Less and less

So done a bit of work spread out all over rural town.

Lot less gym

Money very very tight.

Petrol expensive most l have ever witnessed.

Even the Sopranos threw up a surprise ..couldn't recall Pauline walnuts getting his nails done. Gangster at nail saloon see everything now.

The bus ride on a real chilly Autumn day was through nature displaying Llama newly sheared moved more briskly near Bishop Burton pool. The. Cattle walking across westwoods while bus drove slowly past observing that cattle have right of way. Sheep returned down from high ground.. it's changing moments but humanity hatred and ignorance takes little rest.

Job book in the Bible is about what happens when nation turns away from God's guidelines. Calling for people to return often the disobedience remains society plus order breaks down. Situations we are in presently no leadership nor guidance again and again we see lack of solutions. Individuals can not suggest help or directions to enable development or change.

The beds are burning still people get involved in wasted practice vaping spreading filthy germs around. Low cost clothing , because got no money for better. People less social, quality of food provisions is expensive less is sold. Poverty increasing.  Rich as always getting richer. Injustice screams out nothing changes.

...not sure it's ....

 Listening to very early Bod Dylan ..'Song for woody 1963...masters of war ..blowing in the wind. .. 

It was different time then it was intense thoughtful listen up in my space in overcrowded room shared with siblings. Now hear them still fresh more critical of the tone of the voice. The instrument is sparce uncomplicated. Simple times but same songs start wonder do l love them old songs less. No it's myself who has changed l'm in a better place time evolved but message from lyrics still resonates. Vile harsh statement in Masters of war still hits home. The all for fun frolics in ...'Subterranean blues'...

I change deconstructed evolved still loved the songs and enjoying today. But not the intensity some songs sound rightly dated. Others songs still fresh inviting. But me not sat listening intently in my own room. My sojourner daily struggle espically during changing seasons as cold returns.

That's true of life in general we move on and retain some values don't stay the same person.

 

Disjointed..lack of social cohesive..bankrupt morally 0,

 Divided country not communicating but next to know reason for each little ghetto to communicate together. We live in a country where we do less together. No need to meet as we are somewhere not interest in each other 

Our rules, the faiths we hold are poles apart no expressing same concerns not renowned for getting job done but time has past. Sad but we can also witness rage against God hasn't helped low moral base just brought.

Detached means not connected. But still alongside each other in many situations.

We have walked mute liked into a cosmopolitan hell hole government forced.

 Listening to someone on radio Having to walk through police roadblocks in Gosport to get to also from your own home isn't very nice. Really felt uncomfortable the feeling of violence then threats from the Police was clear and obvious as well. Those now described as 'oppressive authorities' questioning every driver few pedestrians arriving home.

Some residents been lawfully informed they cannot leave their homes until 6th October. Uncomfortable also disturbed with Fact our government in UK . Well let's be honest - they'll stop you going about your business, daily life .

Unable or unwilling to prevent 1 thousand 200 men entering illegally into our land by dingies. They hassle local residents in Gosport hampshire but they won't or cant stop the boats.

Strong harmful evidence is posted on the social media but main news agencies are not reporting. I witnessed the immoral evidence in my home town of Hull ..where full facial coverings worn by many women and young children in city shopping centres. Large gangs of Ethiopia further Eritrean black man gather in coffee shops. One third of buses are African Asian travellers often spread them selves across 2 seats as they journey. In remote villages like Pocklington plus other East riding towns Turkish and Kurdish barbers ply a trade in entrapment drug services while posturing as barbers.

Most often next door are the vapes shops or nail bars staffed by non indegionous persons.

We have walked mute like into a cosmopolitan hell hole government forced.

Listen to ladies saying we aren't staying out late at night as we are so fearful. Many are curtailed into remaining quite so has not to cause offence. If my view going to upset the apple cart by stating this truthful reflection 

I say Amen to that 'upsetting the apple cart'. Something is happening here and it's not correct.

Greens are pretty dirty in Politics of UK

For the first time, the Green Party has hired a private security firm to provide extra protection for attendees at the three-day conference at the Brighton Centre, in Sussex.

Party insiders confirmed that both Jewish and non-Jewish members have been given safety instructions for the conference. Jewish News has agreed not to disclose the specifics.

Being on the frontiers saved my true soul and furnished my life with real meaning

The diamond and rust of any relationship is really about going along with each other. All long time relationships will have Diamond experiences along with days of rust. That's Life it really is we struggle we have glory days  and of course it's all those days in-between which makes us.

Found many times people of course it includes myself. Tend only see value in the diamond periods. As l've got older reaching these days recognise the importance everyday stuff 

Faith has periods like that we want mountain top experiences sometimes wonder if Church leaders try to create such experiance. Missions are promoted always away some place. Seldom did we experience mission in our areas. Talk like super spiritual warriors numbering off conversations from conversations. Joining groups to use these collectives as place to evenglise.

These experiences make us grow. 

Except they don't it hurts when people move away from city , when stop coming to Church. Find a better ingredient check list with another tride. Deconstruction identified these converiabelt shopping list of faith requirements as simple shallow practice. Damaging.

I too was guilty communicating took part in words that found useful. Bought books hunted down Christian music. Found very little that was acceptable. All the books felt high literature. Even tried to sing the latest worship songs. Went to few concerts. But arrived at a place more social gospel being in cultures where the hurting was taking place. Being on the frontiers saved my true soul and furnished my life with real meaning. But it not a sneaky soft option. It's hard it's costly it's difficult and still  occasionally times was Lonlie.

Vocation....commissioned to do this.

 I am good at community and youth work actually do have a pastors heart. A way of being pretty knowledgeable about YCW  Youth Community Work. It's my life's vocation. Expert in this field regerious about practice and how we do what we do and why it doesn't help me as an individual  when others praise me. Not do l find it useful when others praise myself.
I don't grow in environments when l am heralded. It puts me in difficult place. Not vanity nor shyness because not empowering. Treat me has someone with experiance knowledge and understanding.
That is all.

Still got bit to learn.