Sometimes l just pause listen to music, drink cup of tea try to draw a leafless tree.

This little blog hit the nerve of your feelings: like many of certain age,period, attitude may be aware watching too many screens, getting far too many emails, not looking up spending time watching the clouds in  sky. The promise of struggling getting by on just about enough, doesn’t just sound like a good LIFE; it sounds like need to simply press pause.

That's odd you came here observing screen time but l do this. Lucky get just about enough economical l'm talking about.Struggle but having time, commitment, discussion, with others struggling more then we may be gives me sense of perspective.LIFE is tough yes ..'The road less travelled...J Scott Peck.

Sometimes we should just pause listen to music, drink cup of tea try to draw a leafless tree.

Put everything on pause, Allow silence surround or favourite sounds remain quietly  playing. Sup your cup of water or whatever, even nurse glass of Jameson. Let God be present.

Sometimes, just pause listen to music, tried some Classical Aries's and mindless 'Eno',drinking glass of J D with coke. Can l draw a leafless tree ?

Is nothing sacred anymore....just asking.

Sometimes singer in an old song captures a feeling you are experiencing. Something that is sang in the lyrics are what your heart wishes to say.

The situation the narrative the dialogue is different. But the emotions is community , it's a group thing, it's the individual stuff.

" Is nothing sacred anymore".

Captures odd unspoken emotion may have been feeling for while. Like last 6 months perhaps longer as oldman who needs more clothing to keep him warm. Well as l observed LIFE sitting in cafe supping cup of tea.

If we can say goodbye

Is nothing sacred anymore? (If we can say goodbye)

Our love was as certain as the dawn

As solid and safe as any love could be (our love was the star)

Our love was the star you wished upon

And you thought that I'd save you

Is nothing sacred anymore

Is forever just another word? (Just another word)

Is a promise something people used to keep

When love was worth fighting for?

So what's worth fighting for when so much been torn down damaged and placed on the rubbish tip of LIFE ?

IT IS NOT WELCOME IN MY LIFE.

What happened in Brighton on the south east coast of the disunited kingdom , further in Sheffield Yorkshire, often felt to be Gods own is a disgrace. Its unhuman totally not called further plus its against every ethical standard (we are called to as neighbours and friends). Compiling lists of homes, businesses, persons, fir the reason enforce some boycott of Israeli its products is not principled protest,

Boycott, Divestment, Sanctions (BDS),

It is intimidation, hateful discriminatory along with being unlawful. This identity NAZI behavior echoes some of the darkest moments in European history.

Decent people like you and me should call this out, clearly and without hesitation. these approaches have infested national institutions, including the NHS, Police, Civil Service, the National Trust, Museums, the Arts, Cultural bodies, the Home Office, Education, Unions, Churches. Evidence can be seen on every university campus, on every Hull hate march that have witnessed, it is imprinted on every 'activism campaign' The socialist newspapers. News reports on the BBC. Evidence can be seen on every university campus, it is imprinted on every 'activism campaign' The socialist newspapers. It's wrong.

IT IS NOT WELCOME IN MY LIFE.

You are the maker of illusions
You break up every dream we’ve ever made
And as I rise up from the ashes
Would you believe it
You raise your ugly head up
Have you no shame
Too long, too long you have lain there
Too far too long too strong
Oh I will break your hold
You are you are you are the Maker
You are called greed and you’re a cheat
You are you are you are The Deceiver
You are not welcome in my life
You are, you are the weakness
You’re within us
You are, you are, you are
You are the sickness that’s in my soul.

I believe there’s a line to be drawn. I don’t want to take too much from our audience, or too much out of life. This was a hard song to write, coming from feelings that weren’t quite definable. So, it came out quite obscure, with some strange twists in it – THE DECIVER ;- The Alarm...Mike Peters .

The unknown, where you are now feels further away.

Placed your wheelchair as a gift to others, looking back a tear came because that goodbye still makes me cry.

That last conversation still echoes. The unknown , place where you are now feels so very much  further away. Wondered have you found a favourite place do you hear music. That smile upon your face held when the Buzzerd visited us personally, wonder stayed so long in our presence. Those nature postcards you still send me, the memories held by your young nephew of days fossil collection.

Missed Mathew David remembered every day.

What we all need from time to time.

The words life skills. It became almost a business for some in the 80s plus 90s. Assertiveness was great money maker for some. Counselling was another life skills we all required.But cost of being then counselled to clear any perpetual baggage  proved to costly. So the basic counselling skills along with the advanced counselling skills. Well they got transferred to active listening route.

Listening a good listening, it's what we all need from time to time.

It was honest statement about the oppression system in Iran.

 

So in my home town

Simple

Polite 

Controlled

Relevant

Informative

 Something that all wish wasn't taking place, this Protest was not intrusive or aggressive, the protestors were elegant further very beautiful. It was honest statement about the oppression system happening  in Iran. Evil Khamenei regime and the terror it is using. So lets pray for a regime change in Persian continent and soon. Amen let it be so.

Shortening winters day …well its not.

Today's a bit quiet as we feel again the frosty bite of another chill in this `too long a winter`, young nephews gone to school clutching a Valentine posse for his new school crush not sure how that will be received.

 Life can feel pretty tough. Money can be tight. Doors can feel closed. So if we can really should try make the table we sit, eat our food around a little bit bigger with place for another. its really that simple. So its up to us, try to be kind.

In winter's loaded garment keenly blows
And turns her back on sudden falling snows,
To go where gravel pathways creep between
Arches of evergreen that scarce let through
A single feather of the driving storm;
And in the bitterest day that ever blew
The walk will find some places still and warm
Where dead leaves rustle sweet and give alarm
To little birds that flirt and start away.

Come to understand that we can easily be bullied by even old female folk. Yes that old statement the Church folk gang. So it started simple innocent enough, "my brother tied to strangle me, after we had thrown water over each other".

This led to firstly view that the brother had become held by a demon then quickly became issue identified with old 600 year old building no longer holding sacred people nor sacred position. We do that. We do that real well. Slaughter others who do not agree with our view you see every action which is unkind or even disturbing doesn't mean its posed of devil. We can be unkind unthoughtful lack concern for others. 

We have something in the faith of following Jesus that is greater than that in the world. Better then wicked ways of economic grabbing spoilers the political elite or simply very awful neighbour. We have to share this faith journey because we have something bigger plus better. Kingdom values of Jesus. Perhaps l am as guilty as the next person of not recalling there is something bigger better waiting in the Life after Life after death.

Yeah l know still getting my head around what the early Christian followers of Jesus accepted there is LIFE after LIFE after death. YOU see LIFE is about connection about being kind to others as best as you can. Also about connecting with others who do not agree with, either like nor accept. Hell bent on sending others to hotbed concentration camp which they decide who gets there. Yeah sometimes gotta eat with them at same table.

Focus.

In the silence....find your focus......slowly something we do not do enough.....observe image's coulers...can l repeat them carefully can this individual transfer that image as l slow down....

Should l become more aware of my own being. I should become aware of my breathing...the pace of LIFE living presently. . . .Focus...all that other stuff is becoming processed.

Little excerise in becoming more focused. Like a mind gym game.

It's been the longest winter without you.

After "seemingly incessant rainfall" in recent weeks, temperatures are set to take a tumble again. The Met Office has issued a snow and ice warning for parts of East Yorkshire as colder conditions move in later this week.

Art inspires a bloke like myself whose grown up mostly in a position of powerlessness working among vulnerable, young, blighted areas. Impoverished following a religion called Christianity. 

Yet in Art see beauty.

In art see inspiration.

In art feel challenged.

In Art all Art as l know this subject see the creator.

Like when l have my days away. Go into God's great big Cathedral called Nature feel the Silence. Gain my focus feel different like the cold chill wrap up against

Sense of liberation when walked for one hour in this place often by the coast. A cruel windswept stormy cold wintry experience it's been since November. Still today and tomorrow it remains bitingly cold, wet, uncomfortable. 

But we will walk in nature. We will be inspired by Art. Enjoy you (like me), in some form have access to both. Enjoy.

" Definitely is a friend,”.....Sorry pet its not

When you don't communicate tend to feel undervalued. further start to cut yourself off and away from others. Young people we have been informed started to make an... AI BOT.. so they can get affirmation.

Apparently you can model such devices on your mobile communication so that can get the type of response you require, Government along with third sector results are informing us that chatbots are fulfilling demand unmet communication services.

Well that means talking to each other and engaging with conversations that are honest, open, plus bring into the discord silences. The looking at each other further when required stating unfavorable Reponses. While also been stated that (Young people plus children) find providers lacking in empathy. The supposed privacy of the chatbot is another key factor in driving use by YPC.  

 "Definitely is a friend”...No am afraid it is not, in fact its not even real. Witness more and more as the cutback of all services to Young people and children are cut down further not provided. We discover that the group are seeking support in dangerous plus unreal networks. Further this cohort of YPC are becoming detached. So protest is not thought through. Truth is no longer a presence. Silence not considered.

Services are given up on.
Use of common sense is a skill not required.
Funders communicate to provider's of services, as they are seeing lack of users this is a reason to postpone then, end the service.

 ‘Hey bestie, I need some advice’. This generated response will communicate to you in the way you have tailored its response. See this in music used in gyms, choices in supermarkets, BOTS industry responses to consumers issues. AI, its a concern plus very dangerous that making LIFE like a fairytale. Despite no longer being a face to face youth worker, pastorally already know a number of young adults who  feel now trapped. 

Holding a conversation is not a skill. it becomes something we should grow more skilled when we develop and grow. 

 When a chatbot’s advice is a matter of life or death, how can we leave AI to the free market wild west?

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Not a surprise that some are turning to technology for help. We have to do better for our children, especially those most at risk. They need a human not a bot.”

 British newspaper article `The Guardian`. Gaby Hinsliffe.

ANOTHER AGAIN INQUIRY.

Another inquiry has uncovered deeply disturbing evidence of attempted widespread trafficking of abused young girls to Pakistan and elsewhere.
MP. have asked the Home Secretary to launch an immediate state investigation into reports of such trafficking.

We just don`t seam to move forward our lack of response to the vulnerable and support for children has worsened since the new millennium.

The Political elite have a culture that needs changing from the bottom roots. It's infected with illness that self centered. Sense of entitlement which allows those in parliament to ignore requests not just, not correct and behave towards oppressed groups without compassionate and common sense.

The questions l have are more around why haven't they protected young girls?

Why haven't many supported Maggie Owen and Sammy Woodhouse?

Why has evil even been protected?

What spiritual forces are at work among the political ?

Back to this Life.

Returned. 

Frustrated.

Lack of internet affected most things.

Family.

Connections.

Communication.

Expected to resume meetings.

Library hub.

Work schedule.

Doctors.

Prescription.

Hospital.

Old friends like bookends.

Hassle in the neighbourhood.

City lost again. 

Sadness at death visited this community. 

Sadness old school friend died.

Less ahead of me then was behind me.

Back to watching TV l missed.

Authority want more money.

Foods riding so high higher and higher.

Think it's going to rain again.

It's broke but where not broken just yet.

Keep the Faith.

x

My confession.

Frustratingly felt at odds with everything recently to the extent l recognized not liking me. Become too intolerance not granting others grace. Dear friends saw this. Lot of factors come to play in the situation finding myself.

Communications not been easy , felt like the Alien in this strange place. Language was difficult others did not understand what l was saying, others were having this problem communicating as well. But also some elements where being difficult. That was proven. I found myself gossiping a bit that's not my call. It's not what  favour.

But also found myself giving out  plus spending hour or more with a problem that was vexation. The topics not wholesome. Someone pointed out that got little Mysophobia something of neuron behavioral condition where emotional response to noise pollution create discomfort.

Time got wasted, moments got lost wasn't able to recover the period lost which added to my further sense of frustrations. But didn't seek God, wasn't staying in the focused ways l'm used too. Now that two things happened.

1:- Others noted corrected my behaviour. I agreed .
2:- seeking return to the Lords focus.

Now these things happen to us all mustn't bury ourselves or punish ourselves too deeply. Find the reasons why. Explore your own cognitive sense. It will appear when you reflect.

What have you walked away from.?
Asked myself why was l spending time unwisely.?
Have a walk with Jesus, in God's cathedral, pray and come back. 

Going home...Please get someone to meet me coming home

The sea again. Calm still and silent calling me home. Where now l want to be. At my coastal retreat near my home in my place. Sat in the silence of a home filled with all the stuff l left behind not so long ago. Sitting focused and resting in my home. The place where troubles brewing, doctors calling frustrations are mounting. Heartache and pain although this will be present. I do need to be home.

The stars that l look up too as walk along front that remains windswept, blustery, chilly ,on next winters evening. Those Stars are my stars that silence and chilly embrace will be sent for myself .

The detachment that was drowning me the isolation that surrounded me now call me back to journey home.

It's just the practical stuff l must travel through.  long tactical stops starts and tender mercy's all are stratigraphic identified.

Concentrate on you pt2

 So it's was a day of rediscovering the birdlife 

In another opportunity to request that we concentrate on our own well being as walk required on nature. Observing creators hand upon the gift of how we live. It's presented to us freely the sun shining so made my way to nature reserve. Nearby it's lakes wild plants odd birds call. No telephones no social media . No silly discussion.

Lots of silence and observations.

The views before return to whatever Life Will throw towards my sojourner. Frustrating period in economic challenged Island in Mediterranean. But OK personal experience. Some individual time out 

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Concentrate on You.

Five words to describe myself at this present moment.

Content.
Tired.
Puzzled.
Apprehensive.
Ready (to depart).

Also worn out physical and  my emotional literacy. Developed hardness internal.

Really

 This weekend people marched through London chanting “Say it clear, say it loud. Khamenei makes us proud” and flying the flag of the brutal Iranian dictatorship that has slaughtered tens of thousands in just a few weeks.

@infosuggestions

You can't stand up for murder death,oppression then ignore this matter.

Lack of humanity.

 There this fear evident in society.Come about at same time as social media is preventing dialogue. It’s Orwellian propaganda. Perhaps biblically it’s been predicted maybe others along spiritual land measurements are aware it had arrived. We don’t dialogue, we get led to the place we are presently.

Lack of freedom of expression

Lack of accepting others point of views.This median is useful but it should supplement your ideas not mislead them sowing confusion. You can’t upon the rock till,your faith has been questioned.

It hurts to see others confused getting angry attempting to limited discussion. Go ahead getting involved in areas they are manipulated into campaigning around.

Lack of hope.

Finding people of various ages they go straight to google the answers then accepted without  thought. Some of the articles others present to support arguments are not what comes from investigating nor is it from well informed view. 

We are capable of so much better and being so different to what we should be. Its head down ignore what’s around type of culture.