My confession.

Frustratingly felt at odds with everything recently to the extent l recognized not liking me. Become too intolerance not granting others grace. Dear friends saw this. Lot of factors come to play in the situation finding myself.
Communications not been easy , felt like the Alien in this strange place. Language was difficult others did not understand what l was saying, others were having this problem communicating as well. But also some elements where being difficult. That was proven. I found myself gossiping a bit that's not my call. It's not what l favour.

But also found myself giving out  plus spending hour or more with a problem that was vexation. The topics not wholesome. Someone pointed out that got little Misophonia something of neuron behavioural condition where emotional response to noise pollution create discomfort.

Time got wasted, moments got lost wasn't able to recover the period lost which added to my further sense of frustrations. But didn't seek God, wasn't staying in the focused ways l'm used too. Now that two things happened.

1:- Others noted corrected my behaviour. I agreed .
2:- seeking return to the Lords focus.

Now these things happen to us all mustn't bury ourselves or punish ourselves too deeply. Find the reasons why. Explore your own cognitive sense. It will appear when you reflect.

What have you walked away from.?
Asked myself why was l spending time unwisely.?
Have a walk with Jesus, in God's cathedral, pray and come back. 

Going home...Please get someone to meet me coming home

The sea again. Calm still and silent calling me home. Where now l want to be. At my coastal retreat near my home in my place. Sat in the silence of a home filled with all the stuff l left behind not so long ago. Sitting focused and resting in my home. The place where troubles brewing, doctors calling frustrations are mounting. Heartache and pain although this will be present. I do need to be home.

The stars that l look up too as walk along front that remains windswept, blustery, chilly ,on next winters evening. Those Stars are my stars that silence and chilly embrace will be sent for myself .

The detachment that was drowning me the isolation that surrounded me now call me back to journey home.

It's just the practical stuff l must travel through.  long tactical stops starts and tender mercy's all are stratigraphic identified.

Concentrate on you pt2

 So it's was a day of rediscovering the birdlife 

In another opportunity to request that we concentrate on our own well being as walk required on nature. Observing creators hand upon the gift of how we live. It's presented to us freely the sun shining so made my way to nature reserve. Nearby it's lakes wild plants odd birds call. No telephones no social media . No silly discussion.

Lots of silence and observations.

The views before return to whatever Life Will throw towards my sojourner. Frustrating period in economic challenged Island in Mediterranean. But OK personal experience. Some individual time out 

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Concentrate on You.

Five words to describe you at this present moment.

Content.

Tired.

Puzzled.

Apprehensive.

Ready (to depart).

Also worn out physical and  my emotional literacy. Developed hardness internal.

 

Really

 This weekend people marched through London chanting “Say it clear, say it loud. Khamenei makes us proud” and flying the flag of the brutal Iranian dictatorship that has slaughtered tens of thousands in just a few weeks.

@infosuggestions

You can't stand up for murder death,oppression then ignore this matter.

Lack of humanity.

 There this fear evident in society.Come about at same time as social media is preventing dialogue. It’s Orwellian propaganda. Perhaps biblically it’s been predicted maybe others along spiritual land measurements are aware it had arrived. We don’t dialogue, we get led to the place we are presently.

Lack of freedom of expression

Lack of accepting others point of views.This median is useful but it should supplement your ideas not mislead them sowing confusion. You can’t upon the rock till,your faith has been questioned.

It hurts to see others confused getting angry attempting to limited discussion. Go ahead getting involved in areas they are manipulated into campaigning around.

Lack of hope.

Finding people of various ages they go straight to google the answers then accepted without  thought. Some of the articles others present to support arguments are not what comes from investigating nor is it from well informed view. 

We are capable of so much better and being so different to what we should be. Its head down ignore what’s around type of culture.

Look up.

So around 9000 that's 9 thousand years ago on a Mediterranean island first traders, agriculturist, farmers, builders lived.

They worked the land examining fertility of soil to see what they could grow. Developed a way to clothe themselves and dye materials. They had a sense of a creator. We know from later on in mankind's history that missionary projects discovered tribes who had not heard the gospels. However had some kind of story about faith they knew.

These Phoenicians came from cannnite places across what we call the holy land. There was a sense of belonging plus gatherings. Temples where built .Afterlife was a thought plus process that was part of these tribes sojourners.

First temples ,places to worship another being,God. These where built by a race of people who had an understanding of something bigger, better that affected how they lived with other's.

Effected how they lived together in community.

Less conversation.

Conversation we had has ended , not so well, we've disagreed. I could feel as a communicator and level 5 beautiful human being we were not getting to a point of agreement. But if not careful beautiful human friends will fall apart. In any relationship never worth hurting another to prove a point. No it's not.

No one gets saved here. Only hurt can follow. The next morning often brings new perspectives. That's maybe fresh place to begin again. You can walk away. Still can't always have last word, or dance, or drink.

But you can begin again after periods of reflection.