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                     So how are you?

U2 been part of my life since about 1982.

 "It's a little NGO with a big kick for kids with all of the talent and none of the access," as Larry put it. "Our band are proud supporters." 

Adam, Edge, Bono and Larry were guests at the tournament final and Larry met the teams before tossing the coin at the start of the match.

                      U2 been part of my life since about 1982.

All the talents and none of the access...

WOW that is deep read it again, this amplifies my LOVE  for these guys, it was Einstein who said that synchronicity is God’s way of reminding us that nothing happens by accident.’ contemporaneousness it may be but do you find some kind of connection that happens. ITs a GODNESS l call it that sense you get whether your a faith person Or you are just a spiritual person with no religious ties. Many often get these feelings that something is joining the dots.

Bringing things together.

Moved often by these actions were minds and hearts which are soulful parts of us are brought together. Joined in U2 thing like l often do with music connected with lyrics' the emotions the BPM whatever, stayed with Dylan, stayed with Northern souls, stayed with Springsteen , stayed with Motown wider soul because heart was moved , My mind grew and l stayed.

That's why Love U2 its in my heart, moves my feet, stirs my heart. Again and again.

Poor preparation produces pitiful performance.

Been let down
Been rejected.

Suffering because of incompetence of another.Some ways in which I am suffering includes health palpitations in heart, lack of sleep, unable to plan, economic well being further damage.

Letting others down because they have agreed good will to assist myself. So now have to let them down. Change further alter plans now have Stress. Stress is a  word personally don't use without understanding weight it carries. 

Poor preparation produces pitiful performance.

Here's the rub these things happen occasionally we need to adjust to poor management delivery. Except it's common practice. It is how LEAs local government functions. Not uncommon it the way WOKE warriors delivery. They know the rights they have on place of society. They now how to get time off but delivery of a service to service users not part of the process 

Thru can travel the world on fake news but they can't lifts broom to do the job they are employed for.

They have different work times next week to this week. But they fail to deliver. Travel in car journey adjusting time duties, so Spotify playlist is updated but place a urgent phone call to get as example ...Cleaners to a home ..Urgent client base for medical help...update family member about care plan...these are not Achieved.

Poor preparation. Woeful approaches, bad production values, it is pitiful. The main product is failure of service provision.

East Riding County Council in East Yorkshire is prime delivery of poorly prepared pitiful, unprocessed service provision. 

Trust me it's an area I know about first hand. 

Breathe it's a difficult stressful period.
Reminding myself to pause. Reflect and breathe on.
Look for God seek his guidance help and strength.

It all seemed so important then.

It all seemed so important then policy guidelines informed practices. Staff meetings exciting new contracts ..hourly rate of £7-05...opportunity to advance to part-time route in part-time qualification. JNC recognised...Collage ..University...Placements..Practice documents etc...It all seamed so important then.

In the film ...'The Great Escaper'.. there something sad but special ,strong but vulnerable,delicate yet resilient about the characters who main LIFE issue to those observing was impact of War.

Ten years ago on the 70th D-Day anniversary, 89-year-old Bernie made headlines across the world when he became ‘the great escaper’. Bernie left The Pines care home in Hove, who thought he was planning to meet friends in Portsmouth to reminisce about D-day and Normandy, but instead he caught a ferry to France to pay his respects to his fallen comrades.

Back to the film .Confident it was and still remains so very important.last word spoke in the film is... Tossers....Last act is old gent letting down the tyres of self important :- it's all about us Cyclists.

It sums up vital aspect of our society.

Who are the tossers who don't care about those around them nor journey they have taken?

Who are these elite how do we recognise them? What acts would scupper their plans causing them to look at larger picture?

It all seamed so important then so very important. I was wrong sometimes that's just me...it's just me.

You don't have to prove nothing to nobody.

Do people sometimes hide from others how difficult life along with the stuff associated really is ?

We talk in counselling/active listening terms as masking...‘masking’ often means “putting on a brave face”, “keeping up appearances”,  “pretending things are better than they really are.” its the games we humans often play. I'm ok you're OK. but often the person is not.

They have written lots of books on the issue enough to make us all stop taking the pills. But there never is enough Loved. 

Ask Cher.

I know people hurt you so bad

They don't know the damage they can do

And it makes me so sad

How we knock each other down

Just like children on a playground

Even after that old sun went down

I was either standing in your shadow or blocking your light

Though I kept on trying I could not make it right

For this girl

There's just not enough love in the world

Oh, darling, this is still a shady little town

Sometimes it's so hard to smile

For the world, for the camera

Still have something left

You don't have to prove nothing to nobody

Just forgive yourself.

You don't have to prove nothing to nobody.

I loved whole 'in-service training' along with credited certified qualifications. Not intellect notebook person indeed left school with no qualifications, was expelled kicked out and told l was not welcome.  When l discovered further education was a vocational route l could process very well. It became a way to grow develo and improve the person that my profession required. Not on my own in discovering this guy from male working class background. Empathy was something discovered, listening was something l didn't realise was a skill.

The most important thing was how do other people process LIFE ?

What experiences have they processed to get here or still journeying towards.?

There are no quick solutions. Joy is we can share our humanity. It's beautiful.

A Sandbox for teenagers growing up.

That conversation that was warm and not expected. Someone shared with myself  information that demonstrated they trusted me plus accepted advice you offered.

Heron stood on the bridge over the river unaware of others, (So it seams). Buzzard circling higher then higher up and out of sight.
Top of Ravenscar peak in cooler September evening `stars cosmic man`.

When we found out that locally small Fish and chips is called `Half a Lot. and it was enough. Surprise sometimes when it had quite a few pieces of fish. Unpacked them at Seal Sands ate till full.

Moment when `Tee Pees` are erected, sat around the stove is on Quite long journey because someone wanted to see `Villas ground`. Aston Villa as we passed Birmingham. Laughed at extra miles plus the detour. Cooking noodles with loads of chicken in our recipe broth.

`Chloe's` screams as in North Yorkshire we visited Count Dracula's experience. Most of us didn't find it scary. Sat later on the wreck of a boat, just of `Staithes` all thrilled.

When we traveled to play football in west end of Newcastle, the Romanian kids against adhoc team we could muster, score was so stupid the laughter so plenty, the insults never occurred, friendships cemented. The day was bathed in hot temperate and cups of tea were waiting as we headed back to a Church hall meeting up with other youths.

Always as now captured on dusty photos images that bring a tear, we had just this strange feeling.Godly beautiful feeling, there was enough stupidity among these groups mainly forgotten, impoverished kidz ,that the world is still somewhere full of kindness, many gentle full of grace acts, funny people.

It was always the simplicity of hot mugs of tea, sat chatting something to do with snacks and waiting, Waiting. Enjoyed each moment often in Gods cathedral always a talk about some Kingdom way of being.

 A Sandbox for teenagers growing up and needing these moments of retreat, refreshment, time to slightly escape grow in holistic fullness.