life at present

 It appears the worlds has failed slowly, then all at once. 

A memory echo's

flotilla of gulls fly down and hassle the single rook, he goes to the edge of your viewing.

onto your thoughts a slight smile appears on my lips.

the breeze feels fresh.

Wheel chair still feels heavy but l have rested.

Lake  water reflects sunshine, noise is absent.

squirrel jumped across branches.

that was funny.

soon as we push uphill

we will be sat watching Big Bang theory and supping a cuppa

not alone

not confused

just tired

but fed up

not hungry

enjoyed the break

ready to be with others

had no calls

little interruption

soon be home

Only sand between toes stays

Sea and coast are places l journey to,  then can digest sights. Listen to the sound of nature.

Perhaps walk up hill, across sand dunes paddle in the cold sea.

Recall conversation, holiday, break away times when young family members enjoyed the building of sandcastle.

Estuary, mud flats,tide long way out.

Danger off tide times, cliff top walks, Caves, fantastic find in Rock pools.

Day ends. Soul music plays perhaps only in your head.

Warmth disappeared, cool chilly wind arrived.

Softly return to  face the travel home.

Back to TV, toast ,and cup of tea.

Pleasant day comes to close, memories are stored in the mind.

Only Sand between your toes . . . stays.

All these years recognising oppression.

At University in Northern city

we was educated maybe try develop an understanding around harsh.

Be Anti and oppose cruel, unnecessary, treatment,( Often of Others).

We told must combat oppression.

Must see this in our skills practice,work to bring change.

Evidence also part of persons developing Ethos?

But that was then.

This is here in `long shadows of now`

It appears Very few got the time nor make efforts,

Was it all in vain.

Disabled not enabled

 Access for disabled people

In our society become concern

Others not able to understand how difficult

it may be for those ins struggles,Little allowances to enable better movement

around shops.

Pavements stil hard to traverse.

Shops Aisle still blocked.

Other shoppers still hurry past snoring those disadvantaged.

We become good at leaving people outside alone.Excluded..not invited..ignored..not provided for and actual feeling like they are In the way.

In the washhouse

Our FEELINGS are important and often reflection of our desire to be involved with others

lives and way they experience them.

Some day it is just enough,to get your washing done.

Today , l am tired ,for once only about coping

Life not like in The movies

Some days more like being in the Launderette.

More life further economic Pain in a northern town

 Asked by campaign worker 

Why won't you vote for Labour

Because the struggles of the Poor not being heard.

Sadly by all the political elite

The parting on the left 

The parting on the right

Neither appears to care 

I hear the cries of economic Pain daily

Not sure if the struggles register with anyone connected with blue or red

All the shop closed down

Nothing to buy

Nowhere to go

Old people bewildered

They forced us back to place without HOPE 

 Some

Old Badges

But 

Issues

Still effects life experiences of many.

Economic well being, war is profit, greed, increased poverty.

Child abuse.

Sexual grooming, lack of justice.

Time to meet family and helping others to get through this moment. Coffee and ice cream. Sunglasses , smiles, some social cohesion.

So many wonderful moments, further conversation today. Don't want  this special day to end.  With Soul of Delfonics on car radio.

Even journey home was special. 

.

The less you care..the happier you will be ?

 

Times of Malta

Volunteers collect 230 bags of plastic waste from Magħtab following strong winds

Which is what we are experiencing on east coast at present.

waste people leave and rotten treatment of wild life is great concern

but if your trapped in a War zone being Bombed by Russians life looks different

our FEELINGS are important and often reflection of our desire to be involved with others life and way they experience them.

Robert Kimbell Apr 22 More than 1,400 Vietnamese arrived in England across the Channel during 2021, according to the Home Office. Not Thais, Cambodians, Malaysians, Laotians, Burmese or Filipinos, note. They were Vietnamese

not long ago ,

he was yards from me waving . .

Pope Francis has said he has dropped plans to meet in June with Russian Orthodox Patriarch Kirill, an ally of Russian President Vladimir Putin who has backed Moscow's war in Ukraine.

Francis, who has several times implicitly criticised Russia and Putin over the war, told Argentine newspaper La Nacion in an interview that he regretted that the plan had to be "suspended" because Vatican diplomats advised that such a meeting "could lend itself to much confusion at this moment".

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Strain on social cohesion.

Conversations are very important, maybe all that we can give to each other.

But we are not in touch as much with each other.

C19 had been challenge.

`Social cohesion` had been issue for decades.

Worsened in UK With regards to cost of living, that affecting how we communicate and gather.

Costly to visit others, community is more detached. Lack of services delivered to most vulnerable is cripplingly sense of community. Put quite strain on family's and friends.

Picking up the struggles not easy.

Sojourner . . Thinking aloud

 settler

traveler

sojourner

pioneer 

pilgrim

maverick

isolation

detached

alone

misunderstood

disconnected

lack of amenities

Meanwhile in a field in a place of Dreams.

Ramblers Association lamented on Thursday that a gate "illegally installed" in 2021 on a countryside passageway is still blocking public access from Baħrija to il-Blata tal-Melħ.    The NGO claimed it was stopped from holding a press conference on site after being "confronted" by landowners.

Last reflection on the Easter story 2022

 As season of fowl Friday, passed reflect on astonishing news for the traveller on way to Emmaus.

Walking alongside them passing through grief and unknown futures ahead.

Stopped to stay and eat.

Humble meal becomes again, much more.

It is vital to share our food.

Also equally vital to share other resources.

Further sharing the time is vital with others.

These are part of the reflection l am holding.

At period when so much going wrong

I lean upon old vital story.

Discover anew.

These ladies are `beautiful, incredible,strong,brave human beings `of the highest inspirational order.

 These ladies are `beautiful, incredible,strong,brave human beings `of the highest inspirational order`.

The women of Tallinn outside of the Russian embassy, protesting sexual violence against women in Ukraine.

Playing the "good Russian" is very much in their interests. Ovsyannikova (RUSSIAN SINGER ) recently gave a long interview to Italian television .
listening in with friend translating, we concluded,well, it`s turned out her biggest concerns were largely financial in nature. Defunct credit cards and difficulty traveling.
but l understand that, not complaining because it gets the message across. Ordinary people are hurting best hope for Good Russians to emerge.

Of course l watch Italian TV how else do you think l got into Inspector Montalbanio.

Replying to

@ida_skibenes

These ladies are `beautiful, incredible,strong,brave human beings `of the highest inspirational order.

Been to Bird watching hide, sat on bench ,noted my son`s observations. Cup of tea development of the Art of nothingness.

Precious minute of whole time in the moment.created for chatting doing little else. Life being lived.

Aches, Pain, limited expectations.

Burden of ill health, deep discussion about not being sure about future.

Easter garden

In the garden watching the struggles with death of a Saviour Jesus approach the Woman. The grief is unbearable they don't at first get that Lord is in front of them.

Now be happy.

It is won,we are in a new covenant,no more first temple Judaism.

We are invited

We are in with the new tride

No longer excluded

Join us, its a party worth being part of, a story you are part of belonging.

A gathering allowed to join.

Mission involve you and your choices.
 

Easter has gone back to the Pagan festival it was before follower's of Jesus stole it.

But would be nice to feel people would take some time to reflect on event's.

In the picture from Mediterranean Island is an actor who in Victorisso has enacted the Crucifixion and story of Jesus last Earthly day.

It something of a passion the whole family has been involved.

Further he is dram a teacher and actor.

 Camilleri has been interpreting the role of Jesus for 10 years.

Jamie Camilleri has been playing the role of Jesus in Good Friday pageants for 10 years and for a long time wished he could find a way to be “safely crucified” for real during the pageant.

He still plays Jesus every year with an ever-growing fervour. But, since he became a father, he has ruled out real crucifixion, a desire that had stemmed from his striving for perfection in the biblical Role.

Sometimes l wish our society could 

Switch off Social media

Take few minutes 

Reflection on behalf of each other

Ponder anew.

Seek Answers

Explore true storyline of Life and teaching

Of Jesus.

So there is my Passion. It's not super religious nor deeply Spiritual.

 

Passed this way before.

war only good for the undertaker.. 

well so the song goes..Edwin Starr..1968 lyrics about the Vietnamese war. But relevant to issues facing in 2022.

NHS and the Ambulatory care provided for myself last evening was examplaturay But own Doctor disappeared since 2018. Few times last evening, the concern about this place raised as concern.

Rural was a dream, reality's different.

Services are not what required. Concerns some experience are same Facing others.

Question come to our minds.

How come we supply weapons costing Millions,yet we cant resource War on Poverty.?

Something going on, yet we can't understand. Nothing around here looks the same.

All the lies of Political parties, Faith community, Eldership, creating more mistrust and divisions.

 

Nomad is a podcast, where group of friends ask real questions, enjoy honest conversation as together they search for signs of hope . . .

 FOR A LAUGH listened to `Nomad podcast`..

Series of Podcasts where people spend the time `accusing the brethren`.

plenty comments like.. l don`t use expression PRAYER its too Christian.

Got fed up of the tradition.

It took a while to come to this point. Happy to say ,l am not of this tride,

no longer listen to the views come through.

But at one time, they spoke light into places of challenge, suggesting alternative approach.

Then became a `needs must mission`..

Money became an issue, funding got raised. Something changed.

Like others l have become Constantly embarrassed by the `distaste` shown to former Churches.

Tell us about your inherited faith?

That could be such a positive question to explore growth, development, questions still treasure.

Boy get ready for some really awful experiences.

struggling to understand, why did it take, these people so long to break free?

Do we have such `CULT styles` of denomination in our churches. and communities who were not perfect enough for enabling growth.

Same old expressions, are voiced (like a turntable plays same track).

"used to work for the ...Church

l was spiritually abused..

no one would listen..

My bad parents is often a theme..

Gave everything to the Churches mission..

Male led abusive led worship..

after , 15 years, 20 years, 30 years..

Really sad, really sad..took my time to respond, asked some people l trust.

` give this a listen tell me what you think` .

Found that lot of mates couldn`t stomach what we listening too.

PURE white middle class privilege, economic well-being sorted, educated mostly university status. allow expressions like.. Don`t use the words prayer..its too Christian.

not attending Church..like to go for walks instead..thrown out my Bible..

A process called deconstruction—an academic term for the systematic pulling apart of your belief system.

But always found that the questions where encouraged.

In Church based youth work always developing what you believe and its relevance. Even at university it was challenge but Faith grew in what was hostile environment. 

Perhaps there more of an issue with emotional literacy, bigger issue with resilience not just on spiritual level.First sign of life sometimes a hurdle ,sense of not having all cognitive pieces. Listening to them. Reading own stories, they appear to have been so pampered from life events.come across as privileged and protected.

..Faiths not like a Bible story.

it is much harder than that..

Our life`s are still...

 my life is still

Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar.

And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's going on?

And I say: HEY! yeah HEY yeah yea
I said hey, what's going on?

And I say: HEY! yeah  HEY yeah yea
I said hey, what's going on?

We feel like we can`t keep trying, but recall that is, the first thing we have to do each day. Get up and try again despite what may feel like hopelessness.

Maybe there is a circle we are among, in this place but we want to be out of the circle.

First preached on this song around the time it was released, In Liverpool 1993 at Anfield road fellowship.

But often felt like it was song about the journey, we make each time, 

when trying to get through `whatever life` is throwing at us.

Can` shake a fist at God` , we must have that relationship in spiritual sense,

Question, wonder and share, even where we can get angry.

However feel like it sometimes, LIFE  just plain confusing.

The hill , well still there, still trying to get that place we searched for all this time.

Searched for this place `here and now` all of our life.

Again we are here still got so much climbing to do.

Without privilege and economic advantages it feels harder then it should.