We are damaged, we are not best ...but we're not Broken.

In the underrated excellent series Broken. The priest acted well by Sean Bean we see the wrestling with doubt play in most extraordinary manner by actor.  Something we all experience in mission in professional work especially in community settings. He feels incapable of delivery of the faith aspects of his Priesthood. Holy sacraments are Challenged as he often recalls his unsuitability. Someone mentioned in Church this struggle with a monthly presentation.
You see we may project our knowledge, we should prepare well use best resources we can muster. But something internally frays our senses as we realise the huge burden of communication our message.
Communication in faith work, in children teaching, Priestly positions all cal got talking with elegance clarity humour and much more.
At the end of 'Broken' the wonderful series...everyone come up for the sacraments says the following...Thank you you wonderful Priest.
So well written by legend that is Jim McGovern. We don't get to hear these comments, we don't make those expressions. We have to accept that it simply the way of miscommunication. We don't say the nice things we don't affirm others enough.
But we should.

Why are we not good at communicating honestly affection, love, support and thankfulness.?
Why are we so slow to offer grace?
How can we improve in these areas?

Not present....always been in a rough place.

 Disability, my journey, tiredness and fatigue, my odd energy levels, weird strange thing called` theology`.
Trying to develop get comfortable in a strange place not wanting to form human relationships, recognise got bit more awkward, wrestling with spaces like the one between spirituality and my ischemia heart condition. Health Battle with tablets. Very challenging sleeping pattern early hours, short days, several days a week when `best describe as disappearing`. Not present as l sleep four times extra to the previous day. When my heart gives up it just cuts me out. 

MY JOURNEY INCLUDES;- Spiritual meaning in Movies, low culture, Sports. History, Entertainment, Classic Rock, Country Muzak ,Northern soul, Health+issues

well l always been in a rough place, most of my LIFE  Hull is one letter from hell most times looks like a Marvel Gotham city template, with crime drugs, immigrants, dirt and Dickensian conditions a plenty.

Hulluensions are from a forgotten place, but last night again we rise from the ashes to try congueros the football world trying to join the elite.

Brilliant Hull City off to Wembley after deserved play-off win at Millwall. That's done my heart lot of good plus the culture of the environment in the City has changed a little. well done Hull city players, supporters and Manager plus staff.

The Tigers are now just one game away from a sensational Premier League return. City will now face the winner of Southampton or Middlesbrough. We don't care its put us back on the football map. where many feel we belong. Hull not always Hell here.

They excerised power to own advantage. Now losing that position.

The weather here has been exceptionally chilly, wet and bitterly cold. Like we are still in winter me alongside some of my friends found this actual experience hard.

Politically the UK situation is messed up but nastiness between the elite towards the democratic process is interesting. A vote took place to leave the EU that was democracy in action. Another issue, tack the local elections last week into a place those whose duposyity has been in place for decades now been threatened. The situation been found to be unwarranted. People who should have the power. Decided that the power belongs to them.

Not to those who took the power and decided a change was required.But the UK government cannot accept change, cannot accept losing a hold they have over others. They got to much to lose privileges, food, benefits, keeping weaker in places of submission. They excerised power to own advantage. Now losing that position.

Why does the anger that the democratic order managed to suppress materialise when they are voted out. Why can't the political elite become grateful at those expressing a solution to something that's not what they require. They voted they spoke they can now disappear and work on implementing what's been asked.

Been about longest winter without ....well since we said goodbye.

 Been about 2 years and 3 months since we said   goodbye. The Buzzard flew higher-up then higher up, circling, telling me a story giving me a sign. Most of all reminding me of Teeside on the edge of dirty northern town not far from Seal sands. You told me about flight patterns eyesight of fierce predators. Searched the land below to find vulnerable wildlife suitable for next meal.

This old fool misses his only son wrapped up against the cold while chilly northcoast sea cuts through. Coulers of the day send odd shadows across beach and dale. Day is lasting longer even hint of warmth. But you know this one has been the longest winter without you.

Only so they could stop parties they don't like..not REALLY PARTY NO DANCING

 These Green Party candidates didn’t win any council seats you’ll be pleased to know. Heard people were going to vote tactically today by selecting candidates from one party only so they could stop parties they don't like.. I voted for Lib Dem's so that we can keep ------ (add your own preference). Which is my the aim! Well how sad is that ?

Retired pastor Clive Johnston has been convicted for preaching on John 3:16 within one of Northern Ireland’s controversial abortion censorship zones.

The former President of the Association of Baptist Churches in Ireland, who is being supported by The Christian Institute, has been convicted of two charges under the Abortion Services (Safe Access Zones) Act for holding an open-air service on the fringes of a buffer zone opposite Coleraine’s Causeway Hospital last year.

Now here's the rub and many of faith community, followers of Jesus don't wish to communicate. (My tribe).

He is causing distress.

he is behaving oppressively.

he is being harsh not necessary. 

There is protection for these people at vulnerable disturbing experience, the journey may not be yours or mine. But its there Journey. If you wish to influence them offer a place nearby where they could come and sit have a cuppa talk to people of the same gender. Its simple and able to deliver this alternative. But no that would never happen because it would mean putting your self out serving others and may not get publicity and profile.

The journey may not be yours or mine. But its another persons Journey. Its painful hurting journey full of, l would imagine discomfort, and sorrow. But Male wants to be in the spotlight first and for most.

My health kicked in and its bit challenging.

My health been challenge but not as half as challenging getting some anti biotics from the surgery so the triage question included issues around sexuality age, trans question, female and my pregency. Told them to SOD OFF.  You know going to be ill don't need this stupid question and answer hurdles.

                                  Hull one letter from Hell, Reform are voted into the political climate and tonight's its the playoff round one. Hull City's record against their play-off rivals Millwall may be positive going into this weekend's semi-final. But these exciting games are difficult to navigate as a fan, there are pretty nail biting. Plus the prospect of playing in Premier league for ' lowly Humble club' and city has been rewarding. One bonus plus, allowed some good discussions.

Mostly we just don't quite grasp how precious this thing called faith is.

 Do you like myself, sometimes long for understanding. For a sense of wholeness. For a way to gently weave bringing together what we believe, the myth that we know as Faith in Jesus. Then we should share what we often experience, it does something special holding Faith.

Really odd because l'm nothing special , probably pretty boring, if one chooses to examine LIFE I live. The Faith thing is a bit of a mythical thing but it has quietly lived within myself perhaps you are the same. Journeys are special, beautiful and you will understand if hold a Faith understanding.

However you got here, We've got to share it acknowledge this and treasure this thing called faith. Christian belief. Religious experience , whatever you call this, it's been with you and never left. It really is WOW, but why are we keeping quiet sometimes embarrassed?  Mostly we just don't quite grasp how precious this thing called faith is.

In church today some one shared with myself that they visit Church to light a candle and say a prayer for a son and a daughter who died. Listened quietly they left but they had found something precious in the event they still feel deeply.

Just a pre election local political day.

 It's important we follow guidelines for political moments and don't make any leaning statement these days.