Stranglised...strange but happened.

Feel stranglised. Like drawn again plus again into situations with mainly people don't need to share life with anymore. The hold we had no longer a format need to share. Weighty paragraph.

Conflict Resolution offered along with the nature of walking daily or more whenever possible not something we can share further. As already explained. I have left the area. This part of my being is no longer around. The clouds look larger here in vastness. That chilly north sea breeze, part of the recent past gone perhaps forever.

We gather no more to idle along the promenade. No more do we observe the bikers nites, the concerts, the building works nor the men alone late at night fishing with damaged minds blighted by tales of stinging poverty. Still getting processed calls, "can you walk the dogs". "When will you be around?". I won't. Those moments only serve now to stranglise myself. It's not a cutting off it's recent ending that was known to be coming.

The clouds along the Vale of York look larger the horizon more vast the expanse across further plains. it's more huge and it makes me feel optimistic. The last month's was hectic brought return to poor health. Reminding myself why had to pilgrim away.

Forever grateful for the time with those folks. The joys we shared the conversation we had.

So to new portals reminding me of previous excursions with groups, 3 day hikes to Robin Hoods bay. Two days to recover long bus journeys back falling asleep. There no such age as forever young just getting old and feeling old. There no such place as l don't feel my age. No each year is eventually  a place called the end. Life is a journey.

Moving on into journeys final destination.

SO now the journeys are different the traffic flows in strangely less hurried purpose, the trees are engagement l like to observe, along with the animal in the fields which of course being Britain are of a sameness. The college come higher education place that now pass every journey away, is the one our beloved but departed Matthew loved so much. even though there is a tug on my heart it feels OK passing his spiritual home. 

Matthew David loved and missed fresh every day.

Our new pasture garden has lots of small visitors from Ophthalmology perspective coal tits, wrens, robins, starlings, small blackbirds. Great deal to be done make our small garden with 7 trees a place to seek sanctuary.

Village is more quiet the sounds of urban coastal noise is absent. There just appears less noise from the aggression, noticed very few people vape .The smell of coastal climate threat comes from drugs like cannabis is absent hence lack of aggression. People and l note need to be appearing judgmental , but saying what witnessed are better dressed, talk less, have much clearer nature. Locality is more silent. More at rest.

Already had people visit, talked longer. Old folk from that place by the coast have asked me to perform tasks which are no longer part of myself. Those duties were always unofficial. now they are unwelcome. parting of the ways.

Listen....

The sound of Life it's movement is more silent.

The sound ..yes the sound is a lot less.

That sounds is different it's lot quieter more silent.

Life's perspectives.

Nature can be the most wonderful place to feel happy walking with friends ' getting your steps in'.. commonly heard expression. It's place to retreat and invest in yourself while this ever changing narrative unfold in images around oneself. Chatting away eat something healthy feeling better for gathering and passing the time.

The concept of Conservation Areas was 
established more than 40 years ago in 
the 1967 Civic Amenities Act. This 
enables the importance of areas rather 
than individual buildings to be 
recognised.

Nature can be quite a dangerous place to feel happy in, machines are dangerous, if walking around fields with friends have to be vigilant about what else is happening. Although lovely it can be uncomfortable. Always changing smell of manure, dangerous group of cattle look aggressive, threatening. Sometimes best to get out of danger head home to the TV set. Switch off stay indoors remain safe.

LIFE sometimes it just about, often just about, how you see things.

He had simply followed one rule: "Paint the things you love".

 I don’t support ,(because see the biased ways many will be treated), don't support rioting but when BLM movement perform their tricks, looting, fighting, accusing , Labour plus those already in government confirmed that many MPs should speak to the 'black community and listen'.

Following the scenes in Northern Ireland of lot of rioting, didn't hear about looting. Belfast, No Labour MP has bothered, (at least not seen any Political elite) visit or mentioned desire to speak to white, working class communities to listen to their concerns?

We should all matter but proving difficult to get behind the noise and see same reaction to killing on street corners, the loose way in which Turkish barbers are doing business on our streets. Beheading on public street in UK. Sexual trafficking leaving girls in danger in UK.

Its awful ugly moment in UK at present do not see this improving anytime soon.

David Hockney has died. His huge achievement was to make serious painting look effortless. He carried forward one of the most sustained investigations into vision, space and representation, witnessed him working in North Yorkshire on the Big trees project.

There was something simple in the way he shared his techniques. Some affirming about whole process. No labelling himself as 'the greatest', it's was Always just try to do it. Then paint it 20 time paint it 4 times. Colours always vibrant bright inviting. Mr Hockney was inviting warm friendly, very generous with his time and talents.

It's a time of beauty a life's theme of simple transformative Art. Inspiration, plus available to any who liked to paint things.

if woke = compassion.....Accept its doesn't pet.

 

I am trying to find my way and if woke = compassion, this is where I want to eventually be....

                                                  Accept its doesn't pet. 

WOKE Simply not there!

The movies don't always cried out meaning.

Sometimes when the Rock, the Art form, cries out inferred messages they make great sense becoming a vehicle for implying a value or a virtue. Communicating in a way that enables greater better different understanding of an issues you wish to identify.

Other odd times despite it flying a flag it doesn't transfer and indeed it's pretty rubbish, it's a rotten stinking tomatoes type of wasteful.product.

They sold us a story full of great stars true life affirming story. Actors we had grown up with actually morally they started in some fantastic stories upon the big screen. But on own lives they had strong compassion. So invested time on this project expecting a good return for my commitment.

But it's not genuine, it's a big let down, alcohol and sexual cohesion behaviour, old guys as often getting a paycheck for swearing, thin story line, absent of energy. It's works as a buddy movie but been down too often not very well. Old movies like ' Easy rider' film of the book, 'On the road'. Work better 

'Walk on the Woods', had Redford,Nolte,Emma Thompson,so called stars however, film doesn't it flops hard task stay for the full period. Story of failure hints at life lived.Also suggest bit of living to be done. The characters are selfish tho his theme throughout the movie.

Yes disappointed but personal view you may experience whatever.

Walking the non talk.

 Been thinking a lot about need to hermitage away for a desert experience. Finding few people need to deconstruct from what's being said to them along with what they are feeling. Need to grasp  a pace and a space away from what's on offer.

Pace is word that mean firstly. Like person too busy to relax into moments. Too busy to enjoy breathing. Not getting time for themselves. So called lead us away , real feeling reality experience, not in Zoom space...Not In internet Church.

Yes l have paused for your laughter.

But real experiences of retreating to sojourner into space away. To breathe, chat without being measured, also enjoy having wrong answer..Not suggesting we deconstruct but may have less to do with those who are managing us. Those who got shuttle power over us. May change patterns of what we have been simply do not know. Just really feel group forming who need to be away and walk to grow. With like minded traveller.