Jul 30, 2020

It's Summer...it's August...it's still not passed

Walking on a beach
Ice cream finished
Bus passes myself....going away from here last bus evening to depart...
Promenades still full of happy people..
Sounds of the artificle arm that is the amusement arcade.
Words lighted up like FUN ....BINGO...PLEASURE....
Songs of soulful 70 s play....
Lost love...empty promises..missing
But we got pandamic it visited nearly six months ago.
Like loneliness it outstayed it course...
Like poverty hanging around...
I am walking in my trainers over soft sand 
August in 2020
Later cook a meal...some worries remain.
Later still.
Walking on a beach mid evening.
pleasent...
PPS mask carried away by wind along promenade ...
.its summer in England.
If honest.......
I am not happy bunny.

Is there a spare Tardis anyone?

Jul 29, 2020

One of my favourite joys....buying music...getting lost in music shop


Hope is all around

Hope
It funny word
Look around on wet cool day
Find hope
It been
There
All along
Looking back at you

There have been times when hope not possible
When...how did Dylan put it...
"When the pool of tears around my feet
Flooded every new born seed"
...
Hope excuse the pun...those days are gone.

But stronger ..older..wiser..?
OK older....

Jul 27, 2020

Concerns of shalom ...injustice..... equality...already waiting inscripture

As l inherited my faith

Began differant part of my journey after reaching commitment following my Baptisum around 17 years of age.

Inherited concerns around justice.

Equality.

Social issues.

How to steward resources.

Ways to behave towards vulnerable.

Understanding of creation.

Love for nature.







True it was there...in Church l grew up among..still present Church community belong still

Written in scripture.

Theologised recenates in second person l inherit...(podcasts..books...online discussions..)

Orthapaxy evident in how l live out faith.

Hope still developing.

Hope you are also.

Because it really is there...

it's the practice that's different.

Jul 26, 2020

Let's.bleed.some light and hope

Learnt so much in own Faith journey
From many Churches served
Many would not be read about or suggest have great missionary strategic planning
But key relationship with community they placed.








Several tradition Been placed with
Even Anglo Catholic...high... Pentecostal
Anglican....congregational...free Churches
Often in inner cities
With relevent message of hope.
Perhaps sometimes did not always value questions non faith people have...








How can we walk while beds
Are burning
All around us
Chaos
Politics of fear..needs gospel of hope
Must start kick the darkness till...
Bleeds the light..

Jul 25, 2020

The politics of fear keeps on winning.........

“Compulsory mask-wearing makes no sense. We have come through the worst of the pandemic. The death rate and infection rate have plummeted. So why are we being forced to wear masks now? People should be more sceptical of this authoritarianism.”

Brendan O’Neill on BBC Radio

It really makes no sense...today news shops...bus companies...gyms...etc all saying come back we need you .
Yet many will not with such draconian further Authoritive measures.
What happened to freedom.
Can l not be trusted?
It all appears to be made up 'On the Huff'
C19... really messed up our little world.
No deaths today 
Not so evident
Either we needed them when it was prelevent or we did not.
Sure as Hell...we do not need them at present.
But politics of fear ....well they step they keep on following...who look folks .....there a cliff ahead.
Go on jump straight over.

Jul 24, 2020

Open letter to camel traders who own Hull city from local rag

Dear Assem and Ehab,
As owners of Hull City, we expect you’re feeling the pain of relegation like any supporter. After the abundant highs of the Premier League, not to mention a run to the 2014 FA Cup final and into Europe, it is deeply disappointing that this is now a League One club.
City are sadly at a low ebb. There is disenchantment among supporters and, as we’re sure you saw after Saturday’s 1-0 defeat at home to Luton, plenty of anger too.
Fans are worried about the direction of their club. They have seen the dark times and toured the lower leagues. They are also familiar with the warning signs that are currently flashing on a team that has been relegated with just one win in 20 games.
This club feels as though it has arrived at a crossroads and only you have the capacity to change its course this summer.
As a family you have made it very clear you are ready to sell the club. Since April 2014 you say you have sought a takeover but, as yet, new owners have still not arrived.  
This club needs a fresh start. You have previously accepted as much and we trust that when the right buyer comes along you will be ready to finally hand over control.
Until then, though, things have to change for the better. Or the discord and apathy will only spread into next season.
The time has come to communicate your long-term vision for City. You arrived with sights fixed firmly on the Premier League but where do you aim to be now?
It is also time for any of the rumoured local business people interested in purchasing the club to come forward and at least investigate the details.
Grant McCann says there is a plan that will stay “in house” but that cannot be right. Supporters, more than anyone, deserve to know where their club is heading.
Do you have ambitions to get City back to the Championship? Will you invest to make that possible? And will McCann be trusted with the job of rebuilding this team?
This club currently feels as though it is drifting. We understand the need to cut costs and safeguard financial health but there is more to football than balance sheets, profit and loss. Never forget the intangibles; the power of passion, belief and togetherness.
Fans do not expect a winning team but they need hope that the best days are to come. That precious commodity has been in short supply throughout 2020 and relegation to League One has left supporters disillusioned and concerned. Ambition is increasingly hard to spot at a club where so much has gone so badly wrong in the last three years.
Supporters also want to feel involved again, as though they follow a club that cares as much as they do about what happens on the field, but also cares about them.
You have seen with your own eyes what City can be. You have seen the KCOM Stadium packed out and watched supporters in their thousands head all around the country every other Saturday.
But the interest is dwindling rapidly.  Too many have grown detached from City in the last three seasons. Matchday revenue has been slashed in a period that has seen attendances cut in half and winning those supporters back, especially the younger generations, is now of paramount importance to the club’s long-term health.
Fans do not ask for the earth but they want more than you are currently giving them.
If you cannot turn the tide then it is time to step aside this summer. The club is rolling backwards and only you can change that.
To a successful 2020-21 and happier times ahead,


Jul 23, 2020

How fear works.....

Politics of fear are winning
It's mask compulsory from tomorrow yet for months not needed them
So l shall keep out the shops
That not new
Sad day ......
People pretty ignorant about this virus further how it spreads
Expect this rule
Expect this law
Expect this outrage
Will affect financing come into tills
Less ringing up sales pretty sure

Wear a mask
Cover up
Drink more
Eat out
Stay off buses
Ride a bike
Authorities telling you and l
More and more
What we can and cannot do
How you think
Social engineered how you behave
You see.....How fear works.....ALL LIFES MATTER EVEN NON MASK WEARERS

Jul 22, 2020

Today's sad Day only soccer Known that for a while Hull City get relegated No hope But been coming Still sad.....

Today's sad Day only soccer
Known that for a while
Hull City get relegated
No hope
But been coming
Still sad.....

Fan base been destroyed
By greed
Ego
Bad business
Poor dialogue
Abuse towards support for long period

Economic plight
Entertainment value
Community 
All effected
Sad
Sad done sung on silent terraces
Goodbye feeling of hopeless
Goodbye
Hull City relegated this day
Far worse things happen

Fields played in


Me always been a little off field...out there not on my own but we'll see
Not been best position ..where played the game of life...
Out there left field . .not in political sense...but available for listening post.
That sounds about right.....catcher strange stuff ... good place to be..

Jul 21, 2020

Watched three Billboards ...the film....


It seemed that the pregnant police detective Marge Gunderson from 'Fargo' would forever be the most memorable character of Frances McDormand's acting career. But now I'm not so sure. Mildred Hayes, the heroine from 'Three Billboards', is a serious contender. 

But the dark...or is it just Grim...film left me confused.
Some called parts of film humour....
This might well be the critics expert opoinates .

Mildred Hayes is a divorced single mother, living with her son on the outskirts of a small, rural town. She had a daughter too, sadly we soon discover, was raped, then killed on a quiet mountain road not far from home. Frustrated by the lack of progress of the investigation, Mother decides to rent three dilapidated billboards, publicly accusing the local police chief (Woody Boyd from Cheers) of incompetence. By doing so, she attracts the attention of the media, angers almost the entire town and causes a succession of increasingly violent actions.

Some suggested film is about big issues grief, anger, revenge and violence, although been written also it is extremely funny.l personally did not grasp that.....maybe for sure l am in wrong place when observing the art... Above all because of Mildred Hayes' stubborn character and her ability to verbally humiliate others.


But it incomplete....anger behaves anger ...hatred grows...awful stuff witness ...complex narrative of the other characters ..just hurts.
It really hurts because see little in depth of people portrayed.
I know loved by critics but mixed views from other watched this...maybe life does not dish out correct justice.But bleak story here just promotors anger..injustice and hatred.
Are we in some places this far gone.
I ask honestly.
Hope l am correct in feeling this projects incorrect state.

Jul 19, 2020

Sunday's different day to me...

 The years went rolling by

Wrapped up by the coast

Own thoughts

Beautiful image

Coastal always drawn to sea

Not sailor in me......

Find space...imagine Concepts

Breathe.....pray...go on in life...
These moment are leaving us.......
Hear voices... remember some faces...lots of names
...did l speak clearly enough...about the right things...yes..yes.. because l gave those moments...
To higher power.....

Jul 18, 2020

Kevin W....still walking around Scarborough

I walked the coast on my own first time in 1975.....felt confident
Fit. . healthy....able
Growing ...developing...
Wish l didn't know now...what l didn't know then
Years came rolling by.....

2020
Kevin W...walking Thursday night in Scarborough eating chips on same spot...
Not healthy...poor day next day...disabled..mind active
Not confident about future
Growing...developing..not same pace.
Still on my own...
Profession they called it...better vocation
Had this sense of vision...
Expected this moment!

There never  was enough of that comdiaty called time
Indeed should also....ASK

Where did the time go....

Jul 15, 2020

Keep coming back to how l invest my time...the story's l follow

The drama
Characters
Issues ...stuff being felt
Images...what l see ponder
How l feel after film or TV
Am l moved
Records listen too....lyrics...sonic feeling...beat...bass...voice or not
Gospel scripture....Bible
Same ...how am l changed
Was it time well spent...do we discuss what we watched
Sometimes switch off
Turn TV off
Let silence enter...
Did issue make me change or think differently
Characters can l resonate with them.
Investing in all sorts of ways each day with stories all around us...some stuff just inferred

Jul 14, 2020

Hull City 1-0 down after two minutes Groundhog Day I would be worried but manager says it all fine just need two more wins That 100% more then we had in last 7 months

Sad when follow team that always losing
Mind you story of Hull....one letter from hell...
We had so much promise
Things going to get better
Like UK even World after C19 we were going to be better
There was so much potential 
True there was lose...but we would rise up ..be better people,try harder,not make same mistakes
Had plan A to improve
Appointed correct people
Even suggestion of a Plan B

Jul 13, 2020

This place ..this seaside town it is that one...the one they forgot to close down


So listened ...'but didn't like what we spoke about'
 l was disturbed by life
being
Lived....
gambling...signs of self harm.....living as family with children at 19...
You feel trapped...
So would l...
Listened again to another...domestic violence wear it like a trophy...
Cup throw at you..
Bleeding from head wound..
Broken arm...
Etc...
Listened to another gambling...lose of money...no prospect's..
In a town where emotional literature is measured higher then most other places
Me .......wonder have "l the resources to respond"...

Come Armagadom come

Jul 10, 2020

My Belief in practice....

Reflecting deeper
Listening to music
Reading limited scope of books
Watching ....Inspector Montalbano...
Listening
Praying
Walking
Playing Squash
Attending Hospital appointments
Praying about stuff
More walking
Playing Wii Consule daily

That about it this week......

Jul 9, 2020

Wrestling with questions.......in my way

Here is tough Question so first apply it to my Faith!
What have l had to swallow to be part of the Church club?
In life suppose ask yourself...What do l embrace to be part of the culture/gang/to just belong?
My blogs about me stumbling thru life...trying to argue with self 
While also accepting ...not everyone gets my awkward honesty nor my failing humour...
Sometimes
Do sometimes
Few sometimes...l present mine ,or borrowed from others complete trusted wisdom.
Rare but sure there have been moments....

Jul 8, 2020

Not living to get to heaven before they close the gate
Not living faith out of fear
Just want others to walk with me 
While following closely to Jesus

Another day....in not quite paradise

 Day ends l pondering
About all stuff of life
Doctors actions
Doctors words
Sun goes down
Feels odd

Not summer person
Heart wonderful muscle when working correctly
Humanity wonderful when working correctly

Here to the words on the streets tonight
Here to the loved ones in others care
Here to the lonely
Struggling everywhere
Further here to you........with Blessings from above
May the day begin....may Kingdom be more real in you and me

Jul 6, 2020

Let's see.......... hospital tomorrow!

Get asked_what kind of faith did l inherit'
Which does not make any sense.suppose it can... take wrong idea what commitment look s like.
Not question enjoyed.


It life and every day for me
Simply..... have l put enough into
each moment..... sleeping to much
due to illness..

Other period of time
I was ok
But feel rodded most Day
Anyway tomorrow Doctor at hospital

Let see......what wisdoms awaiting.

Life is tough
But expect you know

We are getting through this are we not?

It's passing slowly

But it is passing...

Jul 5, 2020

Trying to describe person of faith l am....

Baptisum was critical..what Lord did and he did not need to so just follow that example.
Words of teaching in old order...testaments and new order...
Fact that all these years on in Autumn of my life it still vital
Still wrestle
That understanding not faded away
I still believe .... Yes differently ..but l am differant
The Basic orthodox only altered
Reference lessons in way live my life
Get it wrong ...but forgiven...growing but not conceited 
I ...Kevin W....do question ...yes not to doubt....
Think Unanswered Prayer biggest concern ...
So follower of man Jesus of Nazerath ,Gods son....our saviour,his teaching should be obeyed.
Rooted in the word...understanding more....committed ...
Kinda think should support poor in way Bible suggest...
Try to be Kingdom person....NOW

Jul 4, 2020

New normal means no change to Heart of Saturday nite in East Yorkshire rural

The heart of Saturday nite starts here in coastal East Yorkshire town at 08-00 in the morning.
All day drinking returns.
There ain't no NEW normal here.
Where emotional literacy measured in pints you drink
More pints
 more time 
  more drunk 
    more thick mentally a person is.....
Should l apologia for such a harsh statement.....yeah if people had listened to concerns,
But not when heart of a Saturday nite is getting drunk....no concern for others...own state...cost to local society....
So -'Sunday morning coming down'-.. here is prison cell....gutter...and dirty town  

Jul 3, 2020

Local at present


Wow on the coast of East Yorkshire rare bird bringing 100s to view....we humans and love nature...watching ..creating image for others to examine...wow..wow..wow

City had gone 13 league games without a victory in a run dating back to New Year’s Day but that damaging sequence was finally ended in dramatic style. “It’s a big win. There’s no getting away from it with six games to go now until the end of the season,”


City had gone 13 league games without a victory in a run dating back to New Year’s Day but that damaging sequence was finally ended in dramatic style.

“It’s a big win. There’s no getting away from it with six games to go now until the end of the season,”
Yeah but someone interrupted my listening pleasures and the day changes...life ...my life..
Visited steering group chatted.....
That felt good.....
Weather blustery!
This feeling not being involved due to health just frustrated myself....
So much still not functioning as it should
Life hidden in some background
Unable to resume

This state of unable to process events.Sure there are those who enjoy the sitting events out
Sure many not usedtime to develop internally......people put on weight...people consumed more Alcohol.
Young people concerned with mental health issues.Older people strike being more scared.
TV still boring.......papers still full crap....drug abuse risen..Hope adendened...
Did l mentioned winds blustery. . . . 

Jul 1, 2020

How dare they remove the Emancipation Memorial? Taking down a statue paid for by freed slaves – this is the worst thing the woke hysterics have done.

Black life's matter
All life's matter
Your life matters
My own life matters

Learn't that growing up in Wilberfoces ole town of Hull....one letter from Hell
Exploring issues, not caring couler of my friends Ullah, Fazzie,Ahmed. Good guys who introduced me to some insane music....Wild Cherry...Isleys..Jacksons....James Brown..Motown.
Boxed together,ate,played music....argued about faith girls...tagged school.
 Our mums walked us to school together...stood in same chip shop queues together.

On Facebook we still communicate
Attended odd funeral
Wept together
Climbed hills together
Want better for all....together.......Redemption has to be for the life they live
Redemption has to be for the lives you and l and they live.....
If it not for all those life's.......it's not Redemption .  

Storms....huge weather variates at present

Huge winds brought chills waves and stormy conditions Despite this turmoil Got dressed, got out  Excitement conversation's  Pictures and...

MAYBE WE WON`T MEET AGAIN

. . . she got a postcard in the mail
That just said Heaven,with a picture of the ocean and the beach
The simple words he wrote her
Said he loved her
How he'd hold her if his arms would reach
Wish you were here, wish you could see this place
Wish you were near,Wish I could touch your face
The weather's nice, it's paradise
It's summertime all year and there's some folks we know
They say, "Hello, "
I miss you so, wish you were here"