Actually feel like l am on pause.

“Whatever you're meant to do, do it now. The conditions are always impossible.”
Relationships played huge part in way journeyed into faith, Evolved in that place.

How was l to know that time would bring me into old age !

They would have departed

How was in my youth to know that my need to `thank`, them would appear large!

How would know that those minor efforts others made would be so appreciated presently

 Not being connected with those . . oh so many  . .still feels odd.
My faith in Jesus stands this test, evolved, grown ,faced doubt, wrestle issues  around 

Faith... it is living.

This thing called time, it moves while we feel silence,  . . . actually feel like l am on pause...is that just age? ,my mind, or aspect of this illness..?