one moment I will be here,the next gone, left, away with the fairies, living in the new Jerusalem..rotting in the ground.

 I come to this moment when recognise that its difficult subject,

When last experienced near death was in Hospital.

Writing this, well (vulnerabilities here),

it may put me,among cuckoo brigade.

But this felt was real, aware after three days in ICU WARD , coming around from `open heart surgery`.others where in the area, Dead.

Heard weeping as younger male come into see, plus say goodbye to his Father. The other was female, she had no relatives she departed alone.

l was so aware that felt something leaving the arena.Prayed..odd heard a strange song for no reason..

`l`ii paint a patch of Blue on your weather beaten face`.you see somethings make sense. Become aware of nurses talking to myself,  Aasking about walks l liked ,the beach, my DJ work, family .Given drink .

Days passed in out ..in out..in out gradually become more aware.Checked the people had died facts gathered where true.

    But all efforts focused on myself, recovery, return to better health.Soon will be returning to difficult journey, more Heart operations,procedure,interruption, 

More aware.

OLDER. Been again into difficult operation once since that day nearly decade ago.But got real poorly by lot more recently. Try hard to keep fit ,active, mindful, serving, addressing Faith,music, local small P politics.

Invested in friendships,family,community, returned to work last time. Afterwards for years traveled mainly UK, Northern Europe working.  Last few years, became aware that l was failing, the frustrations became real.Feeling worthless, bit useless.

This here is honest level five sharing. Hope more emotionally open, less insecure so this is communication and interaction. 

l write this at this moment for you when it becomes a moment you face. Thought that I’m leaving you all keeps me awake some nights.

Monday a ramble about general stuff..

In my view, it was different back then, not better. Not worse different.

Kids not as bad as we were. Did different things different measures different reasons.

Now it's tough to be younger.

We often hear` if l was young`.

If they` were in my time`.

It cannot be that case, they cannot become us back then nor us here and now.

More tolerance, they are the future one we may not know, but invest in them. it will still be tough because life is tough.

Bird flu ‘prevention zone’ declared across Britain amid worst outbreak in history. The government said new Avian Influenza Prevention Zone (AIPZ) rules will come into force from midday on Monday...seen a far few dead birds around Harbour, along riverbanks, even though less among the gulls. Sadly, lack of Buzzards plus sparrowhawks and kestrels. Very Sad.

“Might I say, we’ve had four members of U2 in 40 years and you’ve had four chancellors in four months."

Faith moving on from first feelings

 So, we discussed about faith.

Sharing how then discovered my faith led to belief in Jesus, 

from that feeling this story recognised was real.

Secure in that feeling, leading myself

To making a personal commitment.

Faith grew. Developed became more confident. 

Read variety of books, best learning from Church folk.

Books, reading, questions, discussion, certainly at first listened other stories about own Christian commitment.

Then discovered heritage, theological rambling, gaining bigger sense of my following of Jesus.

Made daft mistakes, the me l was then, is not the me l am now.

Life not like a good movie.

Damm sight tougher.

Faith if not lived among,further in part of Church group can lead to huge Ego issues. 

Faith best grows when watered with others in Faith community.

Vincent van Gogh was committed to providing for those in environment he lived.

 This here is a chaos, this here is danger, those above are experiencing `what you call a crisis`.

A crisis is not pouring soup over a world class painting, because you hate others.

that`s not a problem it's just an issue to disagree upon.

Vincent van Gogh was committed to providing for those in environment he lived.

In some way he was Street worker making relationship with vulnerable.

Using talent to support others.

This he felt was his mission, vocation, calling from God.

Now, I understand What you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

How you tried to set them free

They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now . . .

When you see the human race as a problem, you’ll soon start to hate human beings.

 

`Stop Oil` Well let me explain , just a little basic they want us to stop using something essential,vital critical, immediately.

l do not wish too, nor am l prepared to be bullied.

Feel its okay stopping you from getting to work even from getting to a hospital – This they do by blocking roads stopping Fire engines ,Ambulances,all people getting about lawful ,legal, business.

Because according misanthropic green gospel, these behaviors are polluting, thus bad, thus they must be curtailed. When you see the human race as a problem, you’ll soon start to hate human beings.

NOW that is the best argument l have seen around all egotist WOKE agenda..

They don`t like other people, nothing l could do would help them.

They simple do not want me nor you in their environment.

Even if we dyed our hair Purple, wore same clothes for years,read the books they read, listened to Chopin and Mozart daily, refused to work again, only ate `Chickpeas and Butter beans in Organic pizza cornbread`..They do not like you and me.

We are the plebs ,can be wasted, if our relative dies or worse becomes clinically dead while awaiting Healthcare because they have blocked the road.

It does not matter, indeed its been proved they have affected life and Death decisions.

When you see the human race as a problem, you’ll soon start to hate human beings.

Sadly Faith of followers of Jesus are engaged in some of these ethical standards.

Promise of new spirituality allows them, not to be involved in true mission, nor being an effective witness,they got something better.

Swings heavy.

They got a` heart of stone`.Not the `property of Jesus` this too the faith followers resent. Many ways rewritten the Bible to suit own argument.

Creator God allows them to have 100 sexual preferences,

(So she can`t be very good at this creating business).

To wear Glitter for a sacred religious event,Male to dress as a woman,before he reside over Faith gathering having folded with a Turkish wrap own @@censored@',

Now Alex is a Shelia, the Beds are burning, more important no ones dancing, nor are any allowed Joy.

‘Let’s produce less energy!’ ‘Let old people freeze to death’ .

These have become the shouts of those from the Faith community ,Wrongly aligned with the woke activists.

Why?

l suggest they not taken faith as a feeling ,own commitment. they taken faith as a badge to wear to enable them to get careers. Then promote a mixed up spirituality, a message of doom.

Faith is first of all a feeling, then get educated in more knowledge,working out in the practice of LIFE so get more aware, more confident of how Faith can impact the former.

But some got a Faith that does not need to grow it hides in broad daylight among the WOKE community.

Thousands of people have already visited this Hull Fair, including Old friends of mine, but my health along with Matt's (my son,) prevent us attending .it opened on October 7, with the Saturday being dubbed as one of the busiest nights in the fair's history.

Apparently so crowded people walking like Penguins.It was very costly. £3 For chips at Carvers.

Hull Fair organisers have reassured fair-goers that a viral video of a riot on a `hook-a-duck` stall did not happen at the Walton Street fairground.

The footage shows a group of youths fighting and committing acts of vandalism in the middle of a `hook a duck `store.

LIFE. 

If l Leave . . .still look again for `Purple Sandpipers`.

Looking for Purple Sandpipers in 

Bridlington harbour..had chips on seafront wall, talked about Hospital, next consultant appointment.

Honest discussion around health.

If l leave "enjoy this..."

Bit concerned about others, but nothing more presently can do..

Illnesses bring change, `song in my head,book trying to finish`.

If l Leave.

Still look for purple sandpipers, eat fish chips, laugh have a cuppa.

Buy pound ice-cream, stay warm in the breeze. All of us must keep on,the fight for justice.

If l leave, sail again on the Pirates ship, fly skull and crossbones.

Remember to bring sandwiches and a flask, soon be winter,wrap up well.

If l Leave, may not be around to remind you.

Bit sorry

Forgetting in all of this.

We never said `hello again`.

But a time will return 

when music play a reminder,

Film will project some image,

good news will be told.

It was happening to Syria

 

Illia Ponomarenko 

We really need a name for a mental condition in which a person has an irrational hatred towards an aggression victim, goes nuts boot-licking the aggressor, and has frantic outbursts of anger and resentment when the victim hits back. It was happening to Syria and we sat by allowed this. Its happening to civilians in Europe and we allow this.?

Lord, I ask a garden in a quiet spot where there may be a brook with a good flow, an humble little house covered with bell-flowers, a wife and a son who shall resemble Thee. I should wish to live many years, free from hates, and make my verses, as the rivers that moisten the earth, fresh and pure. Lord, give me a path with trees and birds. I wish that you would never take my mother, for I should wish to tend to her as a child and put her to sleep with kisses, when somewhat old she may need the sun. . . . . a flock of goats, all things rustic, and to live off the soil tilled by my own hand. To go into the field and flourish with it; . . . to drink in the fresh mountain perfumed air and speak to my little one of humble things.

Lord wish a Garden for all to enjoy,

but individual interest has to change the community we live among.

BUT life is not a garden, perhaps the Lord is busy. Air is pretty polluted society has claims on me.

Society does not welcome either the Lord. the Garden, or the scene we wish.

The way Lord was treated in the Garden had nothing to do with Rustic Goats, nor brooks, Rivers or a house covered with Bell flowers.

its much less pretty then that.

Autumn remaining balanced.

 The coulers of Autumn are so bright
remind you and me, Life although changing further, remains some area's the same.
Politicians lie, cheat, can be trusted less and less. Rich still behave abusively.
Striking workers protest, Woke alignment try to bully non believers.
Faith,Hope,plus Love still very best way.
Autumn reminds me about season ending can not return, future remains uncertain, Here and now where we develop the most.

Only you,only l, can change this moment. Only you, only l, can develop kindness,grace,concern, offer forgiveness to others. 

We should, we must.
This Autumn, spring ,summer, or winter always remains the season where can overcome delimas to still be kinder,more concerned, more prayerful.
Result will be a better local Community, more rounded individuals, Who affect the larger Society.
It's written about in Old testaments Ecclesiastical endorsement, to every season there is a time.
Question is are you engaging with your moment?
Autumn not just the season it's period to reflect changing in You.

Autumn not just a season
It's reflection of how you
May be changing.

Maybe remaining balanced in being `best You` that is possible.
Someday all the coulers will blend into one 

First position was on blighted estate.

The first memory l have of my home town, well suppose is that of coming from area blighted.
Forgotten and ignored.
It became territoriality spiritual warning.
Even though took while for me to invest right energy into understanding. 
Groups gathered, expert arrived shared new knowledge. Like at present they told us stuff which had examples about own life.
These areas of expertise added ideas which were relevant.
The professional route taken, well really fell fortunately among, was on community development programme.
Tailoring trade,where l had worked since leaving school, industry this was dying.
Imports social fashions changed, resulted in less work,less income poor hours.
Another job, a position change of role , never ever felt like work. The change of working. East of Hell 'this blighted estate'...new role, difficult working, total new work practices. Surrounded by political activity, Faith article of social understanding was growing in myself.
But a steady wage. Followed by Professional development,Aware of social synergy.
 

Faith,worship, Church, following Jesus is not a Sunday morning one hour programme.

A Lady who has been a nurse for very many years, either got away with a lot

mistreatment of clients.

Anyway she was seen on TV programme, then expressed her view poorly, with no training or direction about media exposure, resulted in apparently being dismissed from her role as a nurse.

The debate has been hovering around free speech, some are saying that its about ,

concept of the Hippocratic Nursing oath & the ethical standards that all health workers should maintain at all times or do!

But most professions had such standards, INDEED l helped write `Ethical standards in Youth work`. Should society get rid those ethical standards ,like everything else?

Even the idiot nurse who said Conservative voters shouldn’t be saved has a right to speak her mind.

The nurse from Hampshire, got rather worked up on TV live, Britain on the Brink debate, last Monday. At the end of an increasingly incoherent rant about Tory neglect, she declared: ‘And I am sorry but if you have voted Conservative you do not deserve to be resuscitated by the NHS.’

If Faith is altering a society than , Grace is required. Forgiveness is practiced.

If you follow Jesus faithfully, you will be slowly set free from the suspicion, disdain, and hatred that characterize every other tribe.

Keep returning to this Faith,worship, Church, following Jesus is not a Sunday morning one hour programme. Its active part of the rest of the week.

Hull City earned their first win in five matches as they defeated Wigan Athletic 2-1 at the MKM Stadium.

Despite Will Keane giving the visitors the lead, finishes in each half by Dimitrios Pelkas and Óscar Estupiñán gave the Tigers all three points in the EFL Championship. 

Again we return to Faith, Worship,Gatherings,Prayers.

This time its a 1 and 30 minute programme with little for extra time.

Faith is a feeling, that leads others to hope

 

Did the Faith I reflected, today did it

Bring hope. To another, then did they become committed 

therefore so make that hope own personal Faith.

Because that's what faith is, lead others into hope, wanting them to enquirer of themselves.

Too long for love of a father, to feel accepted.

It's Biblical empowerment.

Perhaps later, how may explore `shared vision` among community of believers.

Trying to explain faith in easy stages.

Been thinking a lot about a track of music which really out of the normal description of Church.

 I'm crying like a church on Monday

Praying for these feelings to go away

So do me a favor baby

Put down your new God

And love me like Sunday again

There ain't no use in trying to stop me.

It`s a difficult song to express understanding about, so start with `emptiness`...

that a feeling, If Church not placed locally, impacting its immediate community with values, ethics, joy, gathering places, Voxboxes, whole lot more.

Then its empty shell of what it could, should, must be.

Echo to return, perhaps to past values, time when this was not taking place.

Suggest it's that line about Sunday.

Failing to remember to forget you.  Asking is there that `thing inside` each of us that searching for meaning,happiness, contentment, Faith.

But despite lighting candles, going all spiritual we still feel empty, wasting our time.

Because we need to find a relationship! 

Plus understanding of our nature, our purpose with Jesus along with example,values, beliefs way of life.

Our task should always be as people of faith to speak to the Power, and task that power to create policy's That innovate,encourage and create opportunities for the powerless to be engaged in Power sharing.` Spiritofthestreets58`

Love going to other countries but love going to one especially

l know, Kevin is boring, (if you know me you know where).

Another culture, different values,ways of doing things, things people believe, how many behave to strangers always been inspiring.

Travel, How local get around the Island.looking out across a crag, Sharing the views.

What habits like Church very early in the morning in Mehillia.

Places people dine out, what street food is sold.

Religion, Faith, Philosophies ways in which shape the society.

Variety.

Whats are peoples and the politics aims, values, and normal ways of being.

Power is understood differently in most of Europe. In the UK Powerlessness is a way of being that is the norm for many people.

Our task should always be as people of faith to speak to the Power, and task that power to create policy's ,way of being, better way of doing to innovate,encourage and create opportunities for the powerless to be engaged in Power sharing.

Its Biblical, its Prophetic its a different and better further the Christian way of developing.

Its how we grow if we are followers of Jesus.

Faith, let's talk about a feeling, wish to share.

Is faith knowledge and credited?.

Can you share faith as a feeling or a fact.?

Do you pass faith to others, or simply express something you felt.?

Although Faith is an experience you cannot give that to another,

You can only share your feeling.

The person are a witness too, must gain own experience, therefore find own Faith in the one who..

lets never ever forget the following.

Revelation 3=20

Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.

Serpicoserpico

@spiritodelarue

Replying to

@arveladze_shota

and

@Hull City

Bless your journey,may your life remain as warm as you always appeared.

Monday feeling is of empty Church building ,now filled with unanswered prayer returned from place got no solution

Forty years and have witnessed worse poverty in the UK.

Poorest suffering for the actions of the Elite. 

Issue not presented very well by BBC NEWS. Time for different type of action.

`Meekness is a weakness`, when worse conditions become normal for the poor.
This often is only position for the most vulnerable.
Sunday kind of feeling.

we like to spend time more leisurely, in Reflection, thought, and prayer.
Monday, that`s more a feeling, of an empty Church building.

That`s now become filled with unanswered prayer, unspoken but returned from place where got no solution.

Three score years and ten of joy and pain
Adds up to mayflies on the windowpane
The windowpane

The mystery
Will be there after you're gone

The Air we breathe,Love we lost, folks we leave

Still be there when l have left you.

When l am gone , leaving soonish.