camadens cross

looking around St Marys
l came cross my own name Waller
a young solider who lost his life in another battle
even today many are wondering how events in Egypt might unfold



we are all hungry for beauty
some are following it by making themselves like a TV idol or so called celebrity
then they follow a poor character model
because they have sought a distorted beauty

Communicate level 3

Sat down had a one to one with some of young people last evening.
smoothed over real difficult talking Points to do with boundaries and behaviour.
but always made it a clear point to be affirmative

l affirm their progress and development.

The good points and the achievements that are made
when part of provision.

Further when we reflect
together, we grow as community.

One of favorite dj is tony Blackburn whose back on radio 2 at present guess you already know he playing oldies
tonite playlist will include

plan b;-prayin, Alice keys;- empire state of mind, flo ride;- club don’t like us.... lady ga ga

and some Paul oakenfield

... all this during the gym work
But before that we need to sit down and chat about behavior and boundaries
Difficult but really has to be addressed

When his beloved died.

Love this poem, but cannot find out where l got it from if you know tell me please.

when his beloved died

he thought he would just grow old
shutting himself in the house alone
with meanings and the mirror
that she had looked in one bright day

when his beloved died
he decided to grow old
and shut himself inside the empty house
alone with his memories of her
and the big sunny mirror
where she`d fixed her hair

Also this was next to the above poem

Now that she has left the room for a moment
to powder her nose.
We watch and wait for her to bring back the purpose into our lives.

Bad nites dream

l had a dream really bad, more like a nightmare!
it was about me dieing in my room, with a bomd the killer had left me with,
l started to go off to see people and got into trouble
however the killer caught me walking around my area chatting to others, and was annoyed l had not stayed at home.
So he stayed with me until the bomd went off
l woke up as we argued it felt . . . .REAL



favorite tracks at present Dolly Parton starting again love it
Plan B praying
Usher DJ`s got us fall in in luv
Flo rider clud don't know us
Method man the projects

real R`n`B feel apart from Dolly P and the country one, rest we play at the gym a lot
not doing so many gigs at present
feel like need to break away for a while
which l will be in 10 weeks time.

while you're waiting for moments that never come.

yesterday was so very gloomy
a mid winters day
after long drive
l treat myself to walk around Whitby
climbing the steps to St Marys
up to the abbey
and along whats called Khyber pass long winding round up to west cliff
fun. . . . tried to burn off those winter calories this weather enables one to put on!



just watched the wire series 5 for around the 3rd time the scripts are so well written Freamon:

A life, Jimmy, you know what that is? It's the sh*t that happens while you're waiting for moments that never come.

l will pray more for you

l will pray more for you.

l will pray more for you
l will pray more for you

God be my witness to this
l will pray more for you
l will pray more for you
l will pray more for you
God be my witness to this

Have not been so well.
If eat stuff as soon as can after cooking this will help.
Cooked meal on Sunday of 'left over chicken with rice' then felt really ill with stomach and head aches.
After bit of clear out?, return to yogurt in the morning am back on my feet today.
Thank s for those who enquired.
Back at the office same old, same old,some people make life difficult for others just by the fact they exist.
Their existence is a difficulty for others.
l know have to work with such people third hand.

Given myself food poisoning !

Given myself food poisoning !

that just the way it is tupac bruce hornsby

that just the way it is tupac bruce hornsby

type this in for more on those who want to change the shit called that just the way it is
am l sounding angry?

just the way they want it too be

Standing in line marking time--
Waiting for the welfare dime
'Cause they can't buy a job
The man in the silk suit hurries by
As he catches the poor old ladies' eyes
Just for fun he says "Get a job"

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

They say hey little boy you can't go
Where the others go
'Cause you don't look like they do
Said hey old man how can you stand
To think that way
Did you really think about it
Before you made the rules
He said, Son

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

Well they passed a law in '64
To give those who ain't got a little more
But it only goes so far
Because the law don't change another's mind
When all it sees at the hiring time
Is the line on the color bar

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

some things never change

that's just the way it is some things some truths some ethics never change

that just the way it is
and again the tide rolls in over the beach making that lovely noise
some things never change that juts the way its gonna ever be
till Jesus returns


Standing in line marking time--
Waiting for the welfare dime
'Cause they can't buy a job
The man in the silk suit hurries by
As he catches the poor old ladies' eyes
Just for fun he says "Get a job"

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

They say hey little boy you can't go
Where the others go
'Cause you don't look like they do
Said hey old man how can you stand
To think that way
Did you really think about it
Before you made the rules
He said, Son

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

Well they passed a law in '64
To give those who ain't got a little more
But it only goes so far
Because the law don't change another's mind
When all it sees at the hiring time
Is the line on the color bar

That's just the way it is
Some things will never change
That's just the way it is
But don't you believe them

Do you know the Pianos on my foot!

York version of the famous red settee in the, Baltimore programme the `wire`
a place where human young gather, plot, scheme, and chat.
People meet and enter dialogue.
ln the center of York, just placed here.
Modern street art!

Got us all exploring laughteRr social interaction, with other humans passing
looking forward to a group day out tomorrow.

god gave rock n roll to us

Only three per cent of the tracks in last year’s charts were from what people feel are rock acts.
but has rock evolved into something stranger then l Kevin or you recognise

After years of bands like Oasis, Arctic Monkeys, U2 and Coldplay dominating the Top 40. But in 2010, almost half of the top tracks were hip-hop, RnB, pop or dance such as Rihanna’s ,JAZZ Z KANYA WEST kls ETC...
Even the term r`N`b is not what l call soul compered to my own social education in the music l love and play

countdown

only got few months left and then outta country for a really long time
sometimes l feel vulnerable in different outta normal situation
choice comes soon that l have to travel long time outta Europe
although difficult l know got to go

hullcity subcity doesn`t excist oh yeah

HullCity underground

People say it doesn’t exist
‘Cause no one would like to admit
That there is a city underground
Where people live everyday
Off the waste and decay
Off the discards of their fellow man

Here in hullcity life is hard
We can’t receive any government relief
I’d like to please give Mr. President my honest regards
For disregarding me

They say there’s too much crime in these hull city streets
My sentiments exactly
Government and big business hold the purse strings
When I worked I worked in the factories
I’m at the mercy of the world
I guess I’m lucky to be alive

They say we’ve fallen through the cracks
They say the system works
But we won’t let it
Help
I guess they never stop to think
We might not just want handouts
But a way to make an honest living
Living this ain’t living

What did I do deserve this
Had my trust in god
Worked everyday of my life
Thought I had some guarantees
That’s what I thought
At least that’s what I thought

Last night I had another restless sleep
Wondering what tomorrow might bring
Last night I dreamed
A cold blue light was shining down on me
I screamed myself awake
Thought I must be dying
Thought I must be dying

are we heading for civil war

are we just going to take all of these taxes,
and acts of injustice?
the time to rise in the streets is near.
it a topic l have been vocal in discussing,
sharing
Many l move around have had experience of campaigning!
ls it time to protest and act against unjust measures?
greed of the bankers!

there is movement

.

it sounds like a whisper
here in hull city life is hard

here in the north life is shard


listen to what people are saying

sounds like a whisper

are the winters longer
l had a friend around last evening watched Doctor Who and chatted while we munched on polish sausage and cans of tango
it snowed again and felt very cold
was in hull chill factor very evident and bitter



visited few friends but everyone seams into winter hibernation
it is clear that the poorest are suffering most at present and council are hammering them tax ways
it is going to get ugly
l predict a riot
l really predict a riot

travelling away soon

this was taken last time l worked abroad in Dolj
the residents felt l could challenge Tony Blair
about own flooding and social enviroment
feelt dishonest stood listening full well knowing that l could not either do anything nor wanted to be involved
l was guest worker and thus was not in my remite
l did explain the situation and my limits.





l am off to work abroad in around 11 weeks time not sure how it going to work out
or even how profitable it will be but better then hanging around in a isolated English rural colliery
where the depression is both economic and geographically and spiritual

MY SUPERNATURAL TALENT.

Busy and tired today not sure why,
Had a big lunch with former line manager, soon l will be evacuating and going abroad for a full month.
Life needs to be more simple. Someday I will break down these walls that I built around me, systematically, step by step, brick by brick. Or maybe one day when I wake up the wall will cease to exist. My mind will destroy it simply, by the click of a button. Or even better, I will acquire supernatural powers to just walk through it without feeling any hurt or pain, without feeling anything at all.

lucky in work

Would not be able to cope working at sea or down the mines,
l perhaps have been a bit soft and lucky in my work roles as an example
l have been a tailor and even a youth worker
although long unsocial hours not been unhealthy profession's

my favorite films of 2010 MMX

UP ....Eveybodys fine...Once...the art of lying....

favorite artist....

best track..

number one Tychie S tryder

hope 4 2011

still wonder if you want to pick up the phone and ring
is from a song by lady anta bella

face of an angel in Malta and l could be going there soon 4 a very long time



face of an angel in Romania and l hope to visit anka again soon
but it colder there then here at present



this is how l like to see my girls
on the floor at home looking up to me
but whose are those smelly feet nearby
hope to see this lady again real soon