Feb 28, 2025

STILL SHAKENING WITH ANGER.

Do you feel like your vocation the only one God has for you, to serve others so hence serving God along with his nature for your LIFE. That calling, That ministry, like being a Pastor is you until your time is done at the moment God calls you home.


Cannot grasp how country like the UK in anyway, in any form, could possibly have deserted Gods `love for all` so much that it showers support on Hamas.


Niagara Falls was illuminated in orange in memory of Shiri, Kfir, and Ariel Bibas.

The brokenness everyone should feel. Along image plus memories, will be always in my heart. As will all the victims remain in mine plus others hearts, their memories will be always in our hearts, all the victims will be forever in our hearts but those ginger babies were the symbol of our hope, they may take them from us, but they will never break the spirit of the Israeli people and it's supporters, nor it's resilience. Loved by many in UK Hamas have taken them from this world in most
cruelest of ways.

Fueling contempt and call

for further revenge.
thing cowardly action will never do is this...
"Never break the spirit of the Israeli people and it's supporters, nor it's resilience".

Feb 27, 2025

In Bullying state.

So lost liberal politics replaced it with a right wing approach to society. But never really understood that left wing was never about the greater good of all. But was about the greater requirements of what individual gains. 

Bullying going on know this, but BBC radio further TV channel still labelling those not WOKE as uncommitted to fact at doctrines.

There's another understanding, Which personally favour. Simply that real politics ignored the very people at bottom of the queue.

The kind of forums Kevin loved listening too, always favoured, suggest lot of people come into present isolated state. Because frustrated by being ignored.


Feb 26, 2025

Perhaps it's just age.

Getting older not for sissy's 

Forget things, names, People.

Drop stuff Yougart, milk, cups.

Struggling to adjust to limited or fixed income.

Memories burn bright, today's foggy blur.

Uphills difficult and time to get places 'runs out'. Fashion not important. Music remains vital.

TV station that watch has stars no longer with us. Not in this world. Strange places get saggy. NHS let's one down because ones using it more often.

Odd behaviour you exhibit becomes quite normal. Slower lot slower.

Head coverings not to be in style but like old long warm coat, it keeps you warm. No longer youngest in group. 

Getting up earlier. Going to bed earlier. No longer know it all because you no longer know anything.

LIFE. Lot of things your confident, one that remains truest... LIFE is short passes quickly.

If l awake tomorrow connect again.


Feb 25, 2025

Numdskull Kev

I’m grateful when, it happened quite often, maybe you've had this feeling, emotion, experience. Every so often. I can say “surely God was in this place” .

Maybe Faith should be more then that sometimes it so large, but in the everyday stuff above is my most go to ..For evidence this guys faith.


Get a life...Anyway thank you all....xxxx

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Their music was mainly disco, funk & soul with a hint of reggae. Their biggest hit was "Disco Music", which was also the first 12" single on the Magnet label.

Feb 24, 2025

Not always sure agree with all l communicate.

Some people don't mean too hurt others with uncalled for comments. They don't mean to throw arrows into your heart. Nordo they understand the hurting you may feel. Other times people are experiencing issues, so they keep being problematic.

They don't mean that hurtful comment, they aren't trying to hurt another nor cast you aside. At times like this practice grace offer forgiveness. They don't want you too feel rejected.

Someone said ...there's no such things as problem people...Just people experiencing problems.

 

Feb 23, 2025

IF....well big If.


 If heaven wasn't so far away Losing others wouldn't be so hard too take. If heaven wasn't so far away grab whoever wanted to come , go visit for the day. Grandmas, granddad,  Mum and Dads. Uncles ,Aunty's.

What a great chat. Beautiful conversation.Tell them about what's happening now. Hear about the good old days If heaven wasn't so far away. And we was allowed to visit for the day.

Watch in rear view mirror as we drove away , pull up on the corner for one last wave, if Heaven wasn't so far away. See all loved ones for that special day.

Did l ever tell
You folks collect 
Postcards.

Feb 22, 2025

Been neglecting my real duty to reflect God.

 Watch them sleeping there

In the fading embers of this day

I think of all the many ways

That You were here with us today

And I say a prayer, goodnight

For faces like a soft surprise

For talks of toys and excited cries

And the promise of those tender cries

I say a prayer, a grateful prayer tonight

And for this place to rest my feet again

I want to thank You

For family prayers and evening meals

For hopes and hugs and knees that heal

For all these wonders that I feel.


Became aware not for the first time recently that  Kevin had not begun the day as normally I should.

The car journey was the starting place of further prayers, for safety common sense, and travelling mercy's. The food l ate, people l would be meeting, communications, conversations, encounters, So often they filled my prayer life along with issues of this troubled community, society, and the induvial  placed among.

Not been shining my light nor have l presented the best image of me. Two gone hand in hand, prayer life, who l should be. Words and writings are not enough.

Getting my act together by getting to my knees.

It's in the dirt on a farmer's hands

His blood and sweat are in that plant

Sure could use a little rain

Down every road in every town

All the lost, all the found

To Him, we're all the same

Oh, everybody needs one

Say a prayer for me when you're down

On your knees tonight (Remember me)

 

RABA MCENTIRE....ROBERTA FLACK... (4thelyrics.) 

Feb 21, 2025

Its all part of the jigsaw that can be faith.

Spirituality not religion it something that is very different.

Spirituality is also religion because God is spiritual as is following Jesus.


Sometimes find that certain people think that being religious is an offence like being labeled identified as Christian is a tag people don't want nor desire. Especially in the deconstructed gatherings.

Being identified as a `follower of Jesus`, will be demanding along with modern baggage because seldom these days do people look beyond views.

When that view is distorted it still gets accepted for why l do not know.

You can be religious and spiritual. Its OK to feel like you failed as a follower, its normal but make your own way when growing, developing in faith. That's part of the wrestling along with the journey.

Enjoy like you would enjoy music, relationships, ethical challenges, films, books, discussions. Its all part of the jigsaw that can be faith.

Feb 19, 2025

Memories Don't leave like people do, they stay in your video vaults.

Buckler was born in Woking in Surrey and attended Sheerwater Secondary School, where he met Weller and Foxton, according to multiple reports.

The trio formed The Jam in 1972 when they were all still teenagers and released their first single, In The City, in 1977.

By the time they split, they were one of the biggest bands in the UK and several of their hits re-entered the UK singles chart, reflecting their popularity at the time.


It's kind of worry when recording stars one still plays music, pass away. Doesn't feel like he was old. Just drummer in rock N roll group. Memories of those times come to mind.

Recall the people, as a tailors apprentice had mates who wanted the style of this 'mod' influenced group some mates inspired too play in a band.

Memories Don't leave like people do, they stay in your video vaults reemergence when possible.

Feb 18, 2025

You know sometimes Satan, you know he comes as a man of peace.

 There is l feel a danger today in that religious people easily slide into would be versions of easy-going moralism's of the world around. Christians , followers of Jesus, think of authenticity or spontaneity, doing what comes naturally, going with your heart as first response to issues, actions, and relationships.  But our heart can be misleading, emotions govern above mindset, we don't reflect, often we carry on in that vein. Now its about my confession here. 

Often failing to realize the heart is deceitful, and as Jesus warns, full of all kinds of things that would make us unclean.

Romans in the new testament.

Christian ethics means going with the renewed sense of thinking, feelings, even going against the general thinking behaving those alongside us in society.

Bring the Kingdom of heaven to be part of our here and now, in this issue based lifestyle.

Seeing America’s top diplomat sitting at the table with the Russians to negotiate Ukraine’s future—without the Ukrainians themselves—is infuriating. This weak and clueless administration had already given the Russians nearly everything they wanted before negotiations even began. Peace through weakness.

Generally that should be the approach to Satan's advocate Donald trump, DYLANS "Man of Peace" is a track, address's the concept that evil generally, may disguise himself to mislead humanity.
Look out your window, baby, there's a scene you'd like to catchThe band is playing "Dixie", a man got his hand outstretchedCould be the FuhrerCould be the local priestYou know sometimes Satan, you know he comes as a man of peace


Refresh in us today, Lord, our identity as your people, called to bear your image and share your love in and for the world. Inspire us in the unity to which you call us; help us inhabit and incarnate our relationship with you,

 


There is a mental health crisis in farming. 91% of UK farmers rank poor mental health as one of the biggest dangers in the industry - largely due to financial jeopardy (made worse by the government’s inheritance tax on family farms).


Feb 17, 2025

Comfortable doesn't grow when we are detached from each other.

Feel this weather called people to shrink into place of being comfortable. We saw this attitude around first C19 outbreak. Some where content, yes that's the word, stay in. Have we forgotten we stayed indoors. Detached. isolated, remote.

Heavy words, heavy place to be settled in. Looking internally. The present apathy is due to economic position, realistically many are without. Poorer so little being mentioned, it's affecting how we create cohesive partnerships.

Confident this social way of being, not just a mood, it's new present way of being. Isolated lone side affect, lack concern for others.

Again one of my favourite mantras shouts out. "Comfortable doesn't grow when we are detached from each other". 


 

Feb 14, 2025

“Sometimes love leaves us too soon".

 “Sometimes love leaves us too soon". On Valentine’s Day — Cherish the love you have that can touch — and the love , may hold in your heart. Mines for special son who`s gone on to the next adventure`.

See you Matthew, when the Honey buzzard lands witness
kestrel fluttering, hear Sparrowhawk screaks. 


Feb 13, 2025

This longest winter, further `BIG FOOT ` search. Well you go off now Matty, "I`ll tell you more....When l get there".

Its been the longest winter, others are saying this. The beach is deserted even the seals found someplace warm. Seaside towns are like dooms day. Armageddon could visit and many wouldn't notice. moneys gets tighter, people look worn out by weather ,worry, woke attitude, wasted money spent by MPs. 



Yet here l sit, year on from the saddest day. Death of Matthew, all the year its been a new experience , summer came, new events, Malta trip Christmas day, a New year all without you son. Talk often to you when see a sparrow hawk fly, kestrel fluttering, honey buzzard sat observing a kill in the fields. Again we talk. thank you for all you taught myself, ask again forgiveness for mistakes l feel made. Would loved to have pushed you for longer on walks, stayed more time when we watched a movie.

Ended the magazines you received, listened to your CDs, still watch your programme about 'Big Foot' hunt. 

Linda,(my friend), talked yesterday about `Black Cat pumas` near her home, listened, saw you listening too desperate to take the phone and interrupt the conversation. The dead are present hear others say, its true. That `big cat` conversation glanced across the empty room, You were there as we both listened intently. 

The `BIG FOOT ` search. Well you go off now Matty, "I`ll tell you more....When l get there".

Feb 11, 2025

Here`s the love test.

 So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end. Love never dies.


SO TAKE A RULER. place your name on paper, how you doing lets start with no 1 how are you at not giving in, how resilient are you?

score out of 12 on the ruler. Do you care about others ?

what about looking at others stuff and desiring another`s life style.

How do you behave when cant get own way? Are you bigheaded ? 

Is co-hesive behaviour way to get others to do for you, or even be with you. Can you try not to keep score when others offend, are you able to offer grace.

Would others describe you as boisterous noisy and upfront among others. WOW this is tough measurement test . Lets keep going forward.

How reliable is your word, the lips that speak, truth coming from your Heart. Do you put up with others along with unfruitful behaviour. Parents often have to display these attributes. Not sure score well at all in some areas, pretty poor at putting up with others, but pray for more tolerance. Can look backward at way others treated myself, been victim of another constantly reminding myself of past. However keep ploughing onwards wanting too see the best in humans around myself.

ALWAYS with me, there room for improvement.

Feb 10, 2025

Then others call your attention to change in the Church hall curtains.

 God never promises us an easy journey in carpet slippers.

OK found that on the web.

Can you feel your faith slipping away? Are you or a loved one questioning what you’ve always believed, accepted, hung onto, based your whole lives around ?

You are not alone, in fact it should be part of the process of faithful person whose Faith is alive.

If you are bit concerned about huge questions, concerns, things that no longer add up. Find oneself asking there’s life beyond the issues thought completely sorted out years ago,  or if you’re trying desperately to understand a loved one who is losing their faith—Issue alive in Church following gathering. Ones you ask about others call your attention to change in the Church hall curtains.

May be like myself becoming odd one, person called names like `Heretic`. Sometimes found myself when younger  having courage to question what we and others believed, grasping that l felt was  growing beyond previous versions of Churchselves.

Churchselves. Those good folks who wont accept any critic or another version of Jesus wants me as a sunbeam. You see then all correct in the world.

You see then it will be OK. In a world that isn't OK.

Christian apologists, (PEOPLE WHO REASON, WORK STUFF OUT, DISCUSS, DEBATE, QUESTION, AND SOMETIMES ADMIT `DONT HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS`).  “What do ‘apostates’ themselves have to say?” 


Let me try put what l attempt into helpful few paragraphs. WE NEED TO EXAMINE , LISTEN ACTIVLY WHY people leave behind a faith that has shaped every aspect of their life and identity.  We must, well should, have the courage to ask difficult , hard, challenging  questions. Need to wrestle, sometimes confess cognitive dissonance, listen with others to Nomadic community's, deconstructing podcasts, authenticity in our searching, new discoveries can lead many to newfound, understanding deeper beliefs and hope on the Christian journey.

“I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” tackles, in touching fashion, the struggle to maintain faith, when the proof of divinity can’t ever be pinned down by us mere mortals. In every verse, the narrator describes his efforts, taking him through all manner of obstacles. And every time that refrain (But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for) returns, a fresh pang of anguish hits once again.

Feb 9, 2025

My best today from Article North.

The best very best advice l can offer anyone today is this…Stay warm.
You want more connect tomorrow. God Bless.

 

Feb 7, 2025

Some issues don't hold answers too.

 “Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth” 

EPH 4....NOW THATS A HARD LESSON TO PRACTICE....

Hard places we have to go in ministry so how do we practice faith in environment that is complex among those who posses no belief, or a morel compass close to anything Church folk would recognise?

Some issues don't hold answers too. Stuff can only Wrestle with.



Feb 6, 2025

God has created an environment in his creation where we can escape, before returning to our world taking back with us a concept of hope.

 Hope is a practice, an attitude, a commitment. And something, more often than not, shaped by collaborating with, and belonging to, others. It is something we make together, Its missing, LIFE requires a commitment to build Hope, more so in present political climate, very much so in areas where Church has vacated its prime position.

The sea, nature, coulers, topography of a bird, Deer's in fields, wooded areas. Long beach walks across sandy dunes, all rooted in our desire to search for different, search for better, Nature brings us HOPE.

Places of HOPE include Community, being together, conversation can happen, needs to be away from political authorities, there we can argue discuss and find solutions. Had game of draughts today, trying to be strategic while enjoying being with two friends very quickly accepted by those who already meet collectively.

Now invited two others to join us next gathering HOPE grows in little conversation. Bringing HOPE about getting `stuck in` ,like in the garden on your knees planting, soil on your fingers, tried get up have a drink, then `back aching stuff` to get the soil worked over, tiled, dug up, result is growth in the land.

A lot of the work underground doesn't get seen. But like lot work in community development its taking place. My fiend said today `she no longer watches the news`. She right this never ending narrative brings me down , can feel overwhelming, problematic, so try find a place to feel HOPE. maybe with others in place not yet tried.

If really lucky, Can be along side others walking, exploring, visiting, or may just be solo ,smells, sights, wonderful moments that bring individual recognition of  hope.


I hope you're not lonely without me

When you want more than you haveYou think you needAnd when you think more than you wantYour thoughts begin to bleedI think I need to find a bigger place'Cause when you have more than you thinkYou need more space
Society, you're a crazy breedI hope you're not lonely without meSociety, crazy indeedI hope you're not lonely without me
There's those thinking, more or less, less is moreBut if less is more, how you keeping score?Means for every point you make, your level dropsKinda like you're starting from the topYou can't do that
God has created an environment in his creation where we can escape, before returning to our world taking back with us a concept of hope.

 

Feb 5, 2025

What’s playing on your personal playlist.?

The music you listen too

Is like a LIFE blood crushing through your bloodstream, holding memories getting your feet moving, reminding you past occasions, exploring narrative.

Creates in you something armistice mostly unique to you, it’s something that’s yours but can share with many others. Special soundtrack to your LIFE.

Any favorites ? Repeat in your video vaults. For me it’s often soul music. Presently Millie Jackson on repeat playing in my heart……`If you’re not back in love by Monday`

……private collection for a Lady and myself.

What’s yours.?

Altogether now….hang the DJs. Hang the DJs.

Feb 4, 2025

Just a few thoughts occupying my small mind on this cold evening in February.

 The 6 bridges are:

- the face
- the tongue & throat
- the hands, the diaphragm & intercostals (breathing)
- the pelvic floor (anal, urethral & vaginal sphincters)
- the feet

Place your attention on each of these ‘bridges

We found no statistically significant associations between candle use and the risk of cardiovascular and respiratory events ...NEITHER DID I ..

Martin Lewis is really clever guy helping other to find economic well being in areas where the services plus support is lacking. Which in country where the Authority figures are hell bent on promoting WOKE agenda above equality for all its a nicest to have voluntary sector filling the void.

Foolishly too many accepted the broken news of failed system many where promised a £300 to £600 reduction in our energy bills, if we voted Labour! Until Politicians are made to sign a contract with their nation that states they will fulfil their obligations. If fail in this area, they can be legally sued for failure to meet their obligations under contract law. Only then can we improve the broken system. keep thinking how can all my energy costs possibly go up? We already have the most expensive energy in Europe, we have our own gas and oil fields? It's almost like we are being mismanaged and the government and energy companies are not working in our best interest, well you saw that comment coming before l had wrote this.


Labor political created void.

@MartinSLewis

Bad news. The predictions for what'll happen to the energy price cap in April keep rising.  EDF now predicted Ofgem will increase it by 3.3% rise, British Gas predicts 5%, Eon Next predicts 5.7%. 

We're only a couple of weeks from the end of the assessment period. So that means this is getting pretty firm.  Its now nearly unthinkable that it'll drop, it's going to rise, the big question is how much.

Feb 2, 2025

Odd time end up here


Sometimes in my daily walking, just end up in Church, let whole place speak to myself. 
as got older found icons, images, smells, noise even if its in different langue helpful. I`m a reflective practioner. Images helpful. The sight someone sat quietly maybe praying. In some places people taking photos. Reflection about the deep stuff. Sitting in the long now.

LIFE is short. 

Feb 1, 2025

Sometimes good to know....


 Well reading article about myself, which is really odd. The odd bit was half decent, but facts where not accurate and definitely how l remember.

Like this image above from the Bible. Don't know the story. Don't know the event. Never read this narrative, can't recall it being transmitted to me.

Sometimes we know only faint shadow of story, person, an event, occasion, or another humans life. We grow even in Autumnal years. That's wonderful thing to grasp.

Growth doesn't reside in a place called comfortable. Go there occasionally it's about development. Not easy place to get too. But others travel with you. 

May meet others like you and me in that place. 


We got something better we claimed hearts of stone.

Suppose some time soon should comment on that Buffoon Trump. Except really think already have tipped my head to Dylan's 'Man of Peac...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"