underneath the sheets

700 0r 800 years ago some bodies where brought over from Palestine and buried in the
local ground
today this ground is still recognised as consecrated and holy
respect exists for what those persons did when they lived.

few choices

so many people l am chatting with,meeting daily and from further afield are sharing that they are not able to find employment.
such comments fly by...then l pause
this is also the case for myself
whether it by the Internet or fone,news or local content little choices are available

l need to talk about Kevin

this is my one chance at being kevin
how do you think l am doing????????

sofia in Bugiba

so l sat with this crepe and a coffee
the white chocolate running off my lips
the warm honey crepe slipping down my throat



the waitor passes as l look up `are you enjoying that sir`
l know should have been ashamed but it was sheer bliss
l know someone who would love to share this crepe with myself

here's my crepe joke . . . .
my mate said this was crepe
l don`t know l thought it was alright LOL

winter sun

when l am old and need to wear my coat on hot summer days
who will still find me a comfort,a mystery and will want to listen to my tales of the journey?
the winter sun is weak but still a welcome site on cold ..low..long winter day

mind you l been up since 5 unable to get warm
l wear this really old padded coat
l am about to go for a walk along the cliffs so need to be warm

didn`t realise he was such a big child

didn`t realize he was such a big child


In some cultures making a crib of the holy family is a Christian tradition
sometimes l find it comical that the child is from the land of the giants and the family are so small
there a reason for that l suppose
not heresy or blasphemy
no more then saying Jesus was human he probable got diarrhea.
That's done it!

Danger at the gates
recently took this photo at Valletta bus station


With me.....not knowing can make me vulnerable!
Sometimes l just need to seek assurance. . .
Discover own strengths,
the ones did not know l had. . .
always some danger...As l travel thru this life
Perhaps just around the corner,
even in the locality,there is some danger?



l remind myself how the journey has been
what l am grateful to God for giving me.
l have this blessed assurance
but l forget this so easy!
last week l gossiped
it was simple
l was ashamed because l acted with such ignorance,
could have affirmed but l lacked to show understanding
never got the chance to correct this attitude.
l showed
With all l stand at the gate. . . be it Providence or whatever?
Need to be more aware ,as l like you travel into 2012.

trust none but the Son of God

a reflection
partner
teacher
outlaw
rebel
fool
wise teacher
Redeemer
God in human form

YOU DECIDE

2012 A JOURNEY TOWARDS HOPE

l thought and wrote that last year was a tough.
My prayer is that 2012 will be more rewarding
lets seek God and follow the light.
the light that does not go out
peace and shalom to all who connect this way with Kevin Waller.
may God bless you and along with myself journey with Christ the Redeemer

best pizza in Malta

the very best pizza l had last year was in Victorrosa Armeir bay malta
pictures and more to folow

In Hull thin skating line icy roads

tried hard to get a flick for you of the sun rising as l travelled to Hull
it was a awkward and long journey
but the radio and CD music kept me happy
arrived at Mums and had lovely cup of tea and kit kat
life is tuff
LOL
enjoyed giving gifts and spending time with family
real joy

the previous nite has part of my contribution to the big society

ran fitness 4 life

all male attendance and good session

discipline fitness boxing odd chat

good performance

something never change

thats just the way it is.

time with family

here our Polly at grandmas
the nephews and nieces all seam to
grow up very quick
one days it is sandcastles
next time its boyfriends
mobile fones
and pop music

oooh dusty

just found this track on an old dusty springfield 40 track CD
HERES THE LYRICS

It's like looking in the window of a fine boutique
Knowing there is nothing I could ever buy
Still I want your love so much that I could die
But I just can't lead a double life being one man's lover one man's wife
But you can start a fire raging just by touching me
Even though I know we're not supposed to touch
Oh I've never wanted anyone so much
How I wish that I had found you first don't you see my heart's about to burst
Let me love you once before you go
Your eyes keep saying yes to me so don't keep saying no
Let me love you once and then you'll see
No one's ever gonna love you more than me
[ piano ]
Let me lock the door and open all my love to you
All the love I've longed to give you since we met
It's the only chance I'm ever gonna get
And I just can't let it disappear
oh my darling please come over hereLet me love you once before you go...
No one's ever gonna love you more than me

I'm wishing on a star

But l am also prayin

as well as wishin




not a big fan of Christmas.
it gonna be OK this year.
got to keeep fit,
Stay warm .
eat well.
take my tablets!
swim
get my body in good condition

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are.
[follow where you are],
I'm wishing on a star,
oh oh,
And I wish on all the rainbows that I see.

there is talk on the streets

On the streets in our area there is no evidence of Christmas
It like everyone knows we are in a recession and life is tough and hard
Money is a issue for so many
there talk on the streets
l am not sure that it will stay as talk
actions against others will be a choice
action against inequality
action against injustice
there is talk on the streets

there is talk on the streets
It`s getting louder
no longer like a

whisper

cold but HAPPY kinda

Well yet again we are without power in our village small, very small town.Again its been very cold.
So being me l went out to local cafe and had drinking chocolate and scrambled egg on bagels HAPPY but COLD
Third time recently last time was in November 21st before that September
this has been the longest period.

"The whole country is going to ruin",

That's what they said on `Upstairs Downstairs` last week end (T.V.)also.

Somewhere, on a tiny island in the middle of the Mediterranean, several local volunteers are in the final-touches stage for the fourth edition of Bethlehem f’Għajnsielem, the event that has enchanted thousands of visitors over the past two years. The nativity village is situated adjacent to the Għajnsielem main square, on the island of Gozo, just 5 minutes by walk from Mgarr Harbour. Appropriately called “Bethlehem f’Għajnsielem”, this life-size crib, constructed on 20,000 square metre (sqm) of fields on a stretch of land known as Ta’ Passi, comes to life during the month of December with about 150 actors taking visitors back in time to Judea of 2000 years ago. The atmosphere will simply be unique… horses turn mills, villagers go about their jobs, shepherds inhabit caves, animals roam in enclosed spaces and a poor unknown couple tend their newly-born in a grotto

a youth club nite

sometimes people ask whats it like youth work and young people

90% of the time some people would look at the position,
The job.

Wonder how can this be employment?

Just looks like you are playing pool, having a laff, playing table tennis, listening to music, sharing a coke, On holiday (residential),
Playing soccer in a park, Attending a concert.
how can this be paid employment?

what you have to look at is this
it`s a place that is safe.
Where our young people can grow, and develop, socialise,Interact,be themselves.
Discover own needs.
It`s economical viable = cheap or free,the programme must be assessable to all.
Espically Girls and those who are not yet comfortable fitting in!
Away from challanges like ,The challanges of poverty. Perhaps Emotional issues at home

A Place to feel relaxed away from parents and others who may simply not understand the youths.

But a place also where you will be listened too, Engaged with
someone will show appropriate adult support. A place where faith is opened
the adult should be a person you can trust. Who understand legality and its where you can make plans for your futures

when you grow up look back , the youthie! There you formed a lot of your ideas about life. Relationships God.
The world Your place in it! You became stronger and were valued
it was like a second home.

the road to hell

You must learn this lesson fast

And learn it well

This ain't no upwardly mobile freeway

Oh no, this is the road to Hell

sure thing for myself l had the journey from hell last week
the days at present are so grey
today its very slushy and bitterly cold
the winds are a bit manic at present also

my December road to hell (derby)

Well I'm standing by a riverBut the water doesn't flowIt boils with every poison you can think ofAnd I'm underneath the streetlightsBut the light of joy I knowScared beyond belief way down in the shadowsAnd the perverted fear of violenceChokes a smile on every faceAnd common sense is ringing out the bellsThis ain't no technological breakdownOh no, this is the road to Hell
And all the roads jam up with creditAnd there's nothing you can doIt's all just bits of paperFlying away from youLook out world take a good lookWhat comes down hereYou must learn this lesson fastAnd learn it wellThis ain't no upwardly mobile freewayOh no, this is the road to Hell

You must learn this lesson fastAnd learn it wellThis ain't no upwardly mobile freewayOh no, this is the road to Hell

2 wins in a row at the KC

CORRY Evans is urging caretaker manager Nick Barmby to stay on as Hull City boss and mastermind a push for the Premier League in the New Year.
Evans was the man of the moment as the Tigers notched a third consecutive win with a 1-0 victory at Coventry City on Saturday.

This is my one chance at being me.

how am l doing?

love music by the O`jays

l love music by the O`jays
just listened to the full length version
banging along on my bongo drums
that sound like been taking some acid nooooooooooooo noooooooooooooo
just the effect music can have on myself.
Might get the decks out for the kids tonite and play stuff loud,
sometimes that the idea in youth work.

However 2 young lads have been giving committee members some grief.
So all the staff who are now volunteers have to deal with this stuff.

Not the way it should be
l feel in the big society when you volunteer. You get taken for granted, plus it is so hard finding work.
3 of us in this office now unemployed, that is a lot of people!
True that.

working in the old days on the seafront

emotional deprivation, spiritual development, leisurely pursuits, physical development
the four pillars of youth work
back in the day,
now its very much emotional literacy ,key five ECM principle's, faith based, issue related.

As the home of rare water beetles, great crested newts, grass snakes and water voles, Noddle Hill seems a world away from the blocks of concrete houses just metres away.
​
Now, after ten years of hard work by volunteers, they claiming that noddle hill way in bransholme is a nature reserve

who are they kidding?

the picture to the left Guisboro forest trail.

had a good walk around the area for around 6 miles and found this old picture on a plague

cut and paste and this is the result

new paint job Del boy

Bobby from Slough just talking and closed by saying goodbye Kevvy
that was funny 10 years since he walked into the youthie.
Wanted to play for West Ham good soccer player.
Weather is cold at present
l am struggling getting started in the mornings,
The news is boring and depressing,
Money too tight to mention,
l actually feel isolated and in poverty,
Act of injustice took place last week l was interviewed by DSS about going for an interview,
then l was interviewed at the interview 3 times.
Monday again into DSS to be interviewed about returning to the area.
so l am not on holiday,Would have liked to stay away for a few days.

But this was oppression, Thursday interview was 1 hour Someone gets paid for all that.

del boys cleaned his act up

even re sprayed the old 3 wheeler

on the grand central 19 07 from kings cross

here l am on the grand central 19 07 from kings cross,l will

be home around 23.00 maybe midnite

it a thinline between heaven and hull

l feel its getting thinner

Hull v NP (gready git)

James's Chester, insists he will not hold a grudge against Nigel Pearson when the former Hull City boss brings his Leicester side to the KC on Saturday.
Pearson makes a swift return to East Yorkshire this weekend. Just 18 days after he walked out on the Tigers to be reunited with former club Leicester.
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The abrupt nature of his exit will guarantee a hot reception back at the KC. Chester says he has no ill-feelings towards the boss who gave him a big break in the Championship.
City had looked on course to end the Saints' perfect home record after Robert Koren gave the Tigers a deserved half-time lead with his fourth goal of the season.
But, just as they had surrendered a lead against Burnley on Saturday, City were left reeling as Saints hit back with two goals in eight minutes at the start of the second half.

youwot

Thursday, December 01 2011, 9:47AM
“IF HE THAT GOOD A DEFENDER HOW COME WE LEAKING SO MANY GOALS"

wishin and prayin`

wishin on tomorrow
prayin it will come

wow l just sailed away when l heard rose Royce's wishin on a star
and re read those beautiful lyrics
what with Hull city losing
the budget
weather
coldness and damp
l just looked at this picture
which l have framed in my front room
listen to Gwen voice and started to wish upon a star
l did some prayin too...more then the wishin

this is just a beautiful soul song

I'm wishin' on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishin' on a dream
To follow what it means
I'm wishin' on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishin' on a dream
To follow what it means
And I wish on all the rainbows
That I see
I wish on all the people
Who really dream
And I'm wishin' on tommorow
Praying it'll come
And I'm wishin'
on all the lovin'
We've ever done
I never thought I'd see
A time when you would be
So far away from home
So far away from me
Just think of all the moments
That we spent
I just can't let you go,
For me, you were meant
And I didn't mean to hurt you,
But I knowThat in the game of lovin',
You reap what you sow
I feel it's time we should make up,
babyI feel it's time for us to get back together
Make the best of things, oh baby,
When we're together,
Whether or never.
I feel it's time we should make up,
baby,I feel it's time for us to get back together
Make the best of things, oh baby,
When we're together,
Whether or never
Oh woh woh, ooooooo, ooooo
I'm wishin' on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishin' on a dream
To follow what it means
And I wish on all the rainbows
That I seeI wish on all the people
We ever greeted
And I'm hopin' on all the days to come
And days to go
And I'm hopin' on days of
Lovin' you so
I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
[follow where you are]
I'm wishing on a star,
oh oh,
And I wish on all the rainbows that I see
Oooo, oh oh oh oh oh oh,
[Wishin' on a, wishin' on a, wishin' on a]
Wishin' on a starOoo.
to follow where you are
[Wishin' on a, wishin' on a, wishin' on a]
Wishin' on a starI'm wishin'
Ooooo, ooooooooo
[Wishin' on a, wishin' on a,
wishin' on a, wishin' on a star
][Wishin' on a, wishin' on a, wishin' on a]
Wishin' on a star

From the decks.

The view from the decks you tend to be working on the mix.
At some events your a bit higher up
or maybe in the DJ `s booth...
all fun and get a sense of the crowd
can be looking at timing on each deck,
or even got vinyl deck working and twin CD decks. Further another vinyl deck either side of system mixer,amps, leads. Just in the front of you a group can be setting up to performance or live band  
Using another speaker system which getting tested 
Or dance trio or group warming up.
If it in open space outside, can be all sorts gathering.
Good place to be.

how very SAD

Wales manager Gary Speed has been found dead at his home.
He was 42.
The former Leeds, Everton and Newcastle star was found hanged at his home in Chester, according to a statement from Cheshire Police.
"At 7.08am this morning, Sunday 27 November, police were informed of an incident at Aldford Road, Huntington. Officers went to the scene where a 42-year-old man was found dead. There are no suspicious circumstances surrounding the death
Related links
Gary Speed photo gallery
Tributes pour in for Speed

music in the museum of broken hearts

l would like to listen to music if l was left in the museum of broken hearts

l would listen to Partridge family`one of those nites`

Hope l see you in heaven...Larry Norman

Barry McGuire's . . ..callin me home

handle with care...Martyn Joesph...

By now she would for sure be sat listening to these sounds with me..

other wise there is no point.....

one more time

what would you leave in the museum of broken hearts

how about all those young NEETS
Prisoners of conscience
the failed romances

copy of jimmy helms jack horners holiday

cinema ticket when went to watch Donine Brasco with forever angel

gym key from Paradise bay hotel
old Raleigh chopper

form the desk of kevin waller on the harbour wall

l use to have a photographic memory but the film inside my head ran out when l was 16.
The other week l was sat on the harbour wall at Scarborough and witnessed this great big seal swimming nearby
l only saw this for a short period but l found it thrilling
magic
wonderful
then it disappeared
gone
beautiful moment captured in my video frame in my head.

Used to be a time when there was a fleet of boats fishing from the harbour
not so now

blessing is a red light that stops you

“A blessing is a red light that stops you, says ‘No, don’t do it yet, take time, have another look.’ It allows presence to become clear. For our rhythm to be restored, we need some kind of stillness, and a blessing offers this chance, a window of wonder on to what is happening.”

well what fun being young can be
the real excitement being with mates and just getting used to be out with own mates
that first sense of making your own decisions
requesting own sounds
this was Go Large 2011
very packed decent playlist
few technical problems
although using own Decks rest of amplification outta my control

good street dancers and some first class hip hop mixing by KW

2 years of frustrations

Today been another day of interruptions
since 2009 November
with little bite or help from the council
been trying to get some essential repairs done to the rented property
l live in
two years to get simple jobs done


l am quite an articulate person but it been quite a stress
worry
l imagine what frustrations would come around if l was younger and not used to these issues

NICK Barmby has promised to give Hull City supporters a side to be proud of as he plots a bright new era at the KC Stadium.

The 37-year-old enjoyed the dream start to his role as caretaker boss when the Tigers enjoyed a 2-0 win at Derby County on Saturday

by youwot
Tuesday, November 22 2011, 11:46PM

“what thrilled myself about Saturdays game was 3 things the supporters in the chat around the ground `where up for it` ,secondly do not think l have seen a city team celebrate in the last two years,together as much as did on Saturday,lastly already mentioned the sutler style and switch of the ball...”

​

Without electricity 3 hours

since around 5.45 this morning we have been without electricity
its cold..so came to my old office and got a warm cup of tea
no real plans for today
but they have now been interrupted

travel into myself

I will travel into myself, lost in a blossoming world.
I will build something strong
in this heart no one has touched.
and open all the doors and ask them inside,
a host among strangers . . .
I will know the love of one,
beyond my making or my desire,
and I will nourish her with the light
of my devotion all the length of my days.
I will travel . . .lost in a blossoming world

that sounds a bit scary travel into myself
but feel l am at that time when l like myself
kind of got used to this being
that is me ,Kevin Waller,,,
yeah he got faults
l know things about him might shock you
but on the whole he`s OK
and YOU are you OK

love romantic beeches

love walking along cliff tops and beeches
sense of change
tide can be out one day next can be right in and you have to change your route
like life
some day soon l hear there is a new version of

withering heights

l have a quote above from the classic film from way back

The weather has changed and slight hibernation creeped into myself

this Coat was given to me after serving someone else for about 4 years

l had it 4 years

it so warm on a cold day

like today is faster becoming

HAD 4 VERY LATE NITES AND TODAY BEEN ABOUT RECLAIMING SOME TIME JUST TO CATCH UP ON FACE BOOK THIS BLOG AND E-MAILS ALONG WITH PHONE AND THE ODD TEXT

scanning some photo`s came across this pic of Lil Chris and Jordan staying warm a summer ago at cayton bay

happy moments in youth workers life building memories and keeping youths safe while away from home and the challenges there

a real blessing being on a residential