You're the color of the sky Reflected in each store-front window pane You're the whispering and the sighing of my tires in the rain You're the hidden cost and the thing that's lost In everything I do Yeah ,I'll never stop looking for you In the sunlight and the shadows

Stanno Tutti bene..........

Chemical sudstances linked to memories affect mind...

How you and l think....

Heart holds differant memories to the mind,still got lots to discover in this area,further one can die of broken heart...(.Jimmy Ruffin got more on that.)

But some narration can transform both heart and mind.

Sometimes chemical in conversation include what is said.along with non verbals,what both /all people in conversation see....how recognise these things.

Also content where something is stated the method use are key factors.

Sometimes we need to converse deeply .....but this can be fearful

People can Hide in social media,see that lot on Twitter plus other platforms.

Chats are good.

Messages better then nothing.

Meaningful open conversation is best interaction l know.

That place is rich ...lsocail media not intuit for creating honesty....

Not really but gonna add ...Stanno Tutti bene.....

One year later

 
 
One year ago packing to spend some time in the islands of Malta

As was my normal..three weeks later expleded sent back to UK along many others.

This virus arrived.....for health reasons Malta good for myself.

Reminds me never know what could be ahead..who knows what might blindside you

In near future.

Hold onto beliefs...invest in friends seek wise counsel

Believe in you. . .

I never expected to be this ill...however the life previous lived enables me excist healthier

Mental wellness increased by faith.....

That simple.

That wellbeing tested by operatic intrusion, dramatic mind Field l placed myself.

Conversations get me to better place.

Little talk with me....

Stay well.

Dear Anon PT2 . .Just add...you sound happy

You should be happy ....

Haven't you got spell checker you could use ? lot of what you've written doesn't make sense , you've either misspelt or left words out .Hard trying to make out what you have written .

My illness limits time doing task's. Doctors told me got use Oxcegan machine due to LLE.

Hence get 'short time memory lose',try to correct

My mistakes later.

Got C scare in hospital on 3rd March,also Cardiac issues on March 9

Further do not have internet at home.

Tim died very painfully of sepsis after being an alcoholic all his life .He never worked because he was addicted .

When first read your words felt some strange tone. Wrong thought may be glee...then recognised not your way. Remember kindness, really expect ,do hope expressed in prayers for Soul that's departed. Sad if path took turn ,you know God is mystery would been there somehow.

                                                         We won't meet again .

You should be happy....(take your written word is True ,then you are tickled pink),

However, forgive me,but you were not happy last time we spoke.

glad this combination is working, that dealing positive with all thrown at you in life.

Relationship not easy.  Well done.

Sorry for my part that two of us never achieved promise we held. 

Silly l know had better destiny then one we faltered on.

Best l can say is to me...like a huge hole in time....where you and l should been written better.

Honestly best way l can say that in this format

              But hope see you again someday 

               If l don't hope see you in heaven.

Dearest anon...PT1

It's was nice to hear from you Dear anonymous, please note

Even If isolated further dramatic message, not sure comments tag is place for such topics, even sad news.

Nice in one way but,such connection via this methods prevents even minimal responce.

You have my number plus email.

God bless you, in once sense never far away from me .....you got 15, me feels like l got life......

.......Larry Norman once sang.......hope l see you  again someday...but if l don't .......

When you first begin your journey, you're not sure of who you are
And the lessons that you're learning don't seem to take you far

And you just can't keep from stumbling,
Though you try so hard to stand
And the truth can be so humbling
When it's just beyond your hand

As though youth were my invention
As though love lay undefined
To stay free was my intention
To stay young and unconfined

So I held my pride above you
Oh yes, what a fool was I
Holding back those words I love you
And letting out those words good bye

I was wrong to let you go

 I did not know about the love

That we both could have given

And now you've gone
So far away
I hope I'll see you again someday
But if I don't, I hope I'll see you in heaven

Could go either way..it`s up to us

Could go east

I could go west 

It was all up to me to decide

.met a girl in a bar told her all my plans

We traveled on together..

The air began to turn cold

She said she needed home..left me all alone..

Then l saw a young hawk in the sky..

Roll me away.

l to am lost 

..l feel double crossed l feel alone....

Bob Segar

Sometimes starts with God l am here unsure the direction but on we go.

Heart won't let me down, sometimes my mind telling me another thing.

But roll me away...just gonna go impulsive with instincts. Life turns like that

Then this happens..we spend time locked away...can't go east nor west.

But sure getting warmer, hope feels like light in the distance the kinda' light that never goes out'

We wanna get a message across...oh by the way Zoom meetings cannot achieve this!

Why do we converse...for what reasons are we gifted being able to talk to each other.

What is the purpose?

Find songs can talk to you...connect with how you felt...how you feel

Recall issues ...concerns.

Rapp artist state often we got into music to get our message across.

The music speaks to me another singer will say...

That's why struggle with Church or community meetings being via zoom

Cannot get the non verbals

Talk 

Talk

Talk but without meaning...gestures..understanding limited

The pilgrim journey in my car and spiritual guide (1).....

I am alone, or maybe not, it's late, kinda on a pilgrim a long journey in a car, 

Far away from the nearest town, driving in the darkness. 

Along the North Yorkshire moors , passed 'scaling dam'...

But not stopping to look at wildlife,getting into the music.

My eyes are on the headlights and the road.

The dashboard faintly glows, happily the CD is playing, 

But  only'. . . not sure about this Album...'

glad bought it ,don't recall track listening too.

A tune ,emotions,lyrical value,get my mind into the song. 

Thoughts coming in and out of focus , getting ideas around issues, perhaps this records reminds you of another track genre maybe,soul,or dance perhaps rock n' roll .

The DJ inside my head starts to narrate ,story's from the lycrical values,this track has stirred in me.....

I am alone,driving my car listening to music ,spiritual,social,emotional awaking as music started.

But what is it? A strange, familiar happening!

One song after another, all different, but all of a piece, like a transmission from  other end of the world. Songs of loss, lovers, fighters, the blues,missing person,hope, laughter ,deep despair, 

End up preparing whole talk based around these songs ,some bible passages,story's from newspapers, all Broadcast. ?..in my head.....l want to pull over ,write stuff down,go through this in my head .

Next day playing stuff,reading books,exporting events, listen, believe God speaking to me.......in modern way like in ancient ways...but .....anyway l am driving in my car listening to music ...getting inspired.

A failing Faith.......not meant to be like this for followers of Jesus

 In many places in UK the Christian faith is not available in cultural environment,that allows share nor growth.

That stuff around ethics, understandings, values along with stories not presented.

Church as community's where choose to belong may never be an opportunity.

Spirituality acceptable in ways that fuzzy, convoluted ,may even be harmful.

In this time where Christianity is in rapid decline,some believe faith of following Jesus,teaching. belonging to his Kingdom ways,  been rejected.

Has not.

It questionable whether faith from Biblical acts ,early Church was presented in powerless way.

Maybe we became authority many disliked,chose ways of greed,lacked humility and mercy. Became institution and there main problem!

Hurts that we do  not present nor able to communicate teachings,lessons, joy, so others look deep .Make choice to further examine this faith.

Explore this person Jesus.

Wellbeing lessons ,economic stewardship, issues with geology, developing society, kindnesses.

There not looking forward , struggling with concerns without Faith family processing guidence.

Should those of us professing to be a Christian ,take the blame.?

Sometime end the day start again......

Please go McCann stupid McCann Please go to Belfast if you can Not wanted here Not wanted here Please go to Belfast McCann........... ...tune ....ichy breaky heart.....

Yes we threw points away again who would be a Hull city football fan....

it been silly day...left my bank cards at home so could not pay for anything.

Phone died on me..

Shop went to was closed,had to travel 22 miles first place.

Bank no longer opens on Saturdays....never told me!

Then issue with brother... family members can be silly

 Just now need to end day well so that

Don't lose myself and get something close

To comfort...daft TV....food...start new day 

tomorrow

The sun Will come out tomorrow

Life can be odd and silly....it's difficult ..so occasionally...start day anew.

That's my advice.....

Hope in hopeless place we are presently.

find hope in nature but it also cruel.l find hope in relationships but hard work,rewarded by contact friends make,l sometimes not good at talking if not spoke for a while,due to my work travelled a lot so it disjointed in relationships. see hope in music lyrics,emotions,sonic talks. miss talking at Church meetings l won't do zoom or social platforms! because like to read peoples non verbals.So not sure how internet chat opens that values level five person need the journey in the discussions thats the awkward me.....its way l am... missing you

Pretty big of Dolly Parton for two reasons.........oh stop it.....

behave l tickle you not the Lady pretty humble second reason she deserves the honour richly....she very gifted as a songwriter very generous with her money lessons for me maybe otheralso

Even though were far apart....guess what?

I believe in you even though were far apart...l believe in you in the morning after

 

Springstein...the Blues soul music and psalm 88

Bruce Springsteen like lot of soul artists suppose others singers songs films have deep connection with Blues.those you can't get thru life without experiancing issues.

The Blues like ....feeling not couler...mood...experiance...life card that you've been dealt.

Recognise the story ..it not happening story..not getting better story

Life is tough story

Bible has lot of these stories 

Psalm 88 been reading recently clothed in mystery.like that song... its in your head as telling you about what you feel

Psalms like smash hits of the bible,...born to run..gotta get out of this place...please don't let me be  misunderstood story's.

God where are you

Be close its hard

My enemies camped all around me

Upon the muddy field lost losing stories

Captured in the Bible 

Life is tough and faith is not a cope out following Jesus is not escape from the blues.

Hope it going to return 

But for now like others before your story might just be a 

Stuck in a moment you can't get out of bluesy type story.

But hope will return ...l know been there..others have to..

But for now it may just be ...how long to sing this song...story 

EGO TWEET when tweet something because it promotes your own agenda sorely to create an echo chamber.... Spiritofthestreets58

EGO TWEET

when tweet something because it promotes your own agenda sorely to create an echo chamber....

Spiritofthestreets58

EXAMPLE

How to reopen schools safely:

1. Vaccinate all staff 

2. Create more space for social distancing. eg. phased return, rotas, marquees in playgrounds etc.

3. Respect staff enough to relieve stress on them so they can concentrate on the main task. Announce there’ll be no mini exams.

ECHO CHAMBER

When sure going to get liked by many even if not true...repeat what's already been stated

SAINTLY TWEET

When you have no Idea of situations children young people live

Your gonna egotweet own agenda

Culture of enviroment should dictate responce

The Bible's rules for well being..If ignore Psalm 88...not lot of hope there!

The Bible tells us......l think..

.love God

Play vinyl 

Love one another

Play your music loud...

Follow Jesus try to present his Kingdom values

Dance like no one is watching

Pray often.....
 

This present path of shutdown is so dull........

"The path that takes us straight to its destination is a dull one indeed. It carries only the one message and when we have read it, we have read it. The winding road, however, is a continuous story. Each bend is a mystery and rounding it a discovery." ~C.R.Milne #thursdaymorning

There me about to start rereading road less travelled...M Scott Peck.

Book starts with those eternal truths three words we don't won't to hear

Life is tough

Mind you there also the three words l like to hear..

I love you....

Three words FA lived to hear where

...let me pay....that women in general l believe ...

Anyway back to road less travelled.it talks,encourages us to examine better,listen more,stand alongside those with differant views.

I am hearing old ancient views,ancient words,ancient teachings still worth investing time around.

There another three words ...

Investing time in.....

Grant you courage to do this,soon as possible.......

Remind me sometime was the ole normal worth hanging onto

We must never surrender to the New Normal. Argument that few want to create future,with permanent social-distancing, mask-wearing most places,Asian people often have this, With unnessecory restrictions around how liberty.

We can forget travel. 

Let's shout out 'No way.'Lets shout to the top

" We want our freedom back "

We ant our freedom back"

As l witness the struggles, let's return lost liberties, sooner then is possible.

Lot of damage being done.....hidden but abuse,sexual crime,theft,brokenness is seldom visible.

Blog to U from seaside town they forgot to close down

They closed down a country

They closed down the world

They closed long time ago now free speech

But they can never close our minds

Well only if you let them

Read

Play vinyl

Watch little TV

Connect with others

Espically those in poor health 

Espically those struggle

Give others your smile

Desire enough

Desire no more then enough

Follow Jesus

Explore his kingdom values

Doubt celebrate what you doubt

Allow faith to be child like...that means question ...wrestle...conclude...share

They cannot close your minds unless you allow them

Wind mental...waves are so very high...bitterly cold so stay warm read older posts l am just trying to stay warm next few days

Level five .......received this and pretty sure read this some place else

One way to measure is by looking at the content of conversations y'all are having or the level of disclosure members are sharing with.

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A helpful tool for me to determine this is the Levels of Communication. The framework is typically used in marriages, but it works just as well for friendships in my opinion (as most good marriage advice does and vice versa). 

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So let's take a look at the levels:

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Level One: Hallway Talk- “Fine, how are you?” - Having a cliché conversation. 

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Level Two: Reporter Talk - “Just give me the facts.” Reporting facts about other people and events. 

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Level Three: Intellectual Talk - “Do you know what I think?” - Exchanging ideas and opinions. 

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Level Four: Emotional Talk - “Let me tell you how I feel.” - Sharing feelings and needs. 

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Level Five: Loving Genuine Truth Talk - “Let’s be honest.” - Risking complete emotional and personal truthfulness.

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Is it a perfect framework? No. But can it be helpful? Absolutely.

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Ask yourself today what level you think your group or even your friends are on. Then ask what's one conversation you want to start that will add the next level of depth.

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You shouldn't go from one to five in an instant, but if you're conscious of all this and how it works, then you can slowly and surely lead the way forward in the direction of intimacy. AND know when you're close

Little by little.........who would think denying Holocaust! risen in my short lifetime ...l grieve

Remember the Holocaust. Never forget how it came to be: little by little...hateful rhetoric, fear-mongering, visible designations of discrimination, radically inhumane nationalism, white supremacy...all festering until reality reflected rhetoric, until... #HolocaustMemorialDay

I did not know the value..of those conversations.

Then l had so little grown up understanding

Last ten years reflect n my journey,understand better

I grieve

I worked for a survivor of concentration camp,he mentored me into trade

He mentored me into Adulthood.

Watched me boxed in a contest

Helped me learn to drive.

He passed to me a trade

Passed to me his own (plus others),Experiance of life

Friendship.....Long chats,asking me to run to Polska Bakers for half rye loaf ,along with struddles.

Cuppa ,treat, Then laugh ,pause, reflect times in camp when only had cabbage soup.

He was fortunate ...tailoring trade allowed him to be kept......not safe  . .Kept

I hold these moments in my heart forever.......miss that great person ....Mr Todryk

In our trade there were so many who experianced the war,even some who fought for Germans.

Jewish haberdazeries told me own experiances.

Some younger poles.They had too fight for enemy or die..it was when Germans occupied..

often happened in wars.

I am better person for knowing their stories

I am better person for listening to those experiances

I am better person because l was small part witness making better our society,

I get angry when some deny these people and powerful message they shared.

I got a jigsaw to help pass the time..Says up to 8 to 10 years....l did it in six weeks what about that

Eschatological moment's

 Waves sound loud as riding up shore....there is this boossieness 

Up to nine feet as they crash against prom......many walk like myself here,in very early hours.

Grateitude echos in my heart when near the sea...

Seasons end.. journey end...days begin...presently Moon and Sun appear in sky together

Little chatter....only bit of nature evident...first Crocuses.

Yellow tits.... Redbacks... Merlin's

Death

Death 

Don't mourn when my journey reaches its moment

Part of life ,the final period

Am l ready?

Unsure...

What will my legacy be?

Did l invest enough in others?

Have l spent my time in ways that are wise?

Did l kiss enough People.....well I tried

Did l play music loud enough...have l been with excluded enough...what movie should l have watched with others?

Freezin on the coast...internet not good ,TV appears boring,music, books getting thru this.God bless

 Plus it's wet

Very wet

Fields flooding

Cattle moved

Feel bit trapped inside

That's OKAY