tiring day

lot of confusing things happen everyday
sometimes hard to get a good
handle on the way life is unfolding
today has been a full
but very tiring
truthfully slightly uncomfortable day

kindness

today l heard the news that one young man has been murdered from the contacts that l work among homeless rootless young man killed in our community by his peers  Only last week l spoke with him about swigging cider in our provision, meal meeting...he said ...`l must go` no l said   "just eat some food and drink some soup" Other`s encouraged... helped... warmly invited him.

Others felt the need to be hostile and take his life.

both sides of humanity

l witness often aggression ...violence..dislike..indeed hatred

Humanity

l witness extraordinary kindness help support prayers

grim me up north

cold

wet

rainy

chilly

miserable

even

a

bit fed up

       Anyway how are you love hearing from people l am a bit like this at present late nite last evening

Honesty is important and it doesn’t mean l am permanently in this sate of mind l am off now to grab a coffee and chat with a friend.
Level 5 from the book why am l afraid to tell you how l am?   Looks like l am not..How are you?

me ...normal

Someone just told me it`s the week end
not something that excites me too much nor do Fridays
it been that way most of my life . . from back in the day when Gym was Friday evening and including work as a youth worker Fridays and week ends and holidays are very much geared into serving the youth
Plays a bit with relationships
l recall once getting called out to work when me and FA had plans
but that the nature of this type of work

the only normal people l know
are those l do not really know well

Mileage by car.
working out costings.
 Train
boat and walking.
Managing time,
Resource,  Thinking,
Always health is a factor!

They both know . .

    

Baby, I think we both know It's gone wrong, wrong, wrong 

I know you don't think we can carry it on Baby,

I think we both know It's gone bad, bad, bad Think of all the good times we had . . 

So sings Tim McCraw in Tennessee from the film strong
There is something that is real about the themes in country Song
but it never really connected over in the UK
l have sometimes played country songs at gigs
always been the odd track
Off this evening to a bit of `Coastal singing` over at playhouse North sea, could be good.
It work bit community involvement.

we are staying up

"Next season we'll play in the Premier League and maybe I can too.

"I have one season left, maybe two, and I would love to stay here. I would like to finish my career here.

"I'm not drinking, I'm not going out anymore so I would love to play football for Hull City for another year.

"Now I will enjoy my holidays, eight or nine weeks, and we will see what happens, but I would love to stay here with Hull City. The club has made me very proud."

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IT WAS the moment thousands of Hull City fans had been waiting for after months of battling and a nail-biting finale.

A deafening cheer rang out across the KC Stadium last night as players held medals and a trophy aloft after securing automatic promotion to the Premier League.

The Hull City Premier League Promotion party at the KC Stadium on May 8th, 2013

WOW the women are even bigger then l last recall

all together now

we are staying up

we are staying up

What about them four in defence?

 

No day will ever come...poverty!

"Retirement is for young people."

No day will ever come when l`ll be free from heart disease.
But that not an issue
No day will ever come when l`ll be free from taking tablets
Nor having to manage this illness or disease
But that not an issue
No day will ever come when l`ll be free from mangering the effects, along few restrictions that occur.
But that not an issue
The issue is why children, family living in poverty 2013
Poverty it been present in areas of my life
Since l was born
Why
Why
Why is it worse now at this moment of my life?
Professionally the socialist reforms did not address the issue
Blairites got it so wrong. Tory boys of 2007 made it worse
Yet to those who will listen
The God of powerlessness still calls out
Bring justice
Seek mercy
Walk humbly
Don’t have what you don’t need
Help who you define to be your neighbour
Be merciful to all
Love yourself…..
That person in the mirror is special unique valuable and beautiful

the only normal

people you know

are the ones

you don`t know

very well

"If ever there was one player, anywhere in the world, that was made for Manchester United, it was Cantona. He swaggered in, stuck his chest out, raised his head and surveyed everything as though he were asking: 'I'm Cantona. How big are you? Are you big enough for me?'"

hope is a feeling

The decks are ready old fashioned style but a real new twist in 2013 as we prepare for worship



Along with the guitars and singers as the worship band prepare to lead

its a play list

love playlist`s
important area of DJ skill
but also got to ignore
go along with what people ask
you to play

This is my Hull city prayer

dear lord God,
if you allow Hull City to be promoted today
l will be become a better person
l will attend Church every sunday
except when city are playing
Amen
p.s. If that not enough
please let me know
Kev
x

come on you hull (part 456)

BE PREPARED
This will have been the longest week in the players' lives. You try your best to relax but you can't go more than half an hour without thinking about the game. It takes over your mind. In weeks like these I wouldn't want to go home after training. So long as you were around your team-mates you'd be having a bit of a laugh and a joke, but once you went home your mind would drift and you'd start thinking too much about the game.
Tomorrow won't be able to come quickly enough for the players. I look back at the night before Wembley and although it was a massive game, I still remember it being quite relaxed. We played poker at the hotel and chatted in our rooms. There were a few lads who weren't too experienced at the time, people like Michael Turner and Sam Ricketts, but I can remember seeing Ian Ashbee and he was completely focused. He wanted to make sure he was the one lifting the trophy so badly.
Every footballer is different and will prepare for big games in their own way. Some will be a bag of nerves, some will be chilled out. The one thing you have to be is confident. You've got to believe in yourself and your team-mates and that's what we did at Wembley.
STAY FOCUSED
Tomorrow is different to our play-off final at Wembley because promotion could end up hinging on Watford's game against Leeds, but I'm sure Steve Bruce will be telling his side to forget all about that game. It's irrelevant what Watford do so long as City win and that's all that matters.
It was a similar situation when I was at Bradford when we had to beat Liverpool on the final day to stay up. I can remember a huge roar going around Valley Parade when Southampton scored against Wimbledon, our relegation rivals, so the players won't need telling if Leeds do them a favour at Watford tomorrow.
Saying that, it's important not to get distracted by the other game. If Watford go a goal up early on, something you wouldn't rule out, you can't let that deflate you. All the emphasis has to be on taking the game to Cardiff and making life difficult for them. City have got to get the ball forward, ruffle a few feathers and make a few tackles.
The fans are there to give you backing, but you've got to give them reason to get off their seats. If it's a poor game, cause a ruck. You can't let it be flat like the Bristol City game or Cardiff will be content just to sit deep and give a good account of themselves. It's all down to City and what they do.
PLAY WITH HEART
It wasn't losing at Barnsley that hurt the 6,000 City fans at Oakwell, it was the manner of the performance that really stung. When so much is at stake, the least the supporters and your manager expects is for you to give every last thing you've got.
Games like tomorrow don't come around very often in your career. City are 90 minutes away from the Premier League and it's absolutely vital that we see players performing as though it's their very last game in football.
You can forget all about tactics and formations to a certain extent, it's about desire on days like these. If City had 11 Paul McShane's there wouldn't be a problem tomorrow. Macca's not the most gifted footballer but he's got a heart the size of a lion. He'll never give in. That's the attitude you've got to expect from every player, no one can go hiding.
Every player has got their own motivation for reaching the Premier League, but they've got to remember who else they're doing it for. I'm a Hull lad so it came naturally for me but Steve Bruce and his side only have to look around the KC Stadium when they run out tomorrow to know how much it would mean for this club.
You've got to give everything. If it's not enough and you end up in the play-offs, fair enough. But at least you can come into the dressing room afterwards knowing you've done yourself justice.
TAKE RESPONSIBILITY
The more I think about tomorrow's game, the more jealous I am. I'd do anything to be involved in a game of this significance. It's what you play the game for and what makes football so special. Sadly I'll have to watch on from the stands and, like any fan, I'll be kicking every ball. It's vital that we see that emotion in the players too because it's up to them to get the crowd going.
Each player has to take responsibility, not look to a team-mate to do it for them. This side isn't blessed with the same experience we had at Wembley, and that's been a worry for me all season, but tomorrow they all have to walk tall together.
A big thing will be to start the game brightly and look to make things happen against a Cardiff side that surely can't want this as much as us. I don't care what you say, no Cardiff player will want to come up here and get injured.
There was obviously some disappointment after the Bristol City and Barnsley games, so it's vital the players don't allow that to drift into tomorrow. Start well and grab the first goal and the whole place will be transformed, but if supporters see a nervous group of players, that mood will soon spread on to the terraces.
Not every player can have a great game tomorrow but you have to make sure you win your own individual battle. If a tackle or a header is there to be won, throw yourself in and want it as though your life depended on it. Don't come off the pitch with any regrets.
SEIZE YOUR MOMENT
As my old Middlesbrough manager Steve McClaren used to say, every game has a defining moment. It could be a goalkeeper saving a penalty, it could be a defender making a last-ditch tackle, but games can swing on any given incident. For our win at Wembley I'm privileged that it was my goal that changed everything.
I've often thought what if I'd have blasted the chance over the bar or if the keeper had saved it, but I'm not sure I've ever hit a volley quite like that one. I've said a few times that most of my volleys in training would end up in the trees. I'm lucky enough it came off for me at Wembley and it's something that will live with me for the rest of my life. That's what's at stake for these City players tomorrow. If they win, someone will be a new hero by 3pm. They'll never have to buy a drink in Hull again. It could be David Stockdale pulling off a last-minute save or it could be Robbie Brady with a special free-kick, the stage is set for someone to be the toast of the city. The one thing you can't do is let the moment pass. Grab it by the scruff of the neck and make it happen for you. After 45 games of the season, promotion will now rest upon a defining moment against Cardiff. You have to make sure it's you that takes your chance. If they do, they'll forever be a hero to these supporters.


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life is tuff

who
knows
whats
ahead
in
this
life
but the journey is fun and tuff

Been listening, reflecting, sharing, talking ,about Who is my neighbour /Am l my brothers keeper?

THE FILM CINEMA PARADISA
has this line the older Alfredo turns to
the young lad warns him l suppose
that life is not like in the cinema
"Its much tougher then that"
life is tuff
so starts the book the road less travelled
life is tuff
suicide the most common cause of death recorded
on the death certificates of many young people in 2013
in the UK
Shocking but true
life is tuff

            l found something that works
                              l have a relationship with a personal Jesus

City are now counting down to one of the biggest games in their 109-year history.
Victory over title-winners Cardiff on Saturday lunchtime would guarantee the KC Stadium's finest hour with automatic promotion to the top flight, but Watford could snatch second with a win at home to Leeds if City falter.


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Emotion running high in Hull and wee bit up North for this reason plus another

The young people are preparing for a service and are excited, some have been a bit apprenticed or rather schooled by older people in the singing performances

But looking real good overall
got some video editing and music mixing to do but that fine

Return for Hull city is over

The rides are not swirling around
Crowds are going home empty
Disillusioned
Hurt even
heads are heavy ,Hearts broken
The light shone brightly and people spoke
about what could be
BUT it s not too be
Emotions are all over the place
The local filth, (AKA Yorkshire police) even dressed up for the occasion,
helmets on, truncheonss drawn,
riot gear ready.
Players hassled the fans
Depression set in
among some of the supporters anger became the words they spoke
'Regret' the common theme
The dream has been replaced
Stark reality
So much for hull city and the return to the premiership
its over

today

could

be the day

hull

city

return

to the premiership

has these hands reach out to me

 Her hands reach out to me
the first thought is 'whats in the mag this month'?
The price is now £3 quid.
Then l focus on her.
How may hours has she stood waiting?
What's the weather been like?
How come mostly it is the Roma women who are out
on the streets selling big issue?
Sometimes l buy her a soup and place it near the bag, 
other`s give a Cornish pastie, or something.
 Humanity visible for all to see,
Connecting.
Has these hands reach out me!

A Tapestry by the master of his Handy work

jessie you can sell any dream to me 

 

finally took your pictures down off the wall

She asked me how the cats been?
`moses he`s just fine`
"but he used to ask about you all the time".
How do you always seam to know when to call?
When you gonna call again?
"l finally took your pictures down off the wall"

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

come on you hull

weekend fix

 its hoped that my hometown team HULL CITY will be promoted back to the Premier League if they win at Barnsley this weekend's fixture, City quickly sold out their initial allocation of over 5,000 this week, which is not a great amount but the Police are again interfering in the movements of the general Public..

​

 Among the Hull City travelling fans. I not stood there a great deal this season.

 

 

concentrating on this stuff

It's Church, Jim, but not as we know it

this is my weekend fix Sport and Church 

 

                                                   Decks, Vinyl, Jazz,

Gospel according to Emeli Sandé, Graffiti Psalms, Sing together, Performers, 24/7

PowerPoint Prayers, ArtbyU, Talking, Listening, Sharing, Thought Wrestling.

 

              It's Church, Jim, but not as we know it

 

 

Hear this !

Guess you need to hear this 
Maybe you don't think you are beautiful-
Now listen you a special, unique, fantastic,
a 'one off'!

Really,

You are beautiful!

Your beautiful.

journeys gone along

     often our journeys follow a path that others have walked, trod ,gone along before ourselves, The scenery they observe may change, and the reason for the path being followed is again different to us.

My faith journey was one that others walk also.
One that l work to encouge other`s to follow, the issues they face are differant to ones I faced. 
But the truth is that Jesus is still best hope and friend for the journey.

kevin waller improves after mini stroke

tablets after the mini stroke are creating blotting problems

how to combat hatred?

What a week for Hatred
there is a link between events in Boston and events around funeral of Thatcher
to hear even in the Church hatred spoken, that's how Boston began
Hatred
strong emotion
blinds
makes others a scapegoat for your own failings
like the failings of mining communities where Scargill led blind and foolish into a strike
Hatred that fuelled feelings and actions against those who did not want to strike
Hatred
that fuelled actions against those who went back to work
Hatred
that still exist to this day
Hatred
that fuelled a bomd blast
that then killed
innocent others
by those fed on hatred
there should be no time to fester blindness, Attempt dialogue with those who you do not agree with
l know someone who life is just been about hurting
Hatred
acts of destruction
that person is not a happy person
Hatred is a strong emotion

forgiveness

that a strong emotions

stronger then hatred?

Here is where l often go to reflect, think, ponder cry shout to GOD.

199 steps lead down from the Abbey to the old town where you find yourself in a shops Not  paradise. But an array of unique shops offering local crafts, also food. Whitby has it all. Seafood restaurants, continental delights, traditional sea-shanty inns preparing locally cooked produce and olde worlde English tea rooms and Yorkshire teas.

HULL City boss Steve Bruce admits winning over Bristol City at the KC Stadium tonight would take him to within touching distance of his finest hour in management.

After establishing a six-point advantage in second position over the last week, the Tigers now need just four points from their last three games to guarantee automatic promotion to the Premier League.

While City have survived life without their most prolific asset to journey within four points of automatic promotion, Fryatt has inched closer towards a comeback he thought would have to wait until August.

Read more: http://www.thisishullandeastriding.co.uk/Hull-City

with you on that one

DIDN`T SEE IT COMING
STILL DON`T KNOW WHAT I DID WRONG

how many times have l pondered these thoughts

gospel according to Emeli...coming soon

Didn't see it coming
No kind of warning
I can't work out what I've done wrong
His clothes are missing
But his keys are still here
Please somebody tell me whats going on
Chorus:
My baby's got a suitcase
He's telling me its too late
But don't nobody, please don't ask me why#
'Cause all I did was love him
But I can't stop him walking
My baby's got a suitcase but please don't ask me why
Verse 2:
What changed so quickly?
Answer me!
If you must kill me at least please, tell me why
He said "Don't touch me, Get out the way"[
Will someone tell me what's going on tonight
Chorus:
My baby's got a suitcase
He's telling me its too late
But don't nobody, please don't ask me why'
Cause all I did was love him
But I can't stop him walking
My baby's got a suitcase but please don't ask me why


 EMELI SANDE - SUITCASE 

Been using the artist Emeli Sandie `read all about it`

there re so may positive strong characters recording music who are females, l include this girl but would also add Duffy and Adele...(not Amie winemouth) in `read all about it` she talks about being in love, the sings about issues before concluding the Album with song about hope. It bit personal journey but l am applying this to life for youths and learning lessons placed among the albums lyrics ,emotions and life’s journey...

Didn't see it coming

No kind of warning

how true of life...certainly been my experience 

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life yesterday`s health

yesterday l felt ill
that all, l recovered later
as the day progressed.
Something was just
not healthy about me
and life yesterday!

shmily

shmily
see how much l love you

Sometimes just see an image
  get captured

Then look further l recognise  have no artistic training, Don't hold  any formal education in art.

l just See stuff that inspires. Affirms life...creates in myself feelings of awe wonder reflection.

Wish to share these with U
The hope you are inspired
affirmed
desire to be creative.
Often fail trying to capture my words
or even the emotions
sometimes in life
Kevin just a passenger staring
watching
wishing
for connectible
conversation
hope something l blog..say..share ..
communicate around
enables others to see that also

car issues

July 9, 2001 - The car world is changing quickly and so is Mercedes-Benz, if one is to judge by its new Midi MPV, the new Vaneo. The name clearly suggests its character: it is a van, well a minivan, and it is new (neo, Greek for new). Well almost entirely new.

Actually Vaneo is the much anticipated 'minivan' development of the A-Class and its design had been finalised well on time. If Mercedes-Benz is launching Vaneo on the international market (early next year), four years after the plan was approved, it is because it needed time to completely refurbish the Ludwigsfelde plant the company used to own before WW II, and that was repossessed when the Berlin wall came down.

Quite a selection of alternative versions were on display at the recent press preview but the range is so diversified and comprehensive that showing all possibilities would have been quite confusing.

l dont know
what to do
l just want
car to get
me from A to B

THIEVES targeted a warehouse run by one of the city's best-known charities, damaging three vans and forcing half its fleet off the road.

Police are hunting thieves who scaled a 7ft fence, smashed the windows of three of Dove House Hospice's six vans and took two front wheels from one of them.

http://www.thisishullandeastriding.co.uk/Thieves-raid-Dove-House-Hospice/story-18673482-detail/story.html#ixzz2Q9vgMfxu
there is a worrying trend to target charity and rob those who are helping the most vulnerable
why  why  why  why?

onto Hull City andthe attempt to climb into the premiership
We’ve just not seen enough from Hull City’s captain in the last few weeks and months.

DAVID Meyler will be welcomed back from his two-game suspension at Ipswich and that leaves Steve Bruce with a midfield dilemma.
ooohh not sure can we play both and could Sonu Alko return early from injurie
he has been on eof my favorite players since the display l saw pre season in Hartlepool

npower Championship Table

This table charts the npower Championship teams

Team Statistics	Position	Team	P	Home W	D	L	F	A	Away W	D	L	F	A	GD	Pts	Last 10 games results	Match status
									Last updated 1 day ago
	No movement 1	Cardiff	41	14	4	2	33	14	10	4	7	32	27	24	80	Loss Win Loss Draw Draw Win Loss Win Draw Draw	Report of Cardiff's last match
	No movement 2	Hull	41	13	2	6	33	20	10	3	7	24	26	11	74

kevin past has a future

how

does

the world

see my life

they are on to me?

would my life

stand up too scrutiny from the tabloid

press

My God

through his gospel

does not divide me into

a person who is not forgiven

but into

redeemed

I have the presence of Christ alongside me in my life

even though l struggle some days

sure indeed l know others would tell you stuff about me

but what l know is that l am forgiven and redeemed

that comes from the highest Authority

wow

someone said if you got nothing good to say
                     say nothing nothing
perhaps some should think along those line when commenting on Mrs Thatchers death

lets not celebrate anothers death

http://www.pipwilson.com/2013/04/margaret-thatcher-in-blobology.html
for loads more of this kind of stuff
mega mega interesting
used blod type stuff since the seventies
there are two lots of blods very samish but not always easy to connect stuff
sometimes a bit dated but this is very contemporary

Police make arrests at Thatcher death street parties in Bristol and Brixton

Officers injured during public disorder as hundreds turn out across cities in Britain to celebrate former prime minister's death



The Metropolitan police said there had been low-level disorder in Brixton. Two women were arrested on suspicion of burglary after a shop front was broken.
"Last night police dealt with approximately 100 people who caused low level disorder," said a Met spokesman. Extra officers were called to the scene to ensure "public safety and accessibility to public highways", he added

take some comfort

           take comfort from this

you have a laptop/computer in your hand

     not a parking fine or a loaded gun

Or a invitation to the wedding of someone you

              should have married

A dirt syringe or a deadly Scorpian

A molotav cocktail or an overdose

 not a parking fine or a loaded gun

you have a laptop/computer in your hand

     take comfort from this

Roger McGough from his latest book `as far as l know`.

 

take comfort from this view

it so long ago that this building was built

you were also a thought that became a beautiful human being

you are a thing of beauty and uniqueness

time for cricket not yet

Kevin Waller with Harry B
playing cricket with a
small monument in Hull musem

Wow what a great view even though its been very chilly and cold for such a long time now .                                                                Who can repeat such a great view, even the greatest artist struggle to capture as acutely as a photograph?                                                 sometimes l just stand ,watching the view                 Reflecting on life because l see the north sea and ships passing        l sense the seasons developing more acutley ..l think ..it sets my emotions and gives my sense of time drama,

                          l feel.

 

A WITNESS TO TRUTH

The

church

is 

the 

only 

evidence

that Jesus

rose

from 

the Dead

fast life

life

l ove

is

f or

e ver

Life is much faster then we imagine, but children Plus young cannot hear the voice that speaks about how fast LIFE travels

Life sometimes needs to be examined The Bible needs to be digested

Love needs to be watered but never watered down

ethics sport andfamily

you cannot mix politics and sport...but has l said on the local radio yesterday evening ethical standards and morels are always there..you cannot have a Nelson Mandala day, then say we can appoint who we want if you clam the ethics you are controlled by that conduct are n`t you?

Matthew David and Aron Peter in happy times.
They are not close has brothers anymore and Matty is very distance fom me and all his family

what kind of love...oh and some politics

what kind f love is this l am the guilty one but l go free     what kind of love is this so complete given freely so l may walk about without a glance he died upon a cross what kind of love is this that gave itself for me Kevin Waller l can try to live my life by his few teachings but many including rich powerful those in Authority then like now ignore the kind of love spelt out in the name JESUS CHRIST risen LORD



Well what a mess at SAFC with a Fascist in charge
but hey don`t worry about someone`s
politics
its Easter .......can we forget that Footie equals big money
 

l recall listening to Gary Bennett talk one of those `kick racism outta football`.
He told a story if l recall correctl,y where his son was spoken to in a way he interpreted as racist so he Adult male brought some authority in to deal with the other child.
BUT when it comes to a grown man admitting he is a Fascist, Bennett's go all cour and cute.
Hypocrite.
l felt at the time it was `kidz in the playground` ..but oh no he knew racist behavior.
Football its like a drug. . .know who said that last week..Carlise united chairman