A sell out a compromise

What does poverty mean? Not being able to meet your basic needs - rent, bills, birthday presents for your children. It means missing out and not being able to take part in society - feeling excluded and ashamed

It means others compromised own actions

So that your powerlessness is their trophy

Paid poverty talkers all removed from harsh reality of UK poverty.

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If this was not true 

They would be more active on clients base.

this neighbourhood

The sorrows o’ God must be ’ard to bear

If ’E really ’as Love in ’Is ’eart,

And the ’ardest part i’ the world to play

Must surely be God’s part.

Studdert Kennedy 

THIS WINTER FEELS A
LONG ONE ON THE
NORTH SEA COAST 

MORE ISOLATED
LESS DEPTH TO THE CONVERSATIONS 

SOME ODD THEOLOGY
INCREASED SENSE` NOT FITTING IN`
THAT THE NARRATIVE OF MY LIFE
IT WAS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS
IN THE NEIGHBOURHOOD...THIS NEIGHBOURHOOD.

“Our goal should be to live life in radical amazement. ....get up in the morning and look at the world in a way that takes nothing for granted. Everything is phenomenal; everything is incredible; never treat life casually. To be spiritual is to be amazed.”

― Abraham Joshua Heschel

STICKIN` WITH A FILM AGAIN...

`They believe in the kingdom come and the person who came`.

BEEN TRYING TO WATCH A FILM CALLED 

ETERNAL  SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND

very confident not going like it..very convoluted.

around 200 period, but in a stick with it mood....hence... 

 . . .`Come back and make up a good-bye at least.

Let's pretend we had one . . .`

Not saying goodbye nor giving true reason can be desperate sign of an individual who cannot move on..Going to suggest its also abusive about someone owning power. . . type of emotional literacy

You spend DECADES,yeah that long, 

Seriously that much 

time with someone, 

only to find out 

she's a stranger.

Know lot of people in those types of relationships.Lacking real community nor sense of belonging to each other nor wider neighbours.Because to change would perhaps suggest failure.Maybe there a kinda success in staying where you are comfortable.
"Eternal sunshine" is a metaphor for ongoing peace, happiness, carefree. So  'Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind', is describing the happiness and joy one can experience Once the negative experiences it spots have been removed from your LIFE.

Well that does not sound either easy nor possible.even not sure l would desire this concept.

However said this before.."growth does not reside in a place called comfortable;"

Another winter day in Northern town

Strong winds been blowing but day becomes quite sunny
despite weather being what we call brisk along with chilly ...spent time with others...my nephew LAW who is such joy Bro Chris bringing him up alone..despite this he remains humble ..what thrilled myself help me understand is the presence friends in their life..all encourage

Days send these funny images at end when cold envelope, temperate drop,...darkness enters the realm.
Oddly enough found of late that TV brings little Entertainment nor value to many,
there was time when winter, along with dreariness would have us all consulting TV guides,
Sharing what we watched. feel no longer evident.

The Church and those of the Christian faith need to accept that many are no longer looking!Modern life prevents many from engaging with spiritual ,They are not leaving Faith

But this they have found,`they believe in the kingdom come and the person who came`.The Others (lost).. have not searched and found no interest in Christianity...simply In 2020 they are not searching.The Church and those of the Christian faith need to accept that many are no longer looking!Modern life prevents many from engaging with spiritual ,They are not leaving Faith or rejecting message nor are they rejecting Christian faith.

They (the many) are simply not engaging.

DIFFERENT . . .THAT THE BE ALL OF OUR TIMES

Christians are part of a nation that faces new opportunities as well as new challenges.
Everyone accepts that Brexit will change the economy, jobs, trade, fisheries and agriculture.
Whether the impact is good or bad largely depends on your Brexit viewpoint.

It very much in my reckoning .Nothing will change....(like the millennium bug...you may not recall but 31 12 1999signalled the end of computers Whole series of other stuff. )
Everything was going to crash and burn, but at 1 second after 31/12/1999
guess?
NOTHING happened, life went on as before OTHER things affected myself  . . but they aligned with LIFE in general, Death of both parents followed, thankfully over two Decades. FA  lost someplace...I moved here and there.Fell in love with a country and visited every year since the new millennium there was always a lose. Further,we all learn, mostly always be some gain..Health faltered..Faith grew..it emerged so do l.

LIFE

The fourteenth season of The Real Housewives of Orange County

This is the final season for longtime housewives `Vicky also Tamrs Judge'.

There can be some very difficult emotional literacy displayed, unsure if it comes across to others.Supportive words, bitchiness hurtful stuff aired.lot of .."my life does not add up"... moments.Emma in series 14 esp 4 quote, " am feeling a failure....as Lawyer...wife...parent..friend..."

Gina ..opened up suggesting that often LIFE is simply hard.

 "It should not be but it so harsh,we are just surviving."

IMAGINE if they could be transported to Yorkshire, they could see some

proper challenge,know that sounds judgemental but reality is that money ,along with lifestyle experience.

Makes opportunities much easier for better life 

some life learning surrounding Hull city.

There comes a point where the team spirit is destroyed by a lack of intent at the top and we have apparently reached that point. When most  clubs rake in large amounts for players SOME of the money is recycled to ensure there isnt a large hole and to also demonstrate the owners arent just selling off to cash in on any asset they have. It is pretty clear that we are not one of those clubs.

There comes a point where team spirit is destroyed , many issues affect, a lack of intent at the top ,we have apparently reached that point.  Most clubs rake in large amounts for players. The money is recycled to ensure there isn't a bigger issue, lose of players form, and league position. Further demonstrate the owners not just selling off to cash advantage.Neither are other asset sold. It is pretty clear that Hull City is not one of those clubs.We are spending peanuts to replace and the result is a lot of ordinary talent now on our books.

We are spending peanuts to replace and the result is a lot of ordinary talent now on our books.

WHAT A GOOD LOOKING FELLA THE.. `SPIRITOFTHESTREETS`.. HAS BECOME NEVER APPEARS TO AGE EITHER

CofE attacked for holding to biblical position on sexual relationships

The Church of England has been attacked by LGBT campaigners – including some of its own bishops – for stating it will stick to the biblical position on sexual morality.

WHAT A GOOD LOOKING FELLA THE.. `SPIRITOFTHESTREETS`.. 

HAS BECOME NEVER APPEARS TO AGE EITHER

get out a piece of Vinyl spend time, listen to songs

Sometimes just need to pick up a book
sit listen to voices on Radio
get out a piece of Vinyl spend time reading notes listen to songs
healthy living well being of you is simple as that

life ends sometimes
another door opens,
we miss a person,
recall some moment.

strong belief in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual conviction rather than proof. "bereaved people who have shown supreme faith"

How can l be a Christian, the followers of Jesus have been responsible for horrendous abuses, plus terrible evils.Pointless to ask the person “What abuses and evils?” , Actuality all recognise the so-called Christians have committed horrendous abuses with other terrible evils in human history, plus still do today.

It is my experience this one of the most commonly used arguments against Christianity—we “Christians” have committed horrendous abuses  further terrible evils often against helpless people.

HULL CITY BUYING REJECTS AS WE HEAD TO RELEGATION BATTLE IN 2020

Goodbye to two Hull city players this day.

Jarred Bowen 
Kamil Grosicki

Fans knew that they had a talented player on their books from the get-go. In his final full month of Premier League football before the Tigers returned back to the Championship, Grosicki was named as the Premier League’s Player of the Month for April 2017.
Jarred Bowen’s preference is a move to West Ham, despite being chased by Crystal Palace, which would see him play under David Moyes also be re-united with former City teammate Robert Snodgrass.
The premier league littered with many ex city players include Maguire and James at Man utd, Newcastle, Southampton are host of clubs currently have HCFC players turning out most games.
Sad really.

what can we learn ...
to NEVER trust an Egyptian
out of a tent not in the desert...What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.

BEING A BIT RURAL AND SEAFRONTISH

Lived by the sea for last 13 years...lived pretty remotely for around 17 years maybe 22 out last 25
Include Surrey for one year along with coastal northern for rest of the time....released not a `city boy`something in me that needs to realise emerge into another place..kinda need company along with facilities which in Rural community with limited, indeed stretched resources life becomes more of a challenge ..health effects the issue a lot 

Walks along seafront are often blighted by thoughtless act of Dog walkers and mess they leave.Simple act like cleaning up foul left by Pet would improve environment for all.

Just before our love got lost you said"I am as constant as a northern star "
I said Constantly in the darkness

Ask again?

The US evangelist, and son of the late Billy Graham announced an eight date tour of the country last year. He was due to visit the ACC in Liverpool on 12th June but the venue says that now won't happen because of the "divisive impact this event is having in our city".

A number of MPs have added their voice to the growing concern over an upcoming visit to the UK by US evangelist Franklin Graham.

SPAC Nation, based in Croydon, large church that attracts mainly black people, is being investigated by the Charities Commission, the Metropolitan Police also for safeguarding concerns plus financial concerns. 

Church says it offers people hope and an alternative lifestyle, encourages people to hand in drugs and weapons, Claims the lives of young people being transformed, by mentoring schemes and lifestyle evangelism.

We (Christians), blame society for a great deal of spiritual concerns, but it our behavior that biggest issue. There has been this whole business of secularization, Sundays are simply nowadays an ordinary day.

The music we promote, films ,some books. The life we lead .Issues fail to address, People we are. People we are becoming. Emergence into a society that explores deeper, It questions longer ,changed outwardly.

 The emergent church tends to find creative ways of coming together, like sitting on sofas, using candles for lighting, painting the walls—strange and different things like that—because it's fresh and new and it gives release to different peoples' expressions, and so on.

There is a movement away from Church as others believed it to be, into less formal more experimental type of experience. This l favour the discussion sharing ideas of faith journey. some say the following...

If you try to push them on what they believe they don't like to tell you.

There remains for me a deep worry when select few are cult based not allowing discussion or dialogue ….witnessed this recently it subtle done quite damaging. When happened to myself it not been till later, When reflect that l become aware what's really happening!

 Emerging Church movement is an amorphous sort of loose-knit association of churches that have decided that there is value - there is even virtue - in uncertainty about Scripture. The bottom line in the movement is they believe that we aren’t even supposed to understand precisely what the Bible means.

You see here my own dilemma, accept that, but want some discussion. however many in modern Church are afraid of people like myself who ask. Yes that`s our big sin.

We ask. Why this.. But feel that...why not in this way.. How is that relevant..it may be scripture but is it true today?

nakedness of feelings. . . . .

When I was young my heart was young then too
Anything that it would tell me
That's the thing that I would do
But now I feel such emptiness within
For the thing that I want most in life's
The thing thing that I can't win

life . . . listened to interesting discussion on series <14 ep2=""> 
 `real housewives of Orange county`...
emotional literacy was magic,as two ladies shared ,one commented..
`Enough of your issues`.. 
then stumbled to tell the other lady that her husband of twelve years be having an affair....but they struggled to speak sitting against wall...turning away
standing up then sitting forward...eventually spilled out the issue..
ending with this statement.
Gina Kirschenheiter, Got Emotional When Discussing Divorce,
 other life daily Struggles: "I've Had a Hell of a Year"

..`struggled to open up about this`..So, it is really difficult to navigate through this."

Been interesting watching body langue, movement of words, nakedness of feelings.
its the style of programme, l watch where interaction, informs examines growth Human development.

l don`t run from difficult questions around faith

The historical understanding of the Holocaust is a matter of “religion.” 
Does this present generation have minimum clue
of what the Holocaust was all about, or do they care?
Its Question feel compelled to ask?
They appear to not know much about the holocaust. Why? It`s taboo to question the holocaust. The moment you do that you can mistakenly be labelled anti-Semite.
 In many European countries you will be prosecuted if you question it or deny it. 
The only way to know whether it took place is to allow free discussion. 
Will the Zionist lobbies in Europe also allow discussion around the attitude by
present` secular state` of Israel to its neighbours.

The neighbourhood bully he just lives to survive
He's criticised and condemned for being alive
He's not supposed to fight back, he's supposed to have thick skin
He's supposed to lay down and die when his door is kicked in
He's the neighbourhood bully.

The neighbourhood bully been driven out of every land
He's wandered the earth an exiled man
Seen his family scattered, his people hounded and torn
He's always on trial for just being born
He's the neighbourhood bully.

now l don`t run from difficult questions around faith

but wrestle sometimes treasure the questions.

Treasure the questions as they rage in my mind,treasure the questions some day I will find

 ran out of answers such a long time ago,treasure the questions wherever I go.

"how can God be more glorious by letting evil exist?"

Authority day

Authority day
Here l am.... out sending codes
spending monies
filling in forms
standing in line
they got me
they got you
until we rebel
we stuck here
standing in line waiting for the man

Self serving faith

Been odd started thinking  . . . .return to those presenting `a personal Jesus`
He is mine and mine alone
YouTube worship Karaoke songs about my faith,
my life,my source of redemption
My journey,my eyes upon you,
Sadly there a Lack of empowerment ,also sadly no participation,results very poor practice
My testimony, with my family, praying a `heaven entry prayer`





Form of spiritual masturbation

Self Centred theology, Irrelevant to neighbours or community live among.

Discussion earlier today someone else has formed view,
 that this was `conservative` view beginning with Thatchers.
There is no community,  .  .  . you can achieve for self
Good chat as another reflected truth around those who belief is . .`self owned personal Jesus`.

All about self ,we have personal Jesus, not for sharing,lack true Faith,
belonging to culture self serving,
Rooted in political outlook we have adopted in small part of rural Church.

Unsure how we emerge into something more valuable to others
More valuable to the world
More valuable to community's we are placed among

pile of rumble like the dream to live by the coast

Walking along my beautiful coast along the east riding of Yorkshire
it very sad.
Because noone really cares about the nightmare that was once the homeowners dream life.
We know that coastal erosion is taking place.

ERYC Authority took council taxes
then abandoned the people to the elements.

Without protection,Support or advice

OK l get that LIFE
Recognise ,It a part of life...but again its harsh part of life for those dwelling here.....
Put yourself among them walk in their beach trunks and sandals...
imagine sand in your flip flops,
look up towards the cliff,
your home will soon be on the beach,
On the beach
but it wont be your home 
it will be a pile of rumble like the dream to live by the coast 
The nightmare that is presently LIFE ....for many uncomfortable and real issue.

against authorities,

Authority 
word that brings issues every-time hear it 
passport
economy
housing
travel
daily routine
even Church loves Authority
every day subjected to Authority
actions taken by people in Authority
wrong hurtful very often
still if l was offered chance to be Authority 


Bet l would jump at the chance
perhaps to change how Authority deals with people under authority

For our struggle ....against the rulers, against authorities, against powers of
this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 

Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

don`t get this blessing business.

l get it that life not easy
l get it that growth is about tackling  . .finding solutions to problems
but don`t get this blessing business.
Perhaps am just one of those unfortunate people 
not sure maybe my faith not strong enough, or me just in wrong place at wrong time.All of the time.

Some people present faith as a prosperity culture so the bigger your faith more blessings.

But don`t subscribe to that theology, . . . .it places many into the excluded zone

it about `your faith` works

which is not the same as `by your faith in the lord`.

Nor his `faithfulness to you`.

Thinking for a while now that been kinda going to wrong Church getting sucked into wrong ideas...which for a free thinker like myself that not good.

Church has always been piece meal for myself.