they denies us a `Vote to leave`...for what?

Talking French TV after Brexit vote...they asked `aren`t you frightened it get worse`?......stood in cemetery lane, SR8 ) labour stronghold), looking around.....even the crew started to laugh......get worse after Brexit
The run down streets
the empty property
the men stood around nothing to do
the greyness
pull your collar against the wind and rain,put your hands into deep empty pockets and trudge up that great big hill of despair.

soon another day will end ...your eventual passing will arrive....they denies us a `Vote to leave`...for what?

if we are called to be the light....why aren`t we shining?

My home team Hull City won 2-1 over Millwall,
However falling attendances which have slumped to new low after last night,only  attracted 10,191 supporters.

In my home town it gets hard in lots of area`s, employment,crime,wage structures poverty, social mobility...... all pretty tough stuff to battle through each day.
There is a spiritual poverty evident in many ways, Hull my city, we don`t do faith.
Churches lowest in attendance

Witness little, if any evidence, of the Christian faith,

No visible witness being lived out.

Where is this journey taking people, sure if it not relevant to the life’s people are living.

Looking for sign that we --Christian message followers--are alive….living…relevant…questioning society…got something converse about!

Come on we must have something . . . . . to help peoples theology in Hull.

But there is nothing l can see

that could point others to this . . or that example . . . .

This deeply worries me . . .if we are called to be the light....why aren`t we shining?

gotta ask...

if we are called to be the light....why aren`t we shining?

Perhaps we need to hear different stuff.

So learn`t that things do not always

stay as bad as they are at present!

You look back recognise . . .`how you have grown`

But sometimes  think that just a platitude not true in reality

Harsh truth is things often never get back to what they where, nor do you fully recover.

Perhaps we need to hear different stuff.

Correct truth is it gets harder, struggle more, can`t get on the correct path, obstacles are getting bigger.

Why do l say this . . .?

Where the hope . . . . ?

because kinda MAD not at You nor at anyone....but kinda MAD at those who are well sorted who Govern us yet live life removed from `Ours`...

WOW weather wierd

silly crazzie weather and stupid abnormal temperatures may carry on few daysBut winter heatwave continues  this week - however it will soon come to an end, forecasters warn.

Hull City freckin loose to Brentwood not even proper team

Freckin lost 5-1 and to 2 Brentwood
Not even proper place

we lost to a team that named after, . . `actor lost in some trees` . . 

it gets little lower then this 

BRENTWOOD what freck that about

battling Poverty....what are other hobbies....

so you see how it goes. 1- opposed to measure 2 - agree with the measures 3 - want them to be more nice TALK TALK TALK MEETING MEETING MEETINGS

that what find when people do not understand the effects nor live in the environment like trans issue so many middle class `snowflakes` who involved 9-4 Monday to Thursday--

Sail home to a palace away from issues,real life, the dirt plus grime of reality for many who are only clients.

Poverty, that what it become a `Social climbers career`, battling poverty....

what are your other interests....? Lack of real action or commitment.

asking a lot . . . . .I know

Jesus once referenced the prophet Isaiah by saying, “These people honour me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.They worship me in vain…” and went on to explain that “the things that come out of a person’s mouth come from the heart, and these defile them. For out of the heart come evil thoughts — murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander.”

Would give so much to be

economical wealthy

Have decent place to live

Proper work

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?

maybe when GOD gets back from holidays 

but live in the poverty they write about . . NO CHANCE!

Beware of Those Promoting Self Interest, Who professional fight Poverty.

While commute from, own little safe havens

Talk the talk...write the words

Retreat own `palace retreats`, thinking done a good job.

Despite being a developed country, those who are living at the lower end of the income distribution in the United Kingdom have a relatively low standard of living. Data based on incomes published in 2016 by Department for Work and Pensions (DWP) show that, after housing costs have been taken into consideration, the number of people living in the UK in relative poverty to be 13.44m (21% of the population)

We should not be addressing loosening the grip of poverty,
but communicating how to fight those who impose poverty,
But none interested in the challenge ,
they love to talk,
they love to read documents,
then they retreat to a world of lattes,late evening politics and expensive life styles.

but TALK.
boy can they TALK.
produce documents well they got time,money , sure got talent for that....but live in the poverty they write about NO. 

how have we travelled in this direction.

Isis schoolgirl Shamima Begum still making news,
so surprised by the public response
asking myself what kind of a society have we become
how have we travelled in this direction
She actively chose to travel to the heart of where one of the principle enemies of this country operate.
Gave  comfort.
Gave support .
Slept with their so called "soldiers". 
Whilst innocent people were murdered, decapitated and bombed.
She stood shoulder to shoulder with people we do not like.
She is a Muslim
Lets not forget she was groomed
Made huge mistake . . . .asked for mercy
Appealed to our nature ,ethic,our minds and hearts.
Not where any 19 year old girl should be.

 Sajid Javid (A Muslim himself) the Home Secretary, They tell me, is right to stand with all right minded people in this country. he has stripped the girl of UK citizenship.
(which is not first time in my life,nor recent times
when not been going up river,shall we say).
Not been of the right mind.

Where can we show
our enemies
We are of a different 
mind set to them.?

Must feel really proud to be Councillor in the Hull City wards

Shocking figures show two-thirds of Hull council tenants on Universal Credit are in arrears.

The controversial all-in-one benefit was rolled out across the city in the middle of December with most claimants facing a five-week wait for their first payment.

Guildhall officials say the average debt among council tenants claiming the benefit is currently around £535.

wow but Hull City Council still attacking people and threatening them

must feel really proud to be a Councillor in the wards of this City. 

Generally Politics of the country are `nothing to be proud` about, but Hull City councillors are among (and have been for decades ), among worse in all of UK.

Desiccated youth, community,play, and Social services.Increased burden on the poorest in its city ..sick and lack character. Housing stock in awful sate of repair,rents for shops among highest ,really city centre full of charity shops,homeless,and people experimenting with drugs.Open and in plain site.

These Hull City councillors ,who are sick and lack character,done so much damage to the city of Hull

Of course who votes for them......? gotta ask....

You no longer ring or connect . . . .just sayin...F.A.

I've got to find out what was mine again

My heart is saying that it's my time again

And I have faith that I will shine again

I  have faith  in me

That a tough one is it not

having faith in yourself 

Sometimes l need to remind myself to have faith in me.....

because faith is important to myself

it perhaps an issue wrestle with more ...

Because times are pretty tough

If you believe in dreams enough
Then they'll believe in you
That's what you used to tell me
So I know it must be true

If you believe in love enough
Love will never die
That's what you used to tell me
So I know it's not a lie

time after time
I'll come here
I'll wait for you
I guess I'll always wait for you

away day

Would love to do this journey,
only thing makes it a Challenge
is getting there and back, in one day
at my age the .  . Toilet breaks.

Some of the Yorkshire coast is the best in the country

even dare l of limited travel outside of Europe suggest . .  `best in the world`..

It all coastal, when you are away from Hull, 
if take in the cost of diesel and parking it a good price. . . 

Great route but so much and all in one day..

Me l walk like a `lawnmower` slow and cumbersome

so getting around all in a day is hard.

" what..so wrong with Peace, Love, Mercy and understanding?”.

 " what..so wrong with Peace, Love, Mercy and understanding?”.

The other big issue taxing myself is really about the young girl who went to Syria aged 15, now aged 19

I’m sickened that Labour is now a racist, anti-Semitic party.

Jeremy Corbyn and those around him are on the wrong side of so many international issues from Russia to Syria to Venezuela

Most Labour supporters would vote a `deaf, one eyed donkey, with fleas, if it was called Labour`.

No more is this clear then in Easington,Hull and many other Northern towns

today .

The other big issue taxing myself is really about the young girl who went to Syria aged 15, now aged 19 ,she appealing to be allowed to return home.

I think Mercy and Forgiveness should be portrayed to this Girl.

She reminds me of so many Asian girls l know, kinda vulnerable, lot expected of them in the home, not really valued when speaking

What wrong with a little mercy, understanding and forgiveness.

What a witness to show the world of ISIS hate a God of love.

Saw a post on `facebook` by a `Christian elder`...l know from Methodist circuit telling her to FCUK OFF...

REALLY . . .did you not read the bit in the bible about what we say in secret will be called out across the rooftops. . .she asking us for compassion...

 " what..so wrong with Peace, Love, Mercy and understanding?”.

Well my friend l ask you 

Jesus

calls us to do the 

awkward

The hard

The difficult

The loving our 

enemies bit.

I ask you . . " what..so wrong with Peace, Love, Mercy and understanding?”. .

Is it really up to them whether this country sinks or floats?

The politicians all make speeches while the news men all take note,

They exaggerate the issues as they shove them down our throats;
Is it really up to them whether this country

sinks or floats?

Well I wonder who would lead us if none of us would vote.

climate change starts with cleaning up the ghetto

School children and students leave lessons to protest about lack of action on climate change. @BBCLookNorth

WOW so good news they won`t be travelling abroad the locality where some of these schools based will be traffic free zones, Also concerned about litter around the schools, will no longer be an issue.
making us all winners.
Except that ole hypocrite chestnut arisen.
great formal education is addressing the concerns


but have to move into area of immediate environment.
that cluster of streets alley ways and parkland that surround your schools location.
the clean up culture of the local environment

Kings wood academy local to myself is one of the dirtiest schools in Yorkshire

climate change starts with cleaning up the ghetto

FOUND BEAUTY IN BROKEN PLACE

Took some time walking around a lake.
  Sounds selfish but just invested in my soul.
 Let me encourage all to do this self centred stuff,it skill we find that many are realising

 importance

                            Few minutes or an hour

Breathed deeper....walked slower...thought stuff in my head in slightly different way.

Then drove home....Like many try to work out this life stuff.

There is beauty,
there are things that disturb.

Everyday witness brokenness its all around the place...the City ...in the news...we are broken. 

AWAKE AND OPEN , ,,,

Most harm is done

by people who are awake

What does it mean to be awake?
Feel have come under spell of a moment,
 at some time during the day.
 A beautiful landscape,stand watch or
 pause the drive  . . . observe.
 The sunset, a beautiful piece of art,
get caught up .
may take a photo or try hold the view.

Ask yourself questions.
The rhythm,beat,tone,even the emotions stirred when music enchanted us. 
It may even happen that we are just lost in the silence of a peaceful moment. 
Add the call of the sea,its rhyme and change, as tide follows tide over the beach further to the rocks at bottom of cliff-face.

Speaking truth to power

l am.." reminded that we are better together; that if we want to walk a long way, then it’s good to make the journey with others".

As l did this day with my coastal friends at charity cafe in  Aldbrough ,community it better working, talking, sharing....together

I've been too long in the wind

Too long in the rain

Taking any comfort that I can

Looking back and longing for

The freedom of my chains

And lying in your loving arms again

 “… [in the UK] it doesn’t matter what you believe in, or if it’s nothing at all, you are just starting to believe in people. With this faith [Christianity] it’s a very important thing, it helps you to believe in a good future and not to be angry at all.”
Sasha from Pussy Riot

            OK guess need to try not be so angry

                  start believing in better future

Just Need To 

Dance

 for a Little 

While 

Longer

Just Need To Dance for a Little While Longer

Memories light the corners of my mind
Misty water-colored memories of the way we were
Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another for the way we were

WALKING TO FOOTBALL MATCH

GETTING EXPELLED FROM SCHOOL

STILL ATTENDING CHURCH FEELING VALUED

MORE THERE THEN WITH TEACHERS

Can it be that it was all so simple then
Or has time rewritten every line
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we?
Could we?

LEFT SCHOOL AND FOUND WORK

WITH A SURVIVOR OF CONCENTRATION CAMP

FOUND THIS THING CALLED FAITH

MY JOURNEY TOOK ME AWAY

Memories may be beautiful and yet
What's too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget
So it's the laughter we will remember
Whenever we remember
The way we were
The way we were

JUST WANT NOW TO BE IN MY VOCATION

STILL DOING THAT THING

DEEP INSIDE OF ME

SO DEEP CANNOT IGNORE WHAT IT IS

WHEN THE MUSIC PLAYS I DANCE

Just Need To Dance for a Little While Longer

my mission

Is there hope in a hopeless world
Looking for hope in a hopeless world
Searchin' for love in such hateful times
Tryin' to stay strong
While the mind gets weak
`I'm lookin' for hope in a hopeless world

Keep askin` myself this question,
Am l deconstructing and still holding onto my 
faith`?
it my soul.
An area been desperate to develop
it an area many do not 
take care of ,
l suppose wonder what inside of myself
deep
deep
inside is shouting?

While get sidetracked with bills, the everyday life stuff.

Keep trying to find the space that allows me to address with others . . . 

What’s going on deep inside?

This looking for work is just so damn hard.

Gets dispiriting all the applications.