May 31, 2022

Nearly a Liverpool tragedy again...nearly







This image from Saturday,brought back some awful memories of difficult time for good folk of Liverpool.
Not just for myself.

Followed by more of the same from that awful period in 1989.

On 15 April 1989,  FA Cup semi-final, Liverpool supporters gathered on the terraces of Sheffield Wednesday's FC Hillsborough Stadium. Place l knew Worked there before Liverpool, briefly.

The crowding, because of Police negligence turned into a crush, Sadly 96 people died, with hundreds more being injured.

As part of counselling services offered by the Faith community, tonnes of Hidden mental health, emotional disturbance,grief.

Short time after events l was appointed the 'Anfield Parish Youth worker'.

 Such beautiful period in my vocation.

Funny, beautiful, human people, places l walked ,where Youth work took part.

But often a sense that we had become forgotten people.

Same behaviour , appears again at Football match last Saturday.

Result of the football,that is none event.

repeat behaviour,

 treat people with disregard.

take the income they generate.

belittle them when you have the power

repeat when get the opportunity

do not change, caged them in and forget about, treatment hostile,harsh, oppressive.

how they may feel, ignored.

miss you Liverpool and all you brought me in my heart you remain. 

beautiful human people,comics, rebels,who l learnt so much from.

 MEANWHILE in France...what we can conclude is that two senior French government ministers have sought to blame Liverpool FC supporters for the mental and physical harm done unto them using figures and statistics which are simply untrue.

The key question, therefore, is why these patently incorrect figures have been released publicly. There are three possibilities, and only Darmanin and Oudéa-Castéra will know which is correct.

Either they are very badly misinformed, they are incompetent and unfit to do their jobs, or they are not telling the truth.

May 30, 2022

A May Day

Saw a bird called a Bitten
It was very clear at end of Field
My son bit jealous.
The rain came wet,cold,damp.
The days folded again into each other
Admistrators ruined the day long travel between NHS service hubs
Because took shortcut we patients suffer.

Sat at dinner time, had a strange` daytime like Dream`, that we kept building walls high all around us, till  suddenly 

Me, all my mates who l was travelling with, were at the bottom  of a Deep street wide... well. . . In houses looking bit like that place used to be at Spurn point


 

May 28, 2022

Tabloid Gospel and Art of communication from low culture's

The technical couler, relationships,
 being outsider.

Time to settle down watch TV 

Listen to soundtracks

Engage with topics

Maybe escape life issues.

Save my soul a little.



l think movies, music TV Books 

All thing around Low Culture

Saved my Soul.

No l mean played a part in my understanding.

Emotions experiences spoke bits about issues l and others face


Opened up with client range topic's we may not easily have discussed

fOten we use Tabloid Gospel approaches!

Still l watch something then reach for my notebooks rewatch and copy dialogues.

Hoping finding opportunity to share then explore further later.

Those moments leading big discussion by medium of Vinyl, huge 70 ft big screen.

Laughter..sometimes in small classrooms with group who ' closed' to expressing

But ut this style of Tabloid Gospel reaches them, and barriers come down.

Partly because although, takes lot of preparation.

Still seen by user group as throw away.

It like comic book approach instead of big literal translation from hard back schools book.

Yet it still opens depth to issues,views,words get spoken.

Meanings and experiences are shared.

 

Pray even if struggle to find words.

 


while you and l ponder the Saturday films and sport
others are experiencing life in different way
lets not forget, Pray even if struggle to find words.


According to Mayor Oleksandr Sienkevych, Russian troops shelled residential buildings in Mykolaiv, a regional capital in the south of Ukraine, on May 28. The number of civilian casualties is yet to be established.

Lord hear our heart, as it tries to find words when the images are too difficult, the shared experience are too different
the lives being lived not so far away feel totally remote.
Holy spirit go where we cannot go,
 counsel in the name of the Son

Jesus we ask you to act and bring an end to suffering in other places, places that l know so little about.
May my understating grow, as your peace increases,
                                        Amen 

May 27, 2022

Is this the world we created the one we living in..?

My Body Belongs to Me from My Head to My Toes

My Body Belongs to Me from My Head to My Toes is an educational tool to help instill confidence in children when it comes to their bodies. The narrative of the story is led by a girl named Clara, who encourages kids to say no” if they are uncomfortable with physical contact.
 

#VCSA Chair
@Phil_VCSA

It’s not a real book Sammy. Check the author name and you’ll see the books are about ‘it’s my body’ and not pedophilia in the classroom.

@Phil_VCSA
The book being published alone whether it’s in the classroom or not is bad enough Phil.

Serpico
Replying to 
@sammywoodhouse1
UFB we sunk this low..NO can't have

Christians in America, it is time. It is time Yanks to humble themselves and admit that we have been looking at the gun issue wrongly. We’ve been part of the problem. 

It what l and others over here, we call it a system error.

Avoiding it will not make it go away. The longer we stick you have guns,simple more children will die.

Really that simple, America, Children (and adults) are dying on your watch Why? 
America has no spine.
America your gun is not important. it’s not that hard.

  we call it a system error.

May 26, 2022

The Doctor said to me this day, You had two prescriptions in January l notice..

 We should all be part of the process in which we dream up a better world while also dance, discuss, argue,drink coffee, or JD, debate, read some Bible, pray ,

 Then get Vinyl out and party. 
l grew up classed as misfit, and surrounded myself with `bunch of misfits`. 

The ones l still know are misfits. Further still someone

 that welcomes those `misfits` from everywhere.  

Sometimes we have been Propitious, but that generosity seldom been afforded back .

        but hope grace we offered always been acceptable.


The Doctor said to me this day, You had two prescriptions in January l notice..

took no time to think l replied how many in February..

ONE..

Asked how many in March..2.. Again..

Point was trying to make is that Only 28 days in second month , so most months get two prescriptions but still only 13 a year 28 days 28 tablets...NHS when its not working not funny.

 

May 24, 2022

When l became more management role, worked hard get others..do less...

There is emphasis on self-care among faith community, identify issues of burn-out, depression, family relationship breakdowns, sadly even substance abuse.  Learnt this from share rmconversations about boundaries issues, Talked about previous blog, these arise in pastoral ministry.

However concept of self-care is centered on values that made to feel at odds with the mission work in Christian field. 


Spiritual balance is one of several concerns, if it is included at all.

Bit like supervision in ministries.
 Own self-care revolves around negotiating the competing demands of our personal lives ,against the demands of work verses the needs of others.

This area of competing demands is difficult When people are required to balance largely how much we can or should give to the work. 
Community Youth workers in Christian community are misunderstood, Example, if choose stick ritually to 2 days off a week.
Priority of our availability to the spiritual purposes of God requires the nurture and conservation of the gifts we have been given, in the form of relationships, physical strength and emotional well-being. 
Can recall when starting out in Vocation, feeling had to do more than others.
When l became more in supervisory and management role,worked hard to get those around me to do less.
Yes do less
Do less not more.
Time spent walking, talking,preparing,Praying is not time off.

Part of your well being in ministry to use this time as work time.
Yes so less really became more fruit-filled.

But those requirements if not used well, add to risk and sacrifice that is part of the Christian life.

Self-care” as a term is poorly defined ,too fluid in general, “self-care” is building tolerance, exploring why I’m feeling kinda adrenaline rush  coursing through my body at various times.
Why are we not able to download.
l Loved watching movie, when got home late evening.
Became better at having days away from environment worked in..

Began to ask much more,what data are my emotions presenting to me.?
How am l processing my feelings?
 In order to have the capacity to do this internal work, Kevin's “self-care” requires Sharing, talking, listening to others in our game, walking, being away,residential..
 My well being also called self-care must be using some of the above methods,when often interact and tolerate difficult distressing people along with situations we and they face.


The physical affects the spiritual which affects the emotional, also affects the mental which further affects the environment which affects the stress. All in a continuum.
Some Physiologists said that...sorry forgot who..

May 23, 2022

Encourage everyone try maintain healthy boundaries . .

 We all need to set some kind of healthy boundaries, looking after yourself is real important.

l try not to get involved in silly stuff around `Soap Dramas` and peoples efforts to alter `How they Look But even giggle a bit at injections to fatten lips.

But that not for myself.

Setting such boundaries about how `Others` impact you as you, takes effort.

When we erect emotional fences, Does it limit you in other ways l am thinking exposure to new experiences and relationships.

l am concerned about me becoming a bit intolerable, staying in a unhealthy Zone,not thinking broader.

Of course how healthy the body is influences how healthy the relationships you form are.?

then coming into play are context...where you are..who you spend time with..social cohesion..situations ,life Dramas all factor in..How you are feeling.

Fun

Life is hard..but it is fun..not simple.Key to success in life is working hard at Relationships.

So I encourage us all to keep healthy boundaries around what you can achieve, along with who allow access to You.

work on relationships with people you like chatting with, having a cuppa, walking sandy beach with.

The rest give time and some energy.

Of course l am talking about personal not work boundaries in this sector of this blog. 



 


There are four basic types of relationships: family relationships, friendships, acquaintanceship, and romantic relationships.


May 22, 2022

Sunday without Jesus...please not...feel something missing?


The city spills out cafes, bargains.
People Walking swiftly through rain
It's May, and it is still bit cool,
As we enjoy being out and about, tried `hunting down` odd DVD series
Sit watch as we share our own little life drama's
Orders are in for chicken nuggets...ice cream is welcome..Coffee affordable.
The delivery guys block the pavement, leftover from last pandemic.
Things returned slowly to adjusted normal..but way different to previous.
Dodge some showers..head to the car..drive through Sunday traffic.
Slow.
Even the wildlife have a Sunday feel to their behaviour.
It's a perfect Sunday.
But church, Faith presence is absent.
Did Jesus get thrown out with the old toys like `spinning top`?



 

May 21, 2022

Normal drama life, pt64?


The care we 

Have to give

Must be more

Than clinical.

That is not volutry.

Care must've hold element

Of pastoral

Concern 

NHS nurses clinical perform health tasks, but own observations, also bit experiance. Stand out nurses are ones who are not'Task performers but  paridym includes pastoral.

Ask ,talk,chat, stay while longer.

Result notice ,that patients who they getting to know,not just treat illness. Become healthy.

This process is heart of nursing, not just completing a clinical task,such as changing dressings.

My heart played up this morning that curtailed my day.
Extra Tablets, sprays, more enforced resting.
Deep Frustration.
Become Hard at times to breathe. Control the pain, Rested longer.

But recognise that
Others much worse.

Important as 'this is this'! Life some of my drama.
Pray, for others, they need support, actual supply of care,medicanes, understandings and pastoral care.
When young so fearless and carefree. Life passed quickly to this moment.
Feels ,to me, not enough time to do all l wish.
As often just normal guy, whose Heart is unhealthy. These words some of my sharing. 


May 19, 2022

Normal day in this present

Morning comes again (as it always does), but early,I didn’t even honour the moment.

I just walked into normality of the day
organised my prescription ,tablets then take them with first drink of the day.

Prayers followed by reading/reflection., But my mind procrastinates,Is that age or health issue ?

Play Squash or beach walk for an hour.

Try to remember how long it’s been, perhaps already its over a decade (with just 4 major hospital operations).

Live life differently.

In the afternoon,Sleep. As always it arrives, because of failure of my heart,which is abnormally slowing down. Gaps between stopping, starting again, are longer.

I honestly notice but not really concerned in a major way.

Cups of Tea.Then go for long walk.

Try not to eat late in day, plus 3 days week do not have meat

of course drink bit more water.
Like to mix with Jack Daniels. 

About as much Rock`n` Roll as l get presently.

In the evening I sit up but honestly not such a TV watcher, when l can done some community work, invest in others, debate issues around changing place of `gatherings, along with development of Faith community's . 

However like too many its voluntarily spending of my time.

there are days when with others, quite often,Days when not

Should be bit more vituperative about the situation, but age perhaps has mellowed myself.

That l do not like.



May 18, 2022

Prickly visit.

 Then a hedgehog come's into view

The lift

This gives you

Is good

Such simple moment, nature giving back.

So we can feel, inspired, uplifted, plus internally warm. But we are in white area for sightings.

Getting into the wild,great way to deeper understand life, get a focus.

Find so much to share, very many forums people sharing images. Educating others from own experience.


Walks lead to talking,more outdoors more as circle turns enjoyment further increased.

Also no snobbery above each others discovery's, the guy enthusiastically starting out.

That sharing just as valuable,along person who seen much more.

Enjoy what you see,

Enjoy your feelings.

Enjoy the sense of Shalom.

May 16, 2022

its Monday ,am slower when my illness creates lack of sleep

Because of this illness, it something processed as like have a visible ticking clock, Somehow to me,there's a sense of urgency , try harder perhaps bit better get it right. 

Think rediscovered ,You don't have as many opportunities as you imagine.

The flowers and my love,
Passed away under the rain,
Where is my yester-love?

You hear a word perhaps oddly in a song, then years later it comes back into focus. Like . .   yester ..then years later it turns up in a poem.

a short poem ,but like the song meaningful and emotive.


I had a dream, so did you

Life was warm and love was true

Two kids who followed all the rules

Yester fools

And now now it seems those yester dreams

Were just a cruel and foolish game we used to play

Yester-me yester-you yesterday.


Stevie Wonder. ( bit of Tamla ..)

May 14, 2022

Church without `empowerment plus participation`,

Been asking myself what does it look like to join a church or community in a transitional period in your faith?
Do you have to be member of Church to be a Christian?

Professional l have attended but not been in membership of big C,Church.
( That`s means worked for or alongside in funded capacity.)
URC..ANGLICAN..METHODISTS..CATHOLIC..house ..evangelical.. 
of course there is the more practical `small or the little c church`.
 The big C is the community of believers throughout the world and across time. This is sometimes called the “invisible” church.

Church for me is when we gather and do things that are outworking of our actions.Faith in action. it is also about drama of talking to each other , to others, serving by yourself another who is in need or listening to another share a concern.
Sometimes we need to recall, it is when others of our faith have responded to our needs.
it is also when others have helped you and I .
Further when you receive support.
Plus when formally gather doing community around meal.Sharing study.
Involved in planning mission.

It about what we try to translate and communicate about our journey.The difference and better way of doing journey through Drama of life.
But not about on your own, we have to gather together even if occasionally.
There are some other concepts but not processing everything at this moment.

Church can not be about a person leading many by own words and examples.
Church without `empowerment plus participation`, from each member is not Church.


This is a plane promoting Hull City.
The person who has bought our team is trying hard to create within the constraints of a football gathering...A sense of community..
sense of belonging..
sense of journey together.
Sharing a mission
Holding a Vision...



God grant me the serenity to change my underpants,

the courage to know when l can wear them another day,

and the wisdom to know the difference...

HONESTLY REMEMBER THAT VERSION.

May 12, 2022

This was the moment Johnson lost red wall borrowed votes..Fights war across Europe while losing War at home.

 You are far across the ocean but the war is not your own,

And while you're winning theirs, you're gonna lose the one at home;
Do you really think the only way to bring about the peace
Is to sacrifice your children ....

The politicians all make speeches while the news men all take note,
And they exaggerate the issues as they shove them down our throats;
Is it really up to them whether this country sinks or floats?
Well I wonder who would lead us if none of us would vote.
Larry Norman..1974?

The situation in Kherson region, the only part of Ukraine Russia has managed to occupy and hold since February 24, is very dire. People, loyal to Ukraine, are kidnapped, tortured in secret prisons. Food and medicines are lacking. Escape routes are almost closed


Situation in Ukraine is one of many that is important .BUT have to wrestle with the drama of ..Is it most vital issue of our time, and the huge finical costs is being borne by people who are struggling to get by on poverty level incomes.
yet the elite political keep addressing us, with what they are sending in Billions of £$
But poorest are in a struggle to eat , to live in the Drama of the moment.
Worse part of recent interviews,for myself, was when questioned like some who call themselves Tories..they had no clue about living standerd and incomes of those requiring support and on benefit.

The Matthew blessing,

  The Matthew blessing, May God grant us enough stupidity to believe? We can go from this place and make the world a better place, May we wi...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"