“The business of life is the acquisition of memories. In the end that’s all there is.” — Carson, Downton Abbey.

If your Faith,your Church, Even your relationship with Lord Jesus, comes from keeping things as they are.

not growing,

not developing,

not community focused,

not concerned more with those not invited then those already attending.

 The last thing you want is for someone to start planting ideas in people’s heads about the way things could be, BUT `Emerging Church`looks often only to me like its trying to just abandoned whats is already there.

Those who label themselves trendy Nomadic..not really anything but, They have become fearful, something of a `CULT`, suggesting that anything outside of DECONSTRUCTING safety zone is chaos.

Unity

l think we have become so self possessed that anything to do with belonging,gathering,community, has to be self focused.

we have moved so far away from unifying ourselves together that slight disagreement results in some setting off to create their own version of events.

Here lies big issue..because l have discovered more among the emerging Church and the deconstructing persons that they do not allow nor embrace difference.

Its got lot to do with White middle class educated, (often in Arts and social sciences). I don`t know why has got professional experiences here.(50 YEARS).

Struggles with sexuality, serving come across, lot of ` fear of Crowds`, truth around Pentecostal teaching that misguided.

But answer to all issues with Church is firstly no longer attend. second stop reading Bible, attach themselves to a needs must led group.

Coffee and cake, Costa gathering become their place. Not inviting cross culture individuals.

Do not see love of serving others brief steps into `Church, youth, Children,Outside community settings, seam to have resulted in trauma.Brief interventions and patterns are shared but what comes across from own witness is `unhappiness and need to be alone.`

Now that is OK l am independent thinker and quite Maverick. Understand that being apart feels cool.

But always trying to create community, want to gather with others.

Need to argue ,discuss,disagree,talk,chat accept and grow further develop.

DECONSTRUCTING often about rejection...burnt myself out ..caught up in a fairly Charismatic..

 pursued experiences..miserable and full of shame..

Understand this is common Human experiences, not just associated with Christian Faith gatherings.

Out there in LIFE, Church, Faith gathering Following Jesus means we can be united in our sharing of such experiences, developing at whatever pace suits in these gatherings, rejoicing,wrestling should be done at these gatherings.

Its the faith journey, breaking away because you are not understood as not helped and l see many in DECONSTRUCTING process falling away from faith.

So l feel we need more unity, more sticking together, and yeah hope more understanding.

less breaking away.