Got news at 5 this morning, bitter minus 0-3. Ice chilly. He wants to go home to die My son in living fear. Only way Mathew will survive is if they allowed amputation of his leg from knee down.
'May there be some beautiful surprise
Waiting for you inside death
Something you never knew or felt,
Which with one simple touch
Absolves you of all loneliness and loss.
Unable to assist with support or direct empathy. I cried. But he wants to be left alone. Clear ` Go away`. How do you compere own Cardiac issues with someone experiencing own deep loss. Feelings appear not to have any reason to be shared. All l can offer is being uncomfortable, remaining silent.
That not required as Matthew displays further resilience.
Asking myself.
Does this guy who sometimes gets it wrong, sometimes say wrong thing, often displayed incorrect behaviour ?
Do l have a role or purpose?
Am I intruding even though discussion at Nurses station clear he is making wrong decision.
Amputation is the loss or removal of a body part such as a finger, toe, hand, foot, arm or leg. It can be a life changing experience affecting your ability to move, work, interact with others and maintain your independence. Continuing pain, phantom limb phenomena and emotional trauma can complicate recovery
When you see a person’s behaviour you cannot see their journey. You cannot see their upstream.
Sometimes.
They say you’re available on certain conditions.
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