l am a non conformist

so what is a non conformist
someone who simply returns words heard elsewhere
no
someone who maybe hears the words but try hard to live them out
even
when
it
becomes uncomfortable

bit foggy in Hull

STEVE Harper says Hull City’s focus cannot drift towards a looming FA Cup semi-final at Wembley after suffering another set-back in their final push for Premier League survival.

A 1-0 loss at Stoke City on Saturday frustratingly condemned the Tigers to back-to-back defeats and left them still searching for the last three points that manager Steve Bruce believes will guarantee safety.

Swansea City are next up for Hull City at the KC Stadium this weekend in what will be the last chance to pull clear before thoughts turn to the eagerly-awaited date with Sheffield United in a fortnight.

That Wembley date will see City aim for the first major final in the club’s 110-year history, but Harper has warned anyone dreaming of FA Cup glory will be in for a rude awakening with their league fate still to be decided.




personaly found another defeat upsetting it was not a good game to watch but expected a bit more then what city players put up throughout the season city been lacking something spirit skill l do not know waht true we are one of the poorer teams but it time to enjoy out place inthe sun/limelight
the fans have been very loyal giving emotional and finical support so lets hope the players repay that investment

steve harper a true proffessional and best second choic goalie in the league

Read more: http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Hull-City-keeper-Steve-Harper-focus-beating/story-20882746-detail/story.html#ixzz2xX3qesX8

been foggy for 4 days here

been spending some time in the house getting used to not having people and animals living with me also moved out lot of other peoples stuff cooking for one again feel empty. Have too get used to the quiet again plus my own self

the last 4 days including today the mist and low cloud have mean`t that we can only see a few yards in front of us  we measured it at 10 yards stood out in the middle of our rural area surrounded by mist and fog was wierd cold damp further sounds carry differant! life in this rural community
Last evening l was ill health was a worry with breathlessness returning
main issue for my self but life has to go on

residential leads to sharing of self



residentail bring out lots of opportunties to share
ideas discussions  food music explore lifestyle
sharing an important part of our development as human beings
many times l have facilated residentials experiances
benifitted from watching sharing witnessing human youth grow at these times



rambling on cold wet dark saturday

WEEKEND

You can’t have a great Monday morning if you had a terrible weekend. Work is important do you and l want to be successful? (that a hard question),but there’s always something that can wait until Monday. Weekends are a time for yourself (not really,maybe a while ago but society and culture changed)they can still be for some a time to unwind, to relax and to think. In fact, many people do their best thinking during leisure time, because you’re free from other work distractions and can think abstractly.
Although for me it not been normal like the evenings often work times so weekends and evenings when work the most often!

HULL CITY


Steve Bruce will have concerns over the quick turnaround from Wednesday to Saturday and could consider the likes of Robert Koren and Sone Aluko.

Alex Bruce could also retain his holding midfield role.

Eldin Jakupovic will be Harper’s understudy following being recalled from loan with Leyton Orient. Abdoulaye Faye will also be part of the travelling squad against his former club although not pacer anymore still strong relible defender in my view.
Stevie harper returns in goal for the injured and suspended allan mcgregor.UTT.

EMOTIONAL LITERACY

Apologies vary from minor, everyday apologies to major begging for forgiveness. On occasion we commit acts which are so injurious that even when such actions are forgotten and their effects swept under the rug, they leave indelible scars in their victims which can only be repaired through a major apology and offer of amends. If, after thoughtful soul searching, the apology is accepted and forgiveness is granted, there may be psychic healing possible. However it is important that the injured party be free not to forgive, to postpone or to set conditions for forgiveness and reconsideration.
emotinal literacy is absent among the mining community l live /work/excist among
they do not want to forget or forgive...too risky...life is a risk

some of the thoughts that have been getting my focus this cold wet dark Saturday after l prayed and spent some time listening to God, then reflecting

Choices

So today as the rain comes down

Then flooding becomes an issue again

I wonder what shirt to wear

l haves scar that finishes near my neckline

As l am aware tend to wear high collars

So which shirt should it be as I ponder get ready

This week been so busy full 

Lot of communication with people at different levels

Work related and employment prospects

Choices

Food bank cafe and talking with contacts made since we started
running this around 1year ago

Trustees and management meeting

Choices

Hospital. Doctors. Nurses. Cardiac clinic

Choices

now which shirt to wear

l am a city till l die

l`m a tiger ,   i`m a tiger,  i`m a tiger, i`m a tiger.

but l must start winning and stop my goalie getting sent off otherwise l will get relegated



Reduced to 10 men midway through the first half, when Allan McGregor was shown a straight red card for the second time in eight games, it was not just history against Steve Bruce's men.

A wretched collective decision from the officials saw Mohamed Diame's handball go unnoticed in the seconds before he was sent tumbling by McGregor inside the box, allowing Mark Noble to send West Ham on their way to leapfrogging the Tigers in the table

Sometimes I lie awake at night and wonder
Where the years have gone
They have all passed under
Sleep's dark and silent gate

girls UK 2014

At 17 I fell pregnant and at this point I realised that I was scared, that I didn't want to be with him and I didn't want to raise a baby with him. I woke up to who was in my life.

Girls, I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - bad girls
The sunshine in their hair, the perfume that they wear
Girls are everywhere
Girls - super fine, mighty fine, sugar and spice
Everything nice - ah-hah-hah
I'd like to be a magician then I could stop wishin'
I'd take my magic wand, and poof, I'd have me fun
If the guys could see me, they'd swear I was Hoodini
Before they could count from one to three
I'd have ten girls standin' next to me
Girls, I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - sweet girls


Home Office minister for equality, said violence against girls in gangs had remained hidden for too long. "I think people would be shocked if they could see the level of violence and abuse against girls in gangs," she said. Groups working in the area were invited to bid for the advocate positions. "Our first priority is to protect girls who can see themselves as worthless objects to be used in unacceptable ways

."Girls, I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - bad girls
The sunshine in their hair, the perfume that they wear
Girls are everywhere
Girls - super fine, mighty fine, sugar and spice
Everything nice - ah-hah-hah
I'd like to be a magician then I could stop wishin'
I'd take my magic wand, and poof, I'd have me fun
If the guys could see me, they'd swear I was Hoodini
Before they could count from one to three
I'd have ten girls standin' next to me
Girls, I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - sweet girls




Three boys, one aged 15, and two aged 16, were being held in a nearby police station after they were arrested on suspicion of murder near the scene of the fatal shooting on Eastway, close to the Olympic Park. The 15-year-old was charged with murder late on Sunday night.

Police sources said one line of investigation was that the shooting may have been an accident. Scotland Yard said "enquiries continue to establish the full circumstances of the incident". A post-mortem examination at Poplar mortuary on Sunday revealed Shereka died from a gunshot wound to her neck,

I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - bad girls
The sunshine in their hair, the perfume that they wear
Girls are everywhere
Girls - super fine, mighty fine, sugar and spice
Everything nice - ah-hah-hah
I'd like to be a magician then I could stop wishin'
I'd take my magic wand, and poof, I'd have me fun
If the guys could see me, they'd swear I was Hoodini
Before they could count from one to three
I'd have ten girls standin' next to me
Girls, I love the things they know, love the things they show
Got to be with a girl - sweet girls

its Sunday

its

Sunday

but it don't feel like

spiritual

special

blessed

Sunday

became like another day

Church bored me

the guy

in the pulpit

got nothing of any

relevance to say

community should be concerned about
each others spiritual health
as it is about econmic well being
"spiritofthestreets"

Hull Tiggers ..its not all about money

really interesting insight into the modern footballer and injury
Sona Aluko needs to pay back the manager staff and supporters of HCFC.
Thats right hull city
some ejeet chairman wants to call the team hull tigers because it will make more money
not everything in life or football is about money and this smells of greed not true business attitude
we need success on the field and in the economy of the city


"It's a lot better now," Aluko explained. "This has been my best week of training, physically, when you look at all the stats of speed and all those things they analyse.

"I've felt like it's been my best week, so I'm happy about that and it shows I'm going in the right direction.

"Very few footballers play any games 100 per cent fit. When you get on the pitch, you're fit. I'm pain-free. I feel good in my body when I get out there and in training. It doesn't hinder me any more, so that's the best thing I can say.

"I played the first eight games and I was playing well, so it wasn't hindering me but it wasn't completely gone.



Read more: http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Hull-City-s-Sone-Aluko-fight-dislodge-Shane-Long/story-20841706-detail/story.html#ixzz2wgitJTuU

Psalms 19:14 (KJV) Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.

Do we really NEED to know the original "meaning" behind a song?
Jackson Browne's "For a Dancer" first appeared on the 1974 platinum album Late For The Sky and has prompted online fans to debate whether the song was as a result of Browne's wife's suicide (which actually occurred after the song was released) or the death of his friend

l do really like to hear why words were written wether it from the bible or just a modern day psalm like those l foten put up here words
words
words are like feelings
they go deep
someone recently asked me about my heart
words
stayed with me late at nite
l saw a picture of a lady who body had been scared by cancer
my emotions overwhelmed me

U are Mega

what would your life verse

tell us about you

you are special

unigue

there has never been no will here be again

anyone

like

U

mega

killings wind and views

don`t like when people go lamping, l think something wrong going out to kill an animal for no reason
to eat the kill l can understand



there is the sea wind always present where we live is called 'up canada' due to the alway`s present wind

always death in this rural community on the fields and around the coast

Praise The Lord who made heaven and earth

today is about pain l get chronic pain which by that l am meaning most of the time its mild and not real noticeable but friday most of the day mild pain uncomfortable today slightly worse alos forgotto have my tablets further heads buzzing
but othersworse of today healthwise then me

slip up city

thought we got outplayed but lets be real they have spent more then a third world country spends on missles. so they gonna win also lets remind ourselves if they bought it they own it.. yes a bit `laffing it off`, but that football these days no longer a entertainment community event.
STEVE Bruce says the survival prospects of his Hull City side will be judged in the weeks to come after again falling short against the Premier League's big guns.

A 2-0 defeat to Manchester City on Saturday was the 11th loss in 13 games against the current top eight and the Tigers were left to rue another near miss at the KC Stadium after Vincent Kompany's red card reduced the visitors to 10 men for 80 minutes.

l heard this for the first time this morning it stopped me in my tracks

"For A Dancer"


Keep a fire burning in your eye
Pay attention to the open sky
You never know what will be coming down
I don't remember losing track of you
You were always dancing in and out of view


I must have thought you'd always be around




Always keeping things real by playing the clown
Now you're nowhere to be found

I don't know what happens when people die
Can't seem to grasp it as hard as I try
It's like a song I can hear playing right in my ear
That I can't sing
I can't help listening
And I can't help feeling stupid standing 'round
Crying as they ease you down
'Cause I know that you'd rather we were dancing
Dancing our sorrow away
(Right on dancing)
No matter what fate chooses to play
(There's nothing you can do about it anyway)

Just do the steps that you've been shown
By everyone you've ever known
Until the dance becomes your very own
No matter how close to yours
Another's steps have grown
In the end there is one dance you'll do alone

Keep a fire for the human race
Let your prayers go drifting into space
You never know what will be coming down
Perhaps a better world is drawing near
And just as easily it could all disappear
Along with whatever meaning you might have found
Don't let the uncertainty turn you around
(The world keeps turning around and around)
Go on and make a joyful sound

Into a dancer you have grown
From a seed somebody else has thrown
Go on ahead and throw some seeds of your own
And somewhere between the time you arrive
And the time you go
May lie a reason you were alive
But you'll never know



The morning sun shines across our povershised and blighted town



sometimes l have difficulty rememerbing 2014 but
1974 and starting out in the Boxing games is like a fresh memorie

HE SAID ,FOLLOW ME'

Following me

will present

you 

with 

uncomfortable choices

take my cross

follow 

me

it 

not

easy

fullness of life guaranteed

Miners are real scum

Why do some communitys celebrate defeat?
Here local they are known for drugs, voilence, fast food takeaways, hatred of outsiders, fouling  dogsh@t on streets,yet they celebrate DEFEAT

They foolish followed a man called scargill with recognised own political agenda.

 Locally we was told they had a 'hand up count ', form of school boy bullying, lt was stated, l was told several times 

"l was there and not even one quarter voted to strike"!

Today they still pay a large amount of money to his account when recently a Union rep asked WHY? 

H,e was odered to shut up

They showed hatred to others who chose to go to work, read that again, they choose to go to work.

 l have met many who are glad they lost friends because they chose to work..Miners had money to travel all over the land as flying pickets, along money for beer but they chose

to let own kidz survive on a slice of toast, wrong.

 Wrong choice wrong direction ..followers...wrong still today they glorify defeat . .  "glorify the past when the future dead ahead"

Sideways view LOL

l don't follow have my sense of God
my way of looking at life
listen actively to others
don't have tattoos or skinhead haircut
don't dress like man at 'whatever'
just an individual
who knows only thing to be true
that a man gets his life
when he follows the SON

HAT DOG

so l am walking along at 6 in the morning observing a beautiful start to the day when a staffie is growling and trying to snap at me

HAT

said its owner as she struggled to hold it back from the collar

HAT

she repeated

DOG

DOG
it not me wearing a hat walking the coast at 6 in the morning
peace
disturbed
threat
fear

Dog

Dog

is that not like it is these days, the problem is always someone else
not a vicious angry uncontrollable dog
but man enjoying the sun
praying and walking

HCFC . .nervous for a while

this sums up the day big expensive signing from a club that feel we are small fry and the joy from the supporters. . . . brilliant

l was quiet nervous especially when sono aloko missed the penalty (he really owes city big style) l thought oh no it going to be one of those days ,then it all went wild for about 12 minutes we scored ..scored ..scored at times we also played some very attractive entertaining football . Health has not been ace so this really uplifted me

enjoy you Hull city enjoy



l dont normally get excited about Hull City..but we payed our dues
it our time in the sun lets enjoy this as much as we should it entertainment and that what it`s about being entertained and City done that ..enjoy the moment



the fans who walked around the pitch .collecting money...who recall a time when the players and supporters were locked out of the ground by Chairperson wanting to make quick buck..Christmas trips to grounds like York ..playing hartlepool doncaster..sunderland ..now we have our day in the sun as Al Pacino said in Donnie Brasco "even a dog gets to lay in the sun". Its perhaps our time after 110 years in not come soon enough

northern soul thursdays

By James Campbell


DEMOLITION THREAT: Hull City Council has issued a notice to the owner of the former New York Hotel.


Read more: http://www.hulldailymail.co.uk/Land-banking-blamed-blighting-Hull-streets/story-20783619-detail/story.html#ixzz2vMkphQWZ

This was one of my old haunts northern soul thursdays country western tuesdays now its wrecked...like me LOL as the kidz say
Passed the venue last month as called into Hull to see family and friends..life goes on and there is a nostaliga for looking back sometimes we tend to glorify but lots of musical memories off first going out socilising drinking listening to some great music

now part of the journey

So today been so very tired went back to bed.
tablets
headaches
chest pain
But
good news Matthew may have new place in Hull
then perhaps he can take the pets back to thier home with him
making home is not easy
he had a tough period but with Gods blessing, provision we are here
now
now and the waiting is part of the tapestry of life
love is forever
hope is eternal
Faith is a journey
been pleasure sharing as Matthew comes through troubled times to Now
Now

ABOUT U

when you share something

of U

you take the chance that others

will

ridule yourself but that the

risk

selfesteem is how you view

value

U

it nothing to do with how others

measure

U

KEVIN WALLER`THE SPIRITOFTHESTREETS`

home thoughts from the spiritofthestreets

Home.
Sitting and talking
watching telly,
having a cuppa,
Waiting.
staying warm
listening to music,
thinking . . .praying.....watching.
Home.
reading a book,
listening to radio 2,
playing on the wii,
listening to the archers,
cooking in the kitchen.
While others read...watch..talk..share.
Home.
Animals are also part of my home life
fish tank,
cats blanket,
Dragon in its tank or walking freely on the tiles.
Guinness with my son, as we laugh
resting with friends after a walk nearby.

There are many things most of us would like to share, me am sharing my thoughts on home promoted by this picture of a Settee. Which is where so much has happened, it been in three homes now and is over 12 years old.

Opening yourself out can be precious, open you up to ridicule, that the risk must, (plus you may need to take).

It like sharing thoughts.

Something not everyone is comfortable with, but this a bit about my home my own thoughts.

local to me 2014

Looking across towards the beech where not many decades ago they dropped coal onto the beach with no environmental thought the issue was not raised as an item nor was it on any agenda ..But with Gods help little if any human aid it cleaned itself well ..the problem is these coal towns collieries are nothing now just rows of empty properties very little goes on poor if any shops we have 14 take away food shops ..Uncomfortable Mega bad

enough

Looking across the dene at foxdene towards the tees from the North Sea this is a walk l cannot mange very well it a bit drab walk l like lots of cafes.. With changing views, still my bit of pleasant

DREAMER YOU KNOW
YOU ALL DREAMERS
CAN YOU WIN IN THE CUP
OH NO DREAMERS

the waiting . . life on hold

going home to finishing reading Latest In spector MotoLblano ..listen to Radio 2.. Play on the Wii and wait...for Doctors... appointment..tablets...consultation...clinic appointments ..wait

Kevin DNA=no good at waiting

Where is our Arad spring it all going quiet in Ukraine like England where are the protesters the ones who are prepared to take to the streets and say enough
Enough
Rooney gets how much per week
It wrong
Wrong
Food banks
kidz in poverty
Upset
Mental illness
Poverty
Then there are footballers getting how much
Sol Campbell thinks he was not England captain due to his race
NO
You were just not a leader
You did not lead
Indeed none of your generation Sol showed leadership
Which is why did not win anything
Not everything is about race

wait the watch

wait watch reflect think
54 years l been walking up
great big hill called Hope
still l ask whats going on