LIFE is like these lyrics.....

If l'd never felt the pain.

Never had the Dance

Life is like this 

I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end

The way it all would go

Our lives

Are better left to chance

I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss

The dance

Holding you

I held everything

For a moment

I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end

The way it all would go

Our lives

Are better left to chance

I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss

The dance

Let's give compassion dignity and share in tears this October the 7th

Killed for being Jewish. Killed for being Israeli killed in ways l still can't process and l'm removed by years and miles. Not related l'm a Christian yet cannot process the hatred exhibited.

In London, Manchester, Birmingham they Muslims made it special day of hate for you and myself. On the anniversary of the Hamas atrocities. They have collectively gathered, they are chanting for racist terrorists committed to genocide against the Jewish folks .

But we seen historically what happens when a middle east crowd gather to make their view know.

They even gathered in Liverpool in awful act of cruelty stupidly and huge ignorance.

As the 

s former Annfield Parish YCW L4

As the former Annfield parish youth community worker for L4 the people of Liverpool should know what grief and betrayal, denial, plus npublic forming wrong view looks like. They should understand they should show compassion,concern and grace. As many like myself offer all our Jewish family's and friends, support prayers and loving hopes.

Because if you are being healed you won't be begging again

So many times in the gospels and the Acts of the new testament whenever there's a healing the right way appears to be senses of empowerment. The talk is whoever. Whoever in my name. Not well the privileged and educated. Not the well spoken and dressed well. But whoever.

That's means you and l are followers of the Lord so we can achieve the same. There equality if your following the Lord! But also something participating in the actions 

Asking "What do you want me to do for you ". Because if you are being healed you won't be begging again, your testimony will be required. This is narrative we are following at Church presently. It's complex difficult to understand.

Healing not everyday in most, really all Church styles l' ve embraced. So when did it get lost. When did it seize to be practiced ? In the great deconstruction debate it got lost, rejected, Yet other gifts have been part of spiritual language and processes.

Reconstructive

 People get troubled and confused like when black artist uses country music 'old town road'. Genre could be threatened . Old ladies struggling accepting Johnny cash sang about his horse and his town and his country back in 53. But not in 2025 

Black guy cant sing about his horse his town nor his country. That's not allowed.We all embody something natural we all feel a little broken some of the time.

We are all reconstructive from music to faith to culture.

This Imported theology, however unpalatable it appears is pure hatred.

 Jewish people had been dreading the attack in Manchester on Thursday. they like many of my faith had recognised that the evil among us is Islam we know for several decades.  All of the warnings about the `hate that only begets hatred` was being allowed to fester, warnings continued to be ignored. State for fact Islam is bred to fulfil hatred there are no good followers of this theology, time we accepted this truth however unpalatable it appears.

The journey we’ve been on since 7 October has been one of inevitability, but also intent. On Succot 2023, Hama's launched its brutal, attempted genocide against the Jewish people, murdering, torturing, raping, and kidnapping more than 1,200 innocents. Now, on Yom Kippur 2025, Britain has witnessed its exported version: two Jews mowed down and stabbed to death outside a synagogue in Manchester.

Yet they have put our hard fought working values, onto a alter called
multi culterisum to have them slaughtered.
So this Saturday which for many is the sabbath and the eve of the Christian sabbath what should we do.

Be still and know that l am God.

Be still and know that l am God.

Be still and know that l am God.

Be still and know that l am God.

Now you may be asking how does that work with all this chaos you put out something which appears as good as putting your head in the sand.
But that's the point the loudness is drowning out the people , the sound, the place of reason. So first retreat gather up your thoughts talk them through your conscience. Listen to the voice quietly.
walk then return to a place of stillness.
Eat then return to a place of stillness
return when you had a break from the chaos,
 (Return you must this is not detachment) .

First do this it helped me for long while to quietly say those words above but your capable. Capable of finding a place where there is stillness, but it may be several places in your environment. and it should be for at least 48 hours.

Be still and then you will begin to know. This is coming from someone whose not the quietest soul but lets do this.

Be still and you will know that he is Lord.

when l was growing up we lived together in Peace...But today we can`t.

 British Jews don’t drive cars into civilians or police before getting out to stab them. British Jews don’t blow ourselves up on the London Underground. British Jews don’t detonate ourselves on Central London buses. British Jews don’t strap knives to our wrists and rampage through London’s markets massacring revelers.

British Jews don’t hack British soldiers head’s off on our streets. British Jews don’t drive Jeeps loaded with propane canisters into Glasgow Airport. British Jews don’t stab people at Victoria station while shouting Jewish slogans. British Jews don’t stab multiple people in Forbury Gardens while shouting “God is Great”.

British Jews don’t stab MPs during constituency surgeries. British Jews don’t detonate homemade bombs on tubes .

I get angry again yet it was inevitable. Wasn't it

Hatred begets hatred ....when It's in your DNA

What can follow that only more hatred. Love again in Manchester along with almost whole of UK...Loves again in need of love!

The hatred allowed every week to raise it flag to be marched down gathering places of City's of this once great country have stained the spectrum. Today one of those ...Love wins' but that sounds trite...stupid...low...

As the candles get lit...flowers, soft cuddly teddy get laid. Tear stained relatives visit. Shocked trite political leaders come out with useless platitudes.

I get angry again yet it was inevitable. Wasn't it? Did we not expect vile wicked Islamists would do the hateful deed.

So didn't you imagine all that wickedness again manifesting itself as l pen these words. Again inevitably they are put like here leaders at basketball match. Cheering rejoicing... enjoying this event. The Jews tell us they feel alone. But l think it's worse they have and still are being betrayed .

Again flags of hate legions of misguided and ignorant are out in some kind of whipped up protest. This is what l expected worse l've witnessed. Vile wicked hatred floods the streets Death cult dances on the day of Atonement ...Yon kipp anow 

Habits.

 Some of my life habit's developed as l was growing up around role models. Role models who like myself didn't get to be recognised. Just the habits like appreciating nature. Long walks across cliff tops of Sea Often in the North. My mind and life style found doing this healthy pastime, would become almost a daily way of being.

Taking time to be with God reflecting, pausing reading , also talking with others. Then 'to it' becomes a good habit. So `it` sticks, further becomes the normal. These as teenager were small changes that invested in … became  more about my identity then l was aware . Small steps to move away from `white working class unskilled` they wrongly stated uneducated northern lad. 

Started to develop good ways of 'performing and processing a better way to be', in a different way.

Just simply as this is you. You can `be` by adopting good habits.