Can l visit my favorite place one more time.

 

OK l know this may be morbid

you may think again, Kevin has lost it.

But these are some of my thought processing at present.

Dare to suggest that cremation has an ethical benefit.

Economic benefit.

Others well being benefit.

They can gather in a pleasant place, and remember you as Ashes fly into the Air.

Cremation in no way hinders resurrection.

Think of how much food would be grown,fed to hungry people if less fertile soil was used to hold dead bodies in coffins.

Imagine all that green space, land not required for Places to sit and mourn.

OK your not with me on this, But we all have to reflect in a moment, sometime about Death.

We may try to avoid this matter, but all will face death.So have you had that discussion? 

The way people handle the death is distinctive from community to community.

From sub culture to mainstream culture.

Many avoid subject because they feel "granny looking down from heaven and smiling so all is well,"  in this place and the next `Paradise`.

But l have had too,worried about next major operation, aware cant keep having major operations.

Keep getting more ill.          But aware of all happening around health.

The main concern for me is others.

How are they going to be?

Have l done enough so they can forget about me.

Yes don`t want them being sad.

Hope recall some wisdom and laughter.

A deep spiritual insight, piece of great music.

Can l visit my favorite place one more time?

No l don`t get to see you again! 

The pain ends, the dance begins, life comes back, new health in new body starts.

Even heard that `Everything in heaven comes apart.`

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,  Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Unable?

 Sometimes the conversation doesn't happen connection can't happen, despite best efforts.

We àre not able to break through.

It appears all that training, your readings,

very best of  `Skilled Listener` has failed.

Don't carry the weight.

May not even for you be another period.

In one sense it's the Human behaviour.

Not a failure.

Most best Love songs written with 

Broken heart.

There are times when sadness,

Life experiences, of the others

Will drowned all attempts.

Silence.

Own reflection.

Grow..move forward..So Sad..Simply LIFE just happened.

 

Tired folks that's all.

There been no

Warnings.

But been feeling

Well more worn out

Tired.

Wee bit more pain

Still to young

To be having

Health issues

Like these..

Hospital again.

What's my legacy..how Will l be remembered

By whom.?

On that day, I tried.. That's all l am able to offer.

l know you wanted to talk, sensed period was challenge.

Let the crows go by hawking their caw and caw.

Let the woodpecker drum and drum on a hickory stump. 

Let the red-wing streak a line of vermilion on the green wood lines. 

let the Rivers flow, as health and illness get top ruining this day.

let my pain be understood, perhaps time for healthy period.

May I have some relief, Gentler period some time just for myself.

Perhaps long drive with music playing.

Coffee waiting, better views witnessed.

Remain kind of boring ,dependable person always was.

The seagulls annoy me, bullying evident to smaller flight creatures.

Jays colourful display, should be left to painters to capture.

We need to actively give others a good listening.

Do we project

Our gender,

when we

Communicate/

Is being tough

Male!

Therefore would being soft spoken be a sign of femininity.?

Can we appear tough in discussing the Abraham accord, doesn't that give us sense

Of our resilience.?

Have warmongers always been defeated by strong debate around ending conflict!

Do Street gangs need strong arm of the law?

Should we communicate kindly, with understanding around gang members previous plight.

Or would you be stronger demonstrate type of tough love.?

When there is evidence of lot of chaos, murder, Anger, frustration.

Are we prepared to show weakness!

Need for long interludes in words,thoughts!

Need for strong commitment to issues which again and again bring grief,

 further turmoil emotional disturbance, to families and communities.

What about children,Young teens, how are they feeling about World, issues, grief they are witnessing.?

We need to actively give others a good listening.

That's a starting place.

Is this the world we created?
We made it all our own
Is this the world we devastated, right to the bone
If there's a God in the sky looking down
What can he think of what we've done
To the world that he created . .

 This is often the forgotten song of Queen's Live Aid performance: it's easy to forget that Brian May and Freddie Mercury came out later into the evening to perform this song as a duo

Church youth work in 2022..creating a discussion.

Churches are desperate for youth workers. So why can’t they employ them!

Churches also desperate for engagement with Young people so why don`t they resource outreach to this group.

how can Churches invest financially and institutionally in reaching young people,

how different does the infrastructure need to change?
Will we commit to asking Questions raised.? 

Firstly of individual Church groups, Networks they do or do not exist among.

Generally the Church as `body of followers of Jesus`.

Also must engage better with committed, very damaged workforce.

Under resourced,alarmingly mistreated by Church pastoral ,

spiritually and economically.

Why has youth and children’s ministry become so lost,neglected?

Has present low impact,overall smaller gatherings of `people` of Christian faith, resulted in `Followers of Jesus` being more self examining, less outward looking.

Do we need to better encourage `working together` to help resource youth and community work. The churches in rural areas , often unknown work that goes on in them is a big concern.

l am guilty of exploring and giving attention to provision highlighted from inner-cities and large towns.

Lot of Rural work is from aged, uneducated,(In YCW ) white,middle class.

Lack of key ethics about YCW, Empowerment,Participatory Holistic.

Ethics never presented to users groups.

Written before about how these are Key Biblical principals, really should not be ethical issue. Misunderstanding is threatening to those delivering.

We have become so unconcerned about youth work in general, that the life style and comfort of the work force further been ignored.

Resulting in apathy towards the role ,nature and purpose of youth work.

After some discussion further some prodding, here my starting gambit.

I am praying and creating meetings to properly examine and plot a way forward.

Gee feeling a bit grumpy so unlike me.

Seen few interesting small fires
got to put down to weather extremes, further l am not climate change warrior nor denier.
Sometimes its been like when get off plane when abroad.
coming out of supermarkets after a cuppa plus shop.
Heat just hits you.

Add to that my needing to rest a lot more
getting very tired and frustrated.
Gee feeling a bit grumpy so unlike me.
Absent according to Son and others of `smaller birds`,
but put that down to large increasing seagull population.
Enjoyed cooling down period on Promenade, breeze came in with tide,but sun burnt long into late evening. This Summer just been long hot very bothering.
Seaside town they forgot to close down been lot fuller
Dreaming about shops being closed, rubbish blowing down deserted chilly cold Promenade. 

"Hear its good tomato growing weather."

MUM cant cook she`s gone to Iceland.

Vulnerable households are turning down food bank support because they cannot afford to cook the food provided.

Some families are turning down potatoes and root vegetables because they cannot afford to boil them due to skyrocketing energy costs, the managing director of supermarket chain Iceland has claimed..

I Find this such a sad challenge as been in community and youth all of my life, campaigned, spoke, acted,reflected,prayed, grieved about these issues.

NEVER never, really never thought it would become this bad.

So we battle onward. But it gets frustrating, daily battle, but so MUCH worse for many coming up, young families without support structures (myself along with professionals like me) developed to enable community voices to unite.

You killed us leaders of...so Vulnerable get no support.

we worked in a system that did not value us.

Worse for those without our knowledge,experience,understanding.

 @icelandrichard --Below my response to Iceland owner.

one way for all shops to help any further all in a struggle meeting food bills.

would be to return to loose veg and fruit displays

Then people can choose what levels to take home Less then six, as this appears to be the starting order.

If only fewer are required.person can choose that amount.

Of course it could also mean less waste. Certainly less cost to shopper.

Government sources added there was support packages including a tax cut, people on Universal Credit can keep more of what they earn, and crisis families can turn to a Household Support Fund. To put it more truthfully they don`t give a FRECK.

we remain in a humanitarian chaos situation . .

They have said that most of the positive emotions ,we experience in life will be in relation to aiming ,trying , to get some place as an objective.

Want to climb that cliff face, walk that high peak, Get qualification, find suitable employment, grow in a relationship.

More examples will come in your own thinking.

Positive emotion is like relief from pain. It also gets rid of negative ones, which is a big plus. 

NHS is struggling for four main reasons: 

Don't have enough money.

Not enough staff,Nor enough beds ,don't have enough social care.

But the staff are group of incredible people, every day face situations l know struggle with.Recently been challenges examining own Health.

But on the frequent visits to Hospital in relation to my son Matthew witnessed incredible expertise and commitment from staff at NHS ,mixed in the community provision.

but that a result of poor misinformation and recruitment.

Like in `youth and community work`, Health providers, social construction of workers position is not appreciated in culture.Love island and other soft porn actress are valued more in our society.

NATURE 

PEOPLE

TALKING

SHARING

Fairs moving away..Promenades wishes it so!

The rides are emptying,food stalls not done much trade.

Screaming kids are at last heading to caravan parks.

Teens noticeably absent, Old folk walk around the fairground full of own childhood memories.Time when they had energy. Love waiting to be found.

Money to be spent 

Commen sense to find.

Youthful hearts to be broken, Nu-soul music to be heard anew.

Now promenade got that feeling of wanting these machines to be removed.

Noise become more normal.Crowds not so full..Seagulls restored to eating non human food.

Dog walkers to be absent as well. The tend to abuse the freedom of promenade.

Some plans are being made. Grades are coming in for those who studied.

Weeks to go in August but there is a smell of Autumn.

Conker trees looking full, Brambles are purple, plums still greenish red.

Swallows not yet departed.

East coast Puffins, even become a bit lonely.

Conversation not taken place today.

Some people are very hard to talk with..

That phone call still not been made.

Telephone remains silent. Like the sandbox..Spades not bigging any sand on beaches.

Doctor's got me an important appointment.

Yet more waiting in line ,even it is see

A Specialist.

Don't be Discouraged

Try not get discouraged, its just the world being unkind place.
Believe if you can that God is present...may feel remote.
But in my heart,my mind, God whatever you perceive, God is here.
Knowing you,
Knowing that journey,
Knowing the future,
Knowing the uncertainty,
Knowing this too will pass.
Don't let your heart be troubled. 
Was at the doctor's ,Heart not good.
Life can be a challenge,but am so lucky to have lived.
Loved.
Don't let your heart be troubled,
Don't get discouraged.
Have cup of tea, watch TV...listen to some music...watch a film..talk with friends.
Be yourself, despite the burdens and trust in the Lord of the Starfields.

God bless 

Time for a bit of a storm, a lie down, rest up and get my health sorted.

Once upon a time, someone told me they were addicted to church.Maybe tried to attend every service, sometimes three times on a Sunday, be present involved every revival, go to all the conference they could.

Never worry about costs. Buy worship music, yes that is the name, seldom listen to this, Even l am told would go out of way to attend prayer breakfasts and lunch or coffee with as many religious leaders and preachers as they could.

Getting a fix to keep themselves in a fix. Trying to keep themselves and others what commonly called spiritual high.

Money they spent on these ideals would be no burden.

The books nearly forgot the Books your expected to have on your shelves,need a separate room just to shelve them.

Seldom get read properly.But many own them.

Have to get all the TAPES/CD`s of the talks.

Let me tell you a little about such talks.

Someone address you on these subjects for often a hour and 20 minutes.  

Lot of agreement ,nodding, note pad filling.

You really had to keep your stuff together, Attending events,buying books,travelling to listen. Believing if don`t behave like this,  you’d disappoint God.

One day someone explains that this type of behaviour is not Kingdom way, not very spiritual it’s simply a religion.

That the Christian Faith is about relationship with God, walk with Jesus, not about being in a cliche one that has members who condemn others to place where they will be tortured eternally.

It`s about trying to follow a way that is upside down to social moral code, Culture around you, TV gods .Against the ethics of greed.

Mostly to do with development, working the words out, in ACTIONS.

Among the poorest, your neighbours.

The elite gang they are a part of, soon fall away when you ask Questions.

Talk about actions.

Discuss Kingdom way.

Challenge the power that comes with the gangs territory.

Listen actively and your music taste are not worship.

Worse of all, hang around with so called secular people who can discover , don`t have an issue with Jesus ,further often very spiritual.

Time for a bit of a storm, a lie down, rest up and get my health sorted.

     Before that its ordering MDW music collection.

     But couldn`t find some of his requirements.

• The Jam - Compact Snap

• 
  

• Wild
• 
  

• Sting - If On a Winter's Night

• Sting - 57th & 9th
• 
  

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Here l stand Leader but redundant so young.

We had these ethics that simply Discovered
as all grew, developed, learnt from others.
Social construction taking place.
Wrestling with discussion in `Faith gathering`.
Youth gathering.
Boxing gym collective.
Workplace, mainly older business people.
Night clubs 3 times week played stage as DJ.
Working stuff through, informed by reading,talking,making mistakes.
Not knowing life was passing without me understanding all that Kevin, supposed to grasp.
Contributed in ways l could, vocational,through education of young people,staff l managed.
Churches worked among, Tribes engaged with.
Till here l stand. Health issue. A redundant Leader.

Don't know it all..

Walked

Reflected

Got Hungry

Listen to old song

Silence

Beauty

Nature

Construction of Social events

`Echoes to return`, sometimes something other than this moment.

`Echoes to return`, meet people further a place we loved.

One that's not here.

Odd feeling , arrives like misty morning,not wanting to be here.

Not wanting to be in this moment nor

This place.Not a snob but not with these draining people.

Suppose we all feel at odds within, internal thinking, searching.

Odd `been Odd` for while.

Sometimes

Life

Not that exciting

I no longer feel so confident, Don`t mind sharing on a certain level, is that age?

long midnight walks, Chatting deep discussions with older folk who we saw as our friends.

You have to see this. It’s a classic!

It’s still more than three weeks before the winner of the Conservative Party leadership contest.

Sir Salman Rushdie is reportedly on a ventilator and may lose an eye after he was stabbed on stage in New York state.

The 75-year-old Indian-born British author sustained nerve damage to his arm and damage to his liver.

Saturday..in August 2022

Rambling along through news items..

Soccer Saturdays..if Sundays are Church then Saturdays are Soccer.

One of my rules for better life.

Saturdays burning question...

If the FBI searched your house, what is the most incriminating thing they would find?

SORRY NOT ON HERE, BUT HAD MY HOME SEARCHED FEW TIMES.

The Tigers have taken four points from their opening two games, including a win against Bristol City at the MKM Stadium on the opening day of the season.

We walk along a deserted shore as the sun rises, The heat is already very uncomfortable
but this was the case when l walked several times in late 70`s.
 From locality to Robin hoods bay. Once on my own.Couple of times with fiends.
we didn`t have social media ,we gathered,developed,grew,struggled,finding Faith, had time.Youth enviroment allowed us too get to know stuff.. Residential  times away, progressed to odd few self organised trips.All them meals away, chats, cricket matches.Rock pooling, long midnight walks, Chatting deep discussions with older folk who we saw as our friends.
told us about Stars,shared music, life they lived, youth had experienced. Faith.
This shaped not just the person we became, but greatly style of youth-work l delivered.

Dusty sings a song, echos through my mind stringing my heart along.

The years have come and gone
Since you were here with me

Struggles been, some stayed. Aged,health ongoing issue.Weather mocks us, sand between my toes thrills.

That pondering l do,got worser. Procrastinating got longer,lack of decision making remains.Still here.

Dusty sings a song echos through my mind stringing heart along. Yet with no explanation l can offer..(if didn't`t hurt memory would be funny).

`The days have come and gone, Since you were here.

Nights are twice as long, Without you near.

Pictures on my mind, Stand out so clear. 

They rejected us Leaders,with our experience,knowledge,creditainals, qualifications,

 

Russian forces continued their offensive to capture eastern Ukraine with heavy fighting reported on Tuesday near the eastern city of Donetsk — where Ukrainian officials said Russian troops were launching waves of attacks, Reuters reports. Meanwhile, guerrilla forces loyal to Kyiv are killing pro-Moscow officials, blowing up bridges and trains and helping the Ukrainian military identity targets, The Associated Press says.

Meanwhile the green woodpecker still sings its nature song.

 It is the end of the world, and it’s fine. We all got into this habit, where we talk to a screen ,That some can not tell,( Which is not real person),

This screen tells me `everything is fine`...BUT l got told `You are not`.

Birds flit across my window,got ace view, Nature shouts in and out of shining branches.

A garden blooms, noise echo, coulers change.

Feel grateful, life just feels slow, noise from TV news is oppressive, so lets get that out of the way.

Music from past and current stuff is energising,I like that task, discovering new music, appreciating the new music.

WORDS I USED TO DESCRIBE MY HOME TOWN

Revolution. Change. hope NO Rebuilt Never --Disconnected --Viod-- fighting--emptiness.

Words use to describe me at present.

tired...puzzled..frustrated..angry..hopeful

ill..unhealthy..gratitude..Malta.

Malta I KNOW BUT FEELING LIKE WANT TO BE BACK

So we had warnings, like so many these moments Warnings, the latest is about ..

.. not to bath at the East Yorkshire beaches, near me of course, due to another pollution incident. This is the second pollution warning along the East Yorkshire coast this summer.

Had far few last years.

DON`T PAY ENERGY BILLS

DON`T SWIM

DON`T EAT MEAT

DON`T CALL AROUND.

Don`t use this don`t do that . .FEELING NUMB.

Been dealing with those in Authority ,adult assessment care,Health providers,

practicing social workers.Duty workers, care packages,requirements, declined and `black balling.`

Think l am pretty clued up with langauge ,attitude and questions around resourcing.But the service provision is manged by people so removed from client base experiences.Which results are more difficult to have understanding with these people.

Many are not skilled in conversation,nor have life events that come close to any requiring support ,help, off simple basic circumstances ,like the situation clients are experiencing.

They rejected us Leaders,with our experience,knowledge,creditainals, qualifications.

Our life events replaced with `WOKE` elite skilled only in self perseverance.

 

Some people took it for a joke

Just can't understand
They nailed our Savior to the cross
But He told them all He would rise again, rise again

I talked to my friend again today
This is what he had to say, he said

We're goin' up in smoke, goin' up in smoke
And we ain't got no hope, we're goin' up in smoke
Goin' up in smoke, goin' up in smoke
And we ain't got no hope 'cause we're goin' up in smoke