Jun 21, 2015

Call to me for wisdom.



The bible says we should call to our `Father God` for wisdom.
That's great, but some don't read the bible so they also do not understand those points
Reflecting on Father's Day
The song writer wrote this,
"Father God l wonder 
How l mange to exist without your parenthood
Your love
Your unfailing presence"
So very glad l am standing here today, clothed in the knowledge
Love and deep protection of Gods Love.
Thank you Jesus, 
Thank you Lord.

(The picture my Dad and my eldest sister)

Jun 20, 2015

BE WARNED MF


Guess what, also watching you
Someone is pissing me off in my old locality 
That`s never a good thing . . . . To piss me off.

Jun 19, 2015

In my locality they shoot you down,in Malta they shoot Birds,in America they shoot you if your Black and praying

In my locality they shoot you down,in Malta they shoot Birds,in America they shoot you if your Black and praying

I grieve



@KevinWllr: grieve forgotten in Syria,hatred in America, inhuman acts on a daily basis,grieve beat your chest ,fall to your knees..   grieve.God help us

Jun 18, 2015

Pound shop querie

Graph of most popular countries among blog viewers

725 views yesterday from all over the world
If you could all just send me a £1
Thank you

Yeah already can see the replies and counting the money

Whats on my mind today?

Just been told the weathers bipolar
Not sure if that cruel or joke l not getting

Right about the changing weather one day it's cold next it's very cold
Then it's colder
Then it's freezing
Saw snow in the hills yesterday 

Many young people aged 19 -24 trapped
living in hostel situations
Also becoming hardened rough sleepers

So 12 members of one Family went to Syria to join ISIS
That simple enough 
Choice they made . . Read about the situation....discussed among themselves
..arranged all the documents...gathered the resources...departed
It was not a few minute thing..

Reflection process and then they performed the act to depart these shores 

Personally l Blame this weather..who doesn't dream of sun and warm conditions 
Playing on the beech with the kids

NO TV For a week ...feels weird
What next for me
my biggest fear elasticacted waistbands
 

Jun 17, 2015

I believe

I believe in you Lord
I believe you are the son of God 
I Belive you died and rose again
I believe you will return to rule in peace

This thing called Faith.



Had this thing with me on a conscience's level all my late teenage and adult life
Often others think that they have a crutch `those peopled faith`.
They believe it's a easy thing
It's consuming affects all areas
Would l trade it  . . .no
It a part of Kevin Waller in my DNA 
Walk  .journey... path . 
Hard to follow..?..
Strangely the normal faith outlets don't often allow growth for myself
Take Premier Christian radio as one example. That does not help
It well hinders . promotes doubt .  yes engages even that's questionable!
Like the North South divide
Exist
Not to enable growth
Glad my journeys not youth anymore...
There is a time of age along with others ..with myself
Pathway of being young been walked

Scripture as important  truth is part of my acceptance
I Believe in Jesus
The lord God almighty
Open to the work of the Holy Spirit
It's really simple . this thing called Faith,
Lot like myself

Jun 16, 2015

The children left out again

"completely unacceptable" for children to be sent across the country for mental health treatment because Hull has no beds.

Read more: http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/

Again we fail our children
The most vulnerable
The most in need
Those needing compassion
Support help 
Attack those on benefit
The world going one way . . .some of us going another


Jun 13, 2015

Kevin journeys continues?



So begin to journey from a blighted community
Held in the past 
Defeated
Broken
Bitter
Old something so very old
But l found home here a place feel able to hide
Walk
Pray
But not grown here
But it's been home

This new place is challenge
New sites
New places
New friendships
Could l grow here
How long will l stay
Not the guy l was a decade ago
But know more
See things very differently
See some things the same way
Faith is part of my DNA
Being God inspired is where l want to be still
Sojourner.   Journey
Got some fears
Got hope
Cautious
Also hopeful
God bless me 
God bless those l love  .   .   Those l miss .   .those yet to know 

Jun 12, 2015

A wee rest period



Time to reflect.
More processing next week l expect,
hitting the road to another country for a while,
Need to take break from performing, 
Breathe the cool air.
Walk the sand.
Watch the tide.
Life has to have those moments.
Some praying,
seeking,
reading the bible,
listening.
Active listening but processing. .reflecting ..that's the mood today.

Jun 11, 2015

emotional numbness literaly true

"They start going to the pub, block feelings, hide feelings', drink, Then do it more, and it becomes'a cycle."
Emotional literacy damages these and the close family friends,
to often in our locality, people shy away from comments
do manly things.
l know someone who is in the allotement shed from 05.30 in the morning till late at nite.
then he returns home to his `warmed` up tea
Plus bit of TV with wife.
Sad.
I know plenty live like this
Walking alone
often Cig in mouth,looking down.
wlaking the staffie, `easy son` as they pull the beast closer on the lead.
The sons of such men often are the same walking and acting tough.
But unable to forge deep relationships,devolop meanings,nor hold conversations
Education and schooling not seen as important,
Interests often dogs,fishing,allotments,footie,crack with alcohol.Pool hall.
Despite interventions often best suited to own company
own thoughts
own ideals
own processes

Expectations and horizons limited to the immedite desires.

Numbness floats into the brain,mind and projected in the body.

Jun 10, 2015

The issues today are pew shaking

"They have fled with nothing, literally the clothes on their back was all they had... we have literally had to start from scratch.
"They will never go home, even if there was peace today... they would not go there.
"What they have been through is too great and too terrible, and they desperately want to stay away from there.
"Their families have been killed, they have lost everything and we have had to start by restoring their lives, even their bibles were destroyed."


While this is going on in the Middle East 
Local Christians argue over issues concerning bunting and being asked to move pews
Nationally the LGBT issue takes up Premier Christian news
Little old me and similar others address poverty,unemployment,addiction,providing meal for poor,lack of employment,poor apprentice in trades,poor diets,young life's wasted
There is a Real disconnect in faith based issues in the UK
System error regarding the world,local community,
Too much local faith thinking on how to get to heaven not about the big kingdom

Jun 9, 2015

Proper issues

Reducing Food Poverty

There is more than enough food being produced to feed everyone in the world! Some people calculate that we produce 150% of our food requirements globally. It’s just that it is not distributed fairly. By intercepting waste and using it to feed people on a Pay As You Feel basis we aim to reduce food poverty without taking away people’s pride.

Pain
Hurt
Abuse
Fear
Lack of medicines 
Away from parents
Bomds being dropped
Hatred
ISIS

Real issues real life real hopelessness
in Syria 
Palestine


Poverty in UK 
Inner cities drugs alcohol misuse
Lack of housing
 life's wasted
Insufficient Benifit
Labelled, damage, educated to serve captilisum

We need a little more concern for real issues many are facing in this present day
We need to have faith big enough to stand alongside the poverished

The real issue is?

Tony campola
"We in the Church should actively support such families. Furthermore, we should be doing all we can to reach, comfort and include all those precious children of God who have been wrongly led to believe that they are mistakes or just not good enough for God, simply because they are not straight."
He also suggested that the treatment of gay people from those inside the Church is similar to how it previously treated women and slaves.
 "I am old enough to remember when we in the Church made strong biblical cases for keeping women out of teaching roles in the Church, and when divorced and remarried people often were excluded from fellowship altogether on the basis of scripture". 

Trouble is and very disturbing
We are not addressing the real issues that affect communities 
Like poverty
Discrimination against those on benefit
These issues not being dealt with
It without reason that we should embrace people whose sexual orientation is different 
But they cannot remin in that state
If we follow that view we are dead
We cannot provide excapt of Alfie style that is unscriptural but wecanhelp support accept the individual
The result s we are taking away resources 
Time
That should be spent on the issues that affect people's life's 
Attacking the Goverment and it's attacks against the poor

Jun 8, 2015

Seal sands with Matthew


Saw black headed gulls
Egret's 
Family of oyster catchers
Lapwings
19 seals
Canadian geese
Ringed plover
Shore ducks
Soho allow duck ?
Tufted duck
Garganey
Traps set for Mink
Etc...
Tide was well out lowest tide for years we have seen.

Theology of some is very hard too understand with differences
Over scripture. Like what's heaven about?
True Jesus hardly said very much
Much in the new Testament is about signposting.
Feel the COE like the CiS (Church in Scripture),is threatened. 
Must turn back to a scriptural base and discover community.
If it is to survive. Emerging something different
Something holy . Something scriptural
History belongs to their congregations. That's people like you and me?

Jun 6, 2015

What's going on in our community's

Meanwhile in Hull,and any city's and towns aroundtheUK a prosecutor told the court: "Intimidation, coercion and the promise of benefits are consistent with the standard operating procedure of drugs gangs in the city."


Violent-drugs-gangs-forcing-residents-

Yet again we are not getting true understanding of the life of those arounds us in the community
We live in at this present time.
Church respond that a hard one we need people active in community's 
We need Christian folk to live in these areas
Must believe that the power of God and the message of Jesus can disturb life of those threatening the potential of many others.i sit waiting for a coastal bus bringing someone targeted by such gangs to a conversation with myself
Prayer and expectation about what we can do must be on our own personal agendas

Jun 5, 2015

Across the border


Longest journey of my life in the car 8hours 30minutes,  

Felt like full day we came across traffic accident guy been hit by another 
The services responded in few minutes several ambulance and flying doctor
They assure us the person would be well they ambulances him to NHS care
Do you feel lucky blessed ?
All along the scenery wildlife weather changes
VIEWS We're simply marvelous. 
Do you feel blessed do you feel lucky
Back home my Vauxhall Passette was replaced after that days long journey.Now l drive a Corsa energy diesel! 
Arranged to meet family tomorrow
Played the Wiithen watched TV
Simple things that makes me feel lucky 
Blessed.Been with good church folk prayed,
discussed stuff, shared theology, walked in the wild lanes around where we stayed. They shared had simple life
May even not be the deepest guy blessed and lucky to be where l am standing now.
Hope you can count your life as one that is blessed and feel lucky.
Yes l have unanswered prayers . . . But l still believe 


Jun 3, 2015

Snap crackle and hallelujah

Most so called Christian music is unplayable outside very narrow audience 
We lost something of the .
Larry Norman
Barry McGuire
Martyn Joseph
After the fire
U2
Missing but stil some great sounds
Phillipa Hanna 
Delirious 
But there lot of quite simple rubbish

Jun 2, 2015

Spotting Loch Ness no not really


Well this guy left wife,home,job,to chase Nessie
Last 21years
I thought l was mental still holding onto a dream
But passion strikes us all
Got stressful week and period ahead
Any tips on downsizing 
Spiritual feel many are telling me whatto do 
Even striving to make my life easy for them 
But that life we have make compromise 
But one level no compromise that when it comes to the redeemer 
Jesus Gods own son
Now there someone to get in a passion about
Unanswered prayers still, will get made today!

Jun 1, 2015

We must display our bias to the poor if we are Kingdom people

The Evangelical Alliance have criticised the last government's economic policy, saying that it has not helped the poor enough.
Their new report, called 'Good news for the poor?', found nearly four out of five evangelicals thought the last government's economic policies did not benefit the most needy.
Lucy Olofinjana is a Research Coordinator at the Evangelical Alliance. She told Premier the majority of evangelicals think the Bible teaches they should work for justice for the poor.
She told Premier: "Evangelicals are really active in tackling poverty in lots of ways, so seven in ten have donated in a food bank in the last year and almost four in ten are volunteering with a Christian poverty project of some kind."
"There's really a sense that people feel this is a mandate from God.
"97 per cent, so almost everybody who took our survey said that we should be working for justice for the poor and that we all have a duty.
"And also a sense that we will be judged if we are not working for the poor."

Always on a journey



Always seam to be facing choices moving work
Which direction stay here or move
Medical issues now compound the situation
The cold it's 1st June and it's 3.5 temperature cold
Need warm clothing
Also very tired today
Sometimes there are days like this cool snowy money challenge
That life maybe should retire early rest cope better with the heart issues
But l have this calling to share the truth
Theology of making simple sense of God in the world which l have been placed

Thank you for journeying with myself

May 30, 2015

76% of all sucides are male in the uk
Most are young,engaged between 25 and theatre of 46

Bad practice ( the remix)

 am a company director, it is a unpaid position.

when l was appointed received a Government letter, very correctly, informed myself about
the duties and responsibilities l have.
The position was offered me after a period of unfortunate circumstances had resulted in the organisation, a `charity café` providing meals for poor. been negligent and lost £5000+
We were also having appointed a new worker not diligent about the probation period, illness and holidays all within short period and six months into the post the worker had not attended any training dates.
Despite this from week one the worker had been given almost half again the hours above what we had agreed. there was no revue of the worker.
When l queried this issue people became abusive sending pretty poor comments directly to me.
This show Christian in poor light as we should follow good practice, ensuring probation period followed and invite concerns, compliments and comments.
Also legal compliance.
The reason many come to find faith is because of relationships that are encouraging.
One of the main reasons people leave the Church and loose Faith is because of broken and damaged relationships.
I am big enough, ugly enough and been around a long time, but it very sad when point out legal truths and bad practice and you are treated so unfavourable.
Very soon l will no longer be a company director of a café providing meals to the poor. 


The reason many come to find faith is because of relationships that are encouraging.
One of the main reasons people leave the Church and loose Faith is because of broken and damaged relationships.
.
.

May 29, 2015

Worried for our youth


Open honest letter by footie player....plus vinyl simple pleasures


Dear Hull City fans,

Due to the wonderful five years that not only myself, but my wife Erica and four children, have experienced while playing for this fantastic club, I feel compelled to write you an open letter to express my extreme gratitude for all of the support and best wishes I have received at this time.

Firstly, I would like to say thank you to you the fans, for the unbelievable support I have received in my time here as a player and I hope I have represented you in a way that would make you rightly be proud of this amazing club. It has been an unbelievable journey!



Read more: http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Liam-Rosenior-s-touching-open-letter-proud-people/story-26592190-detail/story.html#ixzz3bWo9TMH8 
Follow us: @hulldailymail on Twitter | HullDailyMail on Facebook

Read more at the above
Wonderful letter sent by a player whose been released by Hull City FC north of England footie team
He responds by sending open letter to the supporters showing his love for the city
He displays like a few others Paul Mcshane,Stevie Harper a real connect with the game it's fans and the local environment 
Often we hear of negative stuff about players sometime shear humanity breaks through and honest openness and emotions are displayed
Lovly guy good heart and like the others named a true professional 


Now onto other issues
Tough discussion come my way but it all about misunderstanding
Downloaded some tracks of music yesterday
But l do not like downloads prefare vinyl and CD's
Like to have something to hold then listen to it 
Instead of this crappy download business 
Also very poor l like to have music 
In my passion my life part of who l am
With me it's part of my informing
Indeed my spirituality

Let's be honest who remembers there first download
But the smell
The feel
The pleasure
The love given
The sound made of vinyl
Also carrying a stack of CD to play with others
Great fun
Like they say "girl get your records on"
Indeed everyone get your music playing

May 26, 2015

Expensive nite in Malta

A 34-year-old woman from St Julian's has been found guilty of prostituting herself and relapsing, yet was found not guilty of stealing €11,300 euros from a client during a supposed "10-minute" sex romp
A court heard two conflicting versions of what happened on the night of 13 May 2013, when the man picked the woman up from Gzira and they proceeded to her St Julian's flat to have sex.
DOES anyone know what relapsing is because l done a it of it myself l think
Anyway read on because it gets a bit more worrying

The Magistrate noted that the man gave conflicting versions to different police officers about how much money he was carrying in the envelope, with the amounts varying from €10,000 to €15,000.
Dr Scerri Herrera said the man had not explained his movements on the day prior to going with the prostitute, and his business partner was never called to testify by the prosecution.
The Magistrate said his excuse about not being able to deposit the money because banks are closed on a weekend "is no excuse," as deposits can be made 24 hours a day.
The Magistrate said it is "far from ideal" running around with such large sums of cash and going with a prostitute.
The woman was found guilty of loitering and relapsing, and was sentenced to one year imprisonment.
She was cleared of the theft charges.
Well
All
In 
All
It sounds like a pretty expensive nite out
Mind you what would l know
My recycling bins goes out more them myself
Hahahahaha 

Freedom from ISIS scum.

Praise the risen lord and most Hgh,great news in tragic events in the Middle East,praise God.
 

Kurdish forces have retaken Assyrian Christian villages in northeastern Syria from Islamic State.

Father Emanuel Youkhana, who leads a Christian Aid effort to help displaced believers in northern Iraq, told the Catholic News Service: "All the villages along the Khabour River have been liberated."

He also said a local clergyman in Tal Tamar village "rang the church bell to celebrate".

The militant group took more than 230 Assyrian Christians hostage from the villages in February, who are still missing according to advocacy group A Demand For Action.

Islamic State has made significant gains in Iraq and Syria recently.

Yesterday, the extremists captured the central Syrian city of Palmyra, which contains a UNESCO world heritage site.

And in the last week, militants captured the Iraqi city of Ramadi, which is 60 miles west of the capital Baghdad. Hundreds of Iraqi troops died in the conquest, before the others were forced to flee.

25,000 people were also forced to flee from Ramadi as a result, according to the United Nations.


May 25, 2015

We are NOT premier league

Not premiership
Not midship
But we are sinking ship
Down and out of the premier league

Building sandcastle at Scarborough 
Fun with my son BB and Indian meal 
Walks
Talks
But NO tears over the result of the football
Life goes on
Stress city for me and my head as plan to move
Phew 
Tough he'd complicated decisions to be made soon
God bless me and you also

May 24, 2015

hull Sunday the May 24th 2015

IF ever there was a lucky day in Hull City's history, it's May 24. Not once, but twice it has delivered the goods.

The tensionin the city is vital and tangible with the supporters ready to play their part
However we need the players to perform
Sunday in Hulll 2015
Wet,happy music playing
Sat there enjoying cuppa with Matthew pray and hope they still premier legue this time tomorrow

May 23, 2015

THREE THINGS REMAIN FAITH, HOPE, AND LOVE FOR HULL CITY FC

We still believe
`Hope` got her coat on
may even left the room
but Faith remains
along with Love for the
old tiger
thats
is
Hull City FC

May 22, 2015

Cranky Kevin,well sometimes l am.

Once l was a young healthy man

Then April 2012 Heart issue came and stayed

Like a mate sitting near the fire cuppa in one hand

Enjoying my life with myself due to the tablets l struggle sometimes do not always practice patience 

I often go back in my mind to that time before this Heart concern want to run fast

Box clever in the square ring

Stay up talking all night

I want toget up gofer those long walks

Still I pray,l read,watch some TV make plans

But l am slower 

Weaker

Less reliable

Future not so sure and occasional like the author of the following l can be a bit cranky

Still really really miss that special someone ,life it's a journey,real pleasure even if it's a challenge 

Read this poem,reflect,process, Godbless You.

Cranky Old Man

What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?

What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?

A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,

Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?

Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.

When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'

Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.

And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?

Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,

With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?

Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?

Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.

I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,

As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.

I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,

Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another

A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet

Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.

A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.

Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.

At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.

Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.

A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast.

Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.

At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,

But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.

At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,

Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.

I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.

For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.

And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.

I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.

It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.

The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.

There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.

But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,

And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells

I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.

And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.

I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.

And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.

So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.

Not a cranky old man.

Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!



Jesus 
Bloods
Never
Failed
Me yet,never failed me yet

One chance to be a hero the KC stadium on the pitch room for 11 heroesto emerge, we still believe

One chance to be a hero the KC stadium on the pitch room for 11 heroes to emerge, we still believe  



We still believe 
We still  . . . .oh forget it

One chance to be a hero the KC stadium on the pitch room for 11 heroes to emerge, we still believe  

It tough living near SFC supporters ,called Mackems,and other friends and neighbours are Toon army

Would be real nice for the north for all three teams to survive in the economic sense also cultural sense

But not going to happen

It wil be Hull City who lose and OK fine with that as they played too many games without true heart or fulfilled promise


Really to be honest it is emotional,dramatic entertainment,but it is just that `entertainment`

There are much bigger issues to be addressed in the world, then the outcome of men playing with a round ball. on a Saturday afternoon.


That's reality 

Just a funny ole game

Nothing more

Get up play again very soon after

To win

Or lose

Even draw

Some will still wake up hungry

Cold

Isolated

Single

Hurt damaged and broken because of everyday life

Facing poverty,hunger ,concerned

The outcome of one football match will not  make the difference these people want,need or desire.

May 21, 2015

I was there in 1974 a teenager in Hull



Was there all excited.
Loads of Man Utd fans looked like that to us then ,sorry Man Utd fans
We chased them outta Hull,
We beat them on the pitch.
I still hope we can again
Pray it important but in the realm of things this is not huge.
It is just a game of footie! 
The past often arrives in the present
While Hope put on her coat, and left the building.

So today's plans scuppered plans to chill relax, take tablets, and veg out
With a old DVD.   
Neighbour needed help and transport.
Thank God could and did help.
Because had so much help from others
Thank you lord.

Currant reading list



The great emergence phylis tickle
Gotie by John Cummings 
Life of Pi (forgot the author ) but it's good read hard also
About to start book got for25p 'the four witnesses' looks interesting
Just finished 'No Angel'by john Dovas?

Anyway beats TV 

me on a mindramble in may 2015

Today my heart issue been giving me a concern
sharp pains in chest.
Also catching up with sleep
the weather challanging and difficulties still feels cold
trying to adjust my diet as one tablets side affect is weight gain
anyway today will be warm cups of tea and ginger biscuits
we got in the UK a holiday this monday hoping strong enough for a seaside visit
disappointed in Hull City
Further got moving issues re housing and stuff
connected with family
clearing out diaries
reflecting on some theology
concerned that l am wee bit taken for granted
not been listened too as l expect someone of my years and experiance should be
watching events unfold
concerns not been listened too expecting more mistakes to be made
something going on about and around Isiah 43 coyatoes,hyenas,and desert wildlife/nitelife.

Looking at others should not take place till l have had long hard look at self.

Waymaker, miracle worker Promise keeper, light in the darkness My God, that is who You are You are  Waymaker, miracle worker Promise keeper,...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"