Dec 31, 2021

Sitting outside of the year 2022

 


Sitting outside of the year that reflects unkindness

Sitting outside the box placed here most of my life

Sitting waiting for the fear to depart

Take with you spirit of this age take away with you negative trait's that grew so much Isolation

Take it and dump it like a memory we cannot recall.

Bring back those values, things plus stuff..like vinyl ,

Which still hold precious

Platforms for listening

Value platforms of debate..argument..accepting of another..gift of belonging

Value to be in community

Platform of actively involved with those sitting outside of the year

Bring back being kind sharing books.  . 

Value platforms of connection with weakest. Poor. Excluded.

Faithless. Bring back platforms to grow further, develop together.

Faith works..it's been my go-to Value platform.

Sitting outside the box..with faith that works..

Come and take a seat as we journey into-2022




Dec 30, 2021

what kind of description is one that tells others you are a socialite?

 It’s must have been frightening fearful and dangerous absolutely daunting to be in front of a court, stand forward against perpetrators, speak your voice, be ridiculed.

But to come forward against such powerful people & publicly. Lets still be ready to offer prayers plus other support.

Power to the survivors!
Accusers of Ghislaine Maxwell have spoken out after she was convicted of sex-trafficking young girls for Jeffrey Epstein to abuse.

The predatory socialite stood trial in New York accused of sex trafficking charges, relating to four girls between 1997 and 2004.

while we on cheerful romp l responded to CS Lewis...
yes l bloody well did...

Replying to
They were living a `hell on earth` and took option that was so dark, if the Light that never goes out is not for them...
Then who is it for?

Life has dark corners.
we ,me and you, l am sure have struggled. To often you hear of` emotional literacy` lack of resilience, `dispirited`...`life is tough.`
Faith works..it works for me...that does not make me lucky its just in lots of ways Faith works..
But some,
But some not been listened too..
some darkness stays..
life remains tough, in nearby corner find some distressed, more then l want to imagine.
More then l want to imagine.
forgive me.
but some find no words a comfort.
As counselling, further pastoral side of me.
Listened
listened
but some find life too hard...

God bless you, HOPE you always know if you know me..
I will never knowingly let you down...

It is a sad reality that some Christians have and will commit suicide. Another heart-breaking tragedy is the false teaching that committing suicide automatically sends you to hell. . many believe that a Christian who commits suicide will not be saved. The truth is, this teaching is not supported in the Bible. Suicide is never God’s Will and is always a tragedy.

O Lord and Giver of Life, may we all recognize the great value of the life You have given each one of us. But look in a special way on those who no longer find any meaning in the life they are leading...

Dec 29, 2021

Days echo period of greyness

Time to make some changes

Same every year agree to examine

But this period of uncertainty leads us to want an `end to madness`.

Gathering together is desirable.

Belonging together is desirable

Community is desirable

But `madness` took that away lead us to . .

More isolation and some fear,

We need to seek cure.

Be thankful for Doctors, boosters, workers in the field today, walks you

Take, kestrel hovering, tide ,orange glow in the clouds as day ends.

Be thankful for life.

`End the madness`, gather together.

Belong to others, be part of community.

 

Dec 28, 2021

Greyness like a cloak


 The greyness remains.....like a cloak...heavyness not being able to communicate

Like this period it so easy to disconnect from each other, so it seams just as easy to block out good medical advice

We got being aloof into art form

But person trying to cognitive link feeling with person thoughts and pian it's become very difficult to support.

For your own mind set.....if you done all you got To do then 'walk away'.

I Went driving along wet, damp, bit icy roads

Watched sparrow hawk hunt...along hedgerow field and drainage

Listen to some music.

Prayed

Felt lost, then useless.

The grey cloak remains but perhaps l see a light.....Perhaps










Dec 27, 2021

Are we becoming more comfortable being isolated... everything is not OK

 

It's been my time 

Again to sit with someone dying

The smell of skin weeping

Changing couler to black from yellow

Crying out in medical coma

Not willing to accept advice

I feel tiredness

Cannot experience another's pain

This could have been avoided


Drifting through this period struggle to reflect own feelings.

Because they are slightly irre!event.

Another person's is the focus.

Awareness own weekness.have l failed with words. Did l cross from emphay to becoming supportive someone's wrong choice

Long drives. . Long walks. . Long explanations...feedle account own long standing in another's shadow.

Dilemmas ethical conduct. . feelings. . sharing. . angered by this guest.

Our Behaviour affects others.

Hurts and pains. . but that might not be our choice just consequences of action.

This 'life is Hard' even when it should be easier.









Dec 26, 2021

I don't know much













Been thinking about this season.

Understand not everyone has same views on life

But we are all here coping,

Living the life . .

Another person's piano not obvious

So l need hear to listen for narrative, however it is communicated.

Must listen deeper....this guy is trying

I know failed but, 

I know going try harder. . .

I know fail better,

I know listen deeper,

Silence will enable me to better understand,

Praying to improve...God grant me this gift

Dec 24, 2021

appears we doing lot less of that spirituality at Christmas but l am OK with that lets the pagans have the day back...


Time to watch movies, eat silly nougat,s eat chocolate, have extra walks regret that its so quiet

Do lots of cooking prepare for break abroad.

reflect on what it means about religion

appears we doing lot less of that spirituality at Christmas

but l am OK with that lets the pagans have the day back...

till l get more inspired SEASON GREETINGS... 

Dec 23, 2021

justice is not just for us, not just for them , justice is for all

 There was a period when we held hands and had our own version of prayer. 

Not to mention, the way you taught me to  wait and then listen

listen deeply actively.. 
Grew apart until we found moments had passed...had gone... tender. 

                    l think we knew somehow together, 
                there could be sweetness. there was hope, there was just us......








 

 

justice is not just for us

not just for them

justice is  for all

Dec 21, 2021

YOU are living life at this moment


YOU are doing so well at this time

when l was walking between 5 and 6 this morning this came to me..

As owls hooted, cockerel crowed..yes it did..

YOU..you must pause ...there YOU are living life at this moment

may be grey

may be cold

YOU are living life

YOU are doing so well

keep it up, don`t always get best but YOU 

YOU are special, your life is wonderful

take time listen, enjoy being with family or a friend

YOU are doing very well

value YOU


Feels like weeks, as l shiver without heating.

 All day the clouds.....been here.  

Feels like weeks, as l shiver without heating.

Growing old and ill,Driving along wet flooded Fields near my home as 

 journeyed past hill , lighted homes 

and half hidden walls.

Why does it hang around, dull grey cold and isolated, looks like becoming very cold, oh no here comes the snow.


Dec 19, 2021

Really hate this period but especially Christmas week

Not going to apologize for the hatred commercial aspects of the season.Understandingly not everyone agrees!

But it starts too early,far to much hype we got TV Channel devoted to Films only about Christmash, Showing since October. Advertisement about spending money,giving to kids with Indian illness, Donkeys that been worked to hard.

Drink More, dance less ,make sexy underwear gifts for strangers at work, one idea,

Money, further greedy expression seams to be clear message.

Churches become humanistic, can put box displaying 'whatever decoration' for a cost, at Christmas's fair.

Camels get seasonal work .we bring back T_towels along with Granddad's old snake belts,all reappear at School plays.Politics remain angry and fruitless.

Long holidays,less real work and nearly 5% inflation.

Cannot travel abroad only good news  Less canoes from France to South coast.

Sound of Salvation army playing in our supermarket, some people drinking Mulled wine. Minor echo about  Bethlehem birthday in a smelly stable.

Even that's not accurate.

Christmas is 'Empty without echo to return'.

Christmas no chat about real meaning. Just echo of cash register, even that silent as our plastic ways to pay taken over.

Worse, Worse.Christmas football fixtures under threat. HUMBUG.


Dec 18, 2021

THOSE WOKE SNOWFLAKES GETTING EVERYWHERE


The `Sami of Sápmi,` who are traditionally fishers, trappers and reindeer herders, do not yet have a word for what they are seeing more often on the ground.

“This new snow has no name,”  THOSE WOKE SNOWFLAKES GETTING EVERYWHERE


Anyway back to communication tools ideas and resources...

Nonverbal platform, WHICH IS WHAT Wikipedia OR whatever calls this,,such as eye contact, facial expressions,

The looks...log hard stare...I invented that...

 Gestures, posture, and body language.

 It includes the use of social cues, kinetics, distance and physical environments/appearance, 

Voice and touch.

WE LOOSE SO MUCH

when we go to `zoom Meetings`

Go remote

Meet online

Stop gathering

less tribal

Detach ourselves

Do not seek community

Life, well the one thing l have discovered is this..It Goes on...with its challenges, its moments of madness..its tough periods...BUT we need to be sharing, letting others see how we are..how we are coping,,share what we have developed into...

TRUTH is found growing group of people enjoying being separated.

TRUTH is found growing groups people like isolation.

TRUTH  is some like present discomfort it affords them the choice to NOT choose community.

That is short lived, ideal for little while but we need to share our scares, tell others about overcoming the pain, sit with another holding a cup of tea and sharing, developing,growing, being vulnerable.Living LIFE....while we go on..





Dec 17, 2021

l find images support my communication

 l find images support my communication 

visual examination leads to further conversation

Non linear ways of expression along with easy words.

l got excited because yesterday l read around four further chapters of the 

Kite Runner

Images l am waiting to explore will be the ones on the DVD

Often we in `youth work` in our engaging with damaged and vulnerable community

Find Images important, LOOKING, Hearing another perspective..`.you saw that...l saw something different..`opens feelings..ideas,,growth..acceptance..sometimes words confuse, can be used to belittle

                   Non linear to me means few, fewer words, more coulers, images.

listening to a track of Music,

 explore issues in the lyrics

argue about what being stated  . .sonic..memories..value

place

space

where we can communicate...Artistic..fun ..familiar...not disturbing, feels comfortable

Dec 16, 2021

your belief & what you do

 My pay goes down and my tax goes up,l drink my tea from a broken cup

Between my woman and Tories ,I can’t figure out whose fool I am

I guess I’m gonna die
just like I’m living In poverty

White working-class KIDS are one of the worst-achieving groups in the country, Despite WOKE labels they have never been nor are they presently, 'anything but privileged'


Holy is what
             happens when
there’s nothing    
             between your belief
& what you do.


LUV THAT AND IT IS REALLY TRUE....our bedrooms are Holy...our car journeys..the places we spend time,places we visit,spaces we walk,music we listen too,film`s we can watch,relationships we nourish and nurture, memories we hold.
Pain we have forgotten, grace we offer and receive.

Cancel culture well l am asking...what is it? Is `cancel culture` an important tool of social justice, no you see it does not require any action...not real action...l do not class social media posting as action.
Some call it, well they demonstrate that its a new form of merciless mob intimidation. Bullying is former word we often used.


Cyclists ..environment warriors..Literary promoters..BLM racists to suggest a few...
l said suggest...
Does this type of canceling someone have much measurable effect, 
not to the likes of me and you.
But to some needing the `echo crowd` or `lectures in formal education,`Cancel Culture` really does exist.
perhaps for little old me,on northern coast the very idea of being canceled, can not work, having been a person of potentially bad behavior most of my life `Cancel Culture` has no effect, but one does find it so very funny.

he believed all the conspiracy

 

1st patient to die in hospital from #omicron was in his 70s and refused to have #vaccination because he believed all the conspiracy theories. Why didn't the govt tell us?

Dec 14, 2021

Each of us can have a life ,that could fall apart, in these 2021 Dickensian times.

 Sleeping rough.

 spiralling into drug and alcohol addiction.

 unable to meet economic costs.

Family relationship breakdown

mental well being not developed

faith in life and others fails


Dickensian - relating or similar to something described in the books of the 19th century British writer, Charles Dickens, especially living or working conditions that are below an acceptable standard

Up every morning with the sun
I work all day till the evening comes
Blisters and corns all in my hands
Lord, have mercy on a working man

I guess I’m gonna die just like I’m living
In poverty

My pay goes down and my tax goes up
I drink my tea from a broken cup
Between my woman and Uncle Sam
I can’t figure out whose fool I am

I guess I’m gonna die just like I’m living
In poverty

so many songs sing about poverty, blues, and spirituality, here above words about life, praying and clear understanding about issue of poverty.

l think we are letting this one slip, Poverty getting much worse, children still suffering, see diets that are poor, housing that's sub standard, people lot near myself live in cold ,damp Caravans, in middle of winter, know far few go to Bed around 19-00 until the lights come on outside, know people who get a hot cup of tea in Church hall or local cafe and sit for hour. Some stay there most of the morning.

Witness also great sense of grace offered.

Cafe who know the customers only got a wee bit of money top up plate.

Neighbours look out for few suffering.

Church foodbank.

Even local council trying.

its a constant battle.

Dec 13, 2021

Winter thoughts

 Recently stopped on harbour walls, and just watched Cormorant dive, surface, dive again.

Odd seal looked up and appears to stare at us.

When they swim up river first time looked like huge dog swam past, slips down mud as it comes to the shore.

Saw plenty of Buzzards looking for something to eat, honey coulered chest against field brown feathers of flight.

Winter coulers of leaves lying around.

Damp 

wet

Chilly


I imagine in my eyes mind that l am heading for sunny islands in Mediterranean

But l am not, here where it`s cold in my bed at night, and the heating is costly.

Getting old, feel frail, surprised how quick time past, memories music films and conversation too often are rooted in them past days.

This pandemic made us fearful, do not have anything to measure these present moments alongside.

But this l do know...Life and here.

Well l am just passing through.

psalm 37,V 10  . . . A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they will not be found.

Sometimes odd text from old scripture worth examining further.

The Matthew blessing,

  The Matthew blessing, May God grant us enough stupidity to believe? We can go from this place and make the world a better place, May we wi...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"