typical

typical country street in Cottingham
where apparently mass brawl
last friday evening hope it was
not ex girlfriend who used to live there
fighting over losing me
hahahahahahahaha
of course l jest

so again the season begins to plough on and Hull City playing now in the championship
but at the rate we are scoring goals l cannot see us promoted and looking more like a sinking ship

Paddling in hot late September sun

Got huge shell plus sand oysters in very low tides of the north east coast

This time in Scarborough 

Dropped Matthew of so he could could catch bus to home in Hull

Had brunch then travelled back over the moors worse meal in Scarboro at corner coffeee shop AVOID good people

Glorious weather great temperatures

What have we done to deserve this?

Money bit tight

But eaten well espically when family and friends visit

Hospital appointments this week

Should know more very soon about the next steps in my heart issue

Music is the beautiful thing that l'll take for granted

Love listening to radio 2
plus the Archers on radio 4

Not great TV viewer

Slow burn with new programmes

Still watch`hill street blue`s

Sopranoes

NYPD Blue

Further the social media l do 5 days most weeks

God bless the music  

wag the dog,walk with GOD

Yesterday at tees, actually Seaton snook near Seaton Carew,
Spoilt by dogwalkers
their shit and noise

Even the people who walks these dogs some with 5 dogs not on leads
Interrupting the wild life
spoilt the event
spoilt the day
spoiling the area for others

All it takes is a little respect.
Walk your dogs on leads,
walk your dogs in parks,
have one pet.

Don't call your pet dog, `son`
Or say comments like "Let granddad take your lead off"
 
For frecks sake, ITS A DOG get a life stop spoiling our fun

        Also last evening, late at night in the woods near my home
        people out with dogs lamping, that's finding young Deer and Rabbits, for dogs to tear apart

Life should be beautiful,
life should be shared,
life should bring time each day to listen too God,
reflect with GOD, wrestle the issues with GOD.
Pray, walk, talk with GOD.

IT WORKS FOR MYSELF,
God bless you.

Breathing each morning

Like to start the day with walk and prayers along the coast

Enjoying views silence quiet sounds of nature

Also like to end the day like this 

Open yourself in a place where recognise creation and all it's wonders

Try hard not to lose wonder that is `every day is a kind of magic` 

Breathe take in the moment and plan next steps

As the day begins

Talking to the creator and sharing

Listening to the creator

Acknowledge his presence

In the place l am in now

The present circumstances the LONG NOW

Wrestle with some theology plus life`s deeper moments 

too much thinking

"Thats me in the corner
losing my religion".

not really not in the corner either
resting well and living proper
garden
walk
T.V.
listening to music
thinking
perhaps too much thinking

Must read more
pray more often
understand better
try hard to be Kind

now me at present

time still flies by

the tide still flows

great canvasses get painted

by

loving

God

relationships formed deepened

family members pass away

heart matters are focused

l

need

to

go

and rest for a while

deeper then a footie match

Elmo Jake and David myler
Hull City trumph over Swansea 1-0

                                                Redemption what a word what does it mean
           THE CHANCE TO START AGAIN,TO BE FORGIVEN ,OPEN UP DOORS ONCE CLOSED

I never been big fan of opening others private lifes for exposeure so we can pick over the bones of unfortunate incidents
nor when others remined you of your mistakes wanting to rub your face in muck.
My major enemy used to send stuff about me all over the place,but they got visited and await an eternal reminder of what justice should look like,will look like,although the life they experiance now is nothing to be proud about.
But may we all show grace and forgiveness
Like the footballer who expermented with drugs after the sad death of his son
now he trys to build his life
what better way then to'star'in a game of football on a chilly Autum evening in east Yorkshire rebuilding with love and support of others including fans,colleagues,and family.
Game insignificant really,deeper bigger things going on in life
Redemption avaible to all
in the true name of Jesus

So am l

You are where you are now

Here

Me in the long now

Because things feel slower then very recently

I am awaiting

News

Events

People

But here 

I am here now in this place called. The , long now'.

That's me in the corner where "life is bigger then you and l"

Wasting my religion

Now who said that,before me

REM

Micheal stripes words. . .l think

The place l am in

Awful day

Chilly cold weather

Still not a refugee

That's real blessing

Being in this place

Also about where you are

The place you are in

Affects the state of mind you are experiencing 

This is now

This is here

Hill street treasured

Time flies by

This was my ...(first awareness growing up)..my very first programme

When l was living alone in a flat mid eigthies Hull 

Caught it bit of cult following this programme l loved the music

Drama Emotions Storytelling Characters

Fun

Very few people l knew watched hill street blues

I did

It was like l was transferEed back to that sense of place the city,the issues,the people.the TIME

Time flew by from then till this moment

Lots happened but it seams still young and fresh

Time flew onwards taking me with it

Nations crumbled

Threats became real

Fun departed

already l heard Jesus calls me

We follow still Time flies by

Where does it go?

Hill street blues like my faith remain part of ME

But don't know where the time goes

It just goes by faster then l relises

Life it so very precious......and soon passes

It was pitch-dark by the time the Syrian refugee family arrived in the eastern German town that was to be their new home. As they prepared to get off the train, a drunken skinhead stumbled past with a glare that made 11-year-old Raghad huddle closer to her mom.

The five members of the Habashieh family took a taxi to the asylum center assigned to them by a computer in Berlin. It was a former army barracks used by the Soviets and by the Nazis before them, surrounded by towering fences topped with barbed wire

so l drank my tea this morning and ate my cornflakes grateful for the sun rising over the northern cliffs that border this town.
my thoughts drifted like many of you reading this to the refuggees tracking across Europe.
Did they really think Europe was a easy place of milk and honey.
NO think again life is hard here
not a great deal of rewards.
The weather is harsh here,employment is poorly paid. The politics are tough on those lower down the ladder.
I walked to the library,our computers are not great, passsed my neighbour along side homes Which have overgrown gardens, what do you think they signal?
Occupants two each side of him did moonlight flits,why?
Bedroom tax,
yes tax if you have an extra room
one result over grown gardens and run down propertys,where in an inpoverished country called England
WELCOME
WELCOME oh you refuggeees do you know what its really like here?
Paradise
NOT LIKLY

here at this time

well Struggling a wee bit . . not sure why
been stress free also do live healthy
like hardly ever drink alcohol eat sensibly
but life passed me a card
one picks this card up
holds
it now belongs to you
its the card you been dealt
thank God , ,l could be in worse places
at this time in my life
couple of decades healthy life
still got few things still like to do
visit Malta Beautiful place l never get enough off
write a brief youth work book
covering
theology
examples
discussion starters
advice
general guidance
see Hull City promoted back to premier league
Pastor a church
climb Ravenscar peak again
sit in Hebbo with ?
anyway not about to write no bucket list
just simple
this is where l feel sitting right now

Trend bucker

Awaiting doctors orders 

Plus further tests

Anyway do we need betting firms around football stadiums

Some say so

I say NONONNO 

buck trend

Story of ylife 

Not going along with trends

See where it got me 

I am Chilling !

Took packed lunch,

A drink.

Walked.

Yes, l am taking it easy.

Watched seals swimming.

Lambs chewing,

Birds flying,

That it at present.

Easy.

Like l  promised.

l got tired at 10 minutes past 10 oclock today
due to a few parts of this heart issue
not normal
but occassionaly happens
actuly very rare
life not gonna be a long journey

land of greed UK 2015

living in a time of
instituational greed
what can we get from
you
££££
is your only worth
so
communitys  crumble
societys fall
some wanne be here
your welcome
a land of instituanal greed

Sometimes l could just scream

Well life interesting

Have to rest a bit at present

I could scream 

Anyway Hull City second in the championship

Done load of form filling recently 

the whole of our society geared up for is
"how much money you got,we want most of it"

makes you wanna SCREAM

Life is tougher then it need be because of this institualise greed

Institualise greed

Thatcherism not improved just followed by Labour Blairites

When you place hope In politics
HISTORY proves thats no help

Community failing
The local Church not been engaged for quite a while

Something needs to change

The heart that says l have enough

Me l want to break free 

But not sure where l need to be heading

I COULD REALLY SCREAM

But in God l trust

That's simple but it's my base and starting point 

Now just need to recruit enough people foolish as me

Turning inward

This community in the highlands built their homes to turn the back on the elements.

But also the community of artist` clos`e to themselves

they became strong in two ways

They became independent 

Further became isolated and detached  from others also gained limited world.

 As they witnessed

work  knew was all they had and felt needed.

Like colliery towns and  similiar community's 

Fishing community had hard life's  . .drew strength from isolated mindsets

Framed all excistnence about the work they knew.

Sometimes l want to do this 

Detach myself

Cut myself off

Be apart 

That's just a feeling l have at present

As l adjust to the long now l am entering due to health

Also wish l could disappear 

But it just a fleeting moment a brief respite l seek as work out 

lifes and senses of what next?

Mind set at present is Gardening Leave

So for a change l have sorted the veg patch out

Breathed

Funny odd body feelings as l adjust obeying others
feeling a bit ill again

Being unsure returns

But l am resting 

Thinking . . .processing

But l refuse to ask 'why me'?

Grateful for the journey

Grateful for each new morning

Sad l can't perform like once l did

Sorry feel like letting people down

Life complex at presents

Lot of stuff in my head 

So much l am unsure about 

Hospitals

Doctors

Health issue rise to the front

Guess where l am

Happy birthday to me 

ESG stickers hurt like freck

SHHHHHIOTTEEEE what am l doing here

Another mistake by myDoctor

Leads to this and more

Later fill everyone in on happenings

BUT OK

Curtains going to be kept closed today ....resting

Feeling a bit ill so gonna batter down the shutters and not have any visitors

Gonna watch DVD  and drink tea while new meds kick in

Need too process whole lot of new stuff

Further get warm feel the cold more these days is getting older?

Rest 

Keep fone on for most of time and will rest Thank you Lord for my journey 

Life journeys contiue

Life journey goes on in funny ways
Feel like letting people down due to this health problem
Often in the place of others,Health practioners,agents,socila services,
employment, with them having control over my coming and going.
Now even my ministry and work practice is under threat.

This is life
We get old.
Don’t think it going to arrive,
But health made me prepare for old age,
sooner then l would normally process.

Now lots to work through
Changes to be made.
People in authority going to challenge and argue with myself,
Join today a group that is vulnerable,
Group labelled `on `benefit`.
Predjice will creep into how others see myself.
I need to be brave and strong
Again face it dependently.

So faith, sense of God will remain,
move onwards the future. . . there ahead
reflect,process,
less performance from me.

Easy seals and water

Taking it a bit easy after heart challange

What the freck happening

Health issues

tough unknowing period entering around issues relating to my health
unknowing
tough
lathergic
tired
lack of direction
freck hate health issues
but wait
how very fortunate l am to be this age and slightly ill
what can l learn from this process
guide me LOrd