Nowhere in the bible are we told to celebrate Jesus birthday, so the scenes taking place around the country with money,excessive eating,wealth displayed and greed promoted are not connected with Bible nor birth of a messiah.

Nowhere in the bible are we told to celebrate Jesus birthday.
So the scenes taking place around the country.
Money further debt,
excessive eating,
wealth displayed ,
greed promoted.
All not connected with Bible nor birth of Messiah.

Silence is deafening now,  drowning out the white noise that  rattles in my head like a hornet trapped also anger. A pestilent painful reminder that I too am trapped, that I too am pestilent. 
Looking out upon the life want to have,  . . . . . . this lies beyond my reach. 



Looking out upon the life want to have,  . . . . . . 

Out of my grasp.