l only shave about one time a week.

tend not to worry about stuff as l feel it`s gonna happen.

cannot remember when last had early evening

got this thing about old cop TV progs like hill st blues and NYPD blue
think it got something to do with seeing justice done (? ? ? ? ?)

Still find the Bible relevant
Do not like Christian radio stations like premier

listening to Rascel flatts `here comes goodbye`+`my projects` from the WIRE,millie jackson `summer the first time`.

north yorkshire coast

have been away with the Church+fitness for life group to Whitby and local area
to see young people start sharing in such an environment is really useful and they are like so many of their generation,honest, warm, and fantastic to be among.
We adopted a palm person (open) approach to relationships and new experiences
not always easy but rewarding.

so life can be tough
people and God and relationship and community
about to leave on residential in north Yorkshire
more later feeling excited and precious it is such a responsibility.

the wire one of my favorite programmes they tackle tough situation it has a urban feel but shows how education, drug, sexual, violence ,faith, shattered life's, politics, are all connected.
Bob Dylan wrote steal a little and they put you in jail, steal a lot and they make you the king got that right

I am away lot at present and today has been mega long
heaven the life l sometimes live
thin line between heaven and here.

forgiven

today has been so hectic and l feel like have too much responsibility.
l upset someone by accident this week end playing a joke without knowing a family member was ill in hospital
this was not a deliberate act
but still feel guilty never the less
such feelings are what make us human
but they are not comfortable
if l have offended you forgive
if you offend myself
l forgive

thin line between heaven and here
Kevin Waller
the spirit of the streets

gigging

did an end of term school disco the last Tuesday
took JSCOTTJ with myself
we started with faithless God is a DJ
usher slow burner `in da club`moved in with the big current hot to slot
`number 1` nubuzz,
black eyed peas `boomboom pow pow`,
`beautiful` Akon,
soulaboy `say it down the phone`

the young kidz were really up for a good time and really pleasant and we played loads of other stuff MJ;-thriller, beat it, billie jean, and, smooth criminal.
along with power play of `my projects` fancied on the wire.
l really had a good feeling as the evening ended and it was real fantastic that Jordan got to see how hard dee jaying is!

what leaders should be able to do?

good leaders should be able to build sandcastles

go crabbing catch them with fishheads on an old line

should be able to sit in a cafe and share a pot of tea.

a good leader should be able to get a beach fire started after 22.00

summer 2009

l never really loved this country!
its people or our strange customs
the way we have sold ourselves to the devil with lack of morals
the weather!
how can we go for holidays in these conditions?
one moment it is heavy with massive hot but cloudy later same day its very wet cold and flooding everywhere.
l struggle with this?
Suppose expose myself with this but simply how l feel.

journey

had to do some stuff on my journey in life.
sometimes you do not know what journeys those nearest and next door to you in life have had?
my journey has been up and down but not best at sharing the challenges.
that what we call the tough stuff these days it appears dishonest...
being bullied by sexist crap at present ..can you believe that in this day and age some men still display semi naked pictures of girls with children around?
still..its true....

a good listening too!

somebody nicked one of my favorite expressions.
what the young need is a good listening too,there is real shortage of adults prepared to spend time sharing and letting young people talk,one of the triumphs of my life has been engaging with those who are on the edge,and feel disconnected.
when l was growing up at cottingham rd baptist church.
l never realised how many adults where involved with+blessed the life's of me and other young people attending youthie.So many expressed interest in how our life being journeyed.

struggle is universal and community continues.
among the shouts, stories, laments, is the music there are also signs of hope.
but the politics, and untruths are also obvious.
some words to describe myself at present!
tired;- done a lot recently.
hopeful;- presence of some people can bring hope to self and others.
frustrated;- older people annoy me yet l am one nearly.

hot sticky and stormy

the weather makes it hard to plan
sticky and very hot
then its stormy and the Sky's let it all down
still ice cream sales are up.
loving watching the wire series 5
planning with group of males this evening

music books and TV porgs

currently l am listening to a great piece of smooth jazz??
whyathul by gurrumul
it slow and refreshing
also rascal flatts sounds like goodbye
+stellios kanderious efgie efgie>
black eyed peas feels like funk
+lets get together again.by the glitter band takes me back (still )to summer 74favorite book at the moment, comic book version of hugo`s les miserables.
just got series 5 of the Wire.
oh lucky me, oh lucky me, oh lucky me.
a friend while he B.B.Q. fish spoke to me about how hard life is in UK in 2009.
l feel its not as dark as he described but it getting there.

Just can`t make up my mind whether its Millie Jackson or Bobby Goldsboro version of..

 summer the first time l prefer. 

Either way;-"it was a hot afternoon the last day in June and the sun was a demon".

Ten years have gone by

Since I looked in her eye

But the memory lingers

I go back in my mind

To the very first time

And feel the touch of her fingers

It was a hot afternoon

The last day of June

And the sun was a demon

The clouds were afraid

One-ten in the shade