if woke = compassion.....Accept its doesn't pet.

 

I am trying to find my way and if woke = compassion, then is where I want to eventually be....

                                                  Accept its doesn't pet. 

WOKE Simply not there!

The movies don't always cried out meaning.

Sometimes when the Rock, the Art form, cries out inferred messages they make great sense becoming a vehicle for implying a value or a virtue. Communicating in a way that enables greater better different understanding of an issues you wish to identify.

Other odd times despite it flying a flag it doesn't transfer and indeed it's pretty rubbish, it's a rotten stinking tomatoes type of wasteful.product.

They sold us a story full of great stars true life affirming story. Actors we had grown up with actually morally they started in some fantastic stories upon the big screen. But on own lives they had strong compassion. So invested time on this project expecting a good return for my commitment.

But it's not genuine, it's a big let down, alcohol and sexual cohesion behaviour, old guys as often getting a paycheck for swearing, thin story line, absent of energy. It's works as a buddy movie but been down too often not very well. Old movies like ' Easy rider' film of the book, 'On the road'. Work better 

'Walk on the Woods', had Redford,Nolte,Emma Thompson,so called stars however, film doesn't it flops hard task stay for the full period. Story of failure hints at life lived.Also suggest bit of living to be done. The characters are selfish tho his theme throughout the movie.

Yes disappointed but personal view you may experience whatever.

Walking the non talk.

 Been thinking a lot about need to hermitage away for a desert experience. Finding few people need to deconstruct from what's being said to them along with what they are feeling. Need to grasp  a pace and a space away from what's on offer.

Pace is word that mean firstly. Like person too busy to relax into moments. Too busy to enjoy breathing. Not getting time for themselves. So called lead us away , real feeling reality experience, not in Zoom space...Not In internet Church.

Yes l have paused for your laughter.

But real experiences of retreating to sojourner into space away. To breathe, chat without being measured, also enjoy having wrong answer..Not suggesting we deconstruct but may have less to do with those who are managing us. Those who got shuttle power over us. May change patterns of what we have been simply do not know. Just really feel group forming who need to be away and walk to grow. With like minded traveller.

Garden talk ...

Today we said goodbye. While l was at friends funeral marking end to long suffering with Austio phariutus... It damaged his body it's so cruel. But he championed the illness fought bravely working in many ways that surprised others.

I sit in the middle of the garden in the Autumn of my years on another hailstorm tainted summer day. Spitting up blood, coughing a harsh noise that's been with me since February. " You'll need to a triage so we can get you an appointment."

No fed up waiting in your lines. Soldier onwards. suggestion is picked up lounge issue. The triage ask questions about my Male pregnancy, how l wish to identify myself, all stuff feels so useless not filling in...oh yeah again Authorities hassling me for not displaying my disabled badge.

The country is in turmoil political, threats and illegally laws are not performing the required matrix. The one that allows vulnerable victimised to witness justice. It's deep day time to ponder endings, losing dear people and being left out.

So sitting in the garden in the middle of my years...

As you should. Lots of housework all boring stuff being gathering for a long time perhaps soon it will be over. Not life hoping for longer but this period of my deconstruction from Coast to rural town, to village constructing.

Sat in this place .., meanwhile on a island l love others gather.

 “For me, these people are like my brothers,” said 74-year-old Dominic Anastasi, who has watched generations of collectors gather outside his shop since becoming Malta’s sole distributor of Panini stickers in 1970.

What do you know now that you didn't know than?

“We do not know what the future looks like. What we do today, has to matter to people we will never meet?  The world is worth repairing even though we won’t finish the job?"

Time with my mates from late 70s the late 80s in decades that what l mean not age ways . There was brilliance sense of really belonging because we had to fight in the square ring. 20 rounds times 3 times a week often . Hurting each other blood, sweat, some tears, victories and accepting defeat.

Travelling but work called us mostly next day. Write ups about our exploits. Warmth of  glass of coke in local pub most Friday evenings before heading home. Because LIFE was tough hard and poverty was a factor, think whole experience past us. Now in these autumn days we are in place where value of important stuff like friendship good memories and certain type of spirituality is at least present for some of this group.

We are the people who have run the race. Still growing , developing, walking with health issues. Seeing with perspective of age.

Who do you gather with?

Who shares your journeyman knowledge?

What do you know now that you didn't know than? 

Who gonna hold your

hand when you call ?

not made for things like sharing

Men prefer to drink a great deal.
Perhaps they feel better after certain amount of alcohol.
We feel comfortable with old days of grand sport but struggle when it's 
Misuse agenda, or even family concerns they become uncomfortable too much of a challenge. Life is tough,  life is hard life can be a struggle.
But seldom can we face this we choose more than the female of the speicies.we chose to hold it inside.
Feel strong just not made for things like sharing on a deep level.

There nothing wrong with my mates.But they have lived a great deal in this area. They should want to improve sharing literacy around emotions. 

...'I feel ..

I want to say this too you all...

How can l explain better what's struggles currently facing...'

Its not taught informally.

Growth never resides in place classed as comfortable.

Read more, pray longer, digest slower.

The news is Always loud, so switch off due to moving. But look found don't miss the noise. Cut it out for a while getting more done. Mostly repeated on misinformed circle. While Life's dramas unfold genuinely as they should.

Not been missing any conversation starters. Aware of real stuff further focused differently. It's my clarity. These are all points to affirm you should probably may perceive a similar route for yourself. Also denying myself the behaviour issues that happen if get attached to the noise.

Switch off. Read more pray longer digest slower. It's working for myself.

Really asking ...

                     So how are you?