May 31, 2021

A community that not worth belonging to....balance out from previous

We may still be deep in the midst of a pandemic, entertainment world been good cognative enabler , However with restrictions remaining on what we can and cannot do, This world changing beyond recognition in many ways, Glad to offer comforting note.

A strange thing remain exactly the same re-pre-coronavirus.

Hull city fans’ desperation see decent signing, along with radio coverage of home games!

 plus newspaper journalists need to report great deal speculation, about nothingness thus filling vacuous hole left by no action during summer period.

Dissatisfaction, some heartache, along with concern is the filling emotionally prepared for Tigers supporters.

Like this community but  not comfortable not part of community ,do not give very much to the coffers.

This is my only level of support.Vague interest.

One time personally more committed active member of this community ........not presently

May 29, 2021

A community belonging to something special...nice place to be

You and me ,this is what we are, if not it's what we should try and become
WE ARE THE BRIDGE that others NEED BACK TO THE CHURCH.
We've seen what's not right , further l am committed, like you, we know what's compelling about God's vision for his people.
His wonderful purpose , love and nature of belonging.
 We must strive to be those people, doing all we can to come together to enact that vision.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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We're all out here, we want better. We can make it so. In fact, we're called to.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
It's always been on us, and it's just as important as ever.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Emerging to reclaim plus remake what church is about, kingdom people going for those values in ways that make local community want to belong among us.

May 27, 2021

Music is great love of mine........deep...

Someone wrote a song and l, . . .like You connect with those lyrics.
They paint a narrative we get drawn in...
Their skills are marvelled at by you, me, and plenty more.
Singer pours out the heart and l understand.
The Tone,the beat, the sonic,make me feel, like dancin...
worse then that's really do dance...no one should see that.
Feel sad but piece of music lifts your spirit.
It talks about social issue....experiance is shared...worshipful...
Argument is sounded out..you want to sing along to the narrative .
Music does this and so so much more.
Enjoy.

Cognitive behaviour and supporting yourself
Been walking..some of this my own 'easy get out' to address own concerns..


When really young walked three days once a year on my own.
It felt spiritual
 alone but not lonly.....coping with solitude  

Soon ready to enjoy fellowships with others.

See it in my son...see it with others.

Recognise important...but too much isolation can provent growth.

Can if not careful lead
To bitterness.



Explore the things you love...for me it's Vinyl 

Listening to Chi lites...or some country artist
That's been today.
Reading old book.
Grabbing a Bible...reading commentary..making own notes ...sharing same with another.
These all enable our cognitive therapy ...one we don't needs counselling project to deliver.

P.S. Pay the music fee don't download for free.

May 26, 2021

How do you find cognitive therapy

What skills help you cope?
Here are few l use.......
Listening to others
Demonstrating emphasis around others issues
Walking in nature with family and friends
Enjoying silence
Recognise that not every day's a great moment
Preparing for better periods as Experiance shows me ...it gets better!
The tough times can feel long
Watching TV not to much long indulgence 
Cooking fresh as l can
OK have simple things
Not envious of others


Love ...YOU..been alongside yourself through quite a lot

Work through and ask for support
Can you read up on issues that concern you
Dance....paddle...build sandcastles.....
Pray seek God...whatever you conceive God to be,get to know Gods purpose for you.
Drink Jack Daniels . . . .most of what l have put here you can adjust...but glass of JD, best l can offer

May 24, 2021

I feel like a pinball and l no longer know it all.........TV bores me but not Music.Been reading bit more but damm it can never read a book straight through.Odd found old box sets of stuff seen so many times enlightens .Wonder if this is age thing going on....

Like keep asking daft questions
Did Elvis really die on the toilet having a burger?
Why did Sopranoes star Gandalfinie die so young did character he portrayed affect his health.
Will they remake the wire!
None of this is important.
Have l got time to listen to all the music l own at present?
Can l be granted enough time to read books l posses?
What will my legacy be? . . . .How will family flourish?
Load more cheerful stuff going in in that place between my ears....ha ha ha..
We are complex make up human beings........

May 23, 2021

Bit about FAITH

Faith is a mountain...it's a River ..it's somewhere you go to most morning

It's a raging River...its a stream..it's safe to paddle..can be difficult to swim in.....

Can be lost...cannot be taken away

Don't need to be religious to be full of Faith

Your soul and Spirituality they are different things.



 







Faith should be shared

Discussed

Hold onto yours and help it grow

It may at times feel absent

Really practice Faith in simple terms most days

Can have faith in people....God...road user.. electricity...like that

Faith part of life....

It's Sunday hope enjoyed non religious sermon....it came free!

May 22, 2021

There has to be connection and relationships at front of individual growth There has to be connection and relationships developing if Church/Community's want to grow. Society must embrace close connections not leaving a digital poverty excluding the poorest.

We drove out to lover's point
Shared our last kiss eye to eye
Spoke of tender times long past
Said they weren't meant to last
Too many different dreams to satisfy
She wants
New shoulders to cry on
New backseats to lie on
And she always gets her way
She wants to see other guys
Get lost in other eyes
Baby's in the black books
Yes she's in the black books today
The hardest truths don't have a why
Often true love will just die
And leave a grief to haunt
The lonely nights and days
She wants
New shoulders to cry on
New backseats to lie on
And she always gets her way
She wants to hurt other guys
Put tears in other eyes 
Baby's in the black books
Yes she's in the black books today
She wants to hurt other guys
Put tears in other eyes
Baby's in the black books
Yes she's in the black books today

Songwriters: Nils Lofgren
Black Books lyrics 


LUV THE WORDS IN THIS SONG . . . . .  DRAMA... OPERA ....THE LIFE...RELATIONSHIPS

May 21, 2021

Spirituality is hidden in our present social understanding

 I have been asked 'is spirituality out of fashion?'


Thousands of ways where the message whatever that may be,is echoing....

TV music poetry... religious beliefs... educational and social behaviour, lyrics in songs

Films , solitary walk... relationships..economics...ethics...


It may be Hidden like dance music

May not be felt to be spiritual

Fact of everyday life

Not always a big deeply meaningful thing.....often awareness can be just to one individual

Also we talk around community spirit like fishing or mining communities.

Society fearful as it may be regarded as a specific religion

But it's not limited

It's around us.hidden to many but present to some.



May 20, 2021

My need to understand more of God is still great

Blessed are the unemployed for we need a role ,even though there is no 'signing on' in heaven.
Blessed should be the single parents, they don't get a break but just want best for the child.
Let's bless the corner shop guy for when we need milk and bread ...
Bless the till workers ,shop floor cleaners ,trolley pushers they just get on with it.
Bless those who sit watching TV wanting to be in real conversation.
In time God will hear those prayers.
May the day begin when humble are recognised and blessed for just being....just being...
Bless the peace makers in the middle East......where like a virus hatred 'returns and returns'
Bless them Lord.
Bless the old folk ..feeling like they are not required,...fill their minds with acceptance of the journey 
still not finished,happy times ,sunny days, resilence... 
Bless the energy of the young may they find counsel with aged folk and listen wisely.
May we have enough stupidity to believe we can change ourselves and community we live in...

Amen 
---(more soon)---

May 19, 2021

At present struggling finding community!

 It's says and accept must should go to Church

But like so much in communities ...not evident

Further oddity that l am....not fitting in with you!

Self excluded

Marginalized myself

Left me outside alone

Looking in from the outside







Not walked away... neither am l missing company.nor angry with others

Journey placed me here ...on the edge.

Unhappy some teachers of the word.....maybe l was born this way..good at something else.

Being an outsider.

Clifftop walker...views  panarama is wider...but sheer fall.

May 18, 2021

To be dissatisfied with one self....that is personal development further growth ahead

Loved my day up coast at Bridlington... drinking cuppa, eating chips on harbour wall
I was only one in group,who was not heading home..all others staying away
Looking at others talking as departed was good feeling.
Earlier shared some music as we pilgrimed down the country roads
Coming back alone was fine.
Listened deeply music in car oddly was..Madonna.
(and some Prince extended tracks)....

Fields full of gold coulered harvest 
Joy is what we discovered as the group shared
Good openness....almost silently we collected shells from beach 
place called Danes Dyke.
<Used as Dover in remake of DADS ARMY>



Silence
Talking
Sharing
Reflection
Goodbyes. . . .

What makes you grow?.....how do you measure enjoyment?......Are you happy?

Starting to prepare for some  Church growth debate l am leading.

There has to be connection and relationships at front of individual growth
There has to be connection and relationships developing if Church/Community's want to grow.
Society must embrace close connections not leaving a digital poverty excluding the poorest.

If we don't grow together....then like the Middle East ...we have trouble a plenty.
Relationships are key to growth as person,in groups and among developing society. 

May 17, 2021

So we are coming out of this awful horror movie we starred in....

Fees in the post....
Situations been challange.
Time to reboot
Coffee up eat a maccy Dee, Rucksack packed,ready for bigger brighter happy times.....
........like the newish hymn should go like........
Everybody wants to go to heaven 
But some Christains don't wanna die ....
Found some Church folk retreated at a time when we are in massive decline.
Most evenglical hide away deep. . . 
Unsure if some congregations gonna return at all...confident few will not  emerge.

Bring on the dancin shoes...play the music loud and get ready to dance.

Communicate
Talk
Chat
Speak 

Looking forward to the new ......whatever....

May 16, 2021

Spring like day.....has winter come for myself



 

Feel like watched to much TV

Not spoken to others enough

Ate to much

Gone into self only'

Proscrinated just  little to often


Tried to read more

Prayed deeply


Worked to understanding issues in middle East more.... working through the confusion
Certain killing and bomding not the intended way for peace for all people

Certain also that reading Bible passage from thousand years ago
Without true understanding not solution.

I got told ...God promised that land to the Jewish......oh So it's OK to kill then.....NO.

Easy to say that here...in sunshine in spring in East riding of Yorkshire.

Are they not blood brothers?

Can land not be occupied by many...can they not harvest together....

Seek justice for other and you seek justice for yourself.

Neighbourhood bully get what he wants.


Infidel's like me

We want peace

Perhaps don't get all the minicia or historical

Evidence.

But know war is not the answer

You se been brought up to believe 

That justice will flow like a River


Treat humbly and love our neighbors that best way to be...better way to be...
Kingdom way to be....hell know how niavie that sounds.

But know no better inspiring way to live......
It's my winter...snow is all-around...hearts little weak...but my journey not complete.
In my soul...departed here....not content how l am leaving this place....but winter here for me

May 15, 2021

Where do you get your theology from......(Sense of God)?

“Rabbit’s clever,” said Pooh thoughtfully.
“Yes,” said Piglet, “Rabbit’s clever.”
“And he has Brain.”
“Yes,” said Piglet, “Rabbit has Brain.”
There was a long silence.
“I suppose,” said Pooh, “that that’s why he never understands anything.” ~A.A.Milne 

The books that get me thinking........House at pooh corner.....the boy ,horse and the fox.....
Victor Cannings triology 'Runaways'.....
TV programmes....The Wire...Hill street blues......
Music ....Bod Dylan....Dire straits.....Dance music...Tamla...Northern soul...Garth Brooke's ...
Etc...
The Bible....
Being with others
Cooking sharing meals
Walks in nature
Sandy beach
Cliff top view..........its omnipresent!
 

May 14, 2021

A grey sky threateningly dark clouds and empty beach

 Alone watching clouds above

Seagulls cry and swarm

Winds chilly shops closed  normal nower days

Promenades empty

No car's parked

All appears closed

Like feelings l have inside at this moment.

Moods kinda blue...hope sun return


Echos evident that we are returning to more open period

Hearts must open to each other

Individuals must show change

Community should develop better

Society has to reflect less oppression towards excluded

At front of this must be Faith community

Those projecting Kingdom values.

Being kinder...listening deeper... reflection...silent..

Active in embracing poor in spirit poor in economics

Poor in health...

Echo to return to chance Pandamic afforded us...



Across in Palestine

Jews and Arabs

Blood brothers

Kill each other

Shalom doesn't excist

Hatred returning


Let's pray for peace 🙏.

 Let's pray for deep Shalom to return

May 13, 2021

Outsiders test

l have heart condition it's tough 

Hence don't have to wear mask when out in with you good folks

However get others telling me that should not be among public.

Outsider

Place used to being

Occupational behaviour for likes of myself

Outsider

Music taste...not linked to TV 

Books l read

People share life amongst

Entertainment l enjoy

Belief system

Spiritual direction

Outsider

Culturally

Ethnic grouping

Class.... poverty struggle... educational expectation...

Hardworking

Northern

Male

Outsider

Don't need a mask nor do l need others reminding me




May 12, 2021

Many had benefit cut this month and had increase in rent and council tax along with general increase Back to normal... poor forgotten about even during virus

There talk and suggest action ,which may mean Cross-party MPs aim to force government to rectify DWP failure to comply with court rulings on bedroom tax ....and bereavement benefits rights breaches...along with non payments and under payments.
But warn you here....don't hold breathe waiting for results.
Poor get poorer even during virus.

May 11, 2021

Being kinda in this new age ..following C19 means recognise others efforts , politics and government,health services,even research... if you don't like them I value efforts made on my behalf ....grateful

 Thanks for your expertise and knowledge.

 God bless you and your family and friends.

Faith that getting menaced

It appears although Christian Faith is not oppressed, nor are faith holders in immediate danger in UK at least.
We are still in more challenging times.
Here an example where a school preacher was reported for sermon in school assemblies that challenged the WOKE agenda
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Randall says his sermon was provoked by pupils’ concerns over plans to ‘embed gender, gender identity and sexual orientation into the fabric’ of the nominally Christian school. He says that he used the sermon to tell pupils they should not be expected to agree with all the ideas the school was promoting – and that opposing to same-sex marriage and believing in biological sex were both perfectly legitimate viewpoints.


The TV has presenters who one day are one gender, the next they present as another gender.
One person on small programme called COACH TRIP...nice good idea for programme..
Stated....l get up in morning, am a fella sex with woman ,next day l am another person a woman who has sex with men...next day...

Get where that one is going...it all self serving but worse it's promoted.
That my real rud with it all... that promotion against nuclear or more normal acceptance.
BBC recognise 100 genders
I recognise 2.
If man luv a man ....fine....if l luv woman fine ....neither of us have right to impose that value.
But debate and discuss.like most things then you maybe get where l am plus values l hold.
There is no debate or acceptance that 100 genders is sinful.
Not a word use that ole world view.... But it leads to more incorrect behaviour.
More hurt.

More rejection
More attacks upon the 2 gender believers ......

May 9, 2021

Have we become uncomfortable with each other?

 


Whether it's religion... political.. society in general we struggle communicate among 

Ourselves.

Not finding common language..despite hearing this comment_'l get it_' we don't.

Could it be fear of opening up to each other?

Fear of new wokenisum!

Just not comfortable as people.

Game 'evil  one' happy to see being played out in small groups, communities, in friendships

Just not hearing each other.....

Leading to discourse ,overall frustrated disconnected. . .

 Lack of harmony....losing art of actively listening.

Got to work harder find out from each other . what's going on'......

John Allen wrote great book called...'Why am l Afriad to tell you who l am '.

He talks about five levels of communication...opening up more and more.

Perhaps we become too clever or we simply fine not talking.

Return to this...   WHAT'S GOING ON.. ..

May 8, 2021

Has COVID been blessing for those taking others cash

It feels like that 30% on bag of chips
Cup of tea 400% increase

Something quite wrong when people sit outside pud in snow and pouring rain under umbrella drinking expensive beer.
No not funny
Not quaint
Not resilance
Bloody stupid
Many walked away from North yorkshire (Filey Scarborough) coastal resort cafes when seen the prices 
Cup of tea £2-85 to stand outside with Watered down tea, in cold,drinking out of a small cardboard container.
.....forget about it......
£12 for small cheese pizza
......shhhhhhhhhhhhhtttttteeee.....Hell No

May 7, 2021

Stay with me on this journey...get cup of tea prices right one Day

 Selected my music

Having packed car

Passengers had last fags

Prayers said....we begin...sights to see,quieter on way home...Music just OK

Safe travel home...travel back always feels quicker

It's late afternoon unpacked....big question been working on retreat as l rest up.

Yeah at stage of life....three hours in the afternoon.

Stay with me.lets keep moving in emotional intelligence and wisdom we shared.











Politics in the United Kingdom is non event

We need strong opposition to check Government

Government should be fearful firstly of the people

Then of those with different Stance... views...debate should strengthen party of power

But we do not have that in our Society.

We have liers..theives..small mindedness..lack of knowledge further concern for voter's.



Hopes not evident

Poverty so high in coastal areas

But there this odd thing

People pay high prices for such simple commodity as cup of tea

From £1_20 up to £2_85......

Did COVID19 cause tea leaves and coffee beans to rise so high

Or am l that much out of touch


When did we become so Apaphy....when did we lose without even s wimper....

Guess it's true we get the politians we deserve...we get cup of tea prices we deserve.


May 6, 2021

Big questions society faces should they also be the big questions Christians address

Some say ...'followers of Jesus'... Embarrassed,so ignore word Christian.
Me not that deep...happy with either
Faith community
You decide

Now those issues

Healing 

Forgiveness

Racial equality

Poverty
Fairness

Also who is my neighbour?


Following C19 pandamic we must seek to ensure healing offered to all people.
Kinda lucky had my jab...but NHS in UK allowed some not received treatment they should have.
Cardiac issues...neurology.....cancer treatments...all suffered some have died.

That healing ...but society very broken ...low wages..underemployment ...low self esteem..
Poverty issue.. poor housing along with lack of social motility ....big big big issues.
Racial inequality .how working class treated . 
Ethnic groups face same battles same challanges...but lack of appreciation.. the cultures richness each should bring...l would highlight resilience among poor as undervalued strength...poverty leads to huge issues like drug misuse,alcoholic abuse...education...

Overall fairness is not evidence ...many left behind..lack of community cohesion in working together,to build better, there's great deal more then just this way of being.
Neighbourless must grow concern for each other...linked to so much of the above..dots easy to join ..
Kingdom values of saviour who came among us to encourage more redellious nature.
Follow me , Love ones another ,
Take on board seriousness of being a God follower..believe in this way.
Issues our society faces are also issues our society been embroiled in for hundreds of years.

What do l know.....?

May 5, 2021

Odd we've had four season in this day ........life on northern coast

Pictures to follow
Warm sunshine
Windy wet chilly North Sea blast
Wrapped up had cuppa at Filey.
Snow....several rims not laid deeply 
Wet rain on pond and lakes as we observed Yellow crest ...she'll ducks ...
Presently sunny with predicted frost this evening.


C19 recovery appears to be allowing greed
insulting way to treat us survivors...like well..increase simple cup of tea 
£2-49 is enough to pay,in anyone money.


Hailstones in May snow in summer ...frost on windscreen
I feel frustrated,really ready to give up.
Sound weak
Your right .....but still enjoy the day


Known in another country l worked in there's was snow in June 
Low in valleys among mountains


May 1, 2021

Redemption complete as Hull City win League One title with convincing Wigan victory

 


Redemption complete as Hull City win League One title with convincing Wigan win at 3_1...
Redemption what spiritual terms for victory in sports event....... defeat followed
Defeat last season,felt pretty low,the more so if invested more than you should of emotions, financial income,time and energy.

Now champions has nice sound.
Are our teams fortune restored as we returned to previous places.
Redemption huge word.Got to query suitability in this context.
But that can wait until another time.
Let's celebrate victory....
All together ..."come on you ULL..."


The Matthew blessing,

  The Matthew blessing, May God grant us enough stupidity to believe? We can go from this place and make the world a better place, May we wi...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"