how long...how much longe

Love 40 by U2
the songs about believing but struggling with way life unfolds
l think that kind of honesty which I try to present is so important...
yes l have this faith in God and the truth of Jesus
The teachings of Jesus ignite...inspire...motivate me
BUT I have this burning to see things change
so I ask;-

"how long to see this world go on like this?

"How long before justice shall reign
How long before his majesty and power will be recognised
How long will the wicked triumph?"
Just asking?.

Anybody singing this with me?

How Long?

                                     40
I waited patiently for the Lord.


He inclined and heard my cry.

He brought me up out of the pit

Out of the miry clay.



I will sing, sing a new song.

I will sing, sing a new song.

How long to sing this song?

How long to sing this song?

How long, how long, how long

How long to sing this song?



You set my feet upon a rock

And made my footsteps firm.

Many will see, many will see and hear.



I will sing, sing a new song.

I will sing, sing a new song

I will sing, sing a new song.

I will sing, sing a new song

How long to sing this song?

How long to sing this song?

How long to sing this song?

How long to sing this song? .

4 F`s of youth work

Among the climbing,  the swimming , getting wet in this warm sun.However we had the sea mist in and around us.

 So it has not been quite as warm like some other areas

About to go to Doctors For a heart scan,

l have an enlarged heart this results in some flooding of my arteries with too much blood flowing inside

 then my poor broken heart has to work fast pumping harder to allow access material out .

Then my HEARTBEAT becomes more normal

                       its getting to be bar b Que weather.... time for a burnt sausage out in the garden

                            Fun . . . . .   Friends . . . . . ..  footie  . . . . . Faithsharing  as well

the things of beauty

                                               A beautiful created thing a thing of such beauty

The fortunes of my home town football club are very close to my heart

and the wimpy noises coming from the inexperienced and unknowledgeable Barmby



really get to myself when we are losing and with one of the worse records for goals scored really got to me

 

There was a time when so much was going on like this picture shows, the MC`s, The DeeJays,
Boxers getting ready for ring.
Public and parents come along for good evening sport and support.
Social mobility. . our networking . . engaging with wider community . . appears to be shrinking
Price of petrol and unemployment, along with other cost are all hindering our efforts to Build and Develop community.

DJ Kev the spirit of the streets
Another beautiful created thing, a thing of such beauty.

 l am glad it really got to me...like passion in others but worry when well paid people come up with excuses all the time.

Barmbys got to go

“he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .


he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .

he`s got to go.... he`s got togo Barmbys got to go . . .”

Yorkshire is in drought.

Mega view of the sun going down,
fantastic weather everyone is enjoying.
But the come down appears to be,that we are coming into a drought situation.

There is also a spiritual drought
people do not think, reflect, or ponder, the big view.

6 F `s of youth work

the goverments school health charter talks about healthy eating and `getting out and about`.

now they do not want to support .so our project ends

the kidz stay in more do not eat so well and watch more TV while eating pizza and kebads

love being with the youth group Fun  . . . Frozen ice cream  . . .Friendship...

 inFormal education . . .  scarboro near Filey . . Faith

shared feeling

this is from the end of the Pier after another no catch fishing trip

tomorrow its food and share at Fitness4life as we say goodbye

it been a real busy week with hospital visits and trying to find employment

l have two rejection letter which is hard to accept

feel situation is near impossible

feelings can change. . . l hope this currant feeling of mine changes

it appears so difficult.. really does not help finding so many others in the same place...

 I am here

l do not like being here

here is not where l want to be.

TWO MEN

this is Matthew David Waller my son where did the time go he is now 28 years of age often l still See him as 3 years of age but he lives his life and the time appeared so short since he was born to the period here and present. this photo is at one of our favorite East Coast places Thornwick Bay near Flambourgh head Yorkshire

what time this moment was we nearly got cut off by the incoming tide...we survived



Another young man around the same age as Matthew this time he was telling me that l as a Gypsy was not allowed to drink a Cola in the club Heineken 777 in Criaova Romania.

when challenged later and told of my status and role he was ruffled

but today he is still doing the same thing

living the same life

The Way

when l cannot see the way ahead
Lord 
Father
God
give me direction


so l keep making the effort to prayer at present

Sport teaches us that like life' it has its failures
along with its success'.

WALKING WITH A LIMP

read this today its by Anne Lamont

"You will lose someone

you can’t live without,

and your heart will be badly broken,
and the bad news is
that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved.

But this is also the good news.
They live forever in your broken heart
that doesn’t seal back up.
And you come through.

It’s like having a broken leg
that never heals perfectly—
that still hurts
when the weather gets cold,
but you learn to dance
with the limp."

Oh well guess am not the only one! This kind of honesty can be good but again leaves you vulnerable.
Walking a lot at present, My prayers are about being unsure of direction and purpose.
 
>>>>>>>>>>>>>40<<<<<<<<<<<
 
PUT MY FEET UPON THE ROCK
SO MANY WILL SEE
WILL SEE I AM YOURS
SO I CAN SING A NEW SONG
 
How long to see this song...how long..

losing my religion

 This was us  Fitness4Life  at our best the gears is up and ready for the young people.
There was so much that was ready to be going on....now everyone talking about money..the cost....how we cannot do this or that.....l am boiling MAD with what Bruce Corbham might call a righteous anger as we waste a generation . . . In my life time l have seen so much poverty and misuse of resources...it always the working classes those at the bottom who have to struggle so much..

Here and now the memory as we helped each other with life that's me in the middle helping Conner and being supported by Amy.
Do I  look fit......always where doing stuff that was engaging in and around out and about.

                  That's me in the corner losing my religion R.E.M.

here now

^^^^^^^^love this view l got myself into some bother the other day walking along the cliff bottom when the tide started to turn and the light was going down..as it got darker l turned around and headed back the way l came  . . . . . .playing it safe
that is about my nature ..my character so it appears being cautious



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we are having chips at Saltburn.. A simple pleasure..l really miss them all...being connected and sharing the most important aspects of being their youth leader

           What is my role now that l am unemployed?

It not just the going out of the house..Feel l have lost my role..my purpose..the nature of who l am ....

l cannot at present see the way ahead...l find this experiance very frightening.

           Here,Now is not where l want to be!

wahay lad

here`s a picture of street sculpture called` our Jacky`

love to see street furniture like this l do find it inspiring and Art.

l suppose one of the aims of Art like this is to take myself and my thoughts into another area

this works

on several levels with me...there is the thinking...taking me from where l am and into being inspired..sometimes reflect only on what is in front of myself..at other times reflect on something not connected

l always   always want to go and try Art so l doodle

LOVES in NEED of ?

LOVE IS IN NEED

 OF LOVE TODAY

 MARCH 2012

Unemployment waste

Unemployment is wasting people skills
they say stay in your networks
but when not employed
Feel like can not contribute to conversations

Join in the social life
Or just call in for a connection
people treat you very differently

Stand in line, stay in line, sign on the unemploment line,

They say"get a job".

The bent lifeboat

Tried to be careful and clever selecting this panoramic view, wanted to get the whole of the lifeboat
in view, but dam. gone and bent the boat,  ha ha ha ha ha. Hope it sails.

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ha ha ha ha ha

 l am not an animal       l am not a mushroom             l am a human being

This is a shot l took my time to select waiting for the sun to come down and let the reflection shine

appropiatle into the peir

The coulers this time of the year are extremly wonderful and creative l get real sense of God at work.

2 NEW CRIMES

Where has the wind come from?
No I dont actully mean that, not where but why.
Blowing people over.

There is not a lot going on and the `socially mobile` situation is evident.
People can not get around and connect like they used to,and aref inding networking difficult.
Not an issue for the politician,
but we,  as a society are becoming more insular.

One of the crimes of unemployment
is there are so many people
feeling less skilled and very wasted

FACT

whats going ON?

whats wrong with the internet?
whats wrong with the weather?
whats wrong with me?

oooohhhhh thanks!

whats wrong with hull city?

whats wrong with living here?

whats wrong with this country?
why is it still so cold?

just having a wondering day

About to walk......love my long walks get wrapped up and walk

often see the same old folks and some younger lads and girls

walking.

don`t let the govermnet know they 4 sure tax us walking.

So very sad.

l know he doesn't look happy!
Report in todays paper stated that many old folk only go out once a week
they talking about 60 +.
Many live in poverty
further seldom have right food, struggling in many emotional areas.
Prefer to say 'spiritual and emotional'
It's a sad world England 2012

what can l do to make others more happy

l spoke and empowered others today.

that's a start, it not a great deal

 l know, nowhere near enough

but a start, my prayer's, actions will be much improved in this area.

A start.

Lord, we thank you for the vision and courage of those Christians who have gone before us. Help us, in our day, to minister to all your people. In times of uncertainty help us to rest on you. In times of despair, give us your hope.

In times of success give us humility. In times of change give us faith. At all times give us strength to proclaim your kingdom.

l like this prayer hope it enable others to reflect also