Like a end of the journey period.

Feeling unclear about few things recently, accepting that some days just normal plus very grey.

Watching movies little interest ,picture house showing...'planet of the Apes latest, Kingdom of the Apes.' 

Noa, a young chimpanzee from a falconry-like practicing clan, prepares for a coming-of-age ceremony by collecting eagle eggs with his friends Anaya and Soona. However, a human scavenger follows Noa home and inadvertently cracks his egg during a scuffle before fleeing. While searching for a replacement egg, Noa encounters a group of ape raiders using electric weapons. As Noa hides from them, the apes follow his horse back to his clan. Noa hurries home to find his village burning; the gorilla general Sylva kills his father, Koro, before dropping Noa from a high platform.

Church was predictable, the beige chorus which now replace long hymns, bringing on at scheduled time speaking in tongues, lack of outreach. But sound was joyful, energy evident, commitment was real. ‘Bored with it all’ , that was lot about myself.

Long walk to connect provided no connection.

Dickensian image of a city in decline, passed along it's streets had huge echo's of our country further the society living among.
Glad no longer know it all, but not a pinball rolling around empty pinball table. But feel that emptiness.