Being on the frontiers saved my true soul and furnished my life with real meaning

 The diamond and rust of any relationship is really about going along with each other. All long time relationships will have Diamond experiences along with days of rust. That's Life it really is we struggle we have glory days  and of course it's all those days in-between which makes us.

Found many times people of course it includes myself. Tend only see value on the diamond periods. As l've got older reaching these days recognise the importance everyday stuff 

Faith has periods like that we want mountain top experiences sometimes wonder if Church leaders try to create such experiance. Missions are promoted always away some place. Seldom did we experience mission in our areas. Talk like super spiritual warriors numbering off conversations from conversations. Joining groups to use these collectives as place to evenglise.

These experiences make us grow. 

Except they don't it hurts when people move away from city , when stop coming to Church. Find a better ingredient check list with another tride. Deconstruction identified these conversations belt shopping list of faith requirements as simple shallow practice. Damaging.

I too was guilty communicating took part in words that found useful. Bought books hunted down Christian music. Found very little that was acceptable. All the books felt high literature. Even tried to sing the latest worship songs. Went to few concerts. But l got into more social gospel being on places where the hurting was taking place. Being on the frontiers saved my true soul and furnished my life with real meaning. But it not a sneaky soft option. It's hard it's costly it's difficult and still times was Lonlie.

Vocation....commissioned to do this.

 I am good at community and youth work actually do have a pastors heart. A way of being pretty knowledgeable about YCW  Youth Community Work. It's my life's vocation. Expert in this field regerious about practice and how we do what we do and why it doesn't help me as an individual  when others praise me. Not do l find it useful when others praise myself.
I don't grow in environments when l am heralded. It puts me in difficult place. Not vanity nor shyness because not empowering. Treat me has someone with experiance knowledge and understanding.
That is all.

Still got bit to learn.

Those or these were my days my friends. That we thought would never end. .

        I shall always love the memory of you. 

Despite the memory fading and me being so ersdible to have kept you close. Don't recall Church that odd large building with so many strange doctrines being so colourful. 

Recall the icons being different to my traditions.The funny odd rather deceitful way things changed. There was that diocese funding being moved to Holy shepherd. It was strangely peaceful oddly painful. Tears never far away from Young James death, the Hillsborough incident. Death was a present issue. The eternal candle to remember victim's , schools work street based stuff. The struggle,to survive economically. So much variety strong sense of community.

Then there was you. Loving, kind, happy but always troubled. We became one but that ended.The song recalls better times but my memory doesn't it recognises all the pain. The failed promise expectations of hope but that failed. Former Anfield youth worker moved on and also stayed. Trapped. Would a call to bring the cat and drive real fast still bring echo one wishes to hear.

Never been tested in that way so who knows. But then again l doubt it.suppose this is just one of those nights. Well l think so....

It's wet...it's muddy ..it's cold. It's dark... Love it

we are taught to pray with an
acronym identified as 
ACTS

Adoration... confessions..Thanksgiving..and Supplication. 

 So with that in mind adore God of the great cathedral of nature for cold chilly Autumnal weather we are experiencing as it shows again his majesty and power.

Confess that l fail don't always succeed in being a good witness. Foolish thoughts escape wrong words form.

Thank you for the journey that l have like so many others enough. Sometimes forget that enough is all that's required.

Pray for those suffering loss plus grief at this moment. My journeys had this experience. I am still here.

Thank you Lord.

Meanwhile the Irish try to pretend this life is not important these events didn't happen.

The Mother said Kim called her as Hamas was attacking the party, and asked: “Mummy, what should I do?” Her son took the phone and told her to seek shelter, and that was the last they heard from her. Her body was discovered several days later, and she was buried in Gedera on October 12. Damti is survived by her parents, Jennifer and Gidon, and four siblings. Her family owns the well-known Falafel Damti stand in Gedera, where Kim grew up. Her cousin, Hadas Damti Padlon, described Kim as “beloved, beautiful and good, whose only sin was going to a party to dance and enjoy.” “Kimmy was a source of pride and joy to her parents and siblings,” she wrote. “Kim was a beautiful, gentle, light-filled girl, there was nobody who didn’t love her, she was a ray of sunshine in the world!” Her relative, Nasrin Damti, described Kim as “my angel… I am broken and destroyed and cannot believe that I won’t get to see your beautiful smile anymore. My Kimmy, you were the angel of the family and especially of me. Watch over us from above, and give us the strength to deal with the horrible pain.” At her funeral, her brother Daniel Damti eulogized her and spoke of her final moments. “Kimmy, our flower, my little sister… you were always full of generosity. You left for the party and I told you, ‘Go, have fun, this is your time.'” He said they last spoke at 7 a.m. and she told him she was hiding out in a shelter, “and I was relieved. I didn’t know that that’s where it would end.” “You will always stay in my heart, smart and pure, I’ll never forget you. I promise you I’ll protect everyone, the whole family. Our angel, you will always stay beautiful in our memories,” he said. At the ceremony, her sister, Emily Damti, lamented the loss of “Kimmy, my little sister, my sunshine, my flower girl, my successful, beautiful sister. I can’t get your smile out of my head. I can’t imagine summing up your life when you just started living.”

The armed Palestinian group Hamas attacked Israel on 7 October 2023, killing about 1,200 people and taking 251 hostages.

In response, Israel launched a massive military offensive in Gaza, during which more than 73,000 people have been killed, according to the territory's Hamas-run health ministry, whose figures are considered reliable by the United Nations.

Guess what's missing from the BBC description of events. well there is a few but one that strikes home. The one that hits me first  the one that shows reality of October the 7th .
Attacked INNOCENT....INNOCENT kids and killed INNOCENT including babies.

So now you know....

 One of the strange bit puzzling  stories from British press that l decide to glance through this week which Kevin did read was in the Telegraph.

This is  titled “How the far-Right seized on Christianity for moral cover”. I would encourage yourselves to examine the article. My grandma read this newspaper till the end of her days. In poverty in UK. 

This article published as a response to the Dover protests at the small boat saga.  One of the main leaders who takes a lot of the flack. ( More in a minute) . Named Danny Tommo (described affectionately as “a convicted attempted kidnapper and far-right activist”. The faith l follow and his commitment to following Jesus is treated with the usual cynicism. Almost every Christian leader who support similar sociopolitical ethics are denounced as fake Christians peddling a false view of the Cross. Using the faith of Christ as intimidation and hate, rather than of the Christian identity of this nation. Nor are they accepting God of Love message either for themselves.

Perhaps we are heading back to the days of the Black prince.
apparently he is well heralded in many places.

The Black Prince was Edward of Woodstock, the eldest son of King Edward III of England and a famous medieval military commander during the Hundred Years' War. Edward was born on 15 June 1330 at Woodstock in Oxfordshire, the eldest son of Edward III. He was created prince of Wales in 1343. He showed military brilliance at an early age, playing a key role in the defeat of the French army at the Battle of Crecy when he was only 16. In 1355, he was appointed his father's lieutenant in Gascony and the following year led another significant victory against the French at Poitiers, taking the French king prisoner.

There are two ways to be fooled. One is to believe what isn’t true; the other is to refuse to believe what is true. —Soren Kierkegaard. 

The band's first studio album in nine years will be released on November 13th. Silencio, second track from the album, is out now.

 

It's a point of excitement for those of the U2 followers who are pretty excited. Looking forward to hearing track 12 the last recorded song by Dolly Parton songs of faith, fellowship, Relationships and hope. Well that's what l read someplace.

I was young very early 20s when first got into the above group. I am now decades older. They resonated with myself. Not just Church or sharing same faith. It wasn't for the crowds it was us. Sitting in Church at home or even on street corner.

Some artist have spoken in new parables to myself through the music . Lyrics inspiring myself. Emotional literacy connected. The creative growth journey and issues all connecting with myself. Further communicating via lyrics relevance lyrics love justice wrestling about stuff, the sonic of the sound plus lifestyles U2 band members lived. Faith wrestled with and the issues alive in community they are evident among.

Some of the weighty stuff that my mate's acknowledged was similar to mine and ours.

That's some sojourner.

Don't really have a view on your dog sat in a East riding leisure service cafe in Anlady.

Don't really have a view on your dog sat in a East riding leisure service cafe in Anlady.

Just have a problem with the fact you sat eating his plus own food at 3 different tables in the last hour. Just  have a problem with the fact that no one will clean nor will anyone clear that table.  Just have an issue with my worry you feel humans are not as valuable and that we should dow down to your silly attitude.

But what a funny society when the well off get upset about couple of people not wanting a dog in a cafe in a leisure centre. But got concerns about fact local environment got far to many' failed economic migrants' now occupied homes poor local persons cannot have, that some who fought in war torn places establishing peace. Those same veterans ask!

" How do think we feel after all we were told about their primitive ways, the same men now walk the streets of our home towns".

That question spoken to myself cuts to the chase of arguments. So it's in ...St Stephens shopping mall .. in Hull city centre more full face covering hibjabs then Kabul' central. How low we sunk as a society in UK 2026.