strong belief in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual conviction rather than proof. "bereaved people who have shown supreme faith"

How can l be a Christian, the followers of Jesus have been responsible for horrendous abuses, plus terrible evils.Pointless to ask the person “What abuses and evils?” , Actuality all recognise the so-called Christians have committed horrendous abuses with other terrible evils in human history, plus still do today.

It is my experience this one of the most commonly used arguments against Christianity—we “Christians” have committed horrendous abuses  further terrible evils often against helpless people.

HULL CITY BUYING REJECTS AS WE HEAD TO RELEGATION BATTLE IN 2020

Goodbye to two Hull city players this day.

Jarred Bowen 
Kamil Grosicki

Fans knew that they had a talented player on their books from the get-go. In his final full month of Premier League football before the Tigers returned back to the Championship, Grosicki was named as the Premier League’s Player of the Month for April 2017.
Jarred Bowen’s preference is a move to West Ham, despite being chased by Crystal Palace, which would see him play under David Moyes also be re-united with former City teammate Robert Snodgrass.
The premier league littered with many ex city players include Maguire and James at Man utd, Newcastle, Southampton are host of clubs currently have HCFC players turning out most games.
Sad really.

what can we learn ...
to NEVER trust an Egyptian
out of a tent not in the desert...What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.What the hell have we as fans done to the Allams to deserve this the only thing we are guilty of is caring and loving our club its shambolic whats happening. All we want is a team to be proud of that has a direction and a future plan and infrastructure. What have these owners and past owners got against Hull City. McCann is clueless and tactically poor in the Championship. It's one of the toughest leagues in the world to get out of. Average players who cant get a game elsewhere wont do every pundit on tv and every commentator says the same lack of quality. McCann has a bonus for keeping City up in his contract so I guess that's where his ambition lies. Top six just telling us what he thinks we want to hear.

BEING A BIT RURAL AND SEAFRONTISH

Lived by the sea for last 13 years...lived pretty remotely for around 17 years maybe 22 out last 25
Include Surrey for one year along with coastal northern for rest of the time....released not a `city boy`something in me that needs to realise emerge into another place..kinda need company along with facilities which in Rural community with limited, indeed stretched resources life becomes more of a challenge ..health effects the issue a lot 

Walks along seafront are often blighted by thoughtless act of Dog walkers and mess they leave.Simple act like cleaning up foul left by Pet would improve environment for all.

Just before our love got lost you said"I am as constant as a northern star "
I said Constantly in the darkness

Ask again?

The US evangelist, and son of the late Billy Graham announced an eight date tour of the country last year. He was due to visit the ACC in Liverpool on 12th June but the venue says that now won't happen because of the "divisive impact this event is having in our city".

A number of MPs have added their voice to the growing concern over an upcoming visit to the UK by US evangelist Franklin Graham.

SPAC Nation, based in Croydon, large church that attracts mainly black people, is being investigated by the Charities Commission, the Metropolitan Police also for safeguarding concerns plus financial concerns. 

Church says it offers people hope and an alternative lifestyle, encourages people to hand in drugs and weapons, Claims the lives of young people being transformed, by mentoring schemes and lifestyle evangelism.

We (Christians), blame society for a great deal of spiritual concerns, but it our behavior that biggest issue. There has been this whole business of secularization, Sundays are simply nowadays an ordinary day.

The music we promote, films ,some books. The life we lead .Issues fail to address, People we are. People we are becoming. Emergence into a society that explores deeper, It questions longer ,changed outwardly.

 The emergent church tends to find creative ways of coming together, like sitting on sofas, using candles for lighting, painting the walls—strange and different things like that—because it's fresh and new and it gives release to different peoples' expressions, and so on.

There is a movement away from Church as others believed it to be, into less formal more experimental type of experience. This l favour the discussion sharing ideas of faith journey. some say the following...

If you try to push them on what they believe they don't like to tell you.

There remains for me a deep worry when select few are cult based not allowing discussion or dialogue ….witnessed this recently it subtle done quite damaging. When happened to myself it not been till later, When reflect that l become aware what's really happening!

 Emerging Church movement is an amorphous sort of loose-knit association of churches that have decided that there is value - there is even virtue - in uncertainty about Scripture. The bottom line in the movement is they believe that we aren’t even supposed to understand precisely what the Bible means.

You see here my own dilemma, accept that, but want some discussion. however many in modern Church are afraid of people like myself who ask. Yes that`s our big sin.

We ask. Why this.. But feel that...why not in this way.. How is that relevant..it may be scripture but is it true today?

nakedness of feelings. . . . .

When I was young my heart was young then too
Anything that it would tell me
That's the thing that I would do
But now I feel such emptiness within
For the thing that I want most in life's
The thing thing that I can't win

life . . . listened to interesting discussion on series <14 ep2=""> 
 `real housewives of Orange county`...
emotional literacy was magic,as two ladies shared ,one commented..
`Enough of your issues`.. 
then stumbled to tell the other lady that her husband of twelve years be having an affair....but they struggled to speak sitting against wall...turning away
standing up then sitting forward...eventually spilled out the issue..
ending with this statement.
Gina Kirschenheiter, Got Emotional When Discussing Divorce,
 other life daily Struggles: "I've Had a Hell of a Year"

..`struggled to open up about this`..So, it is really difficult to navigate through this."

Been interesting watching body langue, movement of words, nakedness of feelings.
its the style of programme, l watch where interaction, informs examines growth Human development.

l don`t run from difficult questions around faith

The historical understanding of the Holocaust is a matter of “religion.” 
Does this present generation have minimum clue
of what the Holocaust was all about, or do they care?
Its Question feel compelled to ask?
They appear to not know much about the holocaust. Why? It`s taboo to question the holocaust. The moment you do that you can mistakenly be labelled anti-Semite.
 In many European countries you will be prosecuted if you question it or deny it. 
The only way to know whether it took place is to allow free discussion. 
Will the Zionist lobbies in Europe also allow discussion around the attitude by
present` secular state` of Israel to its neighbours.

The neighbourhood bully he just lives to survive
He's criticised and condemned for being alive
He's not supposed to fight back, he's supposed to have thick skin
He's supposed to lay down and die when his door is kicked in
He's the neighbourhood bully.

The neighbourhood bully been driven out of every land
He's wandered the earth an exiled man
Seen his family scattered, his people hounded and torn
He's always on trial for just being born
He's the neighbourhood bully.

now l don`t run from difficult questions around faith

but wrestle sometimes treasure the questions.

Treasure the questions as they rage in my mind,treasure the questions some day I will find

 ran out of answers such a long time ago,treasure the questions wherever I go.

"how can God be more glorious by letting evil exist?"

Authority day

Authority day
Here l am.... out sending codes
spending monies
filling in forms
standing in line
they got me
they got you
until we rebel
we stuck here
standing in line waiting for the man

Self serving faith

Been odd started thinking  . . . .return to those presenting `a personal Jesus`
He is mine and mine alone
YouTube worship Karaoke songs about my faith,
my life,my source of redemption
My journey,my eyes upon you,
Sadly there a Lack of empowerment ,also sadly no participation,results very poor practice
My testimony, with my family, praying a `heaven entry prayer`





Form of spiritual masturbation

Self Centred theology, Irrelevant to neighbours or community live among.

Discussion earlier today someone else has formed view,
 that this was `conservative` view beginning with Thatchers.
There is no community,  .  .  . you can achieve for self
Good chat as another reflected truth around those who belief is . .`self owned personal Jesus`.

All about self ,we have personal Jesus, not for sharing,lack true Faith,
belonging to culture self serving,
Rooted in political outlook we have adopted in small part of rural Church.

Unsure how we emerge into something more valuable to others
More valuable to the world
More valuable to community's we are placed among

pile of rumble like the dream to live by the coast

Walking along my beautiful coast along the east riding of Yorkshire
it very sad.
Because noone really cares about the nightmare that was once the homeowners dream life.
We know that coastal erosion is taking place.

ERYC Authority took council taxes
then abandoned the people to the elements.

Without protection,Support or advice

OK l get that LIFE
Recognise ,It a part of life...but again its harsh part of life for those dwelling here.....
Put yourself among them walk in their beach trunks and sandals...
imagine sand in your flip flops,
look up towards the cliff,
your home will soon be on the beach,
On the beach
but it wont be your home 
it will be a pile of rumble like the dream to live by the coast 
The nightmare that is presently LIFE ....for many uncomfortable and real issue.

against authorities,

Authority 
word that brings issues every-time hear it 
passport
economy
housing
travel
daily routine
even Church loves Authority
every day subjected to Authority
actions taken by people in Authority
wrong hurtful very often
still if l was offered chance to be Authority 


Bet l would jump at the chance
perhaps to change how Authority deals with people under authority

For our struggle ....against the rulers, against authorities, against powers of
this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 

Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

don`t get this blessing business.

l get it that life not easy
l get it that growth is about tackling  . .finding solutions to problems
but don`t get this blessing business.
Perhaps am just one of those unfortunate people 
not sure maybe my faith not strong enough, or me just in wrong place at wrong time.All of the time.

Some people present faith as a prosperity culture so the bigger your faith more blessings.

But don`t subscribe to that theology, . . . .it places many into the excluded zone

it about `your faith` works

which is not the same as `by your faith in the lord`.

Nor his `faithfulness to you`.

Thinking for a while now that been kinda going to wrong Church getting sucked into wrong ideas...which for a free thinker like myself that not good.

Church has always been piece meal for myself.

UPDATED DAILY

Until we recognise what we are becoming, rather than pretending that l or U are what we wish or hope might be,

 nothing will change.

MY LIFE IS A WORK IN PROGRESS

UPDATED DAILY 

HERE THE DAY BEGINS......

Here's to the babies in a brand new world
The beauty of the stars
... the travellers on the open road
 to the dreamers in the bars

Teachers in the crowded rooms
Here's to the workers in the fields
Here's to the preachers of the sacred words
The drivers  . . . .

lost and not found

LISTENED THIS MORNING TO MY ONE OLD RECORD
THE CRUTCH . . . . BY THE TIMES
5 MINUTES 15 ....
OF BLUES ,I SUPPOSE

If we could drain the North Sea for just one day, we would find amazing treasures.

It is no secret east riding coastline is eroding, with the clay we live upon eroding at 2 metres a year. Pretty visible when live ,walk, active local.

East Yorkshire once expanded further into North Sea, over the centuries, land has been lost to the waves, with it settlements both ancient and modern.

It can be distressing driving along the roads and for last few months just been fields of water.

Limited wildlife, real lack of trees winds wip up, cold chilly weather affects other factors in life.

been no efforts to address this issue,unsure why that is?

Real second Queen of my heart

One pleasure of life is to explore my music.
Love the linear notes along with pictures coulers and style
conversations around lyrics value that this hols for myself as we chat drink cafe perhaps smoke a cigar....one of my greatest pleasure is Dee Jaying....love playlist that people enjoy as they party dance, sometimes as we collectively gather in Church.
Music still  first queen in this broken, indeed damaged, heart 

MY HEALTH AND HOW I FEEL . . . .

What is ischemic heart disease? It's the term given to heart problems caused by narrowed heart arteries. When arteries are narrowed, less blood and oxygen reaches the heart muscle. This is also called coronary artery disease and coronary heart disease.

Struggle with my condition and the lack of activities

Trouble has been that some days are very different, l can be active and awake but next day l can drift off unable to stay awake nor active.

Then l get concerned as feel not contributing to society

nor am l active in belonging to a community

how you feel is important

how you feel others view you is very vital

today its been injections.

• yesterday it was sleeping but don't really sleep drift off constantly awake getting up then drifting asleep
• receive Oxygen 
• then there is sharp troublesome pain which whacks me
• recently have to rest unable to be active.
• more Blood tests schedule for next week
• unemployed
• poverty despite stewardship of my resources`.. becoming stretched.

Feel awkward as want to contribute to the poor that l live among.

Reality is that l am in poverty further

health is important

issue for myself is how l feel

it not others . . . nor there prejudice

How l perceive issue around my health.

l have good people nearby

Can walk each day.

walk late on in the day along the coast

listen and engage with issues via radio

belong to Church and friends..... converse about stuff

but l feel left out of the scene

left out of some conversations

moments that used to be part of my social activity frequently do not attend

I feel concerned about my plight

I feel silly not feeling better

But I know how l feel

not how life should be

Crime reports for where l live

81 crimes reported in Nov 2019
Crime is down 29% last year

Violence and sexual offences 33% (27)

Anti-social behaviour 14% (12)

Criminal damage and arson 14% (12)

Burglary 13% (11)

Other theft 9% (8)

Public order 4% (4)

Shoplifting 4% (4)

Other crime 2% (2)

Drugs 1% (1)

making waves

Move over, kale: this year it’s seaweed that’s making waves. You can get it in dried form, as flakes to use as a seasoning, or as crisps. Claimed TO BE“superfood”, The reality there’s no such thing
it’s the diet overall that matters.The key to my success seems to be finding what works for Kevin.
 Then stick with it ,stops myself trying every new diet that comes along.

Live out your Christian faith so that others become curious and ask you about it. 
in relation to surveys about Non Church attendee this struck me most . . .

"we came to see all of this negativity from people who were highly religious"

A growing body of research recognise the influences of religion and religious faith on human behaviour and psychological functioning.

That explains something about social engineering and belonging.