Old man gathered.

People yesterday, my friends, spent time at pub's, Not my usual haunt, we drank, chatted, laughing, reflected.

Guys someone said the gym was my family Old man was too tough, teaching us how to Not parent 

They achieved something ,not what they wished. My parents like my friends not good at parenting. LIFE was different.

Someone asked me this ..About Father Gods love. "How can you believe when He (God) took Matthew."

Sounds weak, Learnt to "sing Hallelujah anyway" .

You see deconstructing, emerging, new faith, different way of accepting...All got values ..But inside l still believe.

That feeling, like being with others, like taste of Chocolate, like knowing Hope will return. Sometimes that's enough.

Miss someone greatly, but at present just getting through till tomorrow is enough.