited amount.

Deep Question around how do we manage time.

Then we start to ask who are we past this sacrifice?..this time giving..this priority?

Some people like you may have decided that this is your way of giving back...but where is the ending?

What is the care-plan for you!

Whose going to explain that you look scruffy, unkempt, more health problems because the giving has no end time. Begin to feel like we are bad people, ungrateful for having those we care for in our lives. 

Perhaps this relationship had always been problematic. now you feel trapped. Know someone whose married someone after only 2 weeks, having not had very good relations with own children this client told myself.."This was a moment to show l could care for someone vulnerable."

Helping others is not about your self worth, nor should it be a sense of Duty, Religious or otherwise.

It should not be making you unhappy.

So seek support. Express to the receiver that you have a cut off period. Do the caring because you want to.

Talk, Converse. Get yourself a good listening too.

You at least deserve that.

However difficult get some `well-being` into your plans, You should share the load.

Just say Hallelujah anyway!

Sometimes it’s hard to believe. When God seems to ignore our prayers, and the world news is devastating.God is in control does not mean suffering will vanish if we have enough faith. 

Hallelujah anyway!
Hallelujah anyway-ay-ay
Wooohoo! Hallelujah
Just say Hallelujah anyway!

So much is going on,
What's taking God so long.
Your is back is up against the wall.

Witness nature, Sun coming up in the morning, trees canopy in winds from the coast,

Gold breezes through the harvested fields at present.

Laughter, with conversations, that share with others. Seeing the beauty in nature can help us realize “It’s a Wonderful Life.

Marvel at creativity of others when supping favorite drink and watching a movie.

When listen to music.

So many nights you cry
I wonder if it hurts all,
You got to trust him,
Be patient.
God is working behind the scenes.
Just keep rejoicing
Start dancing.
He's giving you the victory
Show him that you believe.

Awful named, but better than Unchurched.

 Simply odd...but not sure who was asked nor consultation model used. As 45 years experience in YCW  never been consulted nor invited, like many. There is your system error.

Churches will never be reformed , Awful named, but better than Unchurched. ‘working class’ communities will never be reached whilst middle class, self named professional values dominate the Leaders of faith based culture. 

Of course l am ,Talking about those who claim to follow Jesus.
One reason is simply the fact that middle class and professional cultures will rarely address the Problem, evident in Faith community.

The culture of owning books, not reading but Coffee table ownership, many that are simply too expensive to be housed by non academics. This is real issue. However academies is well loved by Deconstructionist, despite all there inclusive values, being White, educated to own levels able to afford £205 + for a book is one concession they make to excluding others.

The chants goes out frequently,  look what our speakers been reading.

It has been my Experience, if you live, read, practice in Academics Ivory tower, of use only to those in that industry.

NT Wright, Pete Ward, Steve Chalke all fit the grouping.

Directly identifying this issues  often be regarded as “ blunt, Working class approaches also very confrontational”. 
This is one of the reasons why the church can be blind to its own ironies , behaviour, think tanks, also why unbelievers look on incredulously. 

Perhaps if the church had the courage to evict the Academics, there would be more space for the ‘working classes’.

More resources, more housing all havable.

The chants goes out frequently,  look what our speakers been reading.

Memories are odd. Never leave you.

When you leave some place, especially if that place is soon to be removed.

Does a part of you, however small remain. This Blog already stated "memories don't leave like people do".
Do memories remain like that sliding door.
How come we return like blinding light to those places,those people, even that episode. 
Only in our minds further our hearts.
Yet we can't actually go there.We are the ones removed to here, that place called the present.
Even now, as the 'Grim reaper stirs', ready to visit nearby my address.
I wonder, yes wonder l do...
The empty chair, opposite my Record player, awaits for you to visit like once before and converse.
About anything you wish.

 Earlier this month, the 2022 Nobel Physics Laureate Dr John Clauser slammed the 'climate emergency' narrative as a "dangerous corruption of science". Inevitably, the punishment beatings have begun.
He has been blackballed, defensed, platformed, cancelled. ruled out, ignored, ridiculed.
You see the Truth does not set you free.Some places its not welcome. 
Then this age has issues it only has created, it did not inherit WOKENESS, weakness, and unwell being.
Me personal Kevin, have truly felt the power of Jesus Christ in my life, the power of His Word, the Bible...other believers statements and gift of fellowship.

Ain`t nobody gonna push me to deconstruct from these experiences further lifelong stable pattern l have lived among as a human being.  

We could find that little cafe ,With the funny sounding name
Get the table by the window, l'll say I love you once again
If the violin player's still there, We'll dance until the break of day
If we're not back in love by Monday....We can go our separate ways

Get on your knees and fight like a man

Becoming clear that there are political battles going on behind the scenes.

Spiritual warfare is not devoid of our involvement.

The Battle taking place is between those who want to put an end to Transgender confusion, anger vile toxicity is very Evident. Schools behaviour been a scandal, promoting Transgender above those who do not align with present thinking.

There is a great deal at stake. Hence Spiritual Warfare.

Please pray that guidance will swiftly be brought in that helps to protect, not harm, children. That further slows protection from bitterness, anger, from Community bullying the Schools. 

You have a place in this Conflict.

Spiritual warfare is not

devoid of our involvement.

Get on your knees and fight like a man.

Moods and feelings.

Weather strange here, funny as Europe suffers from heatwave, ln North of UK experiencing Autumnal cold, plus cool chills. But Autumn also a state of mind.

It's like great enjoyment, plus fun, with laziness of Summer. Not suitable as a way of being.

Our mind can play mood game's.

'Seasonal adjusted', frame of mind is pretty common.

Linking feelings with own events ,relationships and encounters all can lead to bearing on how you may feel.

That past experience comes into the situation and feelings can become confused.

Don't allow feelings around events to isolate you.

Discuss, converse, express ,how you feel, explore with others if possible why do you feel like do?

It normal to have occasional mood changes.

It's not weird or odd.

Being uncomfortable allows you to develop. 'Normal' ,is over rated but mood changes are common.

Be with others, Share your feelings.

You have some problems,

You need got to solve them
You get down on your knees and pray
When is he coming through,
When will he answer you.
Well it may mot be right away
But in the mean time,
Just keep your mind,
In a positive attitude.
And while you waiting,
Start praising,
He is gonna see you through,
Here is what you got to do.
Praise him till your blessings come down
Praise him till your situation turns around
You gotta lift up your voice and say:
Hallelujah anyway
Hallelujah anyway

So when I sing it that’s why I can do soul, that’s the reason people would call it soul music, because you get so much of yourself involved in the lyrics; the soul is the mind, the wheel and the emotions, so all of those three get involved in that song. That’s why I sing like I do; because I’ve lived so much the songs that I’m singing. 

SOME WORDS ON FORGIVENESS

Bound within by my own mind,

And a day not left behind.
Circling round the memory stays

Echoing through all my days.
I would leave it but for this
In it something is amiss.
 
A world not right, not right at all,
And in that stance is where I fall.
Forgiveness is the grace I seek
Self-righteousness has made me weak
To move beyond I’ll find a way:
Release the then; reframe today.

FOUND THESE WORDS SOMEONE ASKED ME TO LOOK OVER.

THEN . . .

THEN .  . RECOGNISED WHAT POET IS SAYING.

HOLDING ONTO HURT, OTHERS PERHAPS GAMEFUL PAIN.

Its me, Its you who has the power to let go, to forgive. 

It still a sad

sad day now that finally

The `North left Town`.

The political situation

in the UK 

Means for many time to look elsewhere as been coming, for quiet a while.

We got to 2 party system.

with economical and issues based there appears little to divide 

voters

Except well, that old chestnut age, and historical voting.

 

NOT SO MUCH AN ACTION MAN TODAY

Today more of a looking person, someone reflecting after intrusive Hospital treatments.

Undressing, wires, machines.

Yet no one tells you anything.

`Been touched, Moved around, prodded, looked at by strangers.

Told to undress, got lost between wards., passed Nurses who said `hello again`.

But to me ..`swear never seen them before.` 

Slept till 07-30 from 21-00 the night before .That to me is late, very late.

If you’re reading this, thanks.

Been getting quite a lot of views 
so if trying to hack me `feck off now`.

THIS PLACE, THIS HERE, THIS IS ME.
Just a wandering soul, sharing.
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LIFE has to be more than living again the past.

LIFE has to be more than `Glory Days`.

LIFE got to be more.

LIFE must be more.

LIFE is always going forward. We must also join the journey forward.

LIFE what l feel have accumulated, V the Deliberate way l state myself.

Lot of EGOS come to play in each of us.

Me l am capable of being EGO man.

Jesus, we know however, spoke for life and creation. Jesus looked for ways to include, to affirm and to love all beings, especially the ones who have been tossed aside.

Time slipping away from me...

 But in my heart I feel the same old way.

Love so beautiful in every way. Love so beautiful

We let it slip away

We were too young to understand to ever know

That lovers drift apart .. that's the way love goes

Sat here in Radiotherapy, about To be have an X-ray around Hearts skipping funny pace.
Some Echo cardiogram investigation.
Heart has funny way to record emotions.

Hearts will Never be any Good until

They can Be repaired

After been Broken.

MODERN PRPOHET `WINNIE THE POOH` 93..

Living for others is consuming

The Going down hills with wheelchair trying make LIFE better for one individual.

Trouble with Dodgy dog, that doesn't like wheelchair user's.

Hot streets with crowd's 'not pleased'.

Losing my Identify in another's pain.

Unable develop forwarding solutions.

Fighting another's battles

NHS let people down, upsetment, pian, frustrated constantly Put to back of the queue.

Not your day, nor week, nor this month.

That's become X year, 18 months plus, time plus services so slow.

Where did l go...didn't know l was leaving the room?

Till calls about myself, became less. More frequently calls about others became the normal, more frequently, became large issues.

Somewhere this became,' how my life rolls'.

Living in the shadows.

Tomorrow 'They', will tell me how poorly l am becoming.

My Son's got my DNA It's fabulous but l need to be myself again.

Living for others is consuming.

Life with others.

 Most of the time, especially if like Today l am driving, when sat on Thursday with hundreds others, just sat on bench at the coast.

I feel looking around me at nature

Looking around with others at encounters.

Looking silence at struggling youth, that l have worked along side.

Kind of more awareness of others 

Kind of more aware of this silent breadth of another 

It's our human being open, aware,in touch with ,experiencing hidden unspoken empathy with others.

Love 

Suffering

Lonely

Hurt

Frustrated

Joy

Happiness

Love

Hearts skipping

Smiles and sulks

Encounters and communication, walks in Nature are all about being alive.

On a journey with the lord, Guess still trying to get somewhere.

Jesus taught that loving our neighbour is about hard stuff like be serious, honest, try demonstrate Grace, show you care, offer compassion.I suppose it lot more than that.

Now trying to argue how do we include society `Red ball`, of  upholding God’s good design for all people, especially When values and virtue get an attack.

 How Do you and l feel, when our society ignores what God says about the value of human life?

 How Do you and l feel, when, mankind Questions creation image we are born either, Male or Female?

 Its really most important commandment, to love our neighbour,  find it like you perhaps difficult ,with some of the obstacles we face?

Founded a long time ago, by a bunch of misfits in a field., Me well guess still in a field.

On a journey with the lord, Guess still trying to get somewhere.

Now I'm trying to get to Heaven before they close the door

You broke a heart that loved you
Now you can seal up the book and not write anymore
I've been walking that lonesome valley
Trying to get to Heaven before they close the door.

Everyday your memory grows dimmer

It doesn't haunt me like it did before

I've been walking through the middle of nowhere

Trying to get to Heaven before they close the door.

You can walk off people wrongly guessing it’s you for 5 minutes. Interesting turn of speech. Me thinks..in fact gonna use it often soonish.

 

Jeremy Vine, not the nicest of people Unsure how much he earns in 1 month but its more than l will see in , REST OF my life time, more than high earner will receive in one year,.

Eye of a Needle comes to mind.

 " Starting to think the BBC Presenter, Involved in the scandal should now come forward publicly,” VINE stated.

“These new allegations will result in yet more vitriol being thrown at perfectly innocent colleagues of his.

“The BBC, which I’m sure he loves, is on its knees with this. But it is his decision and his alone.”

You see, here l am joining dots, which others may not.

imprisoned women for not paying TV licence. That wrong on many levels. 2/3rds of those fined for no TV licence are females.

Poor, at home, and lonely. BBC had no issues doing this.

While morally many are involved in behaviour not approved.

Chasing, paying, threatening others, further requesting  illegal pictures.

Something BBC employees already knew about this presenter.

 Largely  known `News` presenter.

ON ITS KNEES..its just me linking the sexual preference's here of the Gay chap whose been chasing other gay young men.

BBC does it ever learn.

Talk TV host Morgan had previously said the unnamed presenter should come forward “for the good of his colleagues, the BBC and himself”.

However, fellow presenter Bacon urged Vine to stop, tweeting:

"Stop it. You’re more emotionally intelligent than this. We don’t know the complexities of what his family are going through. Or what dark thoughts are running through his head. Irrespective of what he’s done wrong" 

You can walk off people wrongly guessing it’s you for 5 minutes.

interesting turn of speech. Me thinks..in fact gonna use it often soonish.

Still hear that song.."You are everything and everything is You"

 It was a while ago, but tide still comes in, rock pools still have treasure's. Fish chips still smell enticing.
Still hear that song.."You are everything and everything is You"

Morning sun still arrives at 04-53 in early July.

Evening Sun is bright and going down beyond the Moore's at 21-46.

Tents still get dew on them, kettles boil bringing still joy of 'first morning' cuppa.

Many still travel in wonder at area, 

Sand somehow still gets into tightly wrapped sandwiches, even Bakewell tart has odd flake of sand.

Laughter at these discoveries still heard.

Steep hill, still takes all that effort, offering Still those welcome benches to take a break.

As walk along short sandy beach to boggle hall.

Still hear that song.."You are everything and everything is You"...

Still...

Couler me on the right track

There are times when you simply are on the right side of History. These beautiful flowers were coloured in such a way so to project a Political message.

Naturally they are not these colours, there a metaphor in that image. 

Don't spoil something to be cultural acceptable.

Today's a ..'not so good day'. 

But tomorrow as often new seeds, new hope will arrive.

We Faith people need to present days not always, Happy Clappy'. Some days they say are Diamond. Some days are rust.