It's sadly FA cup week end. Also washing launderette week end. Period away week end.

Hull lost plus been poor display.

What struggling with is cost, wonder if players have pride in wearing coulers of this historic team.

Also week end, when recognise in UK prices still carrying on going up steeply.

Remains this day, my request. That`s the challenge of Praying.

In this Ugliness, God ask you to be present,
bring the beauty of your hope.

Remains this day, my request. That`s the challenge of Praying.

I have often been asked, in some direct ways , Why do l bother about the God scene.?

It is important and it matters, to begin with making sense of God, religious practice,Spirituality,faith,following Jesus is fun!
Further makes my life better.Seen evidence it makes others life`s better.
Primarily l begin with it matters firstly to me, Kevin and the value,quality of this LIFE l live, among you via this medium sometimes.Also out there in reality.
Why does theology matter.  . . . Theology is the study of religion. It examines the human experience of faith, and how different people and cultures express it. Theologians examine the many different religions of the world and their impact on society..
I have devoted,spent a lot of working life, all of adult period, in the study working out with others, via youth community work settings , meanings of theology, mainly following of Jesus sense. 
it matters greatly that we ponder deeper stuff, find its place in music,films,poetry and the everyday stuff.

2022 struck our hearts. We cried out all the tears. All the prayers were yelled. 311 days. We have something to say about every minute. But most words are superfluous. No explanation needed. Silence is needed to hear. Pauses are needed to realize

We don't know for sure what new 2023 will bring us. I want to wish all of us one thing – victory. And that's the main thing.

Let this year be the year of return. The return of our people. Soldiers – to their families. Prisoners – to their homes. Immigrants – to their Ukraine. The return of our lands. And the temporarily occupied will become forever free.

Return to normal life. To happy moments without curfew. To earthly joys without air alerts. The return of what has been stolen from us. The childhood of our children, the peaceful old age of our parents.

May the New Year bring all it. We're ready to fight for it. That's why each of us is here. I'm here. We're here. You're here. Everyone's here. We're all Ukraine.

Glory to Ukraine!

Happy New Year!

It's Ugly, in Uglyside of LIFE.

 Ugly side of brokenness in our society,

Has arisen.

Two men attacked young niece.

Police stated one of her attackers been in looked after system,

'So we have to be careful around how SIC we approach him.'

That uncomfortable for her Dad and Mum. Disingenuous to the victim.

Further cowardly threats followed, continued, still carrying on at present.

so in my own counsel ask. `Am l giving wise counsel`?

My caution,my advice, recognise has no impact.

Ugly emotions are at front.

What is the point of reflecting.

Further what place here spiritual advice around Prayer.

This is very tough Question to ponder.

But l am here,they are there. God is omnipresent.

Reality is pray works.

So to God of the heavens,the working angels, to the principality. I plead,l request,

l hope for powerful protection.

Guidance and justice . Amen.

In this Ugliness, God ask you to be present,

bring the beauty of your hope.

Leadership is about empowering others

In LIFE we serve others,by work contract.

We serve those in our family because we should.

Commitment to community we live in is part of service to others.

Serve perhaps those who are in love with the best.

Leadership is about empowering others.

Working yourself out of a position, often position of Authority.

Which perhaps is why some cannot use the principal.

Methods that are dear to us, can be costly, such leadership model's when not recognised will affect the individual economically.

A Society that governed by capitalism

Walks not the way less travelled .

I’m thinking now about just how far it always seems there is to go.

 £32,244 and using a food-bank? Worried as this appears to myself ridiculous something in my life hearing far too much. I earned a lot less than that for most of my Community and youth work career ,so did many of my colleagues.

Around less than a 1/3 of that presently.

Reading lot like this comment and these wages, so If true, which the wage may be,but using money in some wasteful method is likely,

Left wondering why learning how to budget and priorities is not more informally discussed, with examples of how people are budgeting.

Please l am asking out of my own ignorance, just help me show me this slowly, show me the way to believe that people cannot get by on the wages like 34 thousand

That what matters. in this world has more people claim poverty plus further more are struggling, what have l missed that has already happened.

Fire Brigades Union
Dec 29, 2022
NEW: Freedom of Information requests reveal that Chief Fire Officers are on average on £148,000 - whilst many ordinary firefighters, on £32,244, are forced to food-banks.

 

Martin Lewis

UPDATE: On the £900 cost of living payment for 8m on means-tested benefits. It'll come in 3 installments

- £301 'Spring' 23 (as its for the next tax year, it'll be after 6 April)

- £300 'Autumn' 23 (I'd guess Oct/Nov)

- £299 'Spring' 24 (I'd guess before tax year ends on 6 April)

I’m thinking now about just

how far it always seems there is to go.

Are we moving forward?

The new year has arrived, doors of opportunity are open,so much could be possible.

We can close the door, or allow potential for positive interactive relationships.

What`s ahead for you and me, unsure.

But forward is the only way anyone gets.

`Still stuck in most uncomfortable moment, forced to pick up the responsibility of our local authorities.`

Please understand that I am failing to provide the care my son needs.

No support for himself, less for those around .

Bigger struggles in social and community are placed on back burner.

You loose something of who you are!

Whole community locked down since mid last month.

Long holidays mean lack of support. No access to legal knowledge required to move in a favourable direction.

Agenda is set against Faith in God.

 Looking

Out at evening

Ending.

Been quite

Disconnect

Slightly

Isolated.

Thinking

If the present wanting to make my way as faith believer. It makes sense, some things do. In nature get sense of storms, hope, a work taking place around us 

Sitting looking out my window, content, but feel society happy to leave God, faith even new hope outside of the discussion.

Finding more and more, the agenda is baise against any evidence, experience of Gods plans.

Powers like BBC other media exercise control over outputs. Belief and faith not how they want society to seek find answers,nor find hope.

Spirit of the streets farewell to 2022

We feel troubles, the gathering Herd
is silent, stand looking out, they feel threatened.

Herd are confused don’t know what to do.

Rejected God, are faithless, no leaders have emerged.

2022 coming to quick end.
Unsure about gathering.

What to do about theirs
or society's sense of community, As herds very own is silent, plus they feel fear.

Gatherings become places.

lack Shalom, even meaning.

But only a return to faith, trust way of love.

Can bring the 2023 required.

Who do you want to follow in next period?

"Whatever forms of intellectual critique, that's fine with me. But in the end, I know where I stand. I stand on a love that lifted me, I stand at the bottom of a cross––of a blood––that transformed me so that I could try to love my crooked neighbour with my crooked heart." Matthew Zurcher (priest).

Take music on your LIFE journey.

Music can change the world

It has changed myself

Can change moods emotions and feelings 

Definitely move heart.

Steady a mind, relax and enable

Contemplative moments.

Music can quieten restless spirit.

Take music on your LIFE journey.

For us all good things will return.

Better times around the corner.

My illness has winning day's.

 

Learnt to accept days that illness trumps you perhaps find have become bit more tired.

Sadness is tiredness wins, in body, but still want to walk along promenade.

Mind remains active, awareness of others, social groupings that feel need to stay away from.

Real battle losing contact with faith community, groups who should care better. Hence that OK because illness make 'the other' awkward to be around.

How l am now seen, spoken with, it's messy.

Sickness and poor health create awkward social mobility. Do you see

that actually understand. Not going to condemn anyone has confident that I would struggle and behave the in same.

Older, less use, poorly, part of who l am at present, wasn't always like this.

Poor health, further cardiac issues became in  2012 my established DNA .

Become now it's also my I.D.

How are you doing, Me have health problems, but l`m also fine ?

Game of Rural coastal LIFE

Sparrow hawk

Buzzard

Kestrel

Several Deer

Cold, waves, shops, cafes, friendships

Food followed by silly TV

Reading a Novel...CD.. soundtrack. .some theology.

Discovering. Driving.. Disappointment.

Playing the game called LIFE.

Christmas wonderings 2022

What is best Christmas walk ever taken?
Favourite Christmas song.
Have  you got Christmas present memory.
Is there a type of pain , Hurt ,associate with this season?
It most certainly a reflective time.
Best kiss received at Christmas?
Very best TV ?
What the worst TV ?
Can you do Christmas without reason for the season ?
Have you had a Lonely quiet period.
How much Noose do you reject at Christmas?

Can get some challenging wrong advice for that day.

Being honest generally these guides can be obstructive, not scriptural to read Bible in ways that commentator wish, can get some challenging wrong advice for that day.

Or feel not guided correct when that days reading does not correspond to LIFE events

#MorningPrayer

Keep us, Lord,

from fixing our desires

on what the world offers:

status, power, money,

the endless wanting

of “more”.

Fill us instead

with desire for

goodness, wisdom,

self-control, endurance,

godliness, mutuality,

and love,

that we

may seek

the real,

the lasting.

Hull City supporters will arrive at the MKM Stadium this Monday afternoon for final time in 2022, desperate to see funny, different year off in style.

Home wins been rare throughout last 12 months, but it will be one remembered for some special scenes in January 22 when Acun Ilicali’s tenure at City began. He finally confirmed Leadership after months of talks.

 

It's not the most wonderful time of the year.

 It's not the most wonderful time of the year.

Nor is it even pleasant, cold chilly busy, tension.

There is a lot of over indulgence.

Unkindness, bit harsh, can be thoroughly oppressive.

Music rubbish. General poor period in entertainment.

News channel carry  stories from around world. These attempt emotional blackmail, aim straight for the purse.

Soft toy Cuddles with adopted Whale,Snow loepard, donkey and homeless child.

Pagan festivals and events lead to bad feelings, more poverty further money charity guilt trips.

Glad it's once a year.

Even more Glad when it's gone.

I did pray this in 1976 “Jesus If you’re there, please show yourself.”

 It’s very good moment when I see an owl. I observe deeply.

wait for that sudden dropping, like a heavy weight into a deep river.

but no splash no sound nothing.

watch until the bird drops ,opening its wide large wings,to swoop and glide. 

There’s a world recognise in nature, way of touching God. for me anyway.

'It was God who made me play like this' - 

Reverend Ames says in Marilynne Robinson’s novel Gilead: “We human beings do real harm. History could make a stone weep.” Especially, I might add, when the harm is done in the name of God.

In Christmas Carol by Dickens, last ghost Visits. l was reminded observes people going to Church. Removed, Unconcerned, while the poor pass by. Trying to get there food cooked, `one big meal of the season` at the bakers ovens.

Tradition when time is up for baking bread.Ovens still warm to cook for poor.

Yes first time l read that as well.

There so much about this l did not recall, or even sure had looked at.

But again got deconstruction themes, along with Church people image.

How we hold our faith is often examined by those looking at us in passing.

Oddly l have become more aware of this.

This is about a different also a better way of holding faith, it is about faith in  another who has come into your tribe, by a business dealing in sports , anyway here goes.

Hull City will stand by a teenager in the belief he will recover and become a useful player,

Yes they've agreed a permanent deal at the end of this season.

New owner of Hull City Acun illcali  " I hope this kind of feeling will affect him in a positive way. In my life I have had to overcome difficulties and respond well, and I am sure he can do this too."

In so many ways we are looked at by others, may we present a kind, compassion, graceful image, but may that also be how you and l live.

Sorry not good this time of year.

 Hate Christmas period

Hate TV at the Christmas period

Hate jumpers

Cost

Cold

Food

Hate how others make me feel.

I know it's lot of hate...Sorry.

Winnie the pooh,says in the Apocrypha ,"Until hearts are created that can`t be broken they will never be any use."

God breathes through us so completely... so gently we hardly feel it... yet, it is our everything. John Coltrane.

@nickygumbel

Your prayers are heard by God.  Your prayers matter. 

Your prayers make a difference @nickygumbel

l replied

Very little, written about,spoke at Christian conference, Evangelical gatherings,Catholic synods, nor commented upon `Unanswered prayers.`

Constant question l get queries about.

Alas what did Jesus mean when he stated 

what so ever you ask ....etc...?

Need understand the flexibility to change decesion

What are we? if when stuck in a moment,that feel can't get out of..you stay there.

You don't change

Don't alter path your on.

Sometimes accept you can't make right move.

But should when you want too.

Authority make our  freedom, as  example,one like choice. That's something that is taken away.

Getting out of society got harder. Social networking,mobility 2022 very limited.

Another need of mine is have access to Music, films,books, image's. My life blood. Something is inferred A truth, issues around justice, find peace in all that noise,in that loudness, what l reflect in this process,becomes part of my Spiritual growth.

when ever feel little low, think of those in peril on the sea.

 A sea bird appeared to get itself into a spot of bother when it landed onto a lamppost, staying there  too long in the icy temperatures. It is understood the bird's feet 'froze' to the metal,keeping bird on a wire for too long.

Lucky,Yes this is true. A fire engine, was dispatched from local Fire Station to rescue the Bird.

where, you might be asking Bridlington. Just up the coast.

Get out very early most days,This has been the case since lived on the East coast from 2007.

The sea is all around when look out.This morning kept the sea to my left.

Love the noise of Shingle on the beach as wavers crash over, wonderful inspirational sound.

Enjoy funny site of snow on the beach as its so cold further very bitter, Waves looking higher as well. Around 6 a.m. this morning talking to old guy on promenade we remarked how cold it looked in dark. Wondered about the people in boats on the horizon. Imagined how difficult life was making a living on the seas in such harsh conditions.

When ever l feel a little low think of those in peril on the sea. It been that way most of my life, that could be because from a coastal town, but certainly been in my heart plus mind. More of the who l am, More of my identity.

Belonging to small group who do the following is key part of my identity, try ask real questions creating honest conversation, debate further ,disagree,agree, dispute, explore further . Grateful for grace offered myself, when arriving and stopping in certain places, along my faith journey

This faith keeps me looking for signs of hope.HOPE in a place of hopelessness. 

But some are so deconstructed, more privilege through education ,upbringing, Parents wallet, they believe its important to question a virgin birth. Where did Jesus get his Y chromosome from? What’s so great about virginity? Further can Jesus stand in solidarity with humanity  if he came into the world in a way that no other human has before or since?

“We’re always doing some interpretation; we’re always doing some imaginative reconstruction. And I think we just have to be okay with that fact.” Kyle Roberts.

If there was no virgin birth, does that make me less of a faith follower of Jesus.?

If there was no virgin birth, how did a 12-16 year old girl from Palestine,impoverished, fearful,uneducated,without certainty 2000 years ago, echo such a Magnificat.

If deconstructing simply rejecting bits either don`t like, appear miraculous, cannot be scientifically explained,define logic...if that`s the pass to belong.

Kevin is self excluding himself.