everything has reason

Doctor   

Appointment   

Blood taken   

Sample

Tests  

Cardiac unit   

discussion  

Results  

Feeling tired   

Medication

Thank God its life

life after school

Found faith and this feeling of surety around God, his son Jesus, was with me,despite up and the downs success, achievements, failures measured in my life.

That feeling of God with me ,relevance of Jesus teachings stays.

Wrestled with what Music should l Listen To, As DJ this was issue.

Than films where the themes suitable, would l become compromised

Where does l go, who do l hang around with. Complicated enough as young adult older teenager but add faith element stress increased.

Working stuff out.

Getting grips with values verse beliefs

Testify or keep quiet

Witness or be ashamed

All hot topics

But plenty good folk around in Church, at Cottingham road to share views with, we had `after Church fellowship`, good sermons, encouraged seeking answers.

In Gym good people as well.

Emotional literacy we grew up in, well it was rich.

                  Me today, suppose that l am result of their investment.

Time people took to listen. Not just to myself but friends, siblings, some strangers.

Life shared with my own

Discussions we involved with.

Quiet moments encouraged not to walk away from.   Longer periods of discipleship,       

Nurturing, further one to one mentoring.

All beginning to mould myself.

.Been expelled from School Not help my start in Adult life.

Jordy de Wijs came up trumps with his first goal in English football to earn Hull City a 2-1 win over Wigan Athletic last night, a result that keeps the Tigers within five points of the play-offs with five games to play.

faith journey carries on...

One thing was becoming clear this following Jesus was not easy, being a Christian nothing like  expected....felt on the edge and left out...when your teenager such feelings are `bread and butter `of LIFE.

Not learnt that yet.. . .

Been expelled from Hull Crammer school, which was a rotten school to attend,
did Not help my start in Adult life.
Left School not one Qualification.....nothing but walked into several jobs settling as apprentice tailor.
forget 9-5 this was 08.00 until 18-30,most holidays included and long hours with little pay.

Schooled in different way at feet of a concentration camp survivor Mr Todryk at `witham` in Hull.
Here l was learning about trade, equal about life,stewardship,skills,wickedness Bronsilaw had endured in his life time.
People, time passed but was grateful exposed to many different people very different customs.
It was again rich even though remain like now,monterrey poor.

The Greeks in ancient times saw Venus, Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn and observed that they wandered through the sky moving in a seemingly aimless way. They called these planets asteres planetai (wandering stars). The planets were not, however, wandering. They were revolving around the sun. It was the finite view of human beings that made them seem like wanderers.

Human eccentrics move in a seemingly aimless way, too. Their movements make them seem like wanderers to other human beings with finite views. They don't wander aimlessly, though. They revolve around a different place.

Wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then

2019 UK

•   Social enterprise now provides debt advice,
•  Credit union, 
• Food and furniture shops, 
• Moses baskets of baby things for new mothers ,
• Housing co-op. 
• 125 volunteers playing their part.

Guardian on Monday...... this feels like a beleaguered community at its best in the face of terrible adversity.

As my faith grew, my environment changed moved from closed ` . .muscular Christianity` . . model of youth work into social engagement, type of open and outreaching Model.

I did not know these names, styles, or approaches, yes l was naive but was also growing.

GOD working out stuff in me....yes me...

My little Church at Cottingham road nurtured myself and few others. Our Minister David plus several others were supportive.

Life Was taking place but we was still so young,

 It was the late 70`s and early 80`s.

Guess Bod Seger puts its best when he sang . . .

“Wish l didn`t know now ...What l didn`t know then....

Against the wind...

Poverty . . . .

Becoming more an issue and along own awareness which like now as then was hard....poverty was becoming an issue growing issue....

since you became religious you never bother with us….

At the moment I am feeling some stress this in me creates,
wee bit of tension - 
Kevin scratching own depths.

l was new in my faith journey 
Christian comfortable.
But God was stirring and ready to move me to another place.
Had been Christian for 8 months, haircut,smart black overcoat  . . .walk..A 29, East Riding bus, passed`Stevie Branteo `called my name from the upper deck.

He was my friend, he called me out,

Really not got measure of our friendship but as life passed me fast,already knew how important he plus many others were.

We were boxers together

we chatted then he made that `statement`

This ` statement`

A `statement` 

That was, although l did not know it yet.

it was to alter the course of my life,

its direction.

Stevie. . . . since you became religious you never bother with us….

Kevin . . .WELL its nothing deliberate…

Stevie…anyway why don’t you come back to the gym..(Albemarle).

Kevin…OK see you Monday

…

That Monday for sure l was back skipping in the gym even Dave, (Coach), gave a sly welcome back look.

Like the `Dee J` l was forming into Mondays, Wednesday, Fridays gym. Then Church further `nite club scene`, worked with my brother...we had a residency with several clear gigs a week.
Exposed to real world,` fusion` of spiritual,leisurely,practical,economic,work place,life space.

You see,for a while, had become `religious`,

not sure what direction my life would have taken.

Stevie B my mate called me out with love, and care ,altered how my life was to go.

Relevance that was the word discovered that day as we talked on Beverly road, Before returned to the place (Boxing world), where like Church ,would grow and develop so much more then …well clearly. . .more then whatever previous place was heading….

Stevie B my friend, he died a few short years later, even now l can see the funeral and hear the Priest singing..

"my love will be with you ,till the ends of this Earth"...

As my friend was carried into a tearful Church Gathering. Stevie B my friend.

Gone way to soon…

But who l am in part, is due to his smile, nature, the sparring we did ,the music we listened too… a conversation....

Like ,`Forever Angel` he came in my life……stayed, 
Because memories don`t leave like people do.

Social security is meant to be a public service we can all rely on in hard times,

JRF chief executive Campbell Robb said:-. "As a society, we are failing in our duty to do everything we can to protect each other from poverty. . . . . . . .Social security is meant to be a public service we can all rely on in hard times, however that support is being eroded.There is a growing consensus across the political parties that continuing the benefits freeze would be morally unjustifiable."

JRF +Joesph Rowntree Foundation......200,000 had been pushed into poverty by the first three years of the freeze, including around 100,000 children.

WORTH READING AGAIN . . . . As a society, we are failing in our duty to do everything we can to protect each other from poverty . . . 

Really we have sunk this low and it shows ...it shows in crime and killings....shows in poverty that is visible...it shows in the numbers coming to our charity shop on the coast...demonstrated in attendance at food banks...Hurt in life lived..

meanwhile in another dimension

 to my social media life

1. Philippa Hanna Retweeted Wendy Syddall

   
   

   Philippa Hanna

   @Philippahanna Follows you

   Singer-songwriter, Believer! ALBUM - 'Come Back Fighting' out NOW BOOK - 'Amazing You' available now Keep on Driving Hey Wendy! Here's a YouTube playlist of the videos I've made about mental wellness. There are parts of my journey and some coping tools in there too. Keep up the good stuff! Xx https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLRNIbgK0pMPHT0Bc_7ARU_i8FX54kpcvL …

   Philippa Hanna added,

   Wendy Syddall @WendySyddall

   @Philippahanna lovely to see you on songs of praise tonight and I loved your song sang too - great words. I’m starting a group for Christian girls discussing how to help with mental health problems - have you recorded anything about you overcame your depression please? X

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2. Serpicoserpico‏ @spiritodelarue 45m45 minutes ago

   As youth worker can inform you that ..Philippahanna..Lyrics are full of great emotional and spiritual literacy, her stage presence and performance are encouraging to the Audience, even better she crosses gender and age. GB

Dear 2019, Do you finally have flying cars? Regards, Kevin

You really needed to see her daily but once gone, you realised you could live without her but then she returns and you recall how much you miss being sucker punched in the gut...

so you're glad she's back.
Kevin..... `the Wonder Years.....

but then when she never came back
life was different.......what they
never tell you....well its this

they stay .......in your heart!

Dear 2019, Do you finally have flying cars?Regards, Kevin

But the stuff of life happened and Church had told us something from Jesus teachings,

Struggled with faith and was becoming a Church person . . .kinda religious sure of my pattern but not connecting...
But Church like still today was a  model of behaviour.
Many helped me on my faith journey ,sharing,
taking interest in me and my friends.
We learn`t so much about Family/Community life.
Never felt out of place being around older folk,
Never felt out of place being around younger ones and small babies.

Then we grew,developed,learn`t how to debate the stuff of following Jesus,doctrine and theology.
We had no such words for this stuff it just what we grew into.
But the stuff of life happened and Church had told us something from Jesus teachings,
Jesus followers,
Jesus words to teach us about LIFE

We did not know words like ethics...theology..deprivation...community...doctrine...escapology...

Then something happened all around this stuff of life ....

 . . .THE STUFF OF LIFE......

Living here day by day, you think it's the centre of the world.

Somethings the movies teach you,other stuff we kinda grind it out .Perhaps never learning the reason nor the understanding 

You believe nothing will ever change.When you come back, everything's changed. What you came to find isn't there. What was yours is gone.

Life can be like this, maybe coming to `here `,is a big mistake but getting away again. It`s well it`s got to be done

You have to go away for a long time... many years... where you were born. But now, no. It's not possible.
Social mobility we lost something of that with all that this place drains you of..Maybe it in the wind..even though there are no windmills, the affect of that force  . . . .invisible it still here.
..   "Right now you're blinder than I am" . .

BREXIT/POVERTY like a War only War have an end . .

Like poverty in UK it will go on and on with political elite unaffected...ON and ON and ON and ON . . . .

BREXIT/POVERTY like a War only War have an end . .
THE ONE`S WHO SUFFER ARE THOSE VULNERABLE,POOR,ILL,WEEK,SOCIAL OUTCASTS

YET AGAIN

tattooed upon my soul

Anywhere but here now in this long NOW
But (this week )
it all injections...tests...bloods..conversations..
Health,vocation,managing illness,lack of economic wealth....

narrative feels spent.....tattooed upon my souls is the beginnings of life.....Working class kid,from housing estate in one of the most blighted City's in Europe.

Enough time perhaps for that conversation...cup of tea

Some thoughts will turn to the events, further facts, about events 2019 years ago (Approx)

Who was Barabbas? He wasn’t a common criminal, but a national hero. Barabbas was a revolutionary leader who had led an insurrection against the Roman occupation and killed someone — probably a Roman soldier or a Jewish collaborator. 
Some ancient manuscripts give us the revolutionary’s full name: Jesus Barabbas, that is, Jesus Son of the Father. 
Jesus Barabbas is a rival messiah, a rival to Jesus of Nazareth. 
Jesus Barabbas advocated killing our enemies; Jesus of Nazareth taught us to love our enemies. 
If we think that killing our enemies is compatible with Christian ethics, we are in effect saying, “Give us Barabbas!”




Kinda convoluted but message ,sermon is clear....as we walk slowly in a secular, post modern society, towards Easter.

Some thoughts will turn to the events, further facts, about events 2019 years ago (Approx)

 that feeling in my heart not disappeared,still feels like spiritual engagement.

Think it goes like this, Met Jesus in my late teens ,already become aware of and believed in..When came to leave his home. ..(Church)..Struggled felt sad, then (God) ,his voice spoke to myself, that tough one...because am well eldest of, from working class estate in Hull. then as now one of the most deprived areas of the UK.

All the labels they attach to kidz like that already tattooed to my soul.

just a tweet........

Never give in to nostalgia. Don`t write or think about them. You must leave. Pursue your destiny wholeheartedly, Never looking back. Never returning, even to visit.

This is freedom For me and you

So this is freedom - {They must be joking}
They must be joking - {If they think its true}
So this is freedom - [I doubt their truth}
So this is freedom - {For me and you}

From the front page news to the interviews Its sink the reds and left the blues They pretend they're differing points of view But it's only different shades of blue So this is freedom They must be joking --they think its true I doubt their truth

This is freedom For me and you

Never give in to nostalgia.

Don`t write or think about them.

You must leave. 

Pursue your destiny wholeheartedly, 

Never looking back. 

Never returning, even to visit.

Never give in to nostalgia.

Alfredo urges Salvatore to leave Giancaldo permanently, counseling that the town is too small for Salvatore to ever find his dreams. Moreover, the old man tells him, once Salvatore leaves, he must pursue his destiny wholeheartedly, never looking back and never returning, even to visit; he must never give in to nostalgia or even write or think about them. They tearfully embrace, and Salvatore leaves town.

Alfredo's widow tells him that the old man followed Salvatore's successes with pride and he left him something..

Unlabelled film reel and the old stool that Salvatore once stood on to operate the projector. 

Salvatore returns to Rome. He watches Alfredo's reel and discovers it comprises all the romantic scenes that the priest had ordered to cut from the movies; Alfredo had spliced the sequences together to form a single unreduced film of aching desire and lustful frenzy. 

Salvatore has made peace with his past with tears in his eyes.

Never give in to nostalgia.

Don`t write or think about them.

You must leave. 

Pursue your destiny wholeheartedly, 

Never looking back. 

Never returning, even to visit.