Life can be mix of unfortunate events,wrong decisions and actions. But as film (INTO THE WILD)..shows A human beauty can enable better. Life events can feel monstrous. Life still is beautiful

But let me say 'That gap'....becarefull not to big 
 

Sometimes we spend too much time retreating into Desert

Often gone on a retreat, then find ,perhaps running away, even just for short while , from here and now

We arrive back to that 'ole place' feeling refreshed.

Learn lot about ourselves in a place called 'uncomfortable'.

Luv the questioning on away periods

Like pace when we retreat

Try to keep learning

Write up, further reflect deeper

Our emotions ...hang ups...joys...fears...growing.. established borders put up...

learning we discover.

Equip's us for returning.

Sometimes only escaping ourselves.

As l grow old....question more...perhaps have l become comfortable 

keeping others distant  . . .

That's new plus tough one?

Keeping people out of our closed life....areas only few know.. .(Jarios window)...

Perhaps habit of roles played...person being V professionally persona 

Asking....is that wall put up...

Emotional barrier built to protect oneself.

Even holiday choose to go ....its for me same places,same hotel,same time of year.

Pilgrim journeys often been to same place.

Perhaps need discover a wilderness experience

can become comfortable being the outsider. . . .

Well!

What about you...where's your comfortable

Should you seek a ’wilderness experiance'?

To all the losers in the game today....here's to us

Conversion Lucci Shaw

He was a born loser,
accident-prone too;
never won the lottery,
married a girl who
couldn’t cook, broke
his leg the day before
the wedding
and forgot the ring.
He was the kind
who ended up behind a post
in almost any
auditorium. Planes
he was booked to fly on
were delayed
by engine trouble
with sickening regularity.
His holidays at the beach
were almost always
ruined by rain. All
his apples turned out
wormy. His letters
came back marked
‘Moved, left no
address.’ And it was
his car that was cited
for speeding
from among a flock of others
going 60 in a
55 mile zone.
So it was a real shocker
when he found himself
elected, chosen by Grace
for Salvation, felt
the exhilaration of
an undeserved and wholly
unexpected Joy
and tasted, for the
first time, the Glory
of being on
the winning side.

Feel old, powerless....just my age...(INTO THE WILD ,)PT2

 Watching someone

Someone close family member

They not well,health.. not easy....

They told me that _"l can not help as I am to close"_

But talked

I have listened deeply to another.

They shared with me..... that honestly felt Okay

We worry... feel sorry... emotional literacy and intelligence come to surface.

It's a journey.when one tries  reaching others......

In the Film....INTO THE WILD.... Chris,main young character won't listen,

Beautiful thing ..Humans came across his journey tried to communicate.

Hardships.

New knowledge.

Different view.

The main Character ... experienced unfortunate events.

He wrote...._"If this journey is ending ,Lord done all l can God bless"_

But he had not,kept others at distence,thought he knew better,would not take advice.

I too was like that...maybe you recognise yourself.

But there but for fortune go you and l.....

Keep on reaching...

 INTO THE WILD: I will miss you too, but you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things.

The sea’s only gifts are harsh blows, and ccasionally the chance to feel strong. Now, I don’t know much aboutthe sea, but I do know that that’s the way it is here. And I also knowhow important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feelstrong

Ideally we would engage better than have done previously... see little evidence of improvement....Nature like our lives can be cruel.

INTO THE WILD

Film really about being ideal......but circumstances further desire to ignore well intended advice along with wrong knowledge lead to unfortunate demise.

Returning to the Film later.

Listen to others.
 

Deep inside it's true l am a home loving Man

 Think l am

Just homelovin..

Kinda guy

Time passed

No regrets

Still on this faith journey

Love playing music

When we gig

Developing talkshops

Around life...living

Watching movies looking for inferred values..... reflection... listening.....

Level five communication...open...sharing.. wrestling... Not having the answers...

Well that here.....that's me.

So this lockdown...kinda suited me...BUT some parts not been fun.

Travel ... missing friends... conversation.

Hope....sailing back to port...soon.

Returning....to each other.

Lot of our feelings aren’t facts. Like information, sometimes despite appearance, not always true. They are however, very useful. Often can show us what’s really going on beneath the surface .At level one if we’re willing to investigate them. 

​

• Perhaps emotion of anger or bitterness you feel – do  you wonder why? Is that feeling growing
• What specifically is triggering that feeling? Who or what comes to mind?
• Why doe you feel that way? How long have you been feeling that way?
• Has that reaction or feeling become your go-to responce

Been returning to emotional literacy as we prepare to engage longer,move away from safety of homes spent too much time in....feelings....emotions...behaviour...relationships.

Prepared get ready to return ,well things that are no longer normal.

How are you feeling about engaging more with lots of others.

You can get ready

I am going to try two things ......nothing unigue ..sure talked about this approach here before.

1-- going to actively listen to others,more deeper.

2--not going to jump in with answers, or statements 

We should begin to grow into emotions....feelings...relationships...engaging slowly l think.

So take your time....Could try getting ready in your heart and mind.

God bless

Walking away from the Darkness

 Most of the poets I talk to knew there was a risk of death, imprisonment or exile if you write the truth. And even if they flee, they can also be killed abroad.

- SYRIAN WRITER GHIAS AL-JUNDI

That's the Dignity i claim for us as we gather bringing hope away from this long period of isolation....calm dignified walking away from the darkness...me and you...us

We are walking away from this darkness........ little hope in your heart

What been happening as the ground beneath your feet felt hallowed

 

Did you walk further,

Have you listened deeply to others,

Did you get more information about nothingness,

Have you invested in others given time to those knew little about?

Did you switch off TV sooner,

Have you watched the ground around your feet more often,

Did you think you get this far?

Have you felt more humble!

Did you recognise that things are not as valuable as people.

Well are you better person? Well......?

Happy Birthday to you.......you don't look that old

Sail the ship called Dignity

Life cannot always go the way we asked.... our end may not be so dignified

Another sad ending to life that arrived at shores localy....four months 's ago

We watched

Took shots with various digital instruments

Some reflection took place

Then on the back of a trailer to be put some useful end.

But difference between you,me, further that Whale.

Well

We're meant to live life's that are worthwhile......

But encountered today some who don't want to live in communities.

They are committed....to causing Hurt

Committed to living meaningless moments.

The drug's ..... Violence... threats.... meaningless gestures.

Please live a good life

Contribute to others... wrestling big issues... developing into wholesome person.

Make that one of your goals.....

Sail the ship called Dignity

 

Returning to each other.. . .taking place soon

WHALE MEAT AGAIN ON THE YORKSHIRE

COASTAL AREAS 

AND PROMENADES

Nature is sometimes cruel,

Nature can be difficult to fathom,

Nature can be pleasant,

Great place to spend time,

Also be place of unpleasant experience.

Life sometimes the same.

Had couple of family  days.... walking.. watching rubbish TV... cooking

Odd ,Missing Just `being with myself`

In Reality got used to `me`.

Glad to report....Need others as much as I need being alone.

Like this place we are in now..this long moment....needs to end...

Then we can all examine returning to each other.

Early morning thought as l walk along the coast

Wondering if we lost during these lockdowns

Opportunity to become more reflective.which is strange as we had the chance to think anew!

Is that just because we no longer have good leadership in community ,Churches, politics and wider.

....(think return to ponder anew later)..........

It's later..took son to witness death of a whale

On local beach

Nature is cruel

Sadness is present

Life ended

Whale moorened

But we got the same issue...this lockdown it's cruel..is it still required that you and l should remain indoor for vast amount of time!

Criminal anti social behaviour blighted some life's.

Finding hard to offer support , when services not interested,not acting for those who

So often failed by system.

Find myself low in spirit, feelings hard because feel powerless to help.

Local services been cut those at end of queue going to suffer more.

Family friends taken up care

 But finding this challenge.

Many own resilience is further tested

Charge via council tax, social services increased

But quality of staff training, knowledge

Is ineffective.

But wage structure not going to contract 

The best staff.

Life hard and not getting easier.

Faith communities have opportunities here to emerge as capable leader's.....

But they espically in the youth community field not recruited with a visionary approach.

There mission field here that hurting,people crying imprisoned...faith communities following Jesus need to engage and lead people into better place....create better communities.

But must also support those who can challenge unjust system that erodes people's well being.

Have to stand alongside and enable people to experience standard of living ,higher and better then most experience at present.

This too is urgent

Perhaps this feels more urgent than ever before,after a year ago being expelled from Malta.

Like many, been home too much!

Seen to many people vegate into 'comfortable being inactive.'

Not just because of the news issues,but also due to the virus, C 19, a pandemic. 

The last year has seen many of us recognise ,feel more vulnerabie .

Discovered perhaps for first time,the precious precariousness of our life.

Life we not living in community,nor together on this precious little ball of rock we call home.

However humble home, should always be that safe place,where you can fast,follow TV ,read book,listen to your music.

Have mates stay for chat,meal,longer.

But that place we all spent to long in....in...in too long.

Bored

The music....TV...same people ...all become frustrating for myself.

Lack of belonging.

Allowed too many to use this Virus,pandamic...as an attack.

Those not like us....step forward the non - bindery come to the front. . .pour your vile statements on those us who are differant and see only two genders.

The odd ones.

Step forward because' Black lifes matter ...'more then any other.

The precious comment...All life's  matter....NOT welcome

WOKE community attack those who are differant.

Always look to reflect.....research...revaluation ...pray.

Don't speak ....

That's my urgent.

Just a normal male guy,from the north.That here ....that's me.

Stay in touch with the issue of those around you

 

Try stay current with the news 

Try to stay current with the issue that neighbours facing

Have large ears on global business development

What's happening with others life's

Be ready to listen to the experience they could share

Work hard to communicate teachings may have

Do you have relevent understanding

Listening hard to what others may tell you.

Faith communities can sometimes appears not to be supportive of others

But Jesus only interested in the living others are experiencing.

If Church can concern ourselves with others journey...

We then still find core values are relevant

Don't get fooled today by those whose parting on the left Will tomorrow be a parting on the right... Obediah 16 v 11...l lied no such verse its pop song

Let our words be few but true

setting silence over speech,

being still to listen well,

opt to learn and not to teach,

but when prompted from within

speak the Word that’s meant for each. . . . ...

Yeah some deep stuff it enable you to grow better...develop sense f the others.

Today n radio 4....PM slot heard a scientist refuse to condem or critic Euro sector for the view they hold on Vaccines......came across as learned compassionate,skilful and pastoral.

Atridutes personally want to hold better.Can always learn.

Increased my confidence in his skill in the scientific field he works further.

Reminded me to pray for these folk...those engaging daily to make our lives safer.

Join me

Join me in praying with thanks for their gifts to be embracesed by the many.

I'm free.........( join me)

Been told ....lose weight to help the NHS. 

Also been told to pay the sugar tax to improve everyones health.

Further been told to cycle rather than drive to save this planet.

Been told take lower rates of pay...

Told downsize....told don't need all that medication ...

Something happened to letting you and l make  own decisions.

Not trusted to make correct decisions.

Threat of punishment evident if we do not go along with VIEWS often of the elite.

I am slightly....ever so slight.. Maverick.

Free thinker.

Make choices l feel comfortable with....

Sure get it wrong....but that's beauty of being individual.

Allowed to be yourself.

Here......sitting here....listening to some vinyl...eating meat....supping a Larger....Here

When you want to join us.

Fresh soup and Faith

 

I like soup..much prefare fresh good ingredients wholesome and tasty.

Dried soup like to add to slow cooker  herds and spices.

Luv come in bit tired... open can of soup get filled up quickly.

Does the Job...

But best of all is fresh soup...if got time like to add stuff ,differant fresh vegetables.

Try recipe books but comfortable...cook for others.

Tinned tomatoes soup with spoonful of rice pudding . ..there is my secret!

But best for me is fresh. 

We returned culturally to fresh soup but still enjoy the other varieties.

CHURCH AND CHRISTIANITY.

gone ...perhaps fast going out of favour.?

tried lots of various styles.

Catholic..protestant...Methodist Anglican..United Reformed . . .free..etc.

The Church emerging as simple like Desert father's is again returning to the front.

FAITH....

based on teachings of Jesus Christ.

Example of first disciplines...

Sharing ,caring , conversation rich in meaningful topic's.

Issue's relevant to Believers

Something to add debates.

That's emergence..vital.

What you and l require.

That's the faith communities l want to be a part of...one l want to belong in.

Fresh really old... Ancient.. relevent...desired...Join now.

Be part of that Spiritual demension'.

Saturday in lockdown...?

 It's a Saturday .... Hull city football team are winning.

Top of the league

Cold winter's still present.

Good win like love it _'changes everything'_  ..now cue for a song'

We no longer do Saturdays night in the UNITED KINGDOM.

music still teases.. . Robert Plant to The Cure...

TV bores me once again...no calls from old friend's...know l no longer know it all

Guess like you ... sometimes best it gets... well feels like a pinball.

Reality's not someone in a cape

Flying in to save us,

When life is just too tough 

When its best to shut it.....

 So got attention seeking young woman.... little bit of fame such as it was

.. attacking 94 year old Lady and her family members.

Mistruth inundio gossip..?

Leads to Chaos. . . hurts.?

Society gathered wanting more of the same

Outpouring vile comments

Time reflection not  given........

Oddly Church folk this can be common also... family it happens.....relationships.

Level out...breathe.

Don't have to respond.

Appear as Society do invest in youth... forgetting older people.

.often own experience rejected.

Sit in the way. Seldom listened to. 

In Churches up down country and further in my life....old folks encouraged me hugely.

Only issue l have with Megan Markle...is that someone listened to her...when been better to tell her to _'listen to others_'

 

Life not mean't to be lived in Isolation.

Life is not mean't to be lived in Isolation!

Relationships Intergral to our growth

Community meaning belonging...my worked out theory ...belonging ..supposed to be part of togetherness. Solitary life even when presented in Biblical sense is not about Isolation.

Jesus was not married...neither was Paul..John the Baptist ...

But all them lived with community ties,had friends followers,had cohort connections.

Second or is it third lockdown ? Become More difficult for for me.

There l said it so 'woke community'can hear me...little self exposure presented.

Really struggle for many...even those in the new version of marrige known 'combinationmarrige'.

God help us!

Battle of wits going on, tensions boil over, feels trapped.is it just few weeks away till more shops open.

Then we can travell from our locality. Practical stuff can happen.

Spirits will be uplifted,some joy may poke through...engage with more perhaps deeper conversations.

Few ideas to help till then.

Engage with books perhaps few need to reread.

Watch old movie.

Is there an Album have not spent enough time listening to

Art work ..lyrics ..gatefold sleeve.

Ring around contacts...

be the brave person who engages first.

Ask questions and be prepared before that

Phone or call,preparetprepare listen actively.

Could you examine someone whose view find uncomfortable.

Travel outwardly ...needs balance.

 All had internal journeys.

Recognise that it has been tough

You and l experience hardships ,emotional upset,end of relationships,being disconnected,even climate change, this pandemic, may have personal struggles with mental health, job loss. we have to find reasons to keep moving forward. We must all converse help each move through dark places ,toward the light of hope.

You and l experience hardships ,emotional upset,end of relationships,being disconnected,even climate change, this pandemic, may have personal struggles with mental health, job loss.

Family even it's always a CHALLENGE,

Mostly can be great source of comfort.

But that not where growth is placed.

Me and you, have to find reasons to keep moving forward.

 We must all converse help each move through dark places ,toward the light of hope.

Lean on each other .... sometimes I can only add the simple 

Advice further the odvious.

Joy and dances

 

Joy .... Spirituality

often not even thought of in same sentence

Add. . . !

 Dance

Celebration

Complete happyness

Loud music can be joyful...happy..

Danceable

There snobbery with some around music

Church folk can be pinincitkity around music

Some can be complete awkward

Few members can  be polirised on sudject 

Various styles not acceptable

So we don't dance often in Churches...miss out...even known some leave Churches

 if style not acceptable to them.

Like conveyer belt of Worship shopping..like that..no don't want this.. choose ..

Witnessed this with large screen movie choice.

Dance music ... disco beat is frowned upon.

So likes of groups including...'Black eyed peas...justice....hot chip...'

Rave culture...'unknown remain out of spiritual demension' of Church folk.

Those using this medium to access Spiritual feelings tryout outside.

Become more outsiders...mission moves..often completely moves away.

Some loose faith.

Because simply spirituality does not embrace joyful noise.

Sometimes spirituality s just joyous happy expression...its dancing long linto night

Like no one is watching

Saving soul without traditional methods

Find inspiration in lyrics of song

Investigate journey songwriters made

Emotional focus of words

Shared experiance

More to life then 'broken hearts ...fast cars...trainers you wear...fashion you follow'

Narrative of how you live life...experianced by another singing a great song.....

That's you...same emotions

That's you....same life been lived by another

That you...feel better

Find others connected in same way.

Soul sings out in Union .

That process of discovery is huge......

Focus can alter....another understands the battles you are facing...

Maybe they singing about...waking up but just wanting to pull the covers ver your head...

That's you....

Shout to the top...shake angry fist...roll up and protest...

That's you.

Marvel at flow of a river...Walk in rain deep I thought....seek a promised land..

That's you.

Maybe another wants to get out of this place

Or even...

See their baby jive!

That's you as well

Lyrics enables us to live better, simply knowing that somebody else wrote down,sings about ..

What you are going through.

In that life....the life you and they live...there is a rhyme plus reason knowing God making sense this life.

Label lost and found

This Art work ...came across Mehillia ridge street outside a Mediterranean church last Easter 

Says clearly what l feel 'image of God ' should be. 

Lost son has returned.

Only person unhappy if read the parable.......eldest son.

But lost is home welcomed by Father.

Who spent years crying... looking out on the horizon for the lost!

Tear stained eyes caught in the distance returning son

Rushed to meet him ... embrace the wayward child...Now party time.

Sadly another .....'not to pleased he back...'  this time ,fatted calf gets upset.

This is the theology present ..lost ...excluded... rejected..

are welcomed back home.

Celebration can begin.

Simply love wins..... So much more you can see.

Love a song from way back then ,.....the harmony's .. emotions....sonic.

-"Labelled lost and found"-

By jigsaw

First heard it early 70's played on radio Caroline... across the waves.

...."You will find a heart that missing ,Found it yesterday". . .

The story of the prodigal son ..is one of those 'lost and found' songs...

Story of God's love for us.
 

Wellbeing became buzzword

Well being ....had become something of interest

Hear lot talk about mental health

Perhaps its just way society and life operates ,how many live 

but concern for self is vital to the way you function.

Should l suggest be part of theology

God l feel cares about you

Simple words to write but large truth!

Before you were born 

before knitted together in your mother womb

God Psalm says...l knew you ......knew plans l had for you...

We often need to return to the garden... beginning.. process different views

Start of this theology according to You and I

Pause ........lwe now know how to be at that place,

What's substantial effected your development in own faith journey

Which piece of Art?

What film struck you personally with a message?

In what way has lyrical from a song,other content enables hope or has lifted you up?

Maybe just let you be aware that others also been in that place found yourself.

Where you thought noone else had been?

Awareness of the above aids your well being.

So what films music and Art enable in you,better understanding of God ...your theology ..Kevin Waller series starting soon

Yeah already had few over the years gonna go bit deeper over next few weeks.

Kinda thing... l done in Church .God n the decks,Church in a niteclub sessions,

Further on the worship blog as you know.

All coming into new book . . .so read deeper when that's out.

Please use email for feedback, or phone.

The awkward me never happy without 'face to face'.

Have away from ...:-Zoom thingiemyjig:-. . .

Been mentioned ..l not good when get testing day health ways ..presenting myself via this medium.

So films and 'saving your soul'.

Music and 'uplifting or lyrics that explore your faith'.

Art .......not so gifted nor knowledgable here so let others lead us,please do share!

Now ...couple of guidance notes...there no wrong statements ...

but for myself avoid Horror.

:) Exorcist......not horror but challenging film. . ?that  ones coming very soon.

No sexy little numbers that's a challange on blog!

Loads of lyrical happenings ...some coulers..hope disagreement..beautiful sharing.

Boy oh boy...may introduce you to some ace music...

KEVIN WALLER SERIES ON THEOLOGY IN MODERN MEDIUM....

I like it hope you will

Bloody miserable same tone of grey all day DO SOMETHING WEATHER PEOPLE B4 l lose it

What your theology like at present...how making sense of Faith in this moment

If could select a picture that sums up to you present theology around GodWhich enables the understandingI chose this from last months in Malta..........everything is shutAt San Pawls shipwrecked church in San pawl...Shut down.......retreated..........in decline....abandoned...forsaken......But reality Church not like that.....so let's open debate...whats it really like to walk with God?.