paddle....if you can....paddle

Breathe...walk...paddle.

...love Urself. . 

Suggest we stop telling people how to behave begin start listening.

time we stop telling people how to behave and start listening.

In the church

Politics

Schools 

Wider society

Lockdown

Health housing surgeries 

Imagine place where we took time we stop telling people how to behave and started listening.

Well imagine it sure as hell notgoing to happen 

As we ease the lockdown, l myself along with few voices critical 

of the government’s decision to go into lockdown,frustration has grown,
We are still a small minority. Some of the public discussion within the flawed paradigm of when and how we should have locked down, 

I Ask should we have locked down at all.....?
 Recall was in Malta whole locked-down and expelled 

many within 48 hours some,to this day not got home.

This is despite the mounting evidence that calls into question 

effectiveness of lockdowns. 

The questions also need to be asked ,
Did we we take the wrong course, how will we know? 

Will the government admit it or justify it?

Will the media? Who appear to be repeating each other in naive ways,

Why was the lockdown considered the only path?

Who go hurt by these actions?

What other crimes flourished?

Economically who has benefitted?

What ...when ...will true cost be known?

heart ache

My heart grieves- plus aches
Health ways took tablets ...spray
Slept awoke pain,not been good health ways with heart.

My heart grieves...watch - little boy blue-about Rhyis from everton. ..Killed by a older youth...trying to be a gangster.Evil wicked hate filled act...hopelessness envoloped me..l grieved for that situation...loving family..sadness...wasted lifes of wanna be gangsters,desperate families ...wicked way they behaved.
Still my heart grieved this day.

sounds of long now

Not so quiet
But still odd
Some appear enjoy limited interaction
To little communication
Life stalled
Lawnmower noise
Replaced traffic
Birdsong replaced chat among humans
Muffled grief of abused. . .
Domestic violence crys
Ignored as lockdown carried on...
Sounds of sudurd in 2020

Breathe we are getting close to period reconnecting

Breathe

Breathe.....we are getting past difficult period
Breathe....connect again . .shop...share...talk
We will no longer feel alone

Tomorrow coming

Oh despair. You’ve crept around us for months. While there was selflessness 

There been death

Illness

Sickness

Deep pain

Isolation

Many died nearly forty thousand.They like you and l, the very many made sacrifices.

Today l feel better is it passing?

Then the shabby underbelly of corruption also showed its face.

The reality of how dark it is, has been & will be surfaced. 

But yes lets hope plus pray. 

And you plus l must get into the new tomorrow 

O Great Love, thank you for living & loving in us & through us. May all that we do flow from our deep connection with you & all beings. 

Help us become a community that vulnerably shares each other’s burdens & the weight of glory. 

- Fr. Richard Rohr

lockdown on the coast with excluded

In our societies, many of us look for ways to compare, contrast, compete and sometimes condescend others. We do this for many reasons. A lot of it is based on manufactured offense. Very first step is to find ways in which we can identify with or disidentify from others. It’s a way to separate ourselves from those who disagree with us, oppose us, or challenge us.  bluntly, it’s so we can draw a line in the sand to show a difference between us versus them.

When we draw this line often if we Look up find our 

Saviour stood opposite looking towards us

Coronavirus bringing out lot of dislike to others

Predujices

Keep away

No bikers

Even roads signs discourage others arriving 

Exclude

Stay in line

Non viral

Uneducated

Vulnerable

Aged

Disabled

Poor

Here in the --heart of new Saturday nite--!

As so often news channels don't really bring news.

They bring biased views of the broadcaster.

Loud

Promote

Do not listen.

Hope going to get educated debate . . .One that allow a new view to be formed

Purpose of news appears to me ….

Promote argument

Loudness 

Disturbs. 

Instead get lack of social experience.

Perhaps do not understand some act on wrong statements.

I watch BBC seldom...equally unimpressed by ITV

Wander over to other minor channels RTV plus even ALZER UK

....it works little.....

Got older become more reflective! 

Is that age?.

Poor health days do occur

Poor health day includes the following

Unable to stay awake

Expanded dropping off lethargy .......snacking 

Dozing

Frustrated is the biggest issue 

Feelings

Dropped out of society

Useless 

Powerless at personal extreme.....

Not contributing

Worth less....yes worth...less...as not contribute to most things

Education suffered.

Community cohesion stalled

Again 

Yes again

This week played squash.....Wii games everyday...walked most days

Got up regular time

Eaten healthy

Never sure when healthy day arrives

Plans cannot happen

Honestly know others are worse off.

Honestly wanted other to know what Ishemic day amounts too

Often get few days like this a week

...............

I am lucky....l am blessed....recognise this......its just life.

Wisdom about pondering anew...ole hymn

We are starting to focus on learning
Some say 'going back to way things where'.
If that became the learning we have done injustice to dead plus further those who fought 

Historical not good at new discovery

Sceince can teach.

Society can learn.. grow.. plus develop

my own fear is loudness! along with disharmony,become narratives of the many

people who are loud ,

promote themselves in news station's.

Really wish could listen actively!

Discuss.

Look around for those

 left out of the debate's

Settle less for quick solution's,

Ponder anew....as ole hymn suggests

How much does BBCRadio2 Jeremy vine EARN Really while he lecture us on justice...economy....fairness...REALLY Time to end this shambles fair wage for all care workers,NHS...and BBC presenters

Keep on keeping

4 million children in England live in poverty. 2m in homes where there is parental abuse, substance misuse or mental health issues. 

COVID-19 picks on the poor & vulnerable. Privilege cushions much of the pain; it creates the space & resources to be able to cope & learn better.

ACCORDING my ole mucker Rev Steve Chalke  . . .

That slightly disengenrous...C19 attacks many,truth those already vulnerable but aged most unable to cope unsure privileged ,perhaps most privileged.

Witnessed good support for many 

Churches stood firm with enabling some support

Faith community from Islam ...Hindu...enabled

Welfare groups acted

Lots of individual effort

Goverment in a difficult way stepped up

Sure much more....also harked on about vulnerable through acts,words,prayers many time in past

But here yeah got to say

Lot been done

Keep it up folks

Closed V open

Really sad way much divide creeping into our society.

Although should mean back into society

People going out having been imprisoned

Very little open....Odd Chippies
food stalls..

Toilets closed.

Parks closed.

Cafes etc closed.

Vile words are spoken to bikers going out for ride.

Radio 'talk shops', get councillors mouthing off about,' unwelcome visitors'.

Stay away ...has become a chant,

Heard that enough.

Add it too 

Stay at home,

Stay in line,

There are some enjoying telling others what to do......it not nice.

We need more "open" society

We closed down mentally when should be more embracing,towards one another.

Breathe this is passing..... . we will learn

Blessed are the mask-wearers, for they care enough about their fellow human beings to wear a tiny piece of cloth on their face in order to potentially save someone's life.

Character growth

Relationships were most relevant as my faith in Jesus became a commitment 

Church was stable place to grow,develop,learn ,be mentored.

But music enable me to grow spiritually! 

Movies spoke with depth into narrative of my spiritual journeys.

Bible was important searched there further...but statement in a song,the lyrics

Moment in a movie.....film score...narrative...issue in TV Drama ...spoke also

Grew as my souls was disturbed 

Grew as my soul was moved

Grew as my soul experienced the cultures,language,persons,eventually visit place or issues.

Artist spoke --concerns voiced --issues addressed!

Here l grew

Still l grow. 

Then l dug deeper...

Music some say changed their life's

Not gonna make such a bold statement 

But music affected quality of my life

Movies had affect on my life

Changed narrative ,....emotions,,,,,pain...views

Helped me develop  . .gave me insights

Created sense of justice...big issues

Creative ....views....stories...images....cultures

All informed my social view. . .spiritual level ....insights .....politics

Films,TV movies....CDs...Vinyl....all created in me differant views...allowed internal growth

Expressed pain...laughed.....cried also

Dug deeper because it f movies....music...films...TV

began to process storms passing

The storm is passing its more quiet
Life not so silent
Promenda is more fuller
Clouds dispersing more fluffy and white
Less bird song more traffic
Its passing

Process has began
Society wants us back performing
That how we measure our values

Stop glorify the past...futures dead ahead

Sorry ......please heard enough about that war
Plus that generation which,compere them to
Rest of us drop outs and losers.
We are peace makers
Appreciated all the efforts....but.. enough

                                           We glorify the past when futures  . . .dead ahead

Today suggested.... enough

Poverty is more ripe now then 75 years ago

Sorry not a plastince man

You got to stop being embittered with those of us who do not glorify WW2 

IT NOT MEANT TO OFFEND

Breathe...simply be...you are special,this is passing..

I do not have the answers...but wrestle it out here

Fedup being told stand in line,

Being told to get on my bike 

Told walk more

To stay indoors

Did not like the VE celebrations

More comfortable with peace in Europe

Accept it is questionable we won the peace

I know what sound like....do not like hero worship of people who had togo to war

There was so much achieved and commemoration is well in order

But celebrate

Not allow others to question 

Bullying those who oppose the celebrations 

There is a nasty spirit working in such objectives...almost a hunger celebrate that we beat badly lot of innocent people...while no attempt to ask what did we learn from War...

Do we still seek war ,acts of aggression , to deal with those opposed to us.

Theology around ...just war....

Got to wrestle with this stuff....so yeah may not covered it all..but that's blog

Your supposed to NOT have all the answers.

Father of all.

Father of day
creator of dew pastures
Sand...toes...warm fizzy drinks.
Trips away plus conversations.

Father of night
Sadness..pain..goodbyes..

Creator of odd Stuff 

Way things arrive and disappear.

Churches steps away from C19

Well Church reaction to C19

Silence

Closing down

Not speaking up

I say again.....

Change.. but suggesting that for long while
Reflect . .which something should been leading on in many areas
Protect...suttle stuff coffee mornings,
Belonging, sense of community
Spiritual guidance. .peoples well being ....group work...development..colobrations.

..creating mutal understandings.....inclusion...yes gonna add this

Religiious practices
Places to breath.....

These times

In time like these we have to love more 
times like these we need to give more...
Times like these connect more....
Times like these

now sun mocks us....

The sun is shining and we are ordered to stay
Indoors,
however Church folk are main concern,.
discipline of staff.
Not trusting others,
Petty stuff,
While big huge issues.
Dominate events

My brother bringing up nephew in wonderful way.

Hope you are involved in family.

Life is hard,

Life is worth all efforts.

hardship,tears,discomfort.........just life

Another young person worked with as died.
That makes 24.
Can hear her laughter,
See singing on karaoke,
Witnessed her strengths.
Recognised principled as defended lad being bullied.
Resilance
Tears
Deep sadness
Concern for rest of loving family now battling distress.

New day begins.

Coastal view chilly north east

Missed funeral of family member

feel sad along with deep heartache

Was that news arrived after wrote...

     We are here in long now.... at present.

We have got to get outa this head place....get to be real again

As with Brexit.....there lot of other stuff going on in our communities
issues like......
immigration,

Foodbanks.

Poverty.

Price of basic foods.

Youth wellbeing ongoing issue.

Under employment.

Also little stuff like cracked IT Systems .....mine one example.

People had rent increases...council tax risen..incomes remained low.

Grandparents are missing children.

Lack of social mobility.  

Disabilty.
access to limited services.

Friends wheelchair is broken.

Low wages. 

Low esteem.

Low spending power.

Low place of Hull city in relegation battle.

iTunes and vinyl records......cinema release....price of popcorn.

Big questions,

Bad theology,

Travel.

Holiday plans. . 

Feelings,

Abuse,

Social disturbances, 

Still all there....... just relegated to another place!

Lyrics to songs for times like these...although may be written at another timeline

I—I'm a one-way motorway

I'm the road that drives away

Follows you back home

I—I'm a street light shining

I'm a white light blinding bright

Burning off and on

It's times like these you learn to live again

It's times like these you give and give again

It's times like these you learn to love again

It's times like these time and time again

I—I'm a new day rising

I'm a brand new sky

To hang the stars upon tonight

But I—I'm a little divided

Do I stay or run away

And leave it all behind?

It's times like these you learn to live again

It's times like these you give and give again

It's times like these you learn to love again

It's times like these time and time again

views recent life

Church is capable of creating belonging communities

Still hearing about support for vulnerable groups...

The low pay are at risk losing employment . . 

Disabled will find services are going to be much less!

That not possible..

Young have to struggle for longer.

Again further cuts affected these groups during recession, 

resulting in changes.. after this pandemic,should target rich first.

That change we need.

Here where correct 'system error' needs to be programmed. so poor do not loose ,

Witnessed today few Church's beginning discussions ,around getting rid of staff.

Challenge ahead.

Listen more.

Do not move ahead with harsh decisions.

Change is gonna come.......protect the poorest.

Whoever they may be...

Create better belonging for all.

Church is good at this...we had to cross cultural,gender,
generation,social barriers.

Keep on in these areas

My Plans for this day

My plan for today start of new week:

 - solve climate change 

 - develop renewable fuel

 - prepare talk on the meaning of life

-  Issue time table for speech on Church responses to C19

 - Heart issue fell sleep napped 4 hours

 - find lyrics to some Dylan songs

-  Send text msg so

 - Prepare chapters for curried meal l cooked yesterday

- Discover cure for men of my age "staring into distance..."

This lack of real stuff gets me..

Some music listening to again...

Beach boys.....pet sounds 

Bod Dylan...at the budokan 

Dire straits....lot of mixed albums 

Joni Mitchell two tracks ...'a case of you,...'big yellow cad.'. ..

Santana..... Marie Marie.....

Reading interviews from old melody maker,new musical express.

Hearing stuff differently 

Same with people....desire to understand more...

Death never worried me,living as best has can always concerned me more

This lack of real....

That got to me ,

Being alone

Being detached

Being separate 

That not an issue 

But not connecting nor struggling with way we built community's....that's my DNA

Missing that

Like also just getting in my car....driving...with music loud

That

Well that

Missing that normal stuff

Feel rodded like same feeling  

when my health rodds me of days that disappear 

We re not in same boat during C19 Storm

We Are not in same boat, that a stupid comment.

We are still on titanic,

Allowed on upper decks.

Waving goodbye as band plays,

The last life boat goes onto the horizon.

We re not in same boat,

Not really same storm. . . .

Let's get together and do it again......

 The lockdown is causing economic mayhem, 

mass unemployment and the end of liberty. 

Let’s now be courageous and go back to normal life

.............think go back soonish to how it was....

Just not convinced many have emotional literacy to change

For me internally found few that have processed very much about how pace of life brought us here

Listening to ,,,naked scientist ...agree that we got into this mess by our own greed.

.l...feel need to have emergance test...how will you function differently..

Trust me know comfortable few who worked this and more out..but lot really will not fathom beyond the lockdown

There a certain self centeredness ,that needs Spiritual transformation 

See few looking there

“If we come out of this crisis with the rickety, fly-blown, worm-eaten old structures still intact,the same vain and indolent public schoolboys in charge, the same hedge fund managers stuffing their overloaded pockets, our descendants will not forgive us.” Phillip Pullman

What l am doing presently

Reading more,

listen to varied music..

Watching less TV then imagined ..

Walking further..

Witnessing community breakdown..

See privaleged supporting privaleged ..

Spending less money..

Wanting to be more involved..

Getting less social communication ..

Missing talking to real people,

Finding out who friends are ,

Sleeping less.

Missing special moments ..
 more Reflecting stranger ways.

Cooking weird foods . .

More desire for community.

Realised 'church as church'--not functioned way it should have for two decades.

I was right there!

Getting wiser in my mind. . 

Worried that above nots true 

That's it really.....

C19 return to old ways rich still get richer

Gaps so evident in our society still no optermisum that change will occur 

Hope changes in lifestyle will happen 

Own pray would be for that

But many struggling already so this presently not such big deal

Isolation 

Desperation

Not having enough

Coping with limited resources

Many here well versed in doing

C19 will not bring changes

The privileged ...still be privileged.. still be supported by privaleged ..

That much feel will be proven

You see that how it's been

Anyone really think rich gonna step up and give up

Ha ha ha ha

Now whose being naive....Godfather quote slipped in...hello FA

hold up mirror

C19 holds up a mirror to society
Showing us we are
care less
Celebrity centered
Wealth gathering
Wrong values
Pay wrong people wrong money
Godless
Self interested
TV sourcered
Rrsults in communitys being
Damaged and broken

God has a plan 

Hope..love..

commitment

Different kingdom values..

New way..old ways

Currant 5 words........what's yours

5 words descride my feelings at present

Fearful
Uncertain
Glad
Aware
Bored

Oddest it been so long in this long silence
Prayers appeared to be unanswered
Limited contact........
Used to this...
Really l am

The Maltese Islands are resilient; the passionate locals will be more poised than ever to welcome you with open hearts. When the time to travel is right, we are looking forward to taking you on holiday again, as we have been doing for over 40 years...to welcome you back with a sunny Maltese welcome!

Spike in some things....

There been truly spike in antisocial behaviour.

Local to myself
Arguments, 
Drunkenness
noise,
Gathering's,
This is not place monetary rich. Lack of social cohesion,
People feel imprisoned.
Trapped.
Angry.
Witness 'rich', playing games in homes they cannot imagine.
Full fridges.
Luxury fitness APS.
Full bellys,
Giving to charity,
While they worry about this period, to his is OK for some... But for poorest they get up wondering how to meet extra that lockdown incurring.
Again gaps occurred.

Many can enjoy fact they are rich isolation, a welcome ....

Some isolation, being without, and uncertainty is the only life they known.

Church must U turn C19 return to marginalised

Expecting any C19 budget to justify increase that give pain to poorest our society failed vulnerable
Time after time
Which suggest we got the society we deserve
The most vulnerable where always on t the margins
Austrity pushed them further away
The edges where the poorest experience life
Church
Youth services
Community development
Ended workers support in these areas till we had no relevance to issues
People like me ostracise felt to be embarrassment
We no longer required

We Christian must reengage edges
Discover our voice
Exist again on margins
There God will amaze with his presence
More important then reopening building's

Fearful for young in C19 plight

Already witnessing some disturbing behaviour

In this rural community on north east coast 

Lockdown in blighted low income enviroment

Huge challenge. 

Gatherings taking place odd times

Loudness also young people sat alone hidden on seafront

Spoke to one know yesterday.......getting to me....

Brothers got issues

Relationships and anger violence clearly undercurrent .

No new initiates for young

They are suffering with such uncertainty.

Become reliant on drugs still being distributed .

Lots of vital stuff already closed while ago 

Sorry to stae this expect essential ,already limited 

Services will be cut further very soon.

sorry have not got answer

Just walked theologicaly don't have to give answers
Just cannot explain now or why find it all
Nasty further unplacesent creul
Sorry if desire more not got anything more
...pray..be kind..connect..be fearless...walk

Few facts

• Forty per cent of those who were killed by COVID-19 were in their 60s and 70s
• More than half - 52 per cent - were 80 years old or over, NHS England data shows
• Of the 7,097 deaths in the UK, almost 6,500 have been in England  
• Anyone can catch the virus, but its severity depends on your age 
• 190 people die each day of heart issues....530 month...2200 present lockdown 
• So Plato in Deaths each month ......l get issues breathing plus 29 episodes hour
• Lot people LIFES daily struggle 
• Poverty still there with them when this is over

church....We ran from this too easily

Silent...empty... Still...closed
...mothballed... Remote...
Are Church buildings needed?
Nothing to say
No contributions to the debate
Out of touch
Irrelevant and quiet

There was a time when we spoke into situation

Brought hope to all

Issues where something we knew about

Words were vital relevant brought life

Uncomfortable writing this...but its true

Not involved in this issue

Our message found to be unrequired

Hope

Life

Love

Community

Strength

All the stuff we know about

But this...we ran away too quickly

Feels Churlish...but honesty required

Time really going-slow not enjoy life at present
Happiness not here.
Many just getting by
Know sounds churlish,
got to be honest....
overall quiet streets...still danger.
Going to be struggle for the poor, already seeing huge gaps between the haves and those without.
Homes not good enough, so people feel worse.
Personalised missing garden..not enough food..energy costs too high.
Further isolation bringing bigger concerns 
Lost...lost...so much
Time is slow on
Lack of community.
Lack of communication 
Lack of people, sadly lot more lacking
Structure.
Meetings.
Travel around looking at records, buying daft CD's.

This2will pass.......not soon enough

This 2 will
       Pass

......please Lord soon....

poorest suffering most during lockdown

It me l just miss talking to others

Meeting for a cuppa...

.nowhere real special..

Like listening to music in my car. . . . Loud...freedom...people...daft stuff

Poorest people suffer most during lockdown

Struggling being locked down

. I think we’ve been truly blessed to live in a time when the internet sort of alleviates the feeling of isolation, but certainly doesn’t replace in-person conversation —that what fuels me...gives me energy...let's me understand l am not alone...it what struggling with People nods silences seeing them...Humansreally special unigue and wonderful...even beautiful... especially now....With that being case struggling with lockdown.  .... Given that we are approaching Easter weekend miss long walks plus visits to Churches...

As fast as zimmer frames would move

I am honestly finding this time not belonging really confusing.
Chose that word because time on hold.
Community not evident.
Friends are distant.
Periods very long more frustration are occuring.
Sad to say some people not been in touch.
Most biggest surprise was when faith community.... so quickly hung up shop.
That l was not expecting.
Better reflection...think Age play big part.
The older ones ran for hills as fast as modile scooters and zimmer frames could move.

some disappointed me as they made no plans to remain connected.

They are isolated.

Away from the game.

Do they think this will not teach a lesson?

Wonder what plans can be made to return to previous state of play?

God bless us all

God
Bless
You
God
Be
Close
To you
Now
Always

Save lives......as ordered

suffering.......part of life

Suffering is a difficult issue
It improves character
Think deeper
Now you and l been touched
Personaly
Together it hit us
Whole communities need fundamental change

Stuck here now

Just checking on foodbank in our rural community
They are doing mission essentially to these times
The numbers changed
great need has risen
Felt humbling witness ongoing kindness of others
Despite harshness of this moment
we carry on with the provisions
Kindness
Conversations
The desire to be elsewhere
 Time,need to be elsewhere.
In the future
We are looking forward to seeing everyone on dateline???
Well . . . perhaps you could tell me
Just stuck in this moment that we can't get'out of .Nor away from

Adaptive

Reflections

Protect

Leadership

We all need to adapt

We will need to adapt.
Protect not just those close to you.
Respond also reflect deeper.
Lead yes spiritual leadership?
Thats because thats made this worse......
naive reactions