Matty my boy.

My son Matty a few years ago at cayton bay

I am really proud of my son Matthew and how he behaves and his relationship with family and myself.

Children grow up and they live a life
their own life.
A life unlike mine
they treasure own life, that is tough and is lived is my son Matthews life.
My prayer is he will grow to know the lord!

choclate sausage

Took home a cooked sausage from a café
didn`t wanna waste it.
no one wanted to taste this delight
so melted chocolate put some cream nearby and some fresh
strawberries on the plate.
Delicious till the first bite
ha ha ha ha ha
it just me, `being me`.

we were talking how the sea is always there in our environment
the tide returns
The seasons are set.
Some homes are concrete
they have been there for years.
but. . . .but ... . .but
industry is changing. . .
banks have gone bankrupt. . .
the mines no longer produce coal . . .
Oil is in slow down . .
some Animals have gone extint!

so show me

so show/me/how to feel/about being me/so that I can leave my shell/
and shout and jump and kick/until something gets changed/
because the future is mine/and I don't want it to be like/the past/
and I hate/ seeing people starve/in order to give me/cheap trainers.

if its ugly then so am l

This 'Street Art', caught me out  Saturday on a memorial day for young Friend who died.
Uncanny although weird, still very strange, it's lovable.
Forgive me if in future person read these rambles notes, (looks familiar
our Aron looks like him to my eyes). 
Anyway been stepping out my comfort zone......Trying to make new friends odd do something different.
Working around issue connects abuse and teenage pregnancy.
Difficult but challenging, lives are sometimes messy.

hang the dj

couple of gigs lined up all over the north as well

so its friday

the weekend starts here
for some but for me its just another day and we get busier

walk along the coast

empowerment and delegation are the key to how youth mission has to progress
trust and discussion are keys to sharing vision
without vision the people die


so took some time to walk with the lord
reflected and thought
prayed and got a degree of sense into the life and journey l am taking

matthew and jessie saturday

it dose not seam like 3 years ago Matty was born
but its been a 1/4 of a century


one way of developing your mussels
Matthew with his daughter Jessie
and mother Kara

better is one day in your courts Lord
then a thousend somewhere else

the weather has not been as promised today but has largely been overcast
l am examining the non verbal communications that make up 80%
of the communication we use
so about touch between each person
a shrug
smile
raised eyebrow
the thoughtful pose
the bringing of a cup of tea
a hug



someone today asked me for a hug!

One minute reflection.

Got this travelling bug
love to see places
not very good at staying still.
Try to maintain friendships still talk regular to people that have known for nearly 20 years,
which is an achievement with the journey physically geographic this guy's has taken.
l have a friend , really wonderful, she only talks to me around every 19 months and this is when she distressed.
Others stay out her life for this
but l concluded that little contact is better then none.
Seth in film 'city of angels', talking to Nicholas cage characters.
Communication becomes talk about lose of friendships, and concludes it was better for one minute of someone's time then none at all.
as that one minute was so special.
                                      Me here now ....l agree.

these old rustbuckets

time waits for no one
not me anyway
nor it appears these old rust buckets which have served and are about to be made into ?
well what l don`t know
however they served
we all gotta serve someone
or something



l try to serve the Lord!
it a challenge and l recognised that from the first days
but the journey l have been on has like the sea been rough but pleasant
all over the place and emotive.

Forever but not an angel, A favorite author.

Buried in Scarborough,
one of 'forever angels' favorite authors, Anne Bronte.
Grave is well kept, My favorite recent book.
the reader impacted me deeply
other favorite books, `Bible, 5 people you meet in heaven, why am l afraid.`
just a few.

If your presently,
Feeling down. . . . a bit depressed,
things not going the way they should?
Want more then you already got?

Visit an hospital, bring you back to realise how lucky you are!
Met with Ryan ,one of our beautiful human young people, health is a battle/challenge, but Ryan always a joy. 

belief

what would a statement of what you believe look like,
would it have changed from when you were younger
who has influenced what you believe in
the words of a poet ,words from a song,books
the teachings of Jesus

some people feel l am not being trueful
when l say my faith has never caused me to doubt
that God is real
Jesus teachings make the world a better place if we commit to them

does my arse look big in this

in too deep

days can be a challenge
we were late setting off
some who`d booked a place decided not to come along
others had been told there wasn`t place for them
l forgot my wallet with monies etc so we had to go back
only 10 miles up the M6



when we got there second optopn
the tide had been huge so the place was inaccessible
but we strove on and had a really good time

like life canoeing trip doesn`t always go the way you want?
love life live life

art for arts sake

Art for Arts sake
Money for Gods sake
Gimme the readys
Gimme the cash
Gimme a bullet





anyway has Micheal eats his KFC
3 million pounds to put up a fish net
and they call it Art

we had chips in the brilliant summer evening sun last evening

watch the flowers grow

sitting and watching the world go by
while you gather your thoughts is not just for Old people.
we need to stop and smell the roses
stop and smell the coffee
have a little talk with Jesus
love
love
really love sitting on this hill watching ships go to sea
watching people pass
listening to persons pass behind
then take a slow walk down the hill have a cuppa
then long walk along the beach


one road leads to sadness
one road leads to pain
one road brings you back to my arms