its icecream weather and listening to Mowtown and soul from the car radio

whale meat again

Marine experts have been left baffled after a rare whale was found over 800 metres from the shore in the Humber Estuary, Skeffling, East Yorkshire.
The 33ft mammal is thought to have died after getting caught in shallow waters – rolling onto its own blowhole before getting swept inland by the tide.

The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola are a month-long program of meditations, prayers, considerations, and contemplative practices that help Catholic faith become more fully alive in the everyday life of contemporary people. It is set out in a brief manual or handbook: sparse, taciturn, and practical. It presents a formulation of Ignatius' spirituality in a series of prayer exercises, thought experiments, and examinations of consciousness—designed to help a retreatant (usually with the aid of a spiritual director) to experience a deeper conversion into life with God in Christ, to allow our personal stories to be interpreted by being subsumed in a Story of God.

GETTING A JOB IS A JOB ITSELF

I need to be out climbing
hence tomorrow

come on you Hull

MARTIN Pusic offered up a timely reminder of his ability but he could not prevent Hull City's reserves sliding to 2-1 defeat against Rotherham United last night.

The Austrian, who arrived on a free transfer in July, marked his comeback from injury with a clinical finish in a lively performance at North Ferriby.


by youwot
Thursday, September 29 2011, 10:26AM
.“paul mcshane back on Saturday yes that sounds about right ..but will NP give him a chance?
a fair player like l have said previuos the lack of killing other teams of and need for second goal must be sorted.”
The Austrian, who arrived on a free transfer in July, marked his comeback from injury with a clinical finish in a lively performance at North Ferriby.
Pusic is still waiting for a league debut for the Tigers, but flashes of promise in an out-and-out attacking role will have been noted by manager Nigel Pearson and the City coaching staff.

barmy weather

so lets go climbing as the weathers a bit mad at present
we take a stroll up Roseberry Topping on Saturday
then down to Falling Foss for chill out,
Share some food and drink

loads of fun last evening.Cancelled the pool and T.T.
Out`n`about.
walking,
talking,
last evening the weathers was so good
Agreed to go out view binocular fashion the mountain
we will climb on Saturday from a distance.
Allowed us to see some new members behaviour away from the club.

awkward feelings?

We see behaviour and we feel an instant dislike.
We feel scared or awkward or take an immediate dislike.

we have lots of Young people who are and here l use school words
`farmed out`
this is because they are difficult in school
but in the youth environment we have little if any real problems
it is hard to explain to teachers how this happens
or for myself cannot always understand
why it is so different!
poor teaching anyone (not just a neat sentence)?
it could be down to the voluntary relationship we have
down to prayer support
down to good management
about the way they behave
or we just put prejudice away and accept them as BHP

Emotional Literacy is a much used expression these days,spiritual awareness would fit here also.but it mainly about the understanding,
reading, and managing our emotions.Those feeling within us and how they sometimes effect how we feel outwardly.
Emotional resilience is becoming an issue youth workers are concerned about as our awareness develops.



In the youth work l have tried to deliver/practice the relationship is the key
sometimes l feel strongly aware of how l am feeling when first encountering young person or a group
this has to be handled/felt through
Jesus ministry was all about encounters
relationships
social interaction

which ones pink

what was sad is that no one really cared for each other, we felt guilty ,but that would come later.



so what does kevin feel guilty about?

warm at present

had a long journey to a job interview last week about 4 hours from myself
same back
all l can say is that l did the best l possibly could



sometimes you just need to be away in your favorite place
walking familiar streets and cafes you know
old faces like bookends
sometimes your favorite places are a stable way of keeping one sane

been watching a programme about Pink Floyd one of the groups l was not into in my youth
what was really sad is that one of the band blew his brains capability by taking acid as drug,

no one cared for each other s feelings
that would come later

told by one of the group members on the documentary Pink Floyd `which ones pink`.

WHEN YOU

When it seems you're all alone
Praise His name
When you feel you can't go on
Just raise your hands and say
Greater is He, that is within me
You can praise the hurt away
If you'll just praise his name

for many years l have been listening to a song believe it to be a group called `first choice` who had hits with the player and smarty pants but indeed have just discovered it is acutely Sherri Easter and a song called `when you`

Greater is He, that is within me
You can praise the hurt away
If you'll just praise his name
Written by Jeff and Shari Easter
Sung at Billy Graham's homecoming

This is one of the songs that is WOW.

with a prayer

When you're up against a wall
And your mountain seems so tall
And you realize life's not always fair
You can run away and hide
Let the old man decide
Or you can change your circumstances
with a prayer





When everything falls apart
Praise His name
When you have a broken heart
Just raise your hands and say
Lord, you're all I need
You're everything to me
And He'll take the pain away
When it seems you're all alone






Praise His name
When you feel you can't go on
Just raise your hands and say
Greater is He, that is within me
You can praise the hurt away
If you'll just praise his name






Ohhh,
You can overcome
By the blood of the lamb
By the word of your testimony
You'll see the darkness go
As your faith begins to grow
You're not alone, so how can you be lonely

typical me

had a busy week last week . . .did not notice!
l was asked to help Roma friends,
taking money to GPO and talking to Solicitors.
lots and lots of phone calls.

Lil Chris,young kid from the club
took him on a wet Saturday to see his girlfriend
but we where late.
lt was 66 miles from doorstep to park (where he was meeting her).
she blueberried him as he was late.
then told him to F.O.

so we drove to chippy and the coast and chatted before returning him home
loads of phone calls and chat with Mum and brother

this week has been so quite,mid week
So far not a call or text or non work related e-mail

Worked really hard on an application form took best part of 3 full days
loads of questions about theology of youth
l invested myself deeply as l have done so often while looking for work
then l celebrated by having a Chinese cost me £8.
but was such a relief and then l walked around the city,taking late train back.

Sat late evening after long walk, and game of WII, and read about
jack Dempsey and his meeting with singer Bob Dylan.

Jesus as a group worker

Jesus as an informal educator
In a busy world it can be tempting for youth workers to timetable everything. But Jesus’ small group had a life beyond the formal sessions. They spent considerable time together discussing, arguing, travelling, worshipping, eating and living. The disciples learnt about prayer through Jesus’ example; they learnt about justice by watching him give dignity and value to the oppressed. These times together were not supplementary to the process, they were the process. Jesus, as the small-group leader, did not deliver a programme or control an agenda. Rather he used the disciples’ questions and everyday situations – a walk through a field, a sailing trip or a visit to the temple – as vehicles for drawing out his learning points. This was informal education par excellence

For me it all about the relationship, l like to think have good programme of things to do,also places to go, but its more about when we listen and chat share a cup of tea,talk about family, friends, issuesshare music.
As l stand washing up on the residential,while looking across as they play basketball,soon we will walk a mountain.
There is awareness this came about because they came to the church youth project on a cold,wet, miserable,November evening.
Several years later they are stronger,synergy exists, because they shared with me+other
youth workers . . .life, faith, ..hurts ...scares...music etc...we shared life breakfast, residential, Jesus....

phewwww wonder what jesus would have put?

Thank you Heavenly Father for Your love for me
I'm forever grateful that You sacrificed Your Son
You saved my soul and changed my destiny
Thank you God for Jesus in me


I'm so glad that Jesus lives in my house
Good to know that He is here with me now
All of my life Jesus in me
Jesus in my house
All of my life and always will be

Thank you for the purpose You have placed in me
Thank you for forgiveness and the chance to start again
I face the future knowing I will be
Safe and sound with Jesus in me




l am trying to write some stuff on my thelogy
phewwww wonder what jesus would have put?

Changes

The Shallows, is a book which explores how using the internet is actually changing the way we think. Just as watching TV or reading a book has an impact on the neurology of the brain, so does using the internet.
It’s almost as if it is rewiring our thought processes


been in a volunteer position since around May.
When the funding ran out (in March).
l was in Malta for a month,Now what l am finding is l am doing more and more.
For no wage . . . but this l agreed!
But the surprising thing is l Have the same responsibilities
None says, "THANK YOU".

there a real lesson here for myself in the way organisations treat volunteers

here a view along the beach when l get to the beach this puts me off even on a warm sunny day the beach looks inaccessible
always cautious around tide times and the sea.

but nothing can be changed

can-i-do-as-i-please

http://www.facebook.com/www.sermoncloud.comcan-we-do-as-we-please
11 September 2011, 16:18:48
Can we do as we please when we become Christians? Questioning whether Christianity is a set of rules and regulations or a relationship with the living God.can-i-do-as-i-please.mp3
been listening to this worth you doing the same
did this while waiting for the Police to come office re one of our young people re his own live as he please`s



Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like its heaven on earth."
~Mark Twain

outnumbered by nuns

how many nuns could a nunchuck chuck, if nunchuckers could chuck nuns

laughed out loud as l watched outnumbered season 4 episode 2 on BBC player yesterday as l sheltered from the wind.
get a cuppa spend 39 minutes watching an episode

on a ship wreck

l love this photo
it got a air of danger
togetherness
fun
joy


this little adventure walking along the cliffs to a shipwreck leads often to opening out and sharing within the youth group
usually this has come around after hour or more in the mini bus
the most hidden stuff comes out and l just love the sharing
listening
opening up
chats cuppas sandwich sharing
that's some of the reasons why love this picture

it only a small area l know

Remember, the choice is not yours. No one is the sole influence on another’s life.


Remember, the choice is not yours.
The events of Sept 11th 2001 left us all with choices,
l decided to watch a foreign TV station, AL jazzier so to concentrate on the images of the stories they run with, l watch the homes
the clothing.
coulers.
food stalls.
l try to be informed.
it a real small
small . . . small thing . . but . .

Lyn driving a train in York
Mahmoud and wife out with us moors

today’s society, technology thrives on speed. But the downside of technology is that it “shortens rationality and truncates emotionality

september that day 9th of the month,a decade ago

l walked down the high street in Slough and saw some Asian guys pointing and laughing at an image on TV in the high street shop, was it Curry's,l can still see them.
It was quite cold,dark around 14.30.
l was walking to my lodgings and l had wondered what the joke was.
Soon to find out it was horror.

Despite this.l am still friends with everyone of my Asian friends
Here in this one small area of my life they could not enter.
They have no rule or authority here
no terrorist won.



Its only one small area l know but its repeated everywhere.
that's a big thing.



l walked down the high street in Slough and saw some Asian guys pointing and laughing at an image on TV in the high street shop, was it Curry's,l can still see them.
It was quite cold,dark around 14.30.
l was walking to my lodgings and l had wondered what the joke was.
Soon to find out it was horror.
This was my first experience of this event that brought so much distress,
Tried to threatened so much of the friendships, and relationship still hold dear.


Am still friends with everyone of my Asian friends and we have ate, holidayed,talked, shared and began youth projects together.
Have eaten in my home, laughed talked frankly, further remain on my friends and family list.
Here no terrorist won.Its only one small area l know but its repeated everywhere.
To myself that's a big thing.

Everything in heaven comes apart

Everything in heaven comes apart
The tuning fork the afternoon
The anxious scowl of each baboon
Everything in heaven comes apart
The bottle brush the swing top bin
The lumps that grown beneath our skin
The roulette wheel conspiring talk
The rhythm of the penguins walk



Everything in Heaven
Everything in heaven comes apart
The tuning fork the afternoon
The anxious scowl of each baboon
Everything in heaven comes apart
The bottle brush the swing top bin
The lumps that grown beneath our skin
The roulette wheel conspiring talk
The rhythm of the penguins walk
The years of grief the libelous hint
The plasma of the innocent
The untraced lie the verbal dart
Everything in heaven comes apart
Everything in heaven comes apart
The atom and the tsetse fly
Deceits which we now justify
Everything in heaven comes apart
The zebras stripe the callous joke
The anthem that the bullfrogs croak
The nightingale the damming phrase
The unseen rage of all our days
The beetles brain the sour jibe
The self advancement moral bribe

some times

Basically, most of the rest of the year, I wish I was at Greenbelt. The content, the opportunities to be challenged, affirmed, welcomed and angered as well as entertained and introduced to new things, the overwhelming niceness of 99% of the people you meet there, the little taster of heaven. It's enough to make me nostalgic the day after it finishes. Though, frankly, the approach to portaloos would be enough. God bless Greenbelt.

really well put kinda like myself but got to get on with the rest of life
the mondays and thursday working trying to get work and meet the bills
do you have bills in heaven?

Museum of broken hearts

Read this article in Newspaper a few weeks ago and it got me thinking
some people would leave a bike
a record
lock of hair
picture of a tree
sandy beach

what would l leave,

the lyrics to

hope l see you in heaven

by Larry Norman, copy of JESSIE CD by Joshua kedison,my first car a Vauxhall Chevette.
camping at greenbelt
walking up Ravenscar
the message a comtempary version of the Bible some hot marmite and small pair of gloves from when walked round smithy bridge with ??????

do l do we ?

They say we learn by our mistakes and then we carry on, sometimes I'm not sure, sometimes I'm not sure...

I know you’re still here.

the singer Martyn Joesph wrote this song about a close family relative who was developing Alzheimer's and like many of his songs they tackle issues in a sensitive and even informative way.
Surprisingly these words have become a hit partly l feel due to the issue that he address.

one day I guess
Someone will come along and sing this for me.
And there we will be
Running and jumping and sailing the sea.
And there you will teach me the knew things;
To grow but never old.
You’re long gone now.

I know you’re still here.
I know your world is so peaceful,

What takes the place
Of memories and faces and places you’ve been?
And who is it now
Who you see before holding your hand?
Try as I might, could I reach you
To give you back some pride.
You’re long gone now.

I know you’re still here.
Your world is peaceful,
mine is full of fear.
And it’s warm down in your valley
But without you it’s so cold.
I guess we’re carried in sunlight
When the mind begins to fold.



I know you’re still here.
I know your world is so peaceful,

Healthy Heart...if only.

So here the proof,l am eating healthy
salad
yogurt
no chips, no crisp
still... gotta go.

5 minutes to heart specialist at hospital.
Stay healthy!

                WAGGY, WAGGY, WAGGY.

THIS FROM THE LOCAL RAG
I had Waggy on loan from Sunderland when I took over at Charlton," Parkinson told the Mail.
"He's got the potential to be a very good player. He's strong, he's powerful and has a lot of skill.
"He was just a young lad when I had him and with that comes an element of inconsistency but he's since progressed well and I'm sure he'll be a good addition."
Having failed to hold down a regular first-team place at Leicester, Waghorn should make his City debut in next weekend's away clash against Peterborough.
we all used to shout as kidz
lets hope he starts scoring like is old name sake.

 Ken Wagstaff city no 10, in the 70`s

goodbye to Dad

Dads funeral was very emotional
everyone was there
the service was conducted extremely thoughtfully and very well
so many people came along
over 100 cards and 31 verse in papers alone

so Dads world is now full of peace
Ours got some fears
more later with some photos of the get together after
Death hard issue to understand
for all of us there is no escape
a journey end . . . .best spending some time contemplating . . . .now or soon ?