just thinking aloud.

What does it actually mean to exercised freedom of speech? what would reasonable limits account too plus what would they look like ?. Can we just say what we feel in the public arena. When l was at university in Hull many years ago Christian groups often came under attack relating to LGBT ETC.. Comments plus perceived images held by the educational elite.

When did we first take out little steps into the world of tomorrow. Know the teenage years the most 'formative years' where in Church, Boxing game, plus family and local environment. But first steps to prepare me for the world l was growing up in. Nothing really coming to my mind. Could it just be my memory. 

Sitting by still waters...supping cup of tea, as l write this.

Then the chaos crept back in. Papers piled up. Dishes been waiting very patiently l must add, in the sink. Priority plus secondary emails got buried. Deadlines started being missed. Why l mean know all this is happening in and around myself. Except it's not really chaos it more of a first world statement and first world delimas. But it's adding to confusing seeing circling myself at the present.

At such times ask what not internally in place, forget the CDs not in right case. Vinyl albums not in correct orders. Is something bigger happening to my processing of internal stuff. This is the wisdom of life acquired. They say Biblically it's is written ..."times of trouble discover the true worth of a person"...

So events everyday chaos shouldn't weaken us, no it should widely demonstrate something about the nature of who we are and what we are about. Processing thinking about this moment, thinking about past moments when we experienced moments like now. Am l supporting others?

Am l being a comfort to others?
What help am l offering 
Is there something l can pastorally offer to teach and advise another ?
Am l listening?

 

Not an Odyssey but more of a sojourner!

So sitting not often that offered myself such a privilege, well not recently, when with youth groups we often found ourselves sat around chatting. A gathering.
As l drove home past and across the Westwood. Noticed small group 3 parents females with group young children playing football. Yes in this hot summer we are at last experiencing while mothers sat with wine ending their picnic.
Is that not wonderful the very simple values of sharing, external looking and internal encounters. And the everyday peace that can be ours if we only seek these moments 
But l'm left wanting...well ask you to indulge myself as l ponder again and ponder anew. Why do we not seek more of this?

How did we become so task centered and orientated to miss these opportunities?

I no longer meet with the walking group to take daily walk. This was for long while a few times a week , like the trio from `Last of the summer wine`, strolled along promenade spring summer, autumn winter, these days no longer happen. Moved onwards and away geographically. It got suggested to myself, perhaps l was the glue held us together made this happen. Now l'm gone it's not a gathering. But events end serve a purpose we move away,  moments just don't arrive. Walking group was informal unstructured but it happened as regimented practice. Mostly same time we met knocked on each others doors went to pier head gathered few more walked along the same route.

When do you arrive to a place of togetherness. Now for these days got my gym buddies we chat some at one gym others briefly at another . More commonly at Outer town gym. Good sessions often end with us drinking water, some have a coffee. Plan and sometimes we meet at places away from gym. Also other places where us search knowingly each other internally and externally because we share, we gather often and we love each other in a family way and a growing familiar way these other encounters happen for myself in Church along with Malta contacts .

What endings are taking place for you?
Are you experiencing new gatherings? 

Consider not the passage of fools.

The tribe are treating an outsider in cruel manners. It could get ugly presently the outsider is playing by the Law using all legal resources. But  witnessed these before eventually the outsider has enough they get revenge.

It gets ugly Argentina are playing England tonite indeed in few hours playing each other in semi final of the world cup. It's again from the hot headed Argentina leaders become a moment to political get abusive, threatening, awkward. Acting tough and strutting the world stage.

They make films about such foolish behaviour.

Individuals can be Foolish 

Community's can behave in Foolish manners.

Leaders cannot behave in Foolish ways. 

The Bible reflects great deal about our encounters about the way we treat each other. It's filled with examples around deception. Mistreatment stories difficult to grasp often informing those who read about way to behave with and towards each other. The Bible has many biased stories about mistreatment the outcomes are identified time and time again. Well we get advice pointers and inferred values about how we should share this life together. Lots about encounters further the effect about lessons to be discovered, learned, and applied.

The steps away from this despair are actually very easy. Not steps we will find difficult.

Looking out of the window from the bus journey witnessed a Beautiful day unfold. If you switch off Facebook plus tic tok and others sure l know little if anything about. If you do switch off then detach your ears you can do something real special. 

You can enjoy the moment the clouds forming.

If your able to complete the task on a regular bases.

Observe the cattle moving across the Westwood stopping the traffic filter the day into their moment. Slow everything mechanical.

With little practice you can start to see other people not just why they look like but further their internal murmurings.

But you won't because many have found that the lure of social media is too big to move away from this, now we recognise the damage being done. So what are we too do? Society has began to record numbers of young people with classic mental health issues. Other illnesses to do with bodies, little things like condition of skin. Fears have grown among the younger generation, self esteem is highest it's ever ever been.

The steps away from this despair are actually very easy. Not steps we will find difficult.

As we stated before, gather often and discuss all the issues. Learn to argue and accept those who do not agree with you. Switch off them damaging slaves you are beholden too.

Well we shouldn't ..

 We can't undo the past and do things differently.

          That includes changing furniture around 

Deeply influenced by the "God in the corner of the room" people... No need for this Fury at all really

I live among non book people.
A blank expression on the way to the bathroom people with largest TV in the area people. A tribe deeply influenced by the "God in the corner of the room" people. Reading and books not required people. The TV News told us people. We don't leave our locality people. Biased always discriminatory people. ....Same people who passed over to the other side people. Same people who hurried along when the beaten up person lay waiting for the good Samaritan. 

Sent on mini sojourner today out to the castles And mounds of local History around 800 Years ago place. Place from Jorvik period the earlier very evident Constantine's period. Saw the place where they burned alive the others.

Please can you to do your own historical searches for what factual happened to others especially Judeo brothers in this locality. People hide these moments of fury. The followers of fake prophet claim like Holocausts...' it never happened'..But it's fact And it happened. The Fury. The Fury was spent on this place at that time where this mound remains with its prison walls still standing and the testimony to the Fury remains. 

Has does the Fury. Hidden by the young children playing run up to the top.

We saw Greenbelt Christian festival favourite speaker Peter Tatchell spew out his fury at the death of  Catholic Christian MP Anne Widdercombe. Yes at the Murder of a 78 year old Lady..he Rejoiced  

Are you sure the Fury of some people not still here?

Alister McIntosh in his rambling Poachers Pilgrimage comments on the Fury that came with the not so innocent Reformation. Reflecting on it's impact on the Isle of Harris and Tweed. Women Nuns banished, spiritual female leaders killed. Icons from Churches now lying ruined all resources looted.....Update to 2026 Witnessed several neighbours in this locality like other neighbourhoods spreading lies and fury against incomers.

In the Kingdom l expect ..

Is there a place you go and talk about .. .. well knowing you Son...talk about all that matters. You been on my mind and in my thoughts a lot as always. Perhaps it's the Goldcrest along with the the Goldfinches and the plans,hopes, l have for the Garden. 

Of course  Dad knows you would have planned it even better. ...yeah l know tell me when l get there... Till then it's tougher today then it was yesterday without you.

Difficult conversations need to be experienced.

Sometimes in my view we are not very good definitely includes myself, not very good at handling difficult conversations .More especially l feel if we are elders in society. Now, this is me wondering if that includes me or is Kevin just older.

Maybe when dealing with legal issues around boundaries and access you can't approach the concern on a face-to-face syneriou. People are limited in interactions on modern society plus not addressing informal methods of educational ideas to deal with Conflict.

Saw some strange behaviour by North Yorkshire homeless folks. This weather clearly a factor. But this group really struggling however what surprised myself is how large this group has become. Issues they facing not being resolved mainly because of economic strain along with sheer numbers of people imposed into housing situation. Influences here are external.

Second factor is that the training around housing matters is poor due to the high turn over of staff coming thru onto this service. Most authority have issues with recruitment selection and later retainment. My experiance that at lower edge of local services there is lack of understanding about complex issues. Results in poor delivery, inadequate responses. Increases the feelings of being let down at bottom of service users.

The people needing support most are let down the furthest. Also witnessed bad behaviour in neighbourhoods adds to frustrations and delimas encountered 

Difficult conversations need to be experienced.

What greenbelt festival 2026 will really be like.

It will lack grace.

No compassion to the indigenous white powerless?

No understanding of rural immunity issues.

Won't discuss the poverty experienced by impoverished communities in inner cities of UK.

Greenbelt 2026 will repeat it's bitter dialogue of hatred towards those who have any questions around what they are actually living among.

No the 'unwashed Nose ring brigade', lacking an ounce of spirituality, but will triumph as they spend this month's PIP allowance at the festival.

What these far right movements look like today, why they're growing, and perhaps most importantly, how hope, courage and community can offer a different story.

Now is anyone surprised about the issues they promote the stupid sound bites they repeat NO we former weep as we witness the place they are in plus the decline they created. It's not an inclusive environment  it's excluded the chance others may follow the prince of peace but adopted Bonheifner approach to protection.

Back to face to face...

 There a wonderful little topic that takes place many moments and very often. Simply happening that we all take for granted. Yes looked at this line further NOT rewriting it. Take simple aspect of everyday life for granted.

So much of life is what happens when we are just living normal stuff. We meet to have a drink in home place, cafe or restaurant. Talk then about everyday issues we have recently experienced. Talk about economic reality of the day spent in living, those encounters share with many people. We don't realise how vital it is to share our daily literacy or even how that gives us balance. Female live this so naturally noticed males are terrible don't perform or process this skill very well. Females chat more easily about everyday stuff. Often called ' offloading'. That's unfair because it not quite capturing the importance. When person is not afforded these opportunities it brings about imbalance in 'Emotional literacy'.

The less of these natural occurrences more imbalances, less focus leads to disrupted lifestyles. Then worse occurs and further problems arise. The need to gather and share informally is critical to how we develop as humans beings.

Go practice my children. Enjoy.

Well it's returned back on the old Skill base,worked recently in two areas. Last 5 years . Housing matters, leading active. coaching sessions,some counselling .back to old practices ,delivering face to face human encounters in an informal educational environment.

Back to looking at.

How we used resources.?
 What where the issues identified?
 Who came along numerically to the Youthie?

But it's been hard work physically my health being affected along with my feelings. Long time since Church, politics, imbalance economically, been natural happening for this old gent. Struggle until payday.

Just a reminder....

 

A true ponder on Immigration.

 34 people were detained following inspections on public transport and in public spaces in Blata l-Bajda and Rabat. Police said those detained were from Nigeria, India, Ghana, The Gambia, Senegal and Ivory Coast. A week earlier, 22 people were held after raids in Blata l-Bajda, Ħamrun, Marsa, Fgura and Rabat, including searches in private residences.

Police have also carried out similar inspections in Ħamrun, Qormi and St Paul’s Bay, where 19 people were arrested after being found living in Malta irregularly.

The Political situation around immigration it's legality and the exploitation by migrants is real concern. It's Changing not for the good either the tapestry of whole of Europe. Concerns , others fears, rise of poverty . These are real issues for normal indigenous persons. From elderly , to the children just started school. The issues is exploited by many sides of the political coinage.

My concerns are witnessed this mornings in our rural village the Polska cleaner taking her son's to school at 7 in the morning. A village not even small town several Turkish barbers, vapes shops, managed by Eastern Europeans ,others like the Baker can't see the point of working. Poverty take strong hold people have struggled since before COVID C19 I don't feel inspired but get more struggling about the environment then seen for best part of my life. 

All a waste of time if you know what l mean

So British Royal family are arguing about who stays in which bedroom. Apparently there a protocol for letting family stay on as bedroom ,Perhaps there's just not enough rooms to put your head down.

All a waste of time if you know what l mean. Now maybe just maybe the thoughts, the actions, the grasp and understanding of the rich is so far removed from our reality.

So you thought you'd like to see them healed

Got Blue Peter to stage an appeal

For the poor, for the poor...

Cosmetic are great but look deeper.

 Hull has previously been named one of the worst places to live but National Geographic recently named it one of the best places to visit. Suppose there's some truth in that. It's good actually cosmetic are great but look deeper. l mean really is it a bad place not just to live but to come from this environment. Further  witness what liberals have done to my home town. 
Filled this city (which l think is 8th largest city in UK), with every warring African national in such numbers it is an embarrassment. Every day we pass high numbers of eastern European distraction burglars going about illegal activities. These men gather on the streets, drinking, local shops suffer from criminal " l take, you pay for me" even embolden to speak negative, behaving aggressively to locals.

We used to swim in old outdoor lido in the park when we were young so long ago but yet so near it feels. There was a girl called Deborah that l met she was really magic person, pretty and very sophisticated for her age. We met at a lido in Hull. Did we grow up or just grow older. Worth dropping here for little reflection.
How old would you like to be when you do ' Grow up' ?

It's all ..."cosmic man"...in the end l expect.

Repeating myself here, Theology is simple how we 'make sense of God'.

 We all hold those values,  treasure, wonderful, The points that do not add up ordering not aligned with our understanding. Theology like any interest ,Life skill, experience, should make us read deeper,talk more often, wrestle further, silently reflect while we ponder a new.

Wider societal historical and emotional aspects may come into play in our thinking.

Why is there so much fury in the way the reformation got discharged during the last Spcism.we had beautiful experience, new ways of doing theology different way to process. While the world turned we moved to towns, trades developed, the written word became more available  then we had ruled to govern the change which led to pretty appalling behaviour.Needed new Bishops, pretty soon the same issues became the norm.Yes simplified stuff we tore down beauty, we hurt those, even killed a far few who wouldn't change.

Thomas the great doubter but also great Apostle. Questions Jesus, Questions others,(Disciples) accounts. Asked for clarity as he wrestled with what he had been told. Jesus allowed this and spoke compassionately as this new way of being arrived. None of this was with fury or rejection .It was the making sense of God's new plan.

Don’t you give up and your dreams won’t give up on you.... WELL l don`t know so much !

 Your dream needs you

Your life
gonna find you
Your fear
not gonna blind you
Random angels
gonna guide you
To the street of dreams

Don’t you give up on your dream for the many not just the few
Don’t you give up and your dreams won’t give up on you

But in towns like Market areas here we have 4 to 6 additional Turkish barbers.

Here's to the beauty of the stars

Here's to the travelers on the open road.

lets not forget how wonderful it really can be, how much is there for us as we journey through these moments.

It is utterly UNFORGIVABLE what politicians have done and are still doing to the UK. Been trying to make sense of what l hear.

Then try to make sense of what l read even notice on TV news before it gets switched off. But in towns like Market areas here we have 4 to 6 additional Turkish barbers. Empty but still functioning along with several Vapes shops.

Vape shops sell products filled with drugs and damaging spices. Contribute to health issues in the young. Supply therefore actually support other drugs. Criminal activities linked to violence along with theft.

Its all done in plain site of governing bodies plus those charged with the authority to address then deal with issues . While addressing further neighbourhood concerns. Well here a few of mine.

I see this actions
I see these activities.
Recognise the outcomes.

Why doesn't the local authorities respond with joined solutions ? Gotta ask why? Why is there no response action or activities?